by J. D. Robb
She’d done her duty, hadn’t she? Done it without complaint. It was long past time for compensation. She programmed the number.
“I want my share,” she said in a hiss when she heard the voice answer. “The police were just here, asking questions. I didn’t tell them anything. But I might next time. I might just have a few things to say to Lieutenant Dallas of the NYPSD that would perk her ears up. I want my share, Cassandra,” she repeated, attacking a faint smudge on the counter with a tattered disinfectant rag. “I earned it.”
chapter fifteen
Dear Comrade,
We are Cassandra.
We are loyal.
I trust you have received and are pleased with the latest progress reports transmitted to your location. The next steps of our plan are under way. Much like the chess games we used to play on those long, quiet nights, pawns are sacrificed for the queen.
At this time there is a small matter I would ask you to take care of for us, as our time is limited and our concentration must remain focused on the events unfolding. Timing over the next few days is vital.
Attached is the data you will require to arrange an execution long overdue. This is a matter we had hoped to handle ourselves at a future date, but circumstances require its implementation immediately.
There is no cause for concern.
We must keep this transmission brief. Remember us at tonight’s rally. Speak our name.
We are Cassandra.
Zeke stayed in the apartment all day, afraid if he so much as stepped out to the corner deli for tofu, Clarissa would call, and berating himself for forgetting to give her the number of his pocket ’link.
He kept himself busy. There were a dozen minor chores and repairs around the apartment his sister had neglected. He cleared the kitchen drain, repaired the drip, sanded the bedroom door and window sashes so that they no longer stuck, dealt with the temperamental light switch in the bathroom.
If he’d thought of it, he would have bought a few kits and upgraded her lighting system. He made a note to do so before he returned to Arizona.
If there was time. If he and Clarissa weren’t on a transport west that night.
Why didn’t she call?
When he caught himself staring at the ’link, he moved into the kitchen and concentrated on the recycler. He took it apart, cleaned it, put it back together again.
Then he stared into space, imagining what it would be like when he took Clarissa home.
There was no question his family would welcome her. Even if it hadn’t been part of the Free-Age dogma to offer shelter and comfort to any in need, without questions or strings, he knew the hearts of those who had raised him. They were open and generous.
Still, he knew his mother’s eyes were sharp, and would see his feelings no matter what he did to hide them. And he knew she wouldn’t approve of his romantic involvement with Clarissa.
He could hear his mother’s counsel as if she were in the room with him now.
She has to heal, Zeke. She needs the time and space to find what’s inside her. No one can know their heart when it’s so badly injured. Step aside and be her friend. You’ve no right to more than that. Neither does she.
He knew his mother would be right to say those things. Just as he knew no matter how hard he might try to follow her advice, he was already too deeply in love to turn around.
But he’d be careful with Clarissa, gentle, treat her the way she should be treated. He’d coax her into therapy so she could find her self-worth again, introduce her to his family so that she could see what family was meant to be.
He would be patient.
And when she was steady again, he would make love with her, sweetly, softly, so she would understand the beauty between a man and a woman and forget the pain and fear.
She was so full of fear. The bruises on the flesh would heal, but he knew those on the heart, on the soul, could spread and fester and ache. For that alone he wanted Branson to pay. It shamed him to crave retribution; it was against everything he’d come to believe. But even as he struggled to concentrate only on Clarissa, on how she would bloom away from the city—like a desert flower—his blood called out for justice.
He wanted to see Branson in a cage, alone, afraid. Wanted to hear him cry out for mercy as Clarissa had cried.
He told himself it was useless to wish it, that Branson’s life would mean nothing to Clarissa’s happiness and recovery once she was away from him. His Free-Ager’s belief that each should move toward their own destiny without interference, that man’s insistence on judging and punishing his fellows only hampered their rise to the next plane, was sorely tested.
He knew he’d already judged B. Donald Branson, and that he wanted him punished. A part of himself Zeke hadn’t known existed craved to mete out that punishment.
He fought to bury it, to erase it, but his hands were clenched into fists as he looked toward the ’link once again and willed Clarissa to call.
When it beeped, he jolted, stared, then leaped on it. “Yes, hello.”
“Zeke.” Clarissa’s face filled the screen. There were tears drying on her cheeks, but she curved her lips into a trembling smile. “Please come.”
His heart sprang to his throat, swelled. “I’m on my way.”
Peabody itched for the final team meeting of the day to be over. The fact was, she admitted, she just itched. Period. McNab sat across the conference table, sending her an occasional wink and bumping his foot against hers as if to remind her of what was going to happen if they could ever get the hell out of Central.
As if she could forget.
She had a couple of bad moments, wondering if she’d lost her mind, if she should call it off. It was torture trying to concentrate on the work.
“If we’re lucky,” Eve was saying as she paced the room, “Lamont will make a move tonight, try for some contact. We have two tails on him. My impression of Monica Rowan is that she’s a basic whack, but I instructed Peabody to put in the request to tap her home and porta-links. Ordinarily, I don’t think we’d get it, but the governor’s jumpy, and he’ll put pressure on the judge.”
She paused a moment, dipped her hands into her pockets. It always unnerved her to bring up Roarke’s name in official business. “Added to that, I have some hope that Roarke will gather some evidence from inside Autotron, without putting Lamont any more on alert.”
“If it’s there,” Feeney said with a nod, “he’ll find it.”
“Yeah, well, I’ll be checking in with him shortly. McNab?”
“What?” He was caught in the middle of another wink at Peabody, coughed wildly. “Ah, sorry. Yes, sir?”
“You developing a tic or something?”
“Tic?” He looked anywhere but at Peabody, who was struggling to turn a laughing snort into a sneeze. “No, Lieutenant.”
“Then maybe you’d entertain us with your report.”
“My report?” How the hell was a guy supposed to think straight when the blood kept insisting on draining out of his head and into his lap? “After contacting Roarke with your request for a long-range scanner, I took Driscol from E and B to the lab at Trojan Securities. At that time we met with Roarke and his lab manager. They demonstrated a scanner currently in development. Man, oh man, it’s a beauty, Lieutenant.”
Warming up, he leaned forward. “It can scan, triangulate, and scope through six inches of steel with a range of five hundred yards. Driscol nearly wet his pants.”
“We can leave out Driscol’s bladder problems,” Eve said dryly. “Is the equipment developed enough for use?”
“They haven’t done the fine tuning, but yeah. It’s more sensitive and powerful than anything we have available through NYPSD. Roarke put a round-the-clock in manufacturing. We can have four of them, maybe five, by tomorrow.”
“Anne, will that be enough?”
“If the units are as sensitive as Driscol reported—and I’m pretty sure he did wet his pants—it’ll go a long way. I’ve had teams doing
scans on arenas and sports complexes all day. We haven’t found anything, but it’s slow work. I’m short of men with so many assigned to the Plaza site.”
“Our problem is time,” Eve put in. “If Cassandra sticks to the timetable used by the Apollo group, we’ve got a couple of days. But we can’t count on that. At this point, we’ve got everything in place we can have in place. I suggest everyone go home, try to get a decent night’s sleep, and be ready to kick back into gear in the morning.”
Peabody and McNab sprang up immediately, making Eve eye them balefully. “Bladder problems?”
“I . . . I need to call my brother,” Peabody said.
“Me, too. I mean . . .” McNab laughed nervously. “I’ve got a call to make.”
“Just remember, you’re on call until this is over.” She shook her head as they hurried out. “What’s with those two lately?”
“I didn’t see anything, I don’t know anything.” Feeney got to his feet. “That warrant comes through, I’ll arrange the tap.”
“See what anything?” she demanded, but he was already heading out. “Something’s weird around here.”
“We’re all wired.” Anne got to her feet. “And, oh joy, it’s my turn to put dinner on the table. See you in the morning, Dallas.”
“Yeah.” Absently, Eve picked up her jacket, and alone, turned to study the boards one last time.
McNab’s apartment was three blocks away. They took it at a fast clip with the wind directly in their faces and the beginnings of an icy rain pricking their skin.
“Here’s how it’s going to be,” Peabody began. She had to take control from the get-go, she’d decided, to avoid any chance of disaster.
“I’ve got a pretty good idea how it’s going to be.” Once they were far enough away from Central, he patted a hand on her butt.
“This is a one-time deal.” Though she liked his hand where it was, she knocked it aside. “We go to your place, we do it, and it’s done. Then that’s it, that’s all. We get back to the way things were.”
“Fine.” At that point, he’d have agreed to strip naked and walk on his hands through Times Square just to get her out of that uniform.
“I’m calling my brother.” She pulled her palm-link out of her pocket. “To tell him I’ll be a little late.”
“Tell him you’ll be a lot late.” With that suggestion, he bit her ear and pulled her into the skinny lobby of his building.
Heat washed through her, nearly as annoying as it was arousing. “He’s not home yet. Keep out of range, will you? I don’t want my brother knowing I’m stopping off for a bounce on a bony EDD guy.”
Grinning, McNab stepped back. “You’ve got a real strong romantic streak, She-Body.”
“Shut up. Zeke,” she continued when her ’link clicked to message. “I’m running a little late. Guess you are, too. I should be home in an hour . . .”
She trailed off as, still grinning, McNab held up two fingers.
“Or so. We’ll go out to this club I think you’ll like, if you’re up for it. I’ll call back when I’m on my way home.”
She tucked the ’link away as they stepped into the creaky elevator. “Let’s make this quick, McNab. I don’t want him wondering where I am.”
“Okay. Then let’s get started right now.” He grabbed her, had her up against the wall and his mouth fused on hers before she could squeak.
“Hey, wait.” Her eyes crossed when his teeth closed over the cord in her neck. “Is this a secured elevator?”
“I’m EDD.” He had fast hands and they were busy dragging open the buttons of her overcoat. “Would I live in an unsecured building?”
“Then cut it out. Wait. This isn’t even legal.”
He could feel her heart thudding, feel the frantic beat of it under his hand. “Screw it.” He turned, jabbed the controls to stop the car between floors.
“What the hell are you doing?”
“We’re about to live out one of my top ten fantasies.” From his pocket he took a minitool kit, and went to work on the security panel.
“In here? In here?” Just the thought of it had the blood swimming wildly in her head. “Do you know how many city ordinances you’re breaking?”
“We’ll arrest each other after.” God, his hands weren’t steady. Who’d have thought it? But he grunted in satisfaction when the light on the security camera overhead went blank. He deactivated the alarm system, tossed the tools in the corner, and swung around to her.
“McNab, this is insane.”
“I know.” He jerked his coat off, flung it aside.
“I like it.”
He grabbed her again, grinned. “I thought you would.”
Ice slicked the streets and sidewalks by the time Zeke finished fighting traffic and arrived at the Branson townhouse. It fell in thin, bitter needles and shimmered in the streetlights.
He thought of the baking heat of home, the strong, clean sunlight. And of how Clarissa would heal there.
She answered the door herself. Her face was pale and showed the ravages of tears. Her hand shook, just a little, as she reached for his. “You took so long.”
“I’m sorry.” She’d left her hair down, in a soft wave he wanted to press his face against. “This weather’s slowed everything down. I don’t know how anyone lives here.”
“I don’t want to. Not anymore.” She closed the door, leaned back against it. “I’m scared, Zeke, and I’m so tired of being scared.”
“You don’t have to be anymore.” Gently, swamped with love, he framed her face in his hands. “No one’s going to hurt you again. I’ll take care of you.”
“I know.” She closed her eyes. “I think I knew, the minute I met you, that my life was going to change.” She lifted her hands to his wrists. “You’re cold. Come in by the fire.”
“I want to take you out of here, Clarissa.”
“Yes, and I . . . I’m ready to go.” Still, she walked into the parlor, close to the fire, shivering a little. “I packed a bag. It’s upstairs. I don’t even remember what I put in it.” She drew a breath, leaned back into him when Zeke laid his hands on her shoulders. “I left a note for B. D. When he gets home tomorrow and reads it . . . I don’t know what he’ll do, Zeke. I don’t know what he’s capable of, and I’m afraid of what I’ve done by putting you between us.”
“I want to be between you.” He turned her to face him, his eyes quietly intense on hers. “I want to help you.”
She pressed her lips together. “Because you feel sorry for me.”
“Because I love you.”
Tears glistened in her eyes again, shimmering like dew on wild violets. “I love you, Zeke. It seems impossible, incredible that I could feel like this. But I do. It’s as if I’d been waiting for you.” Her arms slipped around his waist, her mouth tilted toward his. “As if I could get through anything, survive anything, because I had to wait for you.”
His mouth moved softly over hers, to soothe and to promise. When she laid her head against his heart, he drew her closer and simply held her.
“I’ll get your bag.” He brushed his lips over her hair. “And we’ll go away from here.”
“Yes.” She looked up at him, smiled. “Yes, we’ll go away from here. Hurry, Zeke.”
“Get your coat. It’s cold.”
He walked out, up the steps. Now his heart began to pound. She was going with him. She loved him. And it was a miracle. He found the suitcase on the bed, saw the envelope addressed to her husband propped on the pillow.
That had taken courage, he thought. One day she’d understand how much courage she had inside her.
He was halfway down the steps again when he heard her scream.
Propped in a corner of the elevator, mostly naked, Peabody struggled for air. McNab had his face buried against her throat with his breath whistling like her mother’s old teakettle.
They’d pulled, tugged, and torn at each other’s clothes, bit, groped, and bruised each other’s flesh. Then had finish
ed the job exactly where they stood.
It had been, Peabody admitted as her brain began to engage again, the most incredible experience of her life.
“Jesus.” His lips formed the word against her throat and had her pulse picking up speed again. “Jesus, Peabody.”
He didn’t think he could move if she’d stuck a stunner in his ear. Her body—oh my God—her body was amazing: ripe and lush, the kind a man could just sink into. If he could manage to get them both horizontal, he wanted to do just that. Maybe drown there.
She had her arms locked around him. Couldn’t quite make herself let go. Just as she couldn’t quite remember what they’d done or how they’d managed it. The last ten minutes were a whirling blur, a sexual haze. A quick walk through insanity.
“We’ve got to get out of here.”
“Yeah.” But he nuzzled at her neck another moment in a gesture she found scary and sweet. Then he stepped back, blinked, and stared at her. His gaze skimmed down, up, then made the trip again. “God, you look great.”
She knew it was ridiculous. Her bra was hanging off one shoulder by one strap. She still had one uniform sock and shoe on, with her trousers caught on the ankle. She wasn’t sure where her panties were, but thought they’d probably been torn to pieces.
And the two dozen ab crunches she suffered through every day still hadn’t flattened her belly.
Despite it, she felt the sly feminine thrill slide up her spine at the approval in his voice and the heat in his eyes. “You look okay, too.”
He was thin, she could nearly count his ribs, and his stomach was flat as a board. Normally, that would have annoyed her. But just now, looking at him, seeing his long blond hair tousled, and the goosebumps starting to pop out on his skin from the chill in the elevator, she found herself grinning.
He grinned back. “I’m not done yet.”
“Good. Neither am I.”
Zeke raced down the stairs with Clarissa’s suitcase tumbling after him. He burst into the parlor to see her sprawled on the floor, one hand holding her cheek. Through her splayed fingers an ugly red mark stood out against her skin.