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by Stephen King


  And it was about killing people; that’s what I was training for. The folks in Peoria didn’t talk about that all the time, but no one tried to sugarcoat it, either. I just had to remember the targets were bad guys, dictators and spies and serial killers, and as Mr. Sharpton said, people did it in wars all the time. Plus, it wasn’t personal. No guns, no knives, no garrotes. I’d never get blood splashed on me.

  Like I told you, I never saw Mr. Sharpton again—at least not yet, I haven’t—but I talked to him every day of the week I was in Peoria, and that eased the pain and strangeness considerably. Talking to him was like having someone put a cool cloth on your brow. He gave me his number the night we talked in his Mercedes, and told me to call him anytime. Even at three in the morning, if I was feeling upset. Once I did just that. I almost hung up on the second ring, because people may say call them anytime, even at three in the morning, but they don’t really expect you to do it. But I hung in there. I was homesick, yeah, but it was more than that. The place wasn’t what I had expected, exactly, and I wanted to tell Mr. Sharpton so. See how he took it, kind of.

  He answered on the third ring, and although he sounded sleepy (big surprise there, huh?), he didn’t sound at all pissed. I told him that some of the stuff they were doing was quite weird. The test with all the flashing lights, for example. They said it was a test for epilepsy, but—

  “I went to sleep right in the middle of it,” I said. “And when I woke up, I had a headache and it was hard to think. You know what I felt like? A file-cabinet after someone’s been rummaging through it.”

  “What’s your point, Dink?” Mr. Sharpton asked.

  “I think they hypnotized me,” I said.

  A brief pause. Then: “Maybe they did. Probably they did.”

  “But why? Why would they? I’m doing everything they ask, so why would they want to hypnotize me?”

  “I don’t know all their routines and protocols, but I suspect they’re programming you. Putting a lot of housekeeping stuff on the lower levels of your mind so they won’t have to junk up the conscious part … and maybe screw up your special ability, while they’re at it. Really no different than programming a computer’s hard disk, and no more sinister.”

  “But you don’t know for sure?”

  “No—as I say, training and testing are not my purview. But I’ll make some calls, and Dr. Wentworth will talk to you. It may even be that an apology is due. If that’s the case, Dink, you may be sure that it will be tendered. Our trannies are too rare and too valuable to be upset needlessly. Now, is there anything else?”

  I thought about it, then said no. I thanked him and hung up. It had been on the tip of my tongue to tell him I thought I’d been drugged, as well … given some sort of mood-elevator to help me through the worst of my homesickness, but in the end I decided not to bother him. It was three in the morning, after all, and if they had been giving me anything, it was probably for my own good.

  XII

  Dr. Wentworth came to see me the next day—he was the Big Kahuna—and he did apologize. He was perfectly nice about it, but he had a look, I don’t know, like maybe Mr. Sharpton had called him about two minutes after I hung up and gave him a hot reaming.

  Dr. Wentworth took me for a walk on the back lawn—green and rolling and damned near perfect there at the end of spring—and said he was sorry for not keeping me “up to speed.” The epilepsy test really was an epilepsy test, he said (and a CAT-scan, too), but since it induced a hypnotic state in most subjects, they usually took advantage of it to give certain “baseline instructions.” In my case, they were instructions about the computer programs I’d be using in Columbia City. Dr. Wentworth asked me if I had any other questions. I lied and said no.

  You probably think that’s weird, but it’s not. I mean, I had a long and sucky school career which ended three months short of graduation. I had teachers I liked as well as teachers I hated, but never one I entirely trusted. I was the kind of kid who always sat in the back of the room if the teacher’s seating-chart wasn’t alphabetical, and never took part in class discussions. I mostly said “Huh?” when I was called on, and wild horses wouldn’t have dragged a question out of me. Mr. Sharpton was the only guy I ever met who was able to get into where I lived, and ole Doc Wentworth with his bald head and sharp eyes behind his little rimless glasses was no Mr. Sharpton. I could imagine pigs flying south for the winter before I could imagine opening up to that dude, let alone crying on his shoulder.

  And fuck, I didn’t know what else to ask, anyway. A lot of the time I liked it in Peoria, and I was excited by the prospects ahead—new job, new house, new town. People were great to me in Peoria. Even the food was great—meatloaf, fried chicken, milkshakes, everything I liked. Okay, I didn’t like the diagnostic tests, those boogersnots you have to do with an IBM pencil, and sometimes I’d feel dopey, as if someone had put something in my mashed potatoes (or hyper, sometimes I’d feel that way, too), and there were other times—at least two—when I was pretty sure I’d been hypnotized again. But so what? I mean, was any of it a big deal after you’d been chased around a supermarket parking lot by a maniac who was laughing and making race-car noises and trying to run you over with a shopping cart?

  XIII

  I had one more talk on the phone with Mr. Sharpton that I suppose I should mention. That was just a day before my second airplane ride, the one that took me to Columbia City, where a guy was waiting with the keys to my new house. By then I knew about the cleaners, and the basic money-rule—start every week broke, end every week broke— and I knew who to call locally if I had a problem. (Any big problem and I call Mr. Sharpton, who is technically my “control.”) I had maps, a list of restaurants, directions to the cinema complex and the mall. I had a line on everything but the most important thing of all.

  “Mr. Sharpton, I don’t know what to do,” I said. I was talking to him on the phone just outside the caff. There was a phone in my room, but by then I was too nervous to sit down, let alone lie on my bed. If they were still putting shit in my food, it sure wasn’t working that day.

  “I can’t help you there, Dink,” he said, calm as ever. “So solly, Cholly.”

  “What do you mean? You’ve got to help me! You recruited me, for jeepers’ sake!”

  “Let me give you a hypothetical case. Suppose I’m the President of a well-endowed college. Do you know what well-endowed means?”

  “Lots of bucks. I’m not stupid, I told you that.”

  “So you did—I apologize. Anyhow, let’s say that I, President Sharpton, use some of my school’s plentiful bucks to hire a great novelist as the writer-in-residence, or a great pianist to teach music. Would that entitle me to tell the novelist what to write, or the pianist what to compose?”

  “Probably not.”

  “Absolutely not. But let’s say it did. If I told the novelist, ‘Write a comedy about Betsy Ross screwing around with George Washington in Gay Paree,’ do you think he could do it?”

  I got laughing. I couldn’t help it. Mr. Sharpton’s just got a vibe about him, somehow.

  “Maybe,” I said. “Especially if you whipped a bonus on the guy.”

  “Okay, but even if he held his nose and cranked it out, it would likely be a very bad novel. Because creative people aren’t always in charge. And when they do their best work, they’re hardly ever in charge. They’re just sort of rolling along with their eyes shut, yelling Wheeeee.”

  “What’s all that got to do with me? Listen, Mr. Sharpton—when I try to imagine what I’m going to do in Columbia City, all I see is a great big blank. Help people, you said. Make the world a better place. Get rid of the Skippers. All that sounds great, except I don’t know how to do it!”

  “You will,” he said. “When the time comes, you will.”

  “You said Wentworth and his guys would focus my talent. Sharpen it. Mostly what they did was give me a bunch of stupid tests and make me feel like I was back in school. Is it all in my subconscious? Is it all on the hard
disk?”

  “Trust me, Dink,” he said. “Trust me, and trust yourself.”

  So I did. I have. But just lately, things haven’t been so good. Not so good at all.

  That goddam Neff—all the bad stuff started with him. I wish I’d never seen his picture. And if I had to see a picture, I wish I’d seen one where he wasn’t smiling.

  XIV

  My first week in Columbia City, I did nothing. I mean absolutely zilch. I didn’t even go to the movies. When the cleaners came, I just went to the park and sat on a bench and felt like the whole world was watching me. When it came time to get rid of my extra money on Thursday, I ended up shredding better than fifty dollars in the garbage disposal. And doing that was new to me then, remember. Talk about feeling weird—man, you don’t have a clue. While I was standing there, listening to the motor under the sink grinding away, I kept thinking about Ma. If Ma had been there to see what I was doing, she would have probably run me through with a butcherknife to make me stop. That was a dozen twenty-number Bingo games (or two dozen cover-alls) going straight down the kitchen pig.

  I slept like shit that week. Every now and then I’d go to the little study—I didn’t want to, but my feet would drag me there. Like they say murderers always return to the scenes of their crimes, I guess. Anyway, I’d stand there in the doorway and look at the dark computer screen, at the Global Village modem, and I’d just sweat with guilt and embarrassment and fear. Even the way the desk was so neat and clean, without a single paper or note on it, made me sweat. I could just about hear the walls muttering stuff like “Nah, nothing going on in here” and “Who’s this turkey, the cableinstaller?”

  I had nightmares. In one of them, the doorbell rings and when I open it, Mr. Sharpton’s there. He’s got a pair of handcuffs. “Put out your wrists, Dink,” he says. “We thought you were a tranny, but obviously we were wrong. Sometimes it happens.”

  “No, I am,” I say. “I am a tranny, I just need a little more time to get acclimated. I’ve never been away from home before, remember.”

  “You’ve had five years,” he goes.

  I’m stunned. I can’t believe it. But part of me knows it’s true. It feels like days, but it’s really been five fucking years, and I haven’t turned on the computer in the little study a single time. If not for the cleaners, the desk it sits on would be six inches deep in dust.

  “Hold out your hands, Dink. Stop making this hard on both of us.”

  “I won’t,” I say, “and you can’t make me.”

  He looks behind him then, and who should come up the steps but Skipper Brannigan. He is wearing his red nylon tunic, only now TRANSCORP is sewn on it instead of SUPR SAVR. He looks pale but otherwise okay. Not dead is what I mean. “You thought you did something to me, but you didn’t,” Skipper says. “You couldn’t do anything to anyone. You’re just a hippie waste.”

  “I’m going to put these cuffs on him,” Mr. Sharpton says to Skipper. “If he gives me any trouble, run him over with a shopping cart.”

  “Totally eventual,” Skipper says, and I wake up half out of my bed and on the floor, screaming.

  XV

  Then, about ten days after I moved in, I had another kind of dream. I don’t remember what it was, but it must have been a good one, because when I woke up, I was smiling. I could feel it on my face, a big, happy smile. It was like when I woke up with the idea about Mrs. Bukowski’s dog. Almost exactly like that.

  I pulled on a pair of jeans and went into the study. I turned on the computer and opened the window marked TOOLS. There was a program in there called DINKY’S NOTEBOOK. I went right to it, and all my symbols were there—circles, triangles, japps, mirks, rhomboids, bews, smims, fouders, hundreds more. Thousands more. Maybe millions more. It’s sort of like Mr. Sharpton said: a new world, and I’m on the coastline of the first continent.

  All I know is that all at once it was there for me, I had a great big Macintosh computer to work with instead of a little piece of pink chalk, and all I had to do was type the words for the symbols and the symbols would appear. I was jacked to the max. I mean my God. It was like a river of fire burning in the middle of my head. I wrote, I called up symbols, I used the mouse to drag everything where it was supposed to be. And when it was done, I had a letter. One of the special letters.

  But a letter to who?

  A letter to where?

  Then I realized it didn’t matter. Make a few minor customizing touches, and there were many people the letter could go to … although this one had been written for a man rather than a woman. I don’t know how I knew that; I just did. I decided to start with Cincinnati, only because Cincinnati was the first city to come into my mind. It could as easily have been Zurich, Switzerland, or Waterville, Maine.

  I tried to open a TOOLS program titled DINKYMAIL. Before the computer would let me in there, it prompted me to wake up my modem. Once the modem was running, the computer wanted a 312 area code. 312’s Chicago, and I imagine that, as far as the phone company is concerned, my compu-calls all come from TransCorp’s headquarters. I didn’t care one way or another; that was their business. I had found my business and was taking care of it.

  With the modem awake and linked to Chicago, the computer flashed

  DINKYMAIL READY.

  I clicked on LOCALE. I’d been in the study almost three hours by then, with only one break to take a quick piss, and I could smell myself, sweating and stinking like a monkey in a greenhouse. I didn’t mind. I liked the smell. I was having the time of my life. I was fucking delirious.

  I typed CINCINNATI and hit EXECUTE.

  NO LISTINGS CINCINNATI

  the computer said. Okay, not a problem. Try Columbus—closer to home, anyway. And yes, folks! We have a Bingo.

  TWO LISTINGS COLUMBUS

  There were two telephone numbers. I clicked on the top one, curious and a little afraid of what might pop out. But it wasn’t a dossier, a profile, or—God forbid—a photograph. There was one single word:

  MUFFIN.

  Say what?

  But then I knew. Muffin was Mr. Columbus’s pet. Very likely a cat. I called up my special letter again, transposed two symbols and deleted a third. Then I added MUFFIN to the top, with an arrow pointing down. There. Perfect.

  Did I wonder who Muffin’s owner was, or what he had done to warrant TransCorp’s attention, or exactly what was going to happen to him? I did not. The idea that my conditioning at Peoria might have been partially responsible for this disinterest never crossed my mind, either. I was doing my thing, that was all. Just doing my thing, and as happy as a clam at high tide.

  I called the number on the screen. I had the computer’s speaker on, but there was no hello, only the screechy mating-call of another computer. Just as well, really. Life’s easier when you subtract the human element. Then it’s like that movie, Twelve O’Clock High, cruising over Berlin in your trusty B-25, looking through your trusty Norden bombsight and waiting for just the right moment to push your trusty button. You might see smokestacks, or factory roofs, but no people. The guys who dropped the bombs from their B-25s didn’t have to hear the screams of mothers whose children had just been reduced to guts, and I didn’t even have to hear anyone say hello. A very good deal.

  After a little bit, I turned off the speaker anyway. I found it distracting.

  MODEM FOUND,

  the computer flashed, and then

  SEARCH FOR E-MAIL ADDRESS Y/N.

  I typed Y and waited. This time the wait was longer. I think the computer was going back to Chicago again, and getting what it needed to unlock the e-mail address of Mr. Columbus. Still, it was less than thirty seconds before the computer was right back at me with

  E-MAIL ADDRESS FOUND

  SEND DINKYMAIL Y/N.

  I typed Y with absolutely no hesitation. The computer flashed

  SENDING DINKYMAIL

  and then

  DINKYMAIL SENT.

  That was all. No fireworks.

  I wonder what happened
to Muffin, though. You know. After.

  XVI

  That night I called Mr. Sharpton and said, “I’m working.”

  “That’s good, Dink. Great news. Feel better?” Calm as ever. Mr. Sharpton is like the weather in Tahiti.

  “Yeah,” I said. The fact was, I felt blissful. It was the best day of my life. Doubts or no doubts, worries or no worries, I still say that. The most eventual day of my life. It was like a river of fire in my head, a fucking river of fire, can you get that? “Do you feel better, Mr. Sharpton? Relieved?”

  “I’m happy for you, but I can’t say I’m relieved, because—”

  “—you were never worried in the first place.”

  “Got it in one,” he said.

  “Everything’s eventual, in other words.”

  He laughed at that. He always laughs when I say that. “That’s right, Dink. Everything’s eventual.”

  “Mr. Sharpton?”

  “Yes?”

  “E-mail’s not exactly private, you know. Anybody who’s really dedicated can hack into it.”

  “Part of what you send is a suggestion that the recipient delete the message from all files, is it not?”

  “Yes, but I can’t absolutely guarantee that he’ll do it. Or she.”

  “Even if they don’t, nothing can happen to someone else who chances on such a message, am I correct? Because it’s … personalized.”

  “Well, it might give someone a headache, but that would be about all.”

  “And the communication itself would look like so much gibberish.”

  “Or a code.”

  He laughed heartily at that. “Let them try to break it, Dinky, eh? Just let them try!”

 

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