A month after Alinea, Baltzley took over the head job at Mado in Bucktown. He didn’t realize the mess he was in for: He was told he had 48 hours to open, so he scrambled and assembled a kitchen crew mostly of culinary school students. When squabbles with the owner over finances began to boil over, he and his staff walked out right before Thanksgiving.
Around this time, restaurateur Simon Lamb was looking to open a restaurant at the Essex Inn on Michigan Avenue. (Lamb oversaw daily operations at Gioco and Redlight.) Lamb called Baltzley and suggested he apply, and, from 100-plus applicants, Baltzley made it to the round of a dozen finalists. Then came the cooking tryout.
“Brandon blew everybody away,” Lamb said. “He cooked food where I was later dreaming about the dish.” Baltzley wowed him with a modern take on Carolina barbecue: pork belly confit with Brussels sprouts coleslaw, sweet potato panna cotta and mustard barbecue sauce. “He was driven, entertaining, nontraditional, very relaxed and very funny. I thought, I gotta give this guy a shot.”
Baltzley landed the highest-profile job of his career—a tattooed dropout heading a restaurant on Chicago’s most famous avenue. But his newly steady paycheck also enabled his drug habit. Gaps of time appeared in the otherwise constant chatter on his Twitter feed; phone calls went unanswered.
It is difficult to quantify substance abuse among chefs, or, when it comes to drinking, at least, even to define it. Television would have you believe that cooking is a glamorous industry when a reality of 14-hour days and $350 a week is closer to the norm.
Before Rick Gresh became executive chef at David Burke’s Primehouse, he witnessed friends strung out during service. At one restaurant, Gresh recalled asking a line cook working next to him, “Dude, are you alive?”The cook collapsed moments later.
Anecdotes suggest a combination of factors that make work in the kitchen conducive to substance abuse after hours: a high-pressure environment, the type of people the job attracts and a social hour that begins after midnight.
“We’re in a business where you can get anything you want, any time of day, any day of the week,” Gresh said. “It’s just how it is.”
Seven miles, 23 minutes in. The cab turns off the Eisenhower and onto Independence Boulevard.
“Cooking gives me a gratification that nothing else gives me,” Baltzley says. “It’s the fact that I’m so f——-up and I do all these horrible things in my life, but when I can cook for someone they don’t think about those things. Cooking is my mask.”
Silence inside the cab.
“I’m secretly wishing they’d turn me away . . .”
Nervous laughter.
Baltzley is asked if he’s done his last line of cocaine. Seven seconds tick by.
“Yeah. I think I’m done.”
Why the long pause?
“It’s been in my life for seven years.”
On the right, a three-story brick building appears.
“Oh God, we’re here,”he says. “Oh my God.”
Emily Belden doesn’t know why she fell for him. She was the product of a stable, drug-free household in the suburbs and dated clean-cut men with steady careers. An hour into their first meeting, three months ago, Baltzley gave his full disclosure—“I’m self-destructive. I’m an addict. I pretty much would ruin everything.”—and yet it developed into romance.
Belden first saw him use on their second date. They spent a perfect Sunday together, but that night Baltzley said he needed to get high, and, being naive about cocaine’s effects, she didn’t protest. In hindsight, she said, it was a mistake.
The first sign of trouble came in late April. Baltzley, between apartments and staying at the Essex Inn, left work one night and started doing lines in his hotel room. It was a few days until anyone reached him, and by then, Baltzley was in cocaine’s full grip.
His kitchen staff found him shaking, sweating, vomiting, suffering from chest pains. Belden walked into his room and found empty wine bottles, cigarette butts and drug bags strewn about. She was massaging out fist-size bumps of lactic acid built up on Baltzley’s back.
Lamb entered and saw shame in Baltzley’s eyes. They read, “I let you down.” Lamb was more concerned than angry—by that time the two had become friends first and colleagues second. Still, Lamb had a lot of investors’ money riding on Tribute. He made Baltzley sign an agreement saying he’d find help.
But it happened again in mid-May. He called Belden: “I’m doing drugs tonight. You don’t want to be around me.”
The next five days were a blur for him. Baltzley simply vanished. Lamb said he left 20 messages for him and called around to all the hospitals. Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday—nothing.
Tuesday morning, May 17, Lamb got a text from Baltzley. It read: “We have to talk.”
The cab meter stops at $23. Baltzley arrives at the Gateway Foundation Alcohol & Drug Treatment center at 9:01 a.m. One week has passed since he and Tribute agreed to end their relationship. He and Lamb remain amicable. (On May 18, Tribute announced Lawrence Letrero, who worked under Baltzley, as its new chef.)
Baltzley says he doesn’t know which is more frightening: the next 30 days, or the first day he re-enters the world. He doesn’t know if people will ever take him seriously again. But he says he’s sorry for the people he has let down.
Said Belden: “Seeing him do drugs has changed my opinion of what a drug addict is. Brandon does this alone on a Sunday night. Yes, he decides to take the first hit . . . but once he does that, he loses all control over it. I feel like he’s trapped in a body that’s convincing him that he needs it.”
A patient stares out the window, as if sizing him up. Then, he waves a friendly wave. Baltzley lights up one last cigarette.
“I don’t want to be here for the next month, but I have to if I want to . . . if I want to be hirable. If I want the opportunity again for someone to put their trust in me.”
He takes one final puff and extinguishes the cigarette. He rubs the back of Belden’s neck with his hand. She drapes her arm across his back. Brandon Baltzley walks inside.
BITTER START TO A LIFE OF SWEETS
By Chris Macias
From Sacramento Bee
Then there’s the other side of the coin: A chef whose life was turned around by the opportunity to perform in a high-end kitchen. Sacramento Bee food reporter and wine columnist Chris Macias profiles an unlikely pastry chef and his against-all-odds success.
Edward Martinez gently places a chocolate orb in the center of a white bowl. To the touch, this confection is hard and impeccably smooth, like a small eight ball.
His right hand, emblazoned with a skull tattoo, holds a small ladle of warmed chocolate-infused milk. He drizzles the liquid over the orb, accompanied by chocolate streusel and toasted hazelnuts. It soon breaks open, revealing a sumptuous filling of hazelnut and milk chocolate pudding, mixed with more crispy bits of chocolate and hazelnut.
“I like making pretty food,” Martinez said. “The first thing you do is eat with your eyes. You want it to be beautiful. If the flavors work, it brings that whole dish together.”
Martinez serves as executive pastry chef of Hawks in Granite Bay, which specializes in seasonal ingredients and is among the region’s finest restaurants. Even in a chocolate-stained apron, Martinez doesn’t look like a guy you’d want to mess with. He stands over 6 feet tall with a shaved head and a black widow spider on the back of his neck. His body is an evolving canvas of tattoos, some of which hark back to a past that he’s since left behind: membership in one of California’s most notorious street gangs.
Learning to make pastries may have saved Martinez’s life, or at least spared him a stretch in the state penitentiary. In 2005, facing three felony charges, Martinez promised to enroll in a pastry-making program, leading to a reduced sentence—and perhaps a last chance at an honest life.
Martinez’s Facebook photos show a collage of the sweet and a bitter taste of his past. There’s a shot of his moelloux of white chocolate, comp
ressed mandarins, pistachio macaron and mandarin sorbet; an “I heart foie gras” T-shirt sported by his baby son; and the casket of one of Martinez’s homeboys from his Fresno gang days being lowered into the earth.
“I never expected to get this far,” said Martinez, who recently turned 27. “I expected . . . (to be) in jail, or dead.”
Now, Martinez surrounds himself with sugars, ripe seasonal fruits and delicate desserts. He’s devouring “Modernist Cuisine,” the six-volume book of cutting-edge cooking techniques. His repertoire at Hawks includes nitrogen-frozen chocolate mousse with gianduja crémeux and hazelnut pudding.
“He’s the best working pastry chef I’ve seen,” said Pajo Bruich, midtown’s Lounge ON20 executive chef, known for his complex cooking techniques. “Hands down, nobody in the Sacramento market is doing the creative elements he’s doing.”
The Rise of Baby Gangster
Baby Gangster was always ready to fight.
That’s what the Bulldogs gang members called Martinez, after he was “jumped into” the gang at age 13.
“I was at the homeboy’s house, in the backyard,” Martinez recalled, between sips of coffee at a midtown Sacramento cafe. “I’m telling them, ‘I want to be in. This is what I want. I want to be a Bulldog.’ And they said, ‘OK, let’s do it.’They beat me up for about 30 seconds. It’s weird. You’re beating up your friend so they can hang out with you. I got “FRESNO” tattooed across my chest about six months after that.”
The Bulldogs have few friends, except for those also inked with the dog paws and “BD” tattoos. Bulldogs are recognized as a violent California gang, based primarily in Fresno. Law enforcement estimates the gang has more than 6,000 members. The Bulldogs, who take the name and logo from the mascot at California State University, Fresno, have no allies and no leadership structure. Crips, Bloods, Norteño and Sureño gangs are all sworn Bulldogs enemies.
Both of Martinez’s older brothers were Bulldogs; so were other close family members. One cousin was nicknamed “Big Gangster,” while an older brother was “Lil Gangster.” Baby Gangster Martinez was “Baby G” for short—and had it tattooed into his left forearm.
He said his turf was on the east side of Fresno, where he claimed “Mariposa Street Gangsters”—or “MSG” for short. He’d moved there from San Jose at the age of 9, about two years after his mother, Theodora, died in a car accident. He said he still thinks of her baking in the kitchen, surrounded by the smells of sugar and frosting.
His father, Joe Martinez, said his son didn’t cope well after her death. The elder Martinez, who earned an economics degree from Stanford University, had hoped his four children would get educations, but his wife’s death fractured the family spirit.
“With Edward, he kept a lot inside and started getting into trouble at school,” said Joe Martinez. “Prior to that, he was doing excellent in school.”
Baby Gangster developed a taste for stealing. He was charged and later convicted in 2004 with grand theft for stealing $2,000 worth of DVD players and other merchandise from a Blockbuster Video.
In April 2005, while at a Fresno fast food restaurant, Baby Gangster thought someone looked at his girlfriend the wrong way. He attacked, punched the victim and fled. According to documents in Fresno Superior Court, the victim identified his attacker as a gang member because of his tattoos.
The victim and two witnesses picked Edward Martinez out of a photo lineup. Martinez was already on parole for the second-degree burglary at Blockbuster. Baby Gangster went on the run for more than three weeks.
He knew he couldn’t hide forever.
“I finally got tired of running and went to my dad’s house,” said Martinez. “I knew they were going to get me there. When they came to the door, there were cops everywhere. I was going to jail.”
Sweet Salvation
Martinez’s dad had heard all the talk before about changing for good. So had judges. Martinez was 20 and had served stints in county jail.
Now he faced felony charges of assault and battery, both with gang enhancements, and street terrorism. Facing eight years in state prison, he said he wanted to enroll in a local baking program.
“I pretty much begged,” Martinez said. “I knew if I was going to prison that I would do the whole eight years. It would be me gang-banging harder than ever before, trying to fight with everybody.”
Martinez pleaded no contest to misdemeanor battery. The other charges were dropped, but he’d have to honor his parole and enroll in the pastry program as promised.
By this time, Martinez had spent nine months in county jail. He was ready to bid his Baby Gangster persona goodbye.
“I needed to prove I wasn’t a (screw) up,” said Martinez. “I just had to prove to my dad that this is what I was going to do. Baking and pastries was something I could have fun doing. I remembered being happy doing that.”
In the Fresno suburb of Clovis, Martinez enrolled at the Institute of Technology’s baking and pastry specialist program. He felt self-conscious at first, still sporting a nearly bald head with a “BD” tattoo he had inked in county jail.
“When he came into my class he wasn’t very talkative, but when he did talk he had a lot of questions,” said Thomas Mendoza, a culinary mentor and instructor there. “He was very inquisitive on things that were new, and when he got a basic technique down, he wanted to take it above and beyond, and make it his own.”
His older brothers were still in the gang. In many cases, leaving a gang means “blood in, blood out”—you can only leave with your life.
“There were times when I had a friend come over and tell me some stuff happened in the ’hood and we needed to go handle it,” said Martinez. “I’m like, ‘I can’t.’ I’d never told anyone that. He kind of gave me a look like, ‘Are you serious?’ I said, ‘I just can’t.’”
Martinez dug into his textbooks and other reading, including “The French Laundry Cookbook.” He learned a new vocabulary: crème anglaise, mignardises, crème de farine and velouté of bittersweet chocolate.
“I was loving it,” said Martinez. “When I was making breads for the first time, they would look exactly like the stuff in the book. I started showing my dad, ‘Look what I made!’”
For his final exam, after the nine-month program, Martinez presented a complex tuile cookie cone with garnishes and the point side down in the center of the plate. His attendance had been perfect, and Martinez made the dean’s list.
“He had all the awards you could receive,” said Mendoza. “He was one of the leaders in the class. He’s one of those students that just gets it.”
Martinez applied for a job at Slate’s, one of Fresno’s finest restaurants. The interview was the first time he’d ever stepped into a fancy restaurant.
“I took him on because no one would probably hire the kid,” said Roy Harland, former executive chef of Slate’s. “A lot of the ultraconservative Fresno clientele would not be comfortable with a former Bulldog gang member walking through the dining room. I immediately knew this guy has talent and could create.”
His New Persona
Like the chocolate orb, Martinez’s “Baby Gangster” persona has melted away. When he’s not working at Hawks, Martinez raises four children in Antelope with his wife of seven years, Michelle.
Martinez moved his family to the Sacramento area two years ago from Napa, where he worked at the Michelin-starred Bistro Jeanty. He’s had other job opportunities, but lost some after potential employers checked his background. Either way, Martinez says, Hawks and Sacramento are happy homes for him.
“My kids are happy and they’re going to a good school,” said Martinez. “It’s about my wife and my kids now. That’s why I do everything I do. If it wasn’t for them, I wouldn’t be working 14 to 15 hours a day.”
Past the restaurant’s houndstooth chairs and blue walls, Martinez towers over the kitchen’s pastry station. He keeps a tank of liquid nitrogen close to whip up new pastries. One looks like something from a mad scientist’
s laboratory: frozen coconut mousse with coconut sorbet and cilantro oil drizzle.
The infusion of liquid nitrogen to the coconut mousse adds a theatrical kind of fog as the dessert freezes, with the final product looking like delicate cauliflower. The dish’s coconut flavors are perfectly pronounced, with Martinez’s cilantro oil adding a pleasing herbal accompaniment.
“I like to do modern stuff, but with classic techniques,” said Martinez. “I can put some liquid nitrogen into a mousse, but I can also knock out some perfect crepes for you. People will say, ‘Oh, this is so beautiful, can we speak to the pastry chef? Where is she?’ They’ll look at me like, ‘You made these plates?’”
He visits other restaurants for inspiration. In February, he and his wife traveled to New York City, dining at wd-50, Eleven Madison Park and Per Se. Over 14 courses at Per Se, dressed in a suit with his collar barely concealing his neck tattoos, he thought of how far he’d come.
“When I walked in, they were all, ‘Hi, how are you, Mr. Martinez?’” said Martinez. “I’m pretty sure I’m the only one from my neighborhood that’s ever going to do anything like this.”
Sometimes he feels the shadow of his past. Before St. Patrick’s Day this year, Martinez and others in the Hawks crew shaved their heads for charity. Everyone could see the “BD” tattoo. Two days later, he covered it with a giant skull tattoo.
His goal is to ink over all of his gang tattoos.
“I don’t want to be somewhere, like at the beach with my wife, and all of a sudden someone’s like, ‘What’s that FRESNO for?’” said Martinez. “I don’t give off the same vibe that I used to.”
Still, in the rush of a packed night at Hawks, and especially if someone botches one of Martinez’s desserts, he can snap. The difference now, Martinez said, is that he’ll apologize.
“To some degree, I think he still has some issues there,” said Joe Martinez. “But, he’s managed to control it quite a bit. . . . He’s done pretty good, and I’m very proud.”
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