My boss laid out my many faults, speaking slowly, a common State Department habit left over from a lifetime of d e a l i n g w i t h f o r e i g n e r s. His boss had political ambitions, and so most of his sentences were guarded passive-aggressive barbs consisting of the words mandate, robust, empower, and team building. The two men spent an hour reviewing my performance as failing to meet their unillustrated standards, concluding that I should not bite the hand that fed us. My six team leader predecessors had found plenty of ways to spend money, after all, while the number of new projects I had initiated was lamentably low. My sector did not have a failing vocational school, as was then in vogue, our rug-making sweatshop had closed down, unemploying several indentured slave widows, and we had stopped putting money into the beef plant. The Army was keen on building a factory to make medical alcohol from dates after a hospital gases project imploded and I had failed to show enough false enthusiasm. The two bosses together were like the anti-Diogenes, shining a light into the moral darkness, looking for someone else to embrace their hallucinations of what State was to do in this place.
The words were officially correct and carefully chosen (“Leverage the power of our money to enhance the economy,” “Reach out with new projects, evaluating their success instead of criticizing their potential”), but what was unspoken was clear enough: “Stop making a fuss. No one cares about the money, we have lots of money, and not spending it angers people. We all know we are not going to really change much in Iraq, so just do your year in the desert. Don’t bring us down with you. We all have careers to consider.”
My boss closed the meeting by mentioning that he would soon retire from State into a consultant job with the Army, advising on future Iraq reconstruction projects at, I imagined, about double his current salary. His boss was due back in Washington for Senate confirmation hearings that would see him appointed Ambassador to a strategically important country. Me, having been reeducated, I was dismissed back to the field to try to do better.
The Embassy Lawn, Where the Grass Is Always Greener
The World’s Biggest Embassy (104 acres, twenty-two buildings, thousands of staff members, a $116 million vehicle inventory), physically larger than the Vatican, was a sign of our commitment, at least our commitment to excess. “Along with the Great Wall of China,” said the Ambassador, “it’s one of those things you can see with the naked eye from outer space.”31 The newly opened Embassy was made up of large office buildings, the main one built around a four-story atrium, with overhead lights that resembled sails. If someone had told us there was a Bath and Body Works in there, we would not have thought it odd.
The World’s Biggest Embassy sat in, or perhaps defined, the Green Zone. Called the Emerald City by some, the Green Zone represented the World’s Largest Public Relations Failure. In the process of deposing Saddam, we placed our new seat of power right on top of his old one, just as the ancient Sumerians built their strongholds on top of fallen ones out in the desert. In addition to the new buildings, Saddam’s old palaces in the Zone were repurposed as offices, and Saddam’s old jails became our new jails. Conveniently for Iraqis, the overlords might have changed but the address had not. The place you went to visit political prisoners who opposed Saddam was still the place you went to look for relatives who opposed the Americans.
The new Embassy compound isolated American leadership at first physically and soon mentally as well. The air of otherworldliness started right with the design of the place. American architects had planned for the Embassy grounds to have all sorts of trees, grassy areas, and outdoor benches; the original drawings made them look like a leafy college campus. For a place in the desert, the design could not have been more impractical. But in 2003 no projection into the future was too outlandish. One building at the compound was purpose-built to be the international school for the happy children who would accompany their diplomat parents on assignment. It was now used only for offices. Each Embassy apartment offered a full-size American range, refrigerator, and dishwasher, as if staffers might someday take their families to shop at a future Sadr City Safeway like they do in Seoul or Brussels. In fact, all food was trucked in directly from Kuwait, along with American office supplies, souvenir mugs, and T-shirts (“My Father Was Assigned to Embassy Baghdad and All I Got Was…”; “I’d Walk a Mile for a Camel”) and Embassy staff members were prohibited from buying anything to eat locally. The Embassy generated its own electricity, purified its own water from the nearby Tigris, and processed its own sewage, hermetically sealed off from Iraq.
The Ambassador, who fancied himself a sportsman, ordered grass to grow on the large sandy area in front of the main Embassy building, a spot at one time designated as a helicopter landing zone, since relocated. Gardeners brought in tons of dirt and planted grass seed. A nearly endless amount of water was used, but despite clear orders to do so the grass would not grow. Huge flocks of birds arrived. Never having seen so much seed on the ground in one place, they ate passionately. No grass grew. The Ambassador would not admit defeat. He ordered sod be imported into Kuwait and then brought by armored convoy to the Embassy. No one confessed to what it cost to import, but estimates varied between two and five million dollars. The sod was put down and hundreds of thousands of gallons of water were used to make it live, in what was practically a crime against nature. Whole job positions existed to hydrate and tend the grass. No matter what Iraq and nature wanted, the American Embassy spent whatever it took to have green grass in the desert. Later full-grown palm trees were trucked in and planted to line the grassy square. We made things in Iraq look the way we wanted them to look, water shortages throughout the rest of the country be damned. The grass was the perfect allegory for the whole war.
The efforts were not wasted, as the Ambassador organized an Embassy lacrosse team to gambol on the lawn. At one point the official Web site featured photos of young Iraqis receiving a donation of Major League Baseball equipment on the turf. The event was a special program the Ambassador was personally involved with, because he believed in “sports diplomacy.” Once he invited Iraq’s only baseball team to his residence for some drills. He wore a replica of a Japanese-born Major League star’s jersey, making the point that baseball, although invented in America, was an international sport (which is why the World Series includes only American teams and potentially a Canadian one). “Baseball is like democracy,” he liked to say, “you cannot impose it. People should learn it and accept it.”32 A previous sports diplomacy program donated hundreds of soccer balls to Iraq, each colorfully decorated with flags of the world. No one would play with the balls, because they included the flag of Saudi Arabia, which has a Koranic verse on it, and you cannot put your foot to a Koranic verse. Luckily, the balls were made in China, where they already knew not to include the Israeli flag, as it would have been awkward if we’d had to ask.
Most of the State people at the Embassy were not me or my kin. While the various job specialties in the military (mortar plate carrier and helicopter pilot, cook and General) were united by a single uniform, a common service affiliation, and an esprit de corps, the State Department was more of a confederation, where lines were rarely crossed. If my kind were strip malls, the people here were Galleria.
The traditional diplomat was a big part of the organization and provided most of the upper management. While diversity played its role, this group was still mostly male, pale, and Yale in orientation if not in actual appearance. They were the deep thinkers, the plotters, the negotiators, the report writers. These folks, the ones the media always refer to as attending receptions wearing striped pants (striped pants went out of style with Hoover although many State officers have hung on to bow ties, seersucker, and men’s hats), were content in their Iraq assignments, as their work involved staying in the Embassy and sending important memos to one another and to Washington, nipping out occasionally for chats with ex-expat Iraqis imported and perhaps even test-tube-bred by us for such purposes. Upper management types created their own reality and
walled it off from the rest of the country. Army joke: How does the Embassy keep an eye on events in Iraq? From the roof.
Coming into the Embassy from the field was one of the more stressful things you could do in Iraq, made worse if you drifted into Baghdaddy’s, the Embassy bar. You began to understand why Embassy policy forbade photography at after-work events once you learned that the most important characteristic of Baghdaddy’s was that booze was cheap. You bought a punch card for twenty dollars and drank and drank, as all the bartenders were volunteers from the Embassy community and free drinks, heavy pours, and loose accounting were the norm. The serious drinkers rolled in right at 8:00 p.m. to start on two-dollar shots of vodka, grain, or maybe kerosene. These were the older, former alpha males of the community, no longer able to attract mates and shorn of their once proud plumage, who just wanted to get drunk rapidly with purpose. Eight o’clock was like the VFW hall on a pale Wednesday afternoon—if you were there, you were there to drink, and if you were drinking, you wanted to get shitfaced. If you wanted to talk to anyone, you’d drunk-dial your ex-wife.
The next phylum slid in around ten, the twenty-to-thirty-year-old Embassy staffers. They all knew one another and liked to dance and have a good time, basking in their youth and coolness and self-importance. Baghdaddy’s was not Wisconsin Avenue in Georgetown, but with a popped collar on a pink polo shirt, a mixed drink in a DayGlo color, and sunglasses indoors, there was no reason why it couldn’t be undergrad glory days all over again. Life in Iraq was no more real for these people than it was for anyone else dragging slowly through a one-year tour, but it was better dressed.
Things started to turn seriously sad around 11:00 p.m. Older women drifted through the door in twos and threes, with the occasional grim single. They eased on strappy sandals to take advantage of the Embassy’s 800 to 1 ratio of men to women. The odd dance between the older females and the game thirty-year-old undergrads would be pathetically interrupted by the stirrings of the now drunken former alphas, clumsily trying to make conversation while pushing aside the young challenger bulls from the kill site. Natural selection was not a pretty sight.
The world’s worst bar scene ended when the overhead fluorescents jerked on at midnight, trapping the unsuccessful hunters in the glare. Quick words were exchanged on the dance floor in desperate attempts to seal a deal, while the serious boozers retreated to preaching from their stools and a final drink. Back in the room, late-night TV offered little solace, with an Islam Gigante Lebanese dancing show interrupted by nearly constant commercials for a Middle Eastern product called Pif Paf. Like an elderly widow who avoids dining with other aging women, knowing loneliness shared is only loneliness multiplied, Baghdaddy’s made everyone grow apart, while maintaining the illusion of bringing them together.
Economic Conference Blues
If bullshit were water, we’d all drown, so take a deep breath. A couple of days at the Embassy for an economics conference left my head spinning. The participants were the usual pickup team that runs the war’s civilian side: slick 3161 job shoppers, retired thises, a former that, and a few once-wases, people who incestuously briefed one another—all of the facts, none of the understanding, the big picture, our “legacy.” The new adjective of choice was robust. Iraqi Americans increasingly figured on the team, some remembering Baghdad from their youth, most still struggling with English, but all empowered to spend, spend, spend—money is a weapons system. So much cash in play, there’s a new slang word in Iraqi Arabic, duftar, a tall pile of Benjamins totaling $10,000. Ka-ching!
A session on car loans, a new front to spur the economy, but a challenge: Iraq has no repo law. A name needed for a bridge in Diyala, “American Freedom Bridge” our choice, a plaque to be bought. USAID briefs, gonna spend $82 million to strengthen government-provided health care. Forward movement, money equals progress, activity is achievement, $60 million to revive the financial sector, most definitely time to form a bankers’ association so there’s someone to work with. Will plan webinars and roundtable discussions, maybe a blog, oh yes, a blog is modern, get an intern on it, they know this online stuff.
State up next, tells us we must double down on our government of Iraq partners, help them spend Iraqi money on reconstructing Iraq, take the R out of PRT, and make the locals pay, spend, spend, spend, volume the key to success. Create chambers of commerce to facilitate investment, maybe with a nice brochure, the lack of a chamber the last obstacle on the road to prosperity. Quick bright things come to confusion, said Shakespeare. Don’t slow down. Integrate. Act, engage, facilitate, mentor, promote, task, develop. There are no problems just challenges and issues. Security is an issue; a guy murdered in front of his family a challenge to stability. Language employed to keep thought at bay, said Pinter.
Task one: Suspend disbelief, rewire your brain, accept that people at the Embassy who never stray outside the Green Zone tell you about Iraq, the place you live 24/7. Safety improving, suicide bombings down, democracy up, cognitive dissonance not a problem, you can’t really tell but we’re winning (the preferred narrative of the war). From the head PRT office, “Due to security concerns, we are unable to visit the Baghdad Flower Show, which the Mayor intended to be a symbol of stability.”
Task Two: Convince yourself of the overall premise of the US efforts, that Iraqis want to be like us. They want to have banks like us, farms like us, governance like us, repo laws like us, fast food, rock and roll, MTV like us. Hire Iraqis who see it our way, find young women who change from hijabs into club wear on campus, happy natives to confirm our visions in the heat. Enjoy the Kool-Aid, sweet even when it is bitter.
Much crowing over success in persuading Craigslist to add a page for Iraq—http://baghdad.craigslist.org—most sections not used (it is in English), still definitely a step to economic growth. Rabbit-quick checked my computer (sweet, sweet Wi-Fi here), lots of Men Seeking Men personals, military-age male Americans looking for boy sex in Iraq. Some wanting other gay men, some offering themselves as expedient alternatives in Iraq (“My mouth can replace her pussy”). A few sad posts from heteros hoping there are women out here who want them bad enough to troll Craigslist. A fifty-two-year-old gay man in Chicago, explicit photos, thanks all for their service, wants to correspond with muscled gay soldiers, patriotism, don’t tell that he asked.
New briefer, just in from Washington, pretty junior, given the spot right before lunch when no one was interested in another rap. Things slowed down. She said that Iraq ranked 175th out of 180 countries as the hardest place in the world to start a business, that illiterates and high school graduates command about the same salaries because most hiring is for government patronage jobs (maybe 60 percent of everyone employed in Iraq now works for the government, no one knows). Most people in the room looked away, embarrassed for her for not getting the memo. She offered a formula to explain it all: Corruption = Monopoly + Discretion − Accountability. She believed the social fabric of Iraq is now in “survival mode.” Woooh, awkward, suicide right on the stage. We exchanged glances, some signifying fear of agreeing, most shock over the heresy; she’d be reeducated. Conference organizers hit 911, rushed into the breach with a quick lunch, club sandwiches with crunchy bacon, then ice cream from Baskin-Robbins, brought in from the States, because we could. Back on track, no mind to the interruption, jury should disregard the last witness.
Next up, tourism briefing. This could be a big thing, says some reservist who was handed the portfolio as his way to fight the war. US government spent $700,000 in Babylon to build restrooms and a gate near the ruins, $300,000 to create the Baghdad Tourism Institute, $2 million for the Habbaniyah Tourist Village, to include $698,000 for beach refurbishment, literally paying for sand in Iraq (not the first time: my ePRT already bought Turkish sand to use in water filters). Guy says in 2009 sixty-five Western tourists visited Iraq (including eighteen Taiwanese, stand-in Westerners, and seventeen Americans). US Army polled them, learned they loved Iraq but hated the hotels, hoping to attract more next year
. United States not much involved in the five to seven million Shia religious tourists who visit Iraq each year, kinda ceded that market to Iran, we’ll focus on those sixty-five Westerners. Good news: US Army will spend $100,000 to fly in a hundred travel agents from around the world (including from Iran and this time Japan) for “Iraq Tourism Week” in early October. Market looking up for tourism, for sure, for sure.
Last briefing: Foreign Commercial Service will hold a “trade mission,” charging US companies $6,000 to meet Iraqi businesspeople. The $6,000 includes a personal security detachment (good value), but you’ll need to stay at the al-Rasheed Hotel, an additional $300 a night, plus pay for your own meals, US cash only, please. Brochure has the word business misspelled, oops, pointed that out to the guy, he wasn’t happy with me, says they already sent out two hundred copies. Brochure also does not list the dates of the trade mission, security concerns, ssshhh, in October. Foreign Commercial Service briefer admits he has not been outside the Green Zone but relies on an Iraqi New Zealander to make contacts.
Final notes: good conference overall, a lot to take back, not much to remember.
Spooky Dinner
While the Army buzzed with adolescent energy, the Agency was all about cool. Cool as in “we got this, it’s all taken care of.” You didn’t see much of them in Iraq, even though they were everywhere, as this wasn’t really their war. Afghanistan was theirs at first, when a bunch of spooks with sat phones and blocks of greenbacks won the damn thing at least once, maybe twice, until what they call the GWOT (G-WOT, Global War on Terror) and the hunt for UBL (Usama bin Laden, always with a U—they knew bin Laden when you were still roller-discoing) were canceled midseason. That torqued the spooks off, because Afghanistan was their hood, their finest hour, where they had beaten the Red Motherfucking Army, without breaking a sweat, really, never mind that last bit about creating a worldwide armed, seasoned radical Muslim uprising; a bad bounce, for sure, but there was always some collateral. Hanging with these guys was a quick jolt of anticynicism medicine, steroids for the blackened soul, because they were all masculine confidence and certainty, brother, and it was infectious. Sure, the war may have been all about oil, but these dudes knew that a foreign policy based on fear—Japs, communism, terrorists—was what really kept the game alive.
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