by Mia Carson
“That is your place now, Matthias. Protect her at all costs. For all we know, if we do take any action against Dion and Agnes, it could lead to a much worse situation. I need to know Princess Daphne is well looked after,” Ambrose told him firmly. “You are dismissed.”
Matt nodded and pushed to his feet. “Sir, Princess Daphne… Should she be informed of this?”
Ambrose sat down heavily behind his desk, folding his hands on its surface, and frowned. “Let’s not add to her already large amount of worry. She’s occupied with her education reform, and the last thing I wish to do is distract her from that.”
“Yes, sir,” Matt said and ducked out the door.
He didn’t agree with the older man, and instead of going to his rooms for the rest of his day off, he walked down the long stretch of corridor and up into the main palace to look for Daphne. He assumed he would have to wait for her return from seeing the king and queen off, but when he found Jeremiah and Marie talking heatedly outside Daphne’s door, Matt’s worry rose and he walked quickly to them.
“Is something wrong?” he asked tensely. “Where’s Princess Daphne?”
“She’s inside,” Jeremiah told him briefly. “I’m not sure if you want to go in there.”
“He might be the only one she lets in,” Marie muttered, her eyes fixed on the door. “She wouldn’t even let me sit in there with her. Didn’t want anything either. Just to be left alone.”
Matt glanced at the closed doors, his brow furrowing as his hands twitched. “What happened while I was gone?”
Marie and Jeremiah exchanged a glance before the latter crossed his arms over his chest. “She went to see the king and queen before they left on their journey, and whatever was discussed wasn’t good. She stormed out on them and disappeared into her rooms.”
“How long ago was that?”
Jeremiah glanced at the watch on his wrist. “About eight hours ago.”
“She needs to eat something,” Marie said. “She needs to at least do that. Maybe a bottle of wine will get her to tell me what’s wrong.”
Matt stopped her with a touch to her arm. “There’s something else you both need to hear first,” he said. Ambrose said not to tell Daphne, but he didn’t say anything about anyone else. Quickly and quietly, he told the two about the conversation he overheard at the docks between Dion and Agnes. Marie cursed and her face turned a bright shade of red against her light hair, but it was Jeremiah’s suddenly fiery gaze that made Matt’s ire rise again too.
“He started those rumors? The bastard. I knew I should’ve decked him a long time ago,” Jeremiah muttered under his breath. “And Ambrose didn’t tell you anything about his plan?”
“Nothing,” Matt confirmed.
“You’re going to tell her, right?” Marie asked. “She needs to know what’s happening.”
Matt hesitated and glared down at the floor. “Yeah, I’ll tell her what she needs to know,” he said, thinking about what else he desperately needed to talk to her about. This relationship she thought they could have, which he’d promised he would give her no matter what, wasn’t plausible anymore. “Give me a few minutes, Marie, and I’ll see if I can convince her to eat.”
He faced down the doors, his fingers itching as they used to do before his more dangerous missions, and he knocked. When there was no answer, he announced himself and walked inside. One quick look around told him very quickly Daphne was worse off than they’d all thought.
“Jeremiah, Marie, you might want to see this,” he called over his shoulder as he walked farther into the room, his worry growing when he searched the whole area and bedroom with no sign of Daphne.
“Oh no,” Marie gasped and held her hand to her mouth. “Princess Daphne!”
“She’s not here,” Matt snapped. “How the hell did she get out of her rooms?”
Jeremiah hurried to the balcony and pushed open the doors. “Shit, she climbed up the trellis.”
“What?” Matt rushed to the balcony and looked at the trellis, similar to the other one she used at the opposite side of the palace. There were a few bent and broken vines. Someone had climbed it recently. He craned his neck and jumped up onto the railing. “I’ll bring her back down.”
“Just don’t piss her off any more,” Marie warned.
From his spot on the balcony railing, Matt could still see the trashed room Daphne left in her wake. The mirror was shattered, as were the lamps, the table was overturned, and the wardrobe completely emptied and strewn about. He wondered how Jeremiah hadn’t heard the destruction, and from the aggravated look on his face, so did he.
Matt wiped his hands on his jeans, glanced up one more time, and started the climb. This trellis was taller than the other one and took him high up the palace walls before he finally found a place to step off over the edge of the roof. He could see the entire island laid out before him and realized he’d reached the highest point of the palace roof. It was flat, thankfully, and standing at the other end was Daphne.
“Daphne?” he called out loudly.
Her shoulders flinched, but she didn’t turn around. “I said I wanted to be alone.”
“And you can be, back inside,” he assured her, moving slowly across the roof. “It’s going to get dark soon, and I’d prefer you not fall off the roof because you couldn’t see.”
She laughed sharply and whipped around. Her eyes were red and the irises lighter than he’d seen before. “Why not? What’s another tragic accident in the royal family? Maybe then my parents can find the heir they want and I’ll be free.”
Matt’s jaw clenched and he took another step. “Daphne, we can talk about what happened. Just come to me and we will go back inside.”
“Why should I? Nothing ever changes!”
“Daphne, get away from the edge of the roof,” he ordered.
“I said I wasn’t ready to go inside yet,” she snapped and turned back around. Her arms fell to her sides, and she squared her shoulders.
Matt’s stomach plummeted, watching her hair blow freely in the sea breeze. His nerves screamed at him to move, and he did before she could do something he’d never be able to live with. He wrapped his arms firmly around her waist and dragged her to the center of the roof, ignoring her angry fists hitting his arms.
“Put me down! I wasn’t going to jump,” she argued.
Angrily, he turned her around and gripped her shoulders hard, leaning down so they were at eye level. “I don’t give a damn,” he growled. “Don’t ever do that again, Daphne. We’re going back inside. Now.”
“You can’t tell me what to do.”
He took her hand and dragged her towards the trellis, fuming. “I’m your bodyguard, and I’m here to keep you safe. You’re coming with me or I’ll throw you over my shoulder and carry you down.”
“Matt, please… Just wait,” she said and yanked her hand free. “A few more minutes, alright?”
“Why? You can think just as easily in your room, away from high ledges,” he added tersely.
She managed to appear sheepish but didn’t apologize. “I think better up here. It’s not as confining. Five minutes, and I promise I’ll come willingly and we can talk.”
Some of his anger melted away, and his gaze drifted from hers. “Fine, five minutes.”
But Daphne didn’t move away. Instead, she stepped closer. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing. I said I’d give you your five minutes, and you’re wasting it,” he remarked, his tone light. Her eyes lightened more, and he knew she didn’t buy it.
“Matt, tell me. Is it… is it about last night?”
“We’ll talk about it later,” he said and hoped she would leave it at that. He should’ve known better.
“You’re regretting we slept together? Is that it?” she asked. The hurt in her words almost brought him to his knees, hating himself for what he was doing to her, but he had to think of her immediate safety. One day, she’d get over her hate of him.
Matt shook his head and turned his
back to her. “No, course not, but we both know what it was. Lust, pure and simple,” he said casually and hated himself for it.
“That’s not what you said last night,” she snapped and grabbed his arm to turn him around. “Matthias, look at me, you bastard.”
“There’s nothing for it, princess. I’m your bodyguard, and you’re royalty. It was one night and we need to leave it at that,” he told her firmly. Matt waited for her to lash out at him, but her face went blank—frighteningly blank. The instincts that always warned Matt when an enemy was near went on red alert as she stalked past him to the trellis.
“Are you coming or not?” she said quietly before climbing back down.
Matt had no other choice but to follow her back down to the balcony where Jeremiah and Marie waited. By the time his boots hit the stone, the women were in Daphne’s bedroom with the door shut.
“What happened up there?” Jeremiah asked.
“I’m not exactly sure,” Matt said with a sigh.
Jeremiah’s frown said that wasn’t entirely true, but he didn’t press Matt further. “Mind taking over the rest of the evening? I know it’s still technically your night off, but there are a few things I want to check on.”
“Sure, I have nowhere I need to be,” he said and ran a hand over his face.
Jeremiah patted him on the shoulder in thanks and left Matt in the living area, staring at the mess in the room. He called for a broom and dustpan, and once a servant dropped them off, set to work cleaning and telling himself this was the only way it could be.
***
Daphne leaned her head against the window and considered telling her parents they should just add bars to them all and be done with it. She knew that was a little overdramatic, but at the same time, all her hopes of a change happening were shattered. Up on the roof, right before Matt dragged her away, the thought of stepping out into nothingness had crossed her mind. She would never have done it, but the thought frightened her all the same.
How desperate was she becoming to get out of there? And allowing herself to think for one night that Matt had been serious about everything he’d told her… Daphne glared at her reflection in the window. It was all a joke, a horrible disgusting joke, and she was stuck like a damn puppet in the middle of it. Unable to be free. Unable to do anything except play her part.
“Did you hear me, Daphne?” Marie asked, and Daphne jumped. “You need to eat something. Please.”
“I told you I’m not hungry,” she replied and plopped down in the armchair in the corner. “Really, Marie, I’ll be fine. You can go.”
“I think I’ll stay a while longer,” Marie said brightly.
Daphne couldn’t help but grin. Marie was, after all, her friend, and she loved her for always being there when she needed someone to talk to. “I don’t know what to do.”
“With your parents or Matthias?”
Thinking of what Matt had said on the roof, Daphne glared at the far wall. “Both. Why would he say that? Why tell me he wanted it to be more and then act like what we shared last night meant absolutely nothing to him?”
Marie sighed and sat next to Daphne. “And this is why I wish you had more exposure to the menfolk.”
“I’ve had exposure,” she argued.
“Not with a man like Matthias you haven’t,” Marie corrected. “Listen, what he told you today, there’s a reason he’s trying to push you away.”
Daphne rolled her eyes. “No, there’s not, except that he’s a bastard.”
“Right then, and on that note, I’m going to run to the kitchens and bring you something to eat.”
“Wine, too?”
Marie grinned. “Several bottles of wine. Jeremiah is just outside the door if you need anything. Please don’t stay cooped up in your room all night, my lady.”
“Thanks, Marie,” Daphne told her with a smile, and once she was gone, she sank back into her chair, tapping her fingers on the arms. Staying in her room the entire time her parents were gone did seem childish, and she never threw tantrums. After a quick trip to the bathroom to wipe her face and pull her messed up hair back into a ponytail, she changed into jeans and a tank top and walked out of her bedroom.
When she spotted the dark head of hair on her couch and the clenched jaw, Daphne froze.
“Princess, how are you feeling?” Matt asked quietly.
“How am I feeling?” she repeated on a breath. “How am I feeling? That’s all you have to say to me? Where the hell is Jeremiah?”
“He had to take care of something,” he said shortly.
Daphne shook her head. “Course he did,” she muttered and really looked around her room. The shattered lamps, the glass, the overturned table… All of it was gone, and the floor had been cleaned. “Did you do this?” Matt nodded once. “You didn’t have to, and you can leave.”
“No, my job is to protect you, and that’s what I’m going to do,” he said, settling even deeper into the couch. “Even if it means from yourself.”
“Can you protect yourself from me?” She stalked across the room but steered well clear of the couch and him. “I should’ve known, should’ve seen right through your damn lies last night.” Her words were quiet as she gazed out the closed balcony doors, taking in the moonlight playing over the water.
With each white-capped wave she saw, her mind replayed the last few years of her life and the last conversation she’d had with the king and queen. Her life was planned out for her, every damn day of it, and she could only sit by and watch. Even with Matt, she didn’t get a choice. He made it for her, just like that, as if she didn’t matter.
But what about what Marie said, she argued with herself. Was he lying last night or lying on the roof?
Between Matt and learning what her parents had done to her, Daphne hit the end of her rope and words poured out of her mouth before she could even attempt to stop them. “You’re a coward,” she snapped, whirling around to glare at him.
“I’m a what?” Matt asked with a frown.
“You heard me. You’re a damn coward! You told me all those other women meant nothing to you, but the second you meet me and realize you could care for someone again, you run from it instead of facing it head on,” she bit out. “I saw it in your eyes last night. You can’t hide it, not from me.”
He shifted but didn’t get up. “I told you, we can’t let it go further.”
“Why not? And don’t give me that shit about me being a princess. That’s not why you’re doing this.”
“Just stop, Daphne,” he warned, his eyes darkening.
“No, I won’t! I’m tired of being pushed around and told what I can and can’t do! I’m goddamn tired of it!” Her hands curled into fists as she fought the urge to stomp her foot in anger. “I’m willing to take this risk and you—you’re just a damn coward!”
Matt was across the room in a blink and stood before her, his hands gripped tightly around her shoulders as he glared down at her. “Coward? You think I’m scared to let you see how I feel?”
Daphne’s body shivered with want, but she narrowed her eyes and jutted her chin out. “Yes, I do. You—” The kiss was fierce and would have knocked her off her feet if Matt hadn’t been holding onto her so hard. He crushed his lips to hers, claiming her mouth fiercely as their tongues danced around each other, fighting for dominance.
When he pulled back, Daphne sucked in a breath. “You can’t… can’t just kiss me like that…”
“Or what?” Matt asked and kissed her again, hotter than before. She groaned when his hands cupped her ass and he ground his hips against hers. She felt his need grow against her belly and nipped his lip.
“You really think you can stay away from me?” she whispered against his lips, her words rough from her anger. She dug her nails into his back, and he cursed when she pressed herself even harder against his body.
“If it would keep you safe,” he insisted.
“Stop being scared of this,” she told him. “I’m not.”
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p; “You should be.” He squeezed her rear tighter and rested his forehead against hers. “What we’re doing… It’s dangerous in more ways than you understand.” When she frowned, he sighed. “And yes, I’m scared as hell about what you do to me. Can you blame me?”
Daphne kissed his lips gently. “Why?” She searched his face for answers, and where she usually wouldn’t be able to read anything from his stoic face, several emotions flickered loud and clear back at her.
He wrapped his arms around her and she felt his holster at his side. “You are under my protection, Daphne. If I’m distracted at all by my emotions for you, it won’t end well.”
“So you’re going to toss me aside and act like last night meant nothing?” she accused him and pushed herself from his arms. “Damn it, Matt, my life’s always going to be in danger! I’m royalty. That’s how this world works, but I don’t want to lose out on whatever this is.”
“We don’t have a choice.”
“Yes, we do! Stop telling me I don’t have a choice! It’s my life, and I’m going to live it!” She stormed towards the balcony and threw the doors open.
“Where the hell are you going now?”
She glanced out over the city. “Out. I’m going out.”
“The hell you are,” he muttered and stalked towards her. “Daphne, you can’t go.”
“Says who, you? You have no control over me, and the king and queen are gone.”
“It’s not safe, damn it! Stop arguing with me and get back inside,” he growled. When he enveloped her in his arms, she aimed to slap him, but he caught her wrist. “It’s not safe! Do you hear me? Your cousin is out to get you!”
Daphne stilled instantly at his words. “What did you say?”
He released her and stepped back, running a twitching hand through his hair. “Just please, stay inside until we sort everything out.”
“First, my parents, then you, and now Dion,” she whispered, turning her back to Matt. “I give up. I’m done. I can’t… I can’t keep doing this and plaster a smile on my face.”
“Daphne? I’m sorry,” Matt told her.
But those two words were the last thing Daphne wanted to hear, especially when she knew he did care about her, saw it in his eyes no matter what he said, and wanted her just as badly as she needed him. “You’re not sorry. Not yet.”