“Have confidence in my abilities or yours?”
Hallie shrugged.
“I do. Yours and mine. You have overcome so much in your short life that the only thing you can do is succeed.”
“Thank you. I do value your help and guidance. I’m not always appreciative and can be a downright pain in the arse. But you sticking with me means a whole hell of a lot.”
“You’re welcome. You remind me a lot of myself in my younger years,” Natalie revealed. “Things weren’t always easy for me either, granted you had it a lot harder than me. But we’re fighters, you and I, and we will get through this together. I’m not going anywhere. Have faith in that.”
Hallie’s eyes filled with tears and spilled over on her cheeks. Her slender shoulders shook as she cried. Natalie jumped up and hugged Hallie tight, her arms reaching around protectively and instinctively. She rocked Hallie, comforting the teenager in such raw pain. How long had it been for Hallie to have someone show affection for her? It had been Natalie’s experience that the hospital nurses weren’t the nurturing types and her heart ached. She wanted to shower Hallie with all the love the girl should’ve gotten from her parents.
As she soothed Hallie, Natalie looked down again at the picture Hallie had drawn. It was of her parents. Ian and Missy Walker were all smiles and Natalie could see much of Hallie in Ian. She clearly favoured her father.
Natalie soon found herself staring down at the picture, her eyes narrowed and her mind elsewhere. She thought of other drawings done in black crayon. Her brow furrowed as she fought to find something locked within her mind, something she had noted and filed away for further assessment at a later date. When it suddenly came to her she wondered why she hadn’t thought of it before.
“Who is Helen Teller?”
Hallie drew away and looked at the picture Natalie held.
“I don’t know. Why?”
“Because you drew her grave once, long ago,” Natalie answered.
She opened the file containing Hallie’s Paradise Valley information that Matt had given her and retrieved the drawings and laid them out for Hallie to see.
Hallie sucked in a breath at the vivid and detailed sketches. Even done in black and white it was hard not to see the blood clearly depicted on the paper. She reached out and flicked through them tentatively, studying each piece as if she’d never seen them before.
“I drew these? I don’t remember,” she said. “They look so horrible, so terrifying.”
“These pictures are nothing but your subconscious trying to make sense of what happened. It’s therapeutic. The first step in healing.”
Hallie nodded and reached the last picture and stared down at the grave.
“Helen Teller,” she read and frowned. “I really don’t remember drawing this and I don’t know a Helen Teller. Do you think maybe she was a friend of my parents?”
“It’s more than possible.”
“I’m sorry. If it’s inside my head, it’s locked away far enough that I can’t retrieve it.”
Natalie smiled reassuringly and squeezed her shoulder. “It’s all right. I’ll have Matt, Detective Murphy, look into it. If Helen Teller lived, he’ll find her and what she meant to you and your parents,” Natalie vowed and Hallie smirked. “What?”
“Matt, huh? Do you have a thing for our detective, Doctor?” Hallie asked as only a teenager could.
“I don’t think it’s appropriate for us to be discussing this,” Natalie told her, hoping to close the conversation.
“So, can I take that as a yes? He’s quite good looking, isn’t he? I believe the word is ‘hunk,’” Hallie said with a devilish smile and a twinkle in her eye.
“Yes, the word is ‘hunk,’” Natalie conceded and realised she enjoyed talking to Hallie this way. The anger and rage was gone and a jesting, smiling girl emerged. It was a glorious sight to see. So this was Hallie Walker, the real Hallie Walker, and Natalie was glad. She was a pleasure to finally meet.
“You should go for him. Life is too short to hang back. Believe me. If anyone should know, I do.”
A knock on the door startled Natalie and she and Hallie turned towards it.
***
Matt entered the room and stopped when he caught sight of the identical looks gracing the two beautiful faces in front of him. He became even more intrigued as they both flushed. They were up to something. Both women wore expressions he’d seen often enough on his mother and sister’s faces. He guessed they’d been discussing him and he wondered at the context.
“Detective Murphy, please join us,” Natalie said as she sat back down in her seat. Gone was the surprised and guilty look, her face now serene and professional.
“Thank you.”
He took the empty seat beside her and felt her leg pressed against his. He’d had some very vivid dreams about those legs. He hadn’t been able to get her out of his mind and after last night he felt closer to her than ever. Closer than he had any other woman. He hadn’t felt so relaxed since the start of the investigation and that was because of her. He was surprised at how easy it had been to talk to her about everything. He’d enjoyed listening to her talk and laugh and even when she had sounded so tired, he hadn’t wanted to suggest they hang up.
He’d been with women before, but none held a candle to Natalie. He wasn’t sure why he felt so drawn to her, only that he did. She made him feel weak and strong at the same time. He forced away all thoughts of Natalie, which was extremely difficult as her floral perfume—a combination of vanilla and gardenias—tickled his nose as he sat so close to her. Close enough that should he stretch out his hand out, he could lay it on her thigh. He squeezed his eyes shut against imagining how it would feel. He clenched his jaw and thought about what he was doing there. When he opened them again he was composed.
“How is the case going?” Hallie asked. “I’m really sorry I wasn’t able to help.”
Matt stared at her across the table. He was amazed at the transformation. Hallie looked better than she had the last time they had spoken. She was still a waif, her blue uniform practically swallowing her whole but she seemed freer somehow—happier. She had gone from angry and hostile to relatively calm and agreeable. She looked like the typical teen despite the serious golden eyes. He doubted she would ever be carefree but no longer were they filled with fear or annoyance. He felt a rush of pride at her ability to bounce back. He had always been in awe of her. She showed such resilience. If he ever had a daughter, he hoped she shared the same characteristics.
“You needn’t be sorry. In fact I’m the one who should be apologising. I should’ve found him by now,” he answered.
“It’s hardly your fault,” Natalie mollified. “This man has made it his mission in life to disappear, to hide from authorities.”
“His teeth were white, extremely white. I remember thinking it odd at the time,” Hallie said softly.
Matt turned to face Hallie. Her eyes were focused inwards as she spoke, not seeing him or Natalie at the table. He froze, not daring to breathe in fear he would disrupt whatever was playing inside her head. Five years ago, when she had first given the police a description, she had been generic at best. Her youth hadn’t allowed her to be very detailed. This is what he had hoped to discover, and the reason he had enlisted Natalie’s expertise.
“His clothes, they were old and worn and his hair long. Longer than yours, Detective, but not by much. Those white teeth, they were sharp. Almost like a vampire’s, these ones.” Hallie reached up and touched her canines. “I think he also had a twitch or something. His mouth curled slightly to one side.”
She looked over at them. “I’ve never seen him in my mind since that night, not awake anyway, and in my dreams he’s always been a shadow. A faceless man.”
“You’re remembering. That’s good,” Natalie encouraged.
“Do you remember which side?” Matt asked.
“It would be his right. No, his left.” She threw up her hands. “I don’t know. I’m sorry.�
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“You did great. I’m proud of you, kiddo,” Matt told her and he saw something flicker in her eyes.
“He’ll never stop. Not until he’s dead.”
“No, he won’t,” Natalie agreed. “But neither will Detective Murphy.”
Matt shot her a look. She sounded so confident in his abilities. Hallie glanced from Natalie to him then back at Natalie.
“I’ll give it a go. I can’t guarantee when. I’ll have to fortify myself before I try, but I will try,” Hallie told them.
Matt mentally shook his head. The Director had told him Hallie Walker was the most uncooperative and troublesome adolescent he’d had the unfortunate job of caring for. But looking at Hallie now, he thought the Director must’ve been talking about another girl.
He followed Natalie out of the room and together they walked back down the hallway in comfortable silence.
As they returned the visitors passes, the nurse spoke. “I’ve never seen her respond as she has with you. Whatever you’re doing, keep it up because it’s working.”
“I intend to. By the way, I left a file with her. I would prefer you not take it from her. I would like for Hallie to confront her past, to accept it and hopefully heal. The file is rather graphic but I believe she can deal with them.”
The nurse nodded. “Of course. I’ll let the others know.”
“Thank you. I would also like to start her on Prazosin and a mild anti-depressant. Can you please have the administrator sign off? If Hallie refuses to take them, just tell her I asked for them to be prescribed.”
“Very well.”
“I’ll discuss the dosage at a later date with the administrator once I see how she goes,” Natalie told the nurse.
Matt was sufficiently in awe. He had just witnessed Doctor Miller in action and she had been magnificent.
He walked her to her Prius. He had purposely parked next to her for that reason. Her long, shapely legs walked confidently in her heels and her hips swayed enticingly. His pants were suddenly tight and uncomfortable so he raised his stare from her arse and sped up to walk beside her.
Was he just sex deprived or was it something more? Natalie was an attractive woman but then so were many others, and he didn’t feel this pull towards them. He was determined to find out. But after the case was closed. He may break the rules occasionally when warranted, but he didn’t just for the heck of it, although he was sorely tempted to. He gave Natalie a covert glance. Oh yes, he was more than just a little tempted. There wasn’t a single thing he didn’t like about her, but he especially liked her good humour and the way she looked at him as if she too was struggling with desire.
“Would you like to grab some food while we discuss the case?” he asked, feeling another hunger start in his belly. “How much time do you have?”
Natalie glanced at the watch that graced her delicate wrist. “My next appointment is at four so we have plenty of time.”
He liked the sound of that. “Follow me?”
Natalie smiled as she opened the door to her car. “Anytime.”
Matt went hard in a rush. Damn, but she did turn him on.
Chapter 12
Natalie parallel parked beside Matt’s police issued Holden Commodore outside a small seventies era building on Alcott. An obscure sign indicated it was Tanner’s Bar and Grill. She had never heard of it and wouldn’t have known it was there if she hadn’t been directly in front of it.
She met Matt on the sidewalk and he opened the door for her. Natalie stepped through the opening and stopped to take in her surroundings. Tanner’s wasn’t going to make any reviews in the Harbour Bay Tribute. A bar was situated to the left and several flat screen TVs hung on the wall, showing various sporting events. An ATM was wedged between two doors which she assumed were the toilets from the stick figure images on each door. The right side of the room was lined with several booths and a few two seater tables were placed sporadically around the floor for those not wishing to sit at a booth or the bar.
Despite the mid-day hour, the bar was packed with men in uniform. Tanner’s was apparently a cop’s hangout which explained why she’d never heard of it. Not that she went out regularly but she often heard about the restaurants in town in the elevator on the way to her office and filed away the names of the ones that received good reviews for when she didn’t feel up to microwaving and could pick up dinner on the way home.
“We can go somewhere else if you’d like,” Matt said as she took in the bar.
Natalie turned to him and smiled. “No, this is fine. Let’s get a booth.”
She followed Matt towards the back of the bar to one of the last remaining booths. He nodded to several people as he passed and they reciprocated, giving her a quick scrutinising look before turning back to their drinks and sporting events.
Soft music played on hidden speakers before being drowned in a cheer that rose from the men milling around the bar. Natalie stumbled and let out a sound as she started to fall. Matt adroitly spun around and caught her easily before she fell to the rough, sticky floor.
“Are you all right?” he asked and she shivered, the heat of his hands on her body causing her a delicious chill.
Natalie nodded and looked down at her bare foot then back a few paces to where her blue pump—that matched her blouse—remained. Matt followed her gaze then bent to pick up her heel which had been glued to the floor by something she stepped in. He glanced at her and gave her a sheepish smile before he lifted her leg gently. Natalie caught hold of his shoulder to keep her balance as, like Prince Charming, he slipped the shoe on her foot.
Natalie felt the burn of his hand on her leg and desperately wanted him to slide his hand under her skirt. Her breath caught in her throat as her mind was overrun by erotic thoughts. She blinked to clear her vision and blushed when he looked at her questioningly.
“Thank you.”
He smiled, the dimple in his cheek showing. How she wanted to kiss that dimple, the man and his entire body.
“You’re welcome. Take a seat. I’ll go order. What would you like?”
Natalie slipped into the nearest booth, all the while chastising herself and her wayward thoughts. She was no Cinderella and while this man was delicious, he was not someone she could fool around with. Could she?
Natalie grabbed the folded laminated menu from where it had been propped up between the salt and pepper shakers and perused the list while silently willing her heart to quit beating so fast.
“Chicken burger with fries and tomato sauce,” she told him.
“No salad?” he joked.
“I already have a round figure with meat on my bones so I doubt it would matter much,” she muttered, then glanced up to find him staring at her in surprise. “Sorry. Something one of my patients said.”
He gave her a slow once over that made her blood boil and she let out a breath.
“You don’t have to worry. It’s all in the right places,” Matt told her. “What would you like to drink?”
She forced herself to speak. “House wine will be fine.”
One drink certainly wasn’t going to affect her mental capacity and if she was survive the next hour or so with him on the opposite side of the booth she would need some fortification.
“I’ll be right back.”
Matt moved off to the bar. She watched him speak with a few people he knew for a moment, then retrieved the file out of her tote bag and placed it on the table, cautious of wet spots or sticky substances on the scarred wood.
She had missed him, she realised. It was crazy but after last night something had changed in their relationship. What that was, she had no idea. Somewhere between favourite all-time album and his most embarrassing moment, the tone had changed and now she was wondering where that left them. Beyond the professional and dipping a toe into the personal, testing the waters. But was that all they would be?
She knew he was attracted to her. The heat in his eyes told her that and she was definitely feeling attraction towards hi
m. Was it possible to move forward and go somewhere deeper? More intimate? She hoped so. Obviously they would have to wait. The circumstances of their meeting and the cases they were working on were the priority. There would be time afterwards to explore the possibilities. Although, truth be told, she wasn’t sure she could wait that long. He had seriously messed with her hormones.
Natalie tore her thoughts and her stare away from Matt and took another glance around. The bar, despite its grungy appearance, had a nice ambience. It wouldn’t have been her first or second pick, but she knew better than anyone not to judge a book by its cover. The smells emanating from the kitchen made her stomach growl and she was thankful no one was around to hear it. She had only had a coffee and banana for breakfast and was glad Matt had asked her for lunch otherwise she was sure she wouldn’t have had anything other than the protein bar that was in her desk drawer.
A minute later, Matt returned and set the wine glass down in front of her.
“Our orders will be done in about five minutes,” he informed her as he sat and took a sip from his own glass. It looked like coke and she couldn’t smell any of the J’s—Jim, Johnny or Jack—and had been served in an official Coca-Cola branded glass.
“On the clock,” he said, and Natalie realised she must have been staring intently at the glass.
“When you’re not on the clock, what do you drink?”
“A beer now and again. Whisky when it’s been that kind of a day.”
For some reason, the idea of him drinking didn’t scare her as it would if he had been anyone else. She trusted him, which surprised her. Trusted him to keep her safe and that was a big thing for her. The revelation was startling and telling.
“I can’t imagine what you see day in and day out.”
He shrugged. “It’s not all bad. Thankfully, murders are few and far between. There are still car accidents which can be brutal, and domestic violence. They always leave a foul taste in my mouth.”
She could well imagine those scenarios. Blood. Bruises. Tears. Pain.
“How long have you been a cop?”
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