by Mary Hughes
“But if it didn’t malfunction, that leaves…”
A growl came from the other male’s chest, reassuring Luke. It meant Julian was finally considering the option.
“Yes. Sabotage.”
“But who? No one has access to the controls except me, my lieutenants and Mr. Hinz.”
“Mr. Hinz and Nikos have been with you from the beginning. Blackmail to get their compliance is possible, but I wouldn’t think it likely. What about Reece?”
“No,” Julian said. “He’s a teenager so I make sure I know where he is every second of the day. He’s been nowhere near the alarm console. I’m sorry, I simply don’t see how it can be anything but a malfunction. No matter what you both say.”
Luke left feeling frustrated. He knew Emerson was wrong and he was right, but had no proof, and frankly nothing to convince anyone but logic—and it was difficult to argue convincingly when he had a raging hard-on that pulled all the blood from his brain.
This continued desire for Alexis was confusing. Sure, vampires were highly sexed creatures, fucking anyone at any time—until they were mated to their one-and-only. Vampires mated forever. He’d had a mate, still had a mate though he mourned her, marking time until he joined her in final death.
He returned to his room and nearly walked out again. It smelled of Alexis, of her sweet arousal and satisfaction, and her hair, like traipsing through the fields of his youth, plucking ripe wild strawberries, biting into juicy sweet fruit…
Before Adelaide. Before he’d learned what a miserable protector he was.
Clasping his head in clawed hands, he slumped on the bed. That answered that, didn’t it? He couldn’t ever get truly involved with Alexis, no matter how much his dick might say otherwise, because he couldn’t protect her.
Chapter Six
I stomped through the townhouse looking for Julian, but when a sullen teenager started following me around, I decided I was behaving less like a logical, respectable physician and more like an axe-murdering zombie, and I beat a strategic retreat. Besides, my cousin, or actually my second cousin, lived here in Julian’s household. If she caught me, I’d never hear the end of it. I left to get a good night’s sleep. I’d argue more tomorrow. After that orgasm, I’d certainly be sleeping soundly.
Okay, okay. The real reason was, Luke’s mind-blowing orgasm made me as argumentative as a cooked noodle.
I walked the few feet to the townhouse where we were staying… I caught my mental slip and damned Julian for planting doubt in my mind. Our townhouse. Definitely time to regroup, on more than one front. But when I got there, a light was on behind the drawn living room curtains, and I knew I wasn’t going to get the chance.
Lizelle was up.
With a sigh, I stopped outside. My best friend since childhood would want to know what had happened. I didn’t want to tell her.
I was afraid it might trigger her running back to her husband for help.
Maybe she’d had enough of his abuse, and certainly she was no longer in the pro-John-Umbras camp, but that didn’t stop him from offering her money and the trappings of security and other stuff to try to suck her back in.
But I couldn’t not say anything because she’d see through any fake calm. After AP Psych and Communications 101, she’d considered herself a psychology major even though she never made it past her freshman year. It did give her academic validation for exploring the muck of my issues, though she loved doing that even as a kid.
A curtain twitched aside. Lizelle’s narrow face confronted me—along with a shaking index finger. Busted.
She let the curtain drop to fling open the front door. Slender to the point of skinny, blue-veined porcelain skin and fine red hair, Lizelle looked fragile, and sometimes she was, especially around her husband. But she could also be pretty darn tough, like now.
“You look awful.” She grabbed my wrist and dragged me inside. “Tea. Now.”
Tea was a bad sign. It was her gentle, irresistible way of getting to the bottom of things. And with me, she knew exactly where to dig. All my secrets were vulnerable. My only hope was for her to fall asleep before I blurted every last detail.
“Wine?” I said hopefully.
“We drank it all after you zeroed your bank account to secure this place.”
“Oh yeah. Beer?”
Lizelle smiled. “This is Meiers Corners. Of course there’s beer.”
“Gott sei Dank.” Even if alcohol didn’t make her sleepy, it would make hemorrhaging my secrets less painful for me.
She led the way. I dragged after her into the old kitchen with its cracked linoleum and vinyl wallpaper. She went straight to the chest-style freezer to get the beer glasses.
While I squirted the lime juice we liked in the bottom of the glasses, she pulled cans from the slope-shouldered refrigerator that had once been white but, through decades of repeated scrubbings, was now a mottled gray. The Grand Plan called for buying institutional appliances and new furnishings when I actually owned the place, but until then we got Mr. Crahn’s basics from 1950. I’d talked him into letting us stay here when I put the earnest money down, unorthodox, but I’d sold him on the place being safer if not left empty—and then sweetened the deal by adding several thousand dollars for a security deposit. Not conventional, but nothing was in Meiers Corners, and a little extra cash never hurt. Anything to keep Lizelle from Umbras’s clutches.
John Umbras. I snapped the cap back on the lime juice with more force than needed, thinking about the manipulative bastard. He could sweet-talk Lizelle into anything, including coaxing her within fist range. She needed a home away from his sphere of influence, and since he had tendrils throughout Chicago, the only place I knew she’d be safe was here.
Lizelle was a strong, vital woman—except with him. The sooner she divorced him, the better. Though I’d managed to talk her into an order of protection, he kept calling her, saying he deserved to see his daughter. Anybody else she’d have told him to suck eggs and promptly called the cops to enforce the OOP, but he had a golden tongue and played all her insecurities like a Steinway. Hell, sometimes even I almost believed him. It was harder for her to deny him because he’d always paid the bills and never, ever laid a hand on his child.
Which reminded me. “Where’s Una?” Una was Lizelle’s twelve-year-old daughter.
“In bed. It’s after midnight. What kind of mom do you think I am?” She rested the cans on the thick oak table, popped them one at a time and poured, the glug-glug and hiss of carbonation waking my taste buds.
I put a placating hand on her shoulder. “The best.”
She accepted my tacit apology by handing me the first frosty glass. “Sit. Was it work, or whatever happened after work?”
“How do you know something happened?” I slid into one of the comfortably worn matching oak chairs.
She took the chair next to me, crossing her legs. She said the casual position helped people be more at ease, but I knew she did it to make me let my guard down.
“You steamed into the yard with your power-walk, which you only do when you’re determined to act but have no idea what to do. Not only did you power-walk in, you look half-bewildered, half-riled, and half-mindblown—”
“That’s too many halves.”
“I’m talking.” One chiding eyebrow rose, coolly admonishing me to silence. She could’ve sold that eyebrow as both a deterrent and an industrial lie detector. “In the ER, you’re the epitome of competence and calm. Everywhere else you’re hell on wheels with a plan. So when you blow in here an hour late, your cheeks glowing, your hair mussed and your eyes dreamy, then hard, then dreamy again, you’re not going to bed until I get the skinny. All of it. Spill.”
I drank beer to cover rapid thinking…good beer. No, thinking. I didn’t want to bring up Julian salivating over our townhouses, so Luke might be a good diversion. Besides, it was just sex, ri
ght? A natural urge. Straightforward, easy to talk about.
Suuuuure it was. “I met this guy at the hospital. Blond, uncle to the patient, a little girl. He’s an identical twin to the father, actually. Did you know the twin gene is on the X chromosome, and therefore only expresses through the mother?”
“Yes. And I also know that only applies to fraternal twins, not identical. Which means you’re avoiding.”
“Me?” I blinked with as much innocence as I could muster.
The eyebrow warned I wasn’t getting away with it. “Glowing cheeks and dreamy eyes say more than ‘met someone’. That rapidly reddening face practically screams ‘got lucky’.”
I touched an automatic hand to my cheek; it did feel hot. “Yes, all right, he gave me an orgasm.”
“He gave you more than an orgasm. That dreamy flushed look? You’ve met The One.”
“Ridiculous. It was only sex. Never gave him a second thought after.”
“Oh, please,” Lizelle said. “That play-acting ‘I’m not swooning over a guy’ was cute when we were in middle school, but really, Alexis. At your age?” Her theatrical, long-suffering tone meant she was teasing me, taking the sting out.
“Hey,” I teased back. “What’s wrong with my age? It’s your age too.”
“Yes, but I’ve already had my kid. You’re a risky pregnancy waiting to happen.”
“You’re just jealous that I’m single, successful and old enough to know exactly what I want and go after it.”
“Another way of saying you’re an old maid.”
“No, you are.”
“No, you.”
“I know you are, but what am I?”
She raised both brows, her argument ender trump.
I simply shook my head with a smile. “Did you really know all that from just my face?”
“Some of it. But I’ll admit Dolly might have called to confirm an appointment, and we might have talked.”
“Oh?” I said cautiously. Dolly Barton’s Curl Up and Dye salon was Meiers Corners’ gossip Grand Central. Dolly, a seventy-year-old platinum-blonde dynamo, looked exactly like the country singer except older and shorter. Like a Dolly Parton Mini-Me. She knew everything that went on, sometimes even before it happened. The Oracle at Delphi would have rejected Dolly’s job application as overqualified.
Sure enough, Lizelle went on, “She said you were seen with a blond hunk, and that she was pretty sure the hunk was Luke Steel. He’s also called ‘The Untouchable Steel’ and usually has three or four bikini babes at a time in exotic locales like jumbo jet restrooms and kinky clubs. Since you’re neither the ménage nor the bathroom-blowjob sort, I want to know exactly what’s going on.”
“I had a long night, Lizelle. Can I give details tomorrow?”
“Sure,” she said, shocking me, until she added, “Oh, by the way. Pharmaceutical magnate Giuseppe Marrone left a message on our voicemail, saying he didn’t mean to upset you about Julian. What’s that about?”
I think my jaw must’ve hit the table. What did Marrone want now, and why couldn’t he leave me alone? I opened my mouth to give her a half-truth.
“Nope. Try again.” One eyebrow raised.
“Damn. I hate it when you do that. Okay. Julian—”
“Nope.”
This time I got both Eyebrows O’ Truth.
“Fine. Julian thinks he wants our townhouses.”
“Your townhouses, and why not let him have them?”
“B-because…” Damn. I hadn’t told her my plan to open a shelter, passing off buying the pair of buildings as a place for us to live plus rental income. I was hoping to eventually get her involved enough in the shelter to coax her into an MSW program—those things make you lay your Scheiβ bare dealing with your issues, and she’d never fall prey to Umbras’s manipulation again—but I had to ease her into it. “Because I put in earnest money. We’re living here. They’re as good as ours.” I knocked back the rest of my beer and stood. “In fact, I’m going to put in a couple more hours painting before bed.”
“Alexis, wait.” Lizelle put up both hands. “You’re tired and not going to bed? Avoidance, bestie dear. Admit it, you’re frantically painting and planning to cover up the fact that these townhouses aren’t yours, not yet. Classic counting your chickens before they’re hatched.”
Wannabe psych majors. You had to love them—or they’d diagnose you. “I’m not counting my chickens.”
She arched that damned eyebrow. “I’m hearing clucking. I’m telling you this in all best-friendhood. We really don’t want to go up against Julian Emerson. If he wants these townhouses, let’s find someplace else.”
“The plan is for this place—”
“Couldn’t you change the plan?” she said.
Words failed me. I stood there with my mouth in flytrap mode.
“I have an idea.” Her gaze twitched away. “I know you don’t like it, but John has money. I could contact him—”
“No.” That kicked my jaw back into gear. Anything but her estranged husband.
Umbras seemed like an ideal mate—money, stability and huge shoulders, like he could easily carry the weight of the world, much less one woman and family. Almost as broad as Luke’s shoulders… But the real story was in Umbras’s thighs and calves, spindly, like he’d skipped all his leg days at the gym. That was his psyche in a nutshell. He had all the outward appearance of power but none of the inner strength.
“He’s smart,” Lizelle said as if following my thoughts. “Strong.”
But undisciplined, and dangerous exactly because he was undisciplined. He’d support her financially while undermining her emotionally. “He used his strength against you.”
“Yes, but he didn’t mean it. And he’s changed. The times I’ve talked to him on the phone—don’t worry, I shut him down unless it’s about Una—but, well, he’s really different now, you know? More…substantial.”
She had to know, deep inside, that she was making excuses for him. Maybe a defense mechanism to cover the place inside her that was still raw and bleeding, so she didn’t have to rehash even for a moment how wrong what happened to her was. But it meant if I continued to push, she’d start pushing back.
Instead I took it back to the basics. “Okay, fine. But he’ll offer that place of his in Chicago, and it’s not nearly as solid and safe. This place doubles as a tornado shelter, did you know that? C’mon, Lizelle, we can’t give up on here. Meiers Corners is a Mayberry of a town where everyone knows everyone else.” Translation: domestic abusers coming to town would stick out—but it was still half an hour from world-class medical care. “Besides, the rent would kill us.”
“John could get us a deal on the rent.” She held up her hand, stopping my tirade before I knew it was coming. “Just consider it, okay? Or consider another place—”
“You don’t get it.” I clenched my hands. How did I convince her without playing the master-vampire-next-door trump? “The location is perfect. Right next door to the ultimate safety.”
“What, an ethical lawyer?” Up went the eyebrow. “Julian isn’t going to be much help or protection if he’s pissed at us.” She paused. “If it’s the money—”
“It isn’t.”
“But if it’s the money…really, John can help. I know I left him for good reason. Only…he was such an excellent provider. Besides, Una misses him. And if we need the money—”
“We don’t,” I repeated, even though we did. But what we needed more was for her to get a taste of our new life, one where she could make her own choices, without fear, where together our work would have meaning.
That would all go down the toilet if she fell back on old behaviors, on the financial safety he represented.
And if she went back to him for me, I’d never get over the guilt.
“I have a plan, and it’s a good one.” I though
t of my building renovation plans, safely rolled away in the cupboard, several pages of blueprints.
Well, I called them blueprints, though they were really my copy of the remodeling design, printed out on thin engineering paper. But the paper, cool and slightly rough like concrete, felt substantial. More, the plans were in ink. There was reason for that. Ink was permanent.
It firmed my resolve. “We are not changing the plan.”
“So stubborn.” She shook her head and made a face that was part annoyed, part affection, part resignation. “It’s because of your family of origin.”
This was what you got when someone who knew your childhood got Freud. Just because Mom hand-decorated special Christmas wish-list notebooks each year didn’t mean I equated planning with love. But Lizelle could shine her psychological light into the murkiest depths of my psyche because she knew exactly where the basement steps were.
A phone started tweedling.
“Hey, is that my cell phone ringing?” I thought it was my salvation. With a “one minute?” finger and plea for permission in my gaze, I pulled out my phone. Taking Lizelle’s eye roll as leave, I answered. “Byornsson.”
“My dear,” Marrone’s oily purr coated the airwaves. “I have another proposition.”
Yeah, salvation had a funny, flaming-pits look to it. I snapped, “Not interested.”
“Don’t hang up. Hear me out.”
“If this proposition is anything like your last one—”
“Not in the least. But it will take a bit of explaining. Can we meet for coffee somewhere?”
I frowned at the clock, well past bar time. “In the morning?”
“I was hoping tonight. Somewhere nearby?”
I thought he meant near to the hospital. “There’s a ChainBucks by the gift shop.”
“I thought rather that darling little brew-and-chew a half-mile up the road from you.”
I chilled. If he meant the Caffeine Café, he wasn’t talking about the hospital. The café was six blocks north of the townhouses and a few blocks east. Damn it, Marrone’s pursuit unnerved me, but my skin crawled thinking he might get anywhere near Lizelle. I could take care of myself, but my friend wasn’t so resilient.