Then came the red. Satan turned his skin red—the redness and fire bubbling with boils just below the epidermis, staining his skin a poker-hot crimson. The Monster added scales and hair and itchiness—the itchiness of invisible roaches or locusts crawling the length and breadth of Feydor's tortured body—but then, it wasn't completely Feydor's body anymore, now, was it?
Wetherbine had understood that much....
Satan sometimes came in the form of small insects or animals, staying outside Dorphmann's body, surrounding him like an army before a citadel. The siege might last for hours, a day, two days, their million beady eyes all trained on him, all like hissing black marbles, hissing a warning, all just watching him, studying him and his movements.
When he left his place, stepped out onto the sidewalk and walked down the street, there in San Francisco, going among other people, the insect army crawling over his body clung to him, shadowed him, but their spectral nature made them invisible to all others, so that when he lashed out at the insects, just to brush them from his brow, eyelashes, and mouth, people stared at him as if he were the Hunchback of Notre Dame. It was the constant vigilance of Satan's army of insect eyes that had broken Feydor. The way they moved everywhere with him, riding on him, in the folds of his skin, his pockets, in the cuffs of his pants. But now that had all changed since the moment Feydor had accepted Satan, the moment he had agreed to become Satan's hammer and breath in this world, the moment he had killed Wetherbine.
Feydor recalled it vividly, how Wetherbine pleaded, saying, “No, Feydor! You can't succumb!”
That was when Feydor's hidden knife came flashing down, driven by the force of Satan.
Sometimes the Devil came in the form of wind—sometimes a subtle wind that whispered through Dorphmann's soul; other times an angry storm—and sometimes in the form of an old hag in the middle of the night, and the old crone would wave a wand, and at the end of this wand trailing silver glitter, Feydor could see the souls of the damned, dangling as if on the head of a pin, all blazing in the inferno, all filled with excruciating, everlasting scalding, never-ending pain, swishing about in a soupy fire there at the end of the witch's wand. Then one of the old woman's eyes would literally leave its socket, wrench free of her head, and come straight down into his throat, her huge eye becoming his, so that he could see into his own frail insides, into Satan's invisible world of the dead, into the spirits of the everlasting cauldron called Hell, which was depicted as a cosmic stomach down through which they must journey.
It was a place he did not want to see or to visit, but the witch took him there often, and without speaking a word. The place made him tremble; he knew that this was his fate unless he could deliver up to Satan a far more suitable subject, one that Satan himself had made a worthwhile, chosen substitute. A woman named Coran, Dr. Jessica Coran....
“But I gave you Wetherbine,” he'd pleaded.
“I don't care about Wetherbine. I want Coran,” Satan declared.
The moment Feydor pushed open the door to room 1713, he felt a sudden surge of control. He was now in control. It was a feeling that had eluded him now for so many years.
It was the right time, the right place.
ONE
Scream like the devil's baby.
—Anonymous
“Says here Nevada's the seventh-largest state in the union,” John Thorpe told Jessica Coran, reading from his guidebook in an attempt to bring her from her doldrums. “Yet it has one of the smallest populations.”
The cab they were in almost hit another, their driver shouting an obscenity and blowing his horn, all for naught. Jessica imagined that half an hour from the clutter and clatter of downtown Vegas, all she might hear would be a desert wind howling across the uninhabited red earth, playing the sagebrush like so many lilting harps. She was wishing to be there, maybe in a Jeep, exploring the vast and strange and otherworldly wasteland of the arid West. Such a lark had to beat hell out of the casinos and the proposed series of dull talks on forensic medicine. If she wanted to return home with any lasting memories—she'd been told by those in the know that the real Nevada had nothing to do with the unreal surreal called Vegas—she'd take Warren Bishop up on his offer, and she'd escape Vegas for the surrounding mountains. However, ditching J.T. could prove hard, and she didn't want her friend's feelings hurt when she did it to him. So she'd told J.T. nothing and decided to bide her time; when the time was right... maybe...Warren Bishop knew the terrain, and she had always felt secure and safe in their friendship, which had, off and on, flirted with something more serious than just friends. Warren had been one of her training officers at Quantico when she'd first become an agent. He was a man who subtly got his way by making a recruit believe she was doing precisely what she, not he, wanted. He had a gift as a teacher, and no one knew firearms like Warren Bishop. Four years ago, he'd been offered any branch field office in the country, and he had chosen Vegas for reasons still unclear to her. He wasn't a big gambler, but he had fallen in love with the area, and he kept a wide collection of Wild West and American Indian paraphernalia, including old guns. She'd been looking forward to seeing Warren and rekindling their friendship. But a quick call from the airport to the Vegas FBI branch office told her that Bishop had been unexpectedly called out of town, so she was now nursing a funk that poor J.T. hadn't a clue about.
“Population 1,201,800, it says here,” J.T. continued, “but they say Vegas is growing by leaps and bounds, the fastest-growing city in America, a Mecca for jobs. Capital is—”
“Carson City, I know. Minimum age for casino gambling is twenty-one, driving sixteen.”
The cab ride was hot and jostling and bone-jarring, the machine obviously in need of new shocks, and the Nevada heat created an oven like atmosphere, making Jessica Coran wish that she had the natural protection God gave an armadillo. With her natural defenses up, she actually felt armored and apart from all that was going on around her, felt like an armored knight in woolen underwear riding a cantankerous horse, in fact. It had been a long and difficult flight on the Delta jetliner, due in large part to the scarcity of legroom. They'd booked late, failing any chance at first class, both she and J.T. not sure until the last minute that they wanted to attend this year's function.
“Las Vegas, Nevada, of all the damned places on the continent. Why is the most prestigious forensic medical group in the country meeting here?” Jessica grumbled to hear herself, adding for the driver's benefit, “You ever hear of air-conditioning? Crank that thing up.”
“I am so sorry, ma'am,” the man replied in his most polite, most condescending tone, “but it needs repair, and I'm putting three ninos through school, and my wife .. . she is on disability.”
This made Jessica frown and close her eyes. Beside her, J.T., whose lopsided, boyish grin leaped ahead of his reply, said, “If you'll just temper that cool, critical eye with a bit of patience, Jess, we're almost there. After a change, you're going to love Vegas. Wait'11 you get a look at the Luxor and the Excalibur and the MGM Grand hotels. You'll see Vegas is more than a collection of casinos along a strip, believe me.”
Although J.T. was in his early forties, his dark hair, smooth skin, and energetic step, along with a quick, alert eye and a great sense of humor as well as a questioning, probing mind, were all qualities that made him seem younger; Jessica liked these qualities in her friend and colleague. Together, they had made a “mean team” for the FBI over the years. J.T. was her ever-faithful friend and collaborator against some of America's most horrific criminals. As a result, they had shared information, experience, and sometimes nightmares regarding such killers as Mad Matthew Matisak, Robert Kowona, the Hawaiian maniac, the Florida Night Crawler, the Claw of New York, and the New Orleans Queen of Hearts killer.
It had been at J.T.'s insistence that she had agreed to accompany him to the annual Forensic Science Association of America convention, ostensibly to seek out some much- needed R and R for both of them. J.T. had been ecstatic at t
he idea of seeing Las Vegas again, having visited a few years before with his then wife, whom he'd since divorced.
“Some of my best memories are of this city,” he'd confided earlier on the plane as they circled the city in search of clearance from the tower. “My dad used to fly us out here at least once every few years.”
She had replied that her best memories were of Greece and Rome. The recent separation from her lover, James Parry, still felt like a barrage to her soul; she'd been unable to get him from her mind. Her depression over her and Jim's situation hovered over every thought like an albatross, for when Jim had once again left her for his homeland of Hawaii and his duties there, she had vowed to find a way for them to be together, but the way had not materialized....
Here in the limo, J.T. reached over, took her hand in his, and squeezed it; he gave her hand a firm little shake and pointed out the back window at a cowboy on a horse riding down one of the main thoroughfares, adding to the congestion of bumper-to-bumper traffic. “There's one cowboy's got the right idea,” he chimed, his voice firing off sparkles of enthusiasm for this Mecca on the desert floor.
Outside, in the blistering heat, construction sites all around them sent up strange, ghostlike clouds rising with the gusting, late-afternoon wind, each creating whirling dervishes of candy wrappers and discarded plastic bags and other debris. This would be trailed after by another, less encumbered, yellow dustbowl-like apparition made of sand and wind, yet the wind had no effect on the heat, except to slam it about.
“Come on, Jess. You'll have fun; maybe it'll get your mind off Parry and—”
“Leave Parry out of this,” she sternly scolded, her eyes dimming.
“—and your other problems,” he weakly finished. “Hell, cut loose a little, seize the moment, look around you! This place is a glitter dome at night! That's your problem. You haven't really experienced Vegas till you've experienced it by night, dinner clubs, shows, Broadway- tyle revues, dancing. You've got to give it a chance... loosen up....”
“Maybe I'll do that,” she challenged, staring out at the dust-laden streets of Las Vegas, across which desert sand continued to sweep from the multiple construction sites of this modern desert boomtown.
Odd, Jessica thought, how this place was growing both upward and outward: newer, taller, grander, gaudier casinos, show houses, hotels, and circuses being built in a city already overcrowded with so many casinos and lavish extravaganzas of one sort or another. There seemed no possible space nor need for another in this mechanized, industrialized contrivance of a holy temple to which the human race paid homage in the form of coin.
But Jessica's primary thoughts wafted across her own shabby life. She was sick to death at having had to part from James Parry again. Their time together in the Mediterranean had been exquisite, but far too brief. They had talked for days about how they could work out the thorny problems of their long-distance love affair, but very little had been resolved. Rather, they were more deeply in love than ever and just as far apart as ever—he in Hawaii, she in D.C.
Two people couldn't get much farther apart than that, and Jessica, of late, had come reluctantly, onerously to the conclusion that she would never marry; and more sadly, more impaling to her heart, she had come around to accepting the fact that life, and whatever forces attended her fate, had never intended her to ever have children.
It was a conclusion that, though necessary to reach, to put behind her, remained no less painful for its finality. It was what her friend and favorite psychiatrist, Dr. Donna Lemonte, would term a not atypical female reaction to an expected and even instinctive event—having children. Almost every woman's inner soul and drive allowed for that tugging refrain of the womb, a refrain that had come down through the ages, paradoxically or not, genetic predisposition or not, that told a woman she was incomplete until she fulfilled the circle of life that she—created as she was, with the requisite equipment—was so much a part of. Jessica knew such thoughts were offensive to some women who proclaimed they need not have children to be whole, but for her and she imagined most, these thoughts were as natural as tears. You're born to give birth, from life comes birth; you can't dispute the fact that it's in you to do so, that you are equipped to conceive, incubate, nurture, and feed a growing life within you. You're “bred” to believe it's part of your identity to have children, you're raised on the belief. So, naturally, most if not all women either had to have children or confront the phantom child they failed to bring from within: face down the guilt and remorse and move on in an atmosphere of acceptance or be eaten alive by the penitence of regret.
Religious leaders and theologians claimed that while it was a powerful and painful process, guilt was a good, natural instinct, without which mankind would have nothing to clutch on to in times of darkness and loss. There was the belief that it was one's own fault somehow when a loved one committed suicide, or that the loss of a family member to a fire or cancer or to some other disease was due to a punishment meted out by a god one had somehow wronged over a lifetime. It all seemed somewhat foolish to Jessica, knowing as she did that disease and suicidal tendencies and fire had scientific causes, that they were actually more natural in nature and in the species than was guilt. But in a larger, social sense, maybe the theologians were right.
Sure, science and technology outstripped human evolution, human growth potential, the brain, socialization, education, racism, prejudice, leaving cavemen with cave-dwelling beliefs and notions while allowing them easy access to automatic weapons, drugs and poisons, the information to make a bomb from items below his kitchen cabinet; but hey, so long as there remained guilt and remorse, what did it matter? Perhaps the theologians did know more about the heart and the soul of mankind than science could ever know. Without feelings of sin and remorse and guilt, we'd all be killers, she thought. And maybe if some of the serial killers she'd trapped and put away and destroyed over the years had harbored any sense of guilt whatsoever, they'd have controlled their psychotic fantasies and ended their mind-made killings before acting on such murderous desires.
Perhaps if such sociopaths could be injected with a hormone called guilt, they couldn't play the psychological games they played with authorities to please their bloodthirsty demons and gods. The worst kind of killer, a sociopath, lived without remorse and without guilt or guile or empathy or conscience. What manner of being was this to be created in God's image? Would science come to the answer somewhere along the DNA double helix before theology found an answer? Would there come a day when science could be tapped into to supply the guiltless with a dose of guilt, remorse, grief, caring, love?
Here in the bumpy cab—which the driver dared call a Vegas limo service—Jessica wondered about the old phrase, “Religion is the opiate of the people.” But certainly not all people; some appeared to require a more potent opiate. Men like Tauman, the Night Crawler of Florida. Men who relished torturing their victims required serious behavior modification if they were ever to feel the pain of their victims. Religion hardly amounted to a conscience.... In fact, some of the thrill-seeking, feel- something-anything murderers she had known claimed to have killed in the name of religion, usually a religion with a following of one. And, of course, Jesus Christ remained the number one cause of death among the dying who'd left this world “in the name of Christianity....”
Jessica was brought back to her present discomfort by a news report over the limo's scratchy radio, something about the recessing U.S. Senate. No surprise, she thought. The Senate was always out to lunch or recess. It took great reserves of talented men and women to catch elusive serial killers, to bring such monsters into the light of justice; but try to tell that to a Senate investigation committee looking into slashing the FBI's budget.
When their airport curbside limo came to a stop at the light, J.T. pointed out the famous Luxor Hotel and extravaganza. The lingering Nevada sun sent shards of light against its black glass surface, only to create an impenetrab
le image. Fascinating, more so than any of the steel and glass temples erected to the sky and the almighty dollar, its unusual size and pyramidal shape made it a marvel of human accomplishment and construction. It was the pyramid at Giza replanted here in the American desert. It was a stunning modem-day answer to the Egyptian pyramids, this answer to any of Hollywood's infamous, big- screen Babylons.
Like Vegas itself, it made for a stifling whore, this symbol of how far wealth and power were willing to go for the sake of more wealth and power. Audacious, grand beyond scale, and as gaudy and garish as all of convention- central Las Vegas's megacasinos combined. Like all of Vegas, the Luxor combined gargantuan themes and dreams of “epic” proportion with a crude commercialism possible only in America, a place where one casino's take in nickels alone on any given day might feed some Third World countries for a year.
But all J.T. saw was the grandeur of this architectural marvel, and all he could say was, “See what I mean? The city's desperate for a new image as a family-friendly place.”
She cynically nodded and replied, “Yeah... sure... And what kind of conference can we have, J.T., surrounded as we are on all sides by... by so much... temptation?”
“You, tempted?”
“No, not me... everyone else.”
“Oh, I see... everyone else. You're worried about everyone else... everyone but you.” He laughed and ran a hand through his thick mat of dark hair.
She frowned at his response. “What's so funny?”
“Jess, do you really think you're immune to gambling?”
“I do and I am....”
“So, you're just worried about everyone else in the forensic science community being able to abstain?”
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