I tilted my head, confused. “Okay. What is it?”
“Is there something I should know about you and Jayce?”
Chapter Twelve
I went still as I tried not to freak out at Neil’s question. How did he know about me and Jayce? Or was he just guessing? Did everyone know? My eyes grew wide and I opened my mouth, but nothing came out. I didn’t know what to say. There had been something between us, but there wasn’t anymore. But there could be? Maybe.
Oh god.
The corners of Neil’s lips turned down slightly. He ran a hand through his hair, making it stick up even more.
“I thought so.”
I wanted to explain everything, but I also didn’t want him to think I was making excuses. I looked down at the table.
“How did you know?” I asked quietly. “Did someone say something? Does everyone know?”
“No, no one said a word. I had no idea until today.”
“Why? What happened?”
“Jayce is acting strange around me. At first I thought he was angry, but he also has this look of resignation about him. Then he said something that made me think.”
“What did he tell you?”
“He said if I hurt you he’d cut off my balls.”
I couldn’t help the bark of laughter that escaped. “He didn’t!” I put my head in my hands, embarrassed, but also amused.
“Those were his exact words.”
“Neil, it’s not… I mean, we did have a little something, but that’s over with now.”
Neil looked skeptical.
“We have an attraction to each other, but we both agreed it wouldn’t do either of us any good to get involved. He’s a famous rock star with fans to string along. He needs to play the rock star god. I’m just a newbie in the industry. We don’t need crazy fangirls attacking us.”
He nodded. “Then I don’t have anything to worry about?”
“No. Not at all. Whatever we had, it’s over.”
“I like you, Ailey. I’d like to get to know you more. But I don’t want to get stuck between you and another guy.”
“Our decision to break it off was mutual. We both agreed it was for the best.”
“I just want to make sure we’re both going into this on the same page.” He quirked his lips into a smile.
“I think we are.” I gave him a shy smile. “I’ve wanted to meet you for months, after all.”
“I’m the same. Even though I had no idea what you looked like, I loved talking with you and getting to know you. I had a feeling there would be chemistry if we got together in person.”
I bit my lip nervously, wondering if I should ask. I mustered my courage.
“And is there?”
He leaned forward and stroked his fingers down my bare arm, brushing over my palm to the fingertips, causing a shiver to run down my spine.
“Like you wouldn’t believe.”
***
MY DATE WITH Neil had gone wonderfully. We talked for hours, laughing and joking. It really was like we were long lost friends. He walked me back to my hotel room long after midnight. I thought about inviting him in but wondered if it was too soon. He just kissed me goodnight before I could make a decision.
We didn’t manage to get much private time, but ran into each as other as often as would be expected when working together. We kept it professional, only giving each other a few longing stares and brushing our hands together a few times when we thought no one was looking.
Our messaging, though, was another story.
I can’t wait to feel the heat of your tongue on my cock.
I’m imagining you lying in bed wearing nothing but high heels and panties.
The next time we’re alone, I’m going to spread your legs and fuck you wide open.
I had an almost perpetual blush and had to tilt my screen to hide it from prying eyes whenever I received a new notification, never knowing whether or not it was from Neil.
The only negative was the awkwardness of being around Jayce. I’d cornered him to get some answers for a question and answer thread on a popular online forum. His answers were curt, and I found myself having to soften them up before I posted a response.
It was frustrating. I knew he was acting this way because he had seen Neil kiss me, but both of us had decided to break it off. Being together would never work. Besides, it wasn’t like we had a real relationship. We’d kissed one time in a stairwell! That didn’t mean we were boyfriend and girlfriend, and it certainly didn’t mean I couldn’t date other people.
Despite knowing all that, I could understand how he felt. We had made a connection. We were attracted to each other. It must have been hard to see me with another man. Although I didn’t feel sorry for kissing Neil, I did still feel the need to apologize. I waited until the Q&A was done.
“Is that it?” Jayce asked.
“That was the last question.”
He got up from the tour bus sofa and started toward the exit, but I stopped him with a hand on his arm.
“Can I talk to you for a second?”
“What?” He didn’t even turn around.
“It’s about me and Neil. The assistant producer.”
Jayce flopped back down on the sofa, as far away from me as he could get, eyebrows drawn down.
“Why do you call him that, anyway? I thought he preferred Connor.”
“I know him as Neil. We’ve been messaging each other online for months. Neither of us had any idea who the other was. It wasn’t until I posted something I’d told him about in real life from my personal account that he figured it out. That time when you saw him kiss me, that was the first time we’d properly met in person. I had no idea he was going to do that. It took me by surprise, too.”
The tension in his body slowly melted away, but the frown stayed. “You were dating him online?”
“No! No, not at all. We were just friends.”
“That didn’t look like a friendly kiss.”
“We had agreed to meet up for drinks at the end of summer. I guess he was more into me than I thought.” And I was more into him, but I didn’t say that out loud. “I know we both agreed there could be nothing between us, but I got the feeling you might be upset about the whole situation. I wanted to apologize.”
“There’s no need.” Jayce flicked his eyes away from mine and looked out the window. “It’s not like we’re together or anything.”
“I want you to know that I wasn’t with Neil when we kissed. Or anyone else for that matter.”
“It’s fine, Ailey.”
I hesitated before pressing on. “I just want to know that things are okay between us.”
“We’re cool. Are we done here?”
“Yeah.”
He stood back up and stalked down the aisle until he reached the front, pounding down the stairs with a heavy gait.
Things weren’t fine between us at all.
Chapter Thirteen
My phone pinged and I rolled over, groaning. After a few late work nights, I’d finally gone to bed early. I should have turned off my alerts, but I was always worried I’d miss something.
It was Neil.
You asleep?
No. Not anymore.
Sorry. Did I wake you?
It’s okay.
Are you in bed?
Yeah.
Are you wearing sexy little pajamas like I’m imagining?
A thrill of excitement swept through me. I decided to be bold.
What if I told you I didn’t wear anything to bed?
Then I’d wish I was there with you.
What would you do, if you were here next to me?
First off, the sheets would have to go. I’d want to see you lying naked on the bed.
If that’s what you want, I’d throw the blankets to the floor.
I’d drink in the sight of you, take in every inch of your skin.
From your breasts to your ass to your legs.
You’re beautiful.
Flatterer.
>
It’s true.
What else would you do?
I’d tell you to touch yourself. Take those nipples between your fingers and play with them.
My breath caught in my throat. I’d never done anything like this before. Heat washed through me as I did what he said, rubbing one of my nipples in circles, sending sparks through my body.
Are you getting hot, sweetheart?
Yes. Absolutely, yes.
Good. Now part those thighs so I can see you.
All of you.
I gasped out loud, the sound echoing in the room. I imagined Neil staring at the most private part of me. The thought filled me with heat. I slowly shifted my body until my legs were splayed on either side of me.
Are your legs spread open, sweetheart?
Yes.
Good girl.
You’re going to keep them there, you understand?
Yes. I understand.
Now take two fingers and suck on them.
I hesitated. Was I really going to do this?
Get them nice and wet.
I switched my phone to my left hand and brought my right hand to my mouth, parting my lips and rolling my tongue around my index and middle finger.
You know what I want you to do next?
I was so turned on I could barely type. All I managed was a question mark.
?
You’re going to sink those fingers into that tight hole of yours and fuck yourself with them.
I moaned and thumped my head back on the pillow, but I followed his instructions, pulling my fingers out of my mouth and trailing them down my stomach before reaching between my legs. I was already wet. I circled around my entrance before pushing one finger in. I couldn’t stop the small cry that left my lips.
You feel that warm, wet heat surrounding you?
yes
You feel those fingers pressing against your tight inner walls?
yessss
It’s gonna feel so much better when I sink my cock into you.
I let out a short whine, my breath coming in quick gasps. I added the second finger, needing more, needing something bigger, thicker.
You want that, sweetheart?
You want me to pull out my cock and fuck you?
I squeezed my eyes shut and imagined it, imagined a hard body pressed against me, imagined hands spreading my legs open, imagined a thick tool spearing me open in one long thrust. I inhaled a shaky breath and tried to focus my eyes on the screen, one hand still between my legs, fucking myself furiously, while the other held my phone. I concentrated on hitting the right letters.
fuck yes. i need you. i need it.
I need you to get me good and wet first, just like your fingers.
mmm…
I’m gonna push into your mouth and feel your tongue caressing the shaft.
Wrap those pretty lips around me.
Just like that. You’re so good at this, sweetheart.
Like your mouth was made to take my cock.
tastes so good…
You want more? Want to take me deeper?
I’m going give it to you so good, gonna make you take me all the way down.
I can feel your slick tongue as I slide further into your mouth.
I want to see those pretty pink lips stretched wide around the base of my cock.
That’s it. Take me deep, that’s my good girl.
You’re doing very well.
In fact, I think you deserve a reward.
I think I’m gonna take that tight cunt of yours now.
I’m gonna impale you on my cock and fill you up.
I turned my head and bit into my pillow to muffle my heavy panting. I was so turned on, so close to the edge, but I didn’t want to stop, I didn’t want it to end.
fuck me!!
Fuck sweetheart, you’re killing me.
Can you feel it? Can you feel my thick cock filling you up?
Mmm, you’re so fucking tight.
Just want to keep fucking you until you’re begging me to stop.
don’t stop
I’m really gonna give it to you now, sweetheart. Gonna fucking pound you.
harder!
Goddamn, you’ve got the sweetest cunt.
Gonna spill inside you, gonna make you take it all.
You want that, sweetheart? Want to feel me fill you up?
yes!
Don’t worry, I’ll give you what you need.
But first, you’re gonna do something for me.
what
You’re gonna come on my cock.
hnnnnn
That’s it, sweetheart.
I want you to come.
Touch yourself.
Play with your clit.
Want to feel you squeezing my cock when you go over the edge.
Come for me.
!!!!!!
Mmm, just like that sweetheart. Did you come?
yessss
That’s my good girl.
You can relax now.
Take deep breaths.
Oh my god… that was so hot.
You’re the one who’s hot, sweetheart.
I didn’t do anything. You’re the one with the dirty mouth.
Just imaging you touching yourself was hot enough.
I couldn’t even type anything at the end. I was so far gone all I managed was exclamation marks.
That’s good to know. The next time you’re rendered speechless, that’s what I’ll look for.
That really was awesome, Neil. Should I say thanks…?
No need. The pleasure was all mine. Think you’ll be able to sleep now?
I can barely stay awake.
Then go to sleep, sweetheart. I’ll see you in the morning.
***
“SO, WHAT’S WITH you and that producer?”
I looked up from my phone, startled by the whisper in my ear. Gabriella had snuck up on me, arms crossed over her chest, a grin on her face. I’d been hanging out near the tour buses, wanting to get some fresh air. The concert venue the guys would be playing at had a funky smell, like the sweat from every previous performer had sunk into the walls. I’d seen Deena scrunch up her nose and give the place a disgusted look, so I knew I wasn’t the only one. Luckily, we’d be in a different venue the next day.
“Give me all the details,” Gabriella continued.
A small giddy smile creeped onto my lips. “So I guess you heard about that kiss?”
“Everyone’s heard about that kiss.”
“It’s kind of a long story.”
“I’ve got time. The concert isn’t for hours.”
“I’ve been messaging this one guy online for months. We sort of made plans to get together when summer was over. Turns out Neil’s the guy I’ve been messaging.”
“Neil?”
“Cornelius,” I corrected myself. “He goes by Neil online.”
“And how are things going between you and Neil?” She stretched out his name, giving me a playful smile.
I furrowed my brow. “I thought I’d be seeing more of him since our first date, actually, but it’s been a while since I’ve been alone with him.”
We’d had that one amazing date, and we’d been messaging each other every day, but we still hadn’t managed a second date. I knew his shooting schedule kept him busy, plus we were on different tour buses, but I was starting to worry that maybe he was avoiding me. That couldn’t have been the case, though. He sent me sexy messages non-stop, to the point where I always had to double check no one could see my phone’s screen before I opened any messages, just in case.
“The film crew’s been pretty busy.” Gabriella shrugged, confirming my own thoughts. Then she rolled her eyes. “And everyone knows Cornelius is a control freak who can’t sit still and let people do their jobs.”
I wondered if that need for control would make itself known in bed.
“You should take the initiative,” she said. “Make him stop working for a bit and take you out on another d
ate.”
“You think so? We are here for work, after all.”
“Sure, go for it. He’s the one who kissed you. Make him realize what he’s missing.” She threw me a wink. “I think I saw him backstage.”
I followed Gabriella’s advice and finally tracked him down to one of the back offices. He had a pen in one hand and a stack of papers in the other and seemed to be marking them up profusely. I knocked on the door lightly and he looked up, an annoyed expression on his face. It cleared up a bit when he saw me, but he still had a slightly harried look.
“Sorry for interrupting.”
“It’s fine. I’m going over some production notes before tonight’s concert.”
“Do you have a minute?”
“Is it important?”
I blinked. Important?
“Well, not really. I just haven’t had the chance to talk to you in person in a while. Not since our first date.”
He gave me a small smile and lowered his papers, but didn’t put them down. “Yeah, things have been pretty hectic over here. Now that the tour is in full swing, we’ve got a lot of scenes to shoot.”
“I was hoping maybe we could get together for another date sometime soon? We’re leaving this city soon, but we’ll be in the next one for a few days. Maybe we could go somewhere?”
Neil grimaced and shook his head. “Sorry, I can’t. I’ve got to re-work some of these shots. We missed the chance to grab close ups of Ren’s violin solo the last few concerts, and we really need to get them on film. Since they change up the set list every couple of days to keep things fresh, we’re always on a tight schedule.”
“Oh.” I tried to hide my disappointment. I was busy, too, but I knew I could still manage to make time for Neil.
“Well, maybe later when you’re not so busy?”
“Yeah, sure. I’ll message you when it looks like I’ve got some free time.”
“Sounds good.” I turned to leave.
“Can you close the door on your way out? I don’t want to be disturbed.”
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