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by Libba Bray


  The Sherriff’s wife turns the strange things in her hand, “These are bones,” she says, not certain until she says it and he doesn’t disagree. “Turn on the light so I can see better,” she says.

  But the Sherriff has a different idea. He takes one from the box and sets it on the dresser, amidst the junk of receipts, spare change, lint and socks, he shoves all that away to set the strange thing there, and then, he lights it, she sees the carving like lace, light spills across the room in flakes, like snow, light flutters to the ceiling like angels.

  “Where did you—”

  He sets more on the small wooden chair, shoving the papers off to do so (what are those papers anyway, she wonders, I must be going crazy) several on his night table, mostly clean already, and after moving her box of tissues, her crossword puzzle book, two mugs and several paperbacks off her nightstand, he sets three candles there. He sets candles on all available surfaces, until there is no space left, and even then many still remain in the box on her lap. When the candles are lit, the room is a kaleidoscope of light and shadow.

  The Sherriff crawls back in bed beside her. They lay side by side, watching the light flicker, expand and diminish, until they fall asleep, sleeping peacefully through one of the hardest mornings of the year, into the afternoon, when the corpse painter arrives, drawn by the strange light emanating from the uncurtained window, he watches the sleeping Sherriff and his wife, entwined as though they were two sides of a broken heart in a body composed of bones and light. The corpse painter turns, walking back the way he came, to his car parked at the curb. He puts on the sunglasses the Sherriff gave him, and then drives home through the quiet streets, in the dark.

  The Paper Menagerie

  Ken Liu

  Besides writing and translating speculative fiction, Ken Liu also practices law and develops software for iOS and Android devices. His fiction has appeared in The Magazine of Fantasy & Science Fiction, Asimov’s, Clarkesworld, Strange Horizons, TRSF, and Panverse 3, among other places. He lives near Boston, Massachusetts, with his wife, artist Lisa Tang Liu, and they are collaborating on their first novel.

  One of my earliest memories starts with me sobbing. I refused to be soothed no matter what Mom and Dad tried.

  Dad gave up and left the bedroom, but Mom took me into the kitchen and sat me down at the breakfast table.

  “Kan, kan,” she said, as she pulled a sheet of wrapping paper from on top of the fridge. For years, Mom carefully sliced open the wrappings around Christmas gifts and saved them on top of the fridge in a thick stack.

  She set the paper down, plain side facing up, and began to fold it. I stopped crying and watched her, curious.

  She turned the paper over and folded it again. She pleated, packed, tucked, rolled, and twisted until the paper disappeared between her cupped hands. Then she lifted the folded-up paper packet to her mouth and blew into it, like a balloon.

  “Kan,” she said. “Laohu.” She put her hands down on the table and let go.

  A little paper tiger stood on the table, the size of two fists placed together. The skin of the tiger was the pattern on the wrapping paper, white background with red candy canes and green Christmas trees.

  I reached out to Mom’s creation. Its tail twitched, and it pounced playfully at my finger. “Rawrr-sa,” it growled, the sound somewhere between a cat and rustling newspapers.

  I laughed, startled, and stroked its back with an index finger. The paper tiger vibrated under my finger, purring.

  “Zhe jiao zhezhi,” Mom said. This is called origami.

  I didn’t know this at the time, but Mom’s kind was special. She breathed into them so that they shared her breath, and thus moved with her life. This was her magic.

  Dad had picked Mom out of a catalog.

  One time, when I was in high school, I asked Dad about the details. He was trying to get me to speak to Mom again.

  He had signed up for the introduction service back in the spring of 1973. Flipping through the pages steadily, he had spent no more than a few seconds on each page until he saw the picture of Mom.

  I’ve never seen this picture. Dad described it: Mom was sitting in a chair, her side to the camera, wearing a tight green silk cheongsam. Her head was turned to the camera so that her long black hair was draped artfully over her chest and shoulder. She looked out at him with the eyes of a calm child.

  “That was the last page of the catalog I saw,” he said.

  The catalog said she was eighteen, loved to dance, and spoke good English because she was from Hong Kong. None of these facts turned out to be true.

  He wrote to her, and the company passed their messages back and forth. Finally, he flew to Hong Kong to meet her.

  “The people at the company had been writing her responses. She didn’t know any English other than ‘hello’ and ‘goodbye.’”

  What kind of woman puts herself into a catalog so that she can be bought? The high school me thought I knew so much about everything. Contempt felt good, like wine.

  Instead of storming into the office to demand his money back, he paid a waitress at the hotel restaurant to translate for them.

  “She would look at me, her eyes halfway between scared and hopeful, while I spoke. And when the girl began translating what I said, she’d start to smile slowly.”

  He flew back to Connecticut and began to apply for the papers for her to come to him. I was born a year later, in the Year of the Tiger.

  At my request, Mom also made a goat, a deer, and a water buffalo out of wrapping paper. They would run around the living room while Laohu chased after them, growling. When he caught them he would press down until the air went out of them and they became just flat, folded-up pieces of paper. I would then have to blow into them to re-inflate them so they could run around some more.

  Sometimes, the animals got into trouble. Once, the water buffalo jumped into a dish of soy sauce on the table at dinner. (He wanted to wallow, like a real water buffalo.) I picked him out quickly but the capillary action had already pulled the dark liquid high up into his legs. The sauce-softened legs would not hold him up, and he collapsed onto the table. I dried him out in the sun, but his legs became crooked after that, and he ran around with a limp. Mom eventually wrapped his legs in saran wrap so that he could wallow to his heart’s content (just not in soy sauce).

  Also, Laohu liked to pounce at sparrows when he and I played in the backyard. But one time, a cornered bird struck back in desperation and tore his ear. He whimpered and winced as I held him and Mom patched his ear together with tape. He avoided birds after that.

  And then one day, I saw a TV documentary about sharks and asked Mom for one of my own. She made the shark, but he flapped about on the table unhappily. I filled the sink with water, and put him in. He swam around and around happily. However, after a while he became soggy and translucent, and slowly sank to the bottom, the folds coming undone. I reached in to rescue him, and all I ended up with was a wet piece of paper.

  Laohu put his front paws together at the edge of the sink and rested his head on them. Ears drooping, he made a low growl in his throat that made me feel guilty.

  Mom made a new shark for me, this time out of tin foil. The shark lived happily in a large goldfish bowl. Laohu and I liked to sit next to the bowl to watch the tin foil shark chasing the goldfish, Laohu sticking his face up against the bowl on the other side so that I saw his eyes, magnified to the size of coffee cups, staring at me from across the bowl.

  When I was ten, we moved to a new house across town. Two of the women neighbors came by to welcome us. Dad served them drinks and then apologized for having to run off to the utility company to straighten out the prior owner’s bills. “Make yourselves at home. My wife doesn’t speak much English, so don’t think she’s being rude for not talking to you.”

  While I read in the dining room, Mom unpacked in the kitchen. The neighbors conversed in the living room, not trying to be particularly quiet.

  “He seems like a normal
enough man. Why did he do that?”

  “Something about the mixing never seems right. The child looks unfinished. Slanty eyes, white face. A little monster.”

  “Do you think he can speak English?”

  The women hushed. After a while they came into the dining room.

  “Hello there! What’s your name?”

  “Jack,” I said.

  “That doesn’t sound very Chinesey.”

  Mom came into the dining room then. She smiled at the women. The three of them stood in a triangle around me, smiling and nodding at each other, with nothing to say, until Dad came back.

  Mark, one of the neighborhood boys, came over with his Star Wars action figures. Obi-Wan Kenobi’s lightsaber lit up and he could swing his arms and say, in a tinny voice, “Use the Force!” I didn’t think the figure looked much like the real Obi-Wan at all.

  Together, we watched him repeat this performance five times on the coffee table. “Can he do anything else?” I asked.

  Mark was annoyed by my question. “Look at all the details,” he said.

  I looked at the details. I wasn’t sure what I was supposed to say.

  Mark was disappointed by my response. “Show me your toys.”

  I didn’t have any toys except my paper menagerie. I brought Laohu out from my bedroom. By then he was very worn, patched all over with tape and glue, evidence of the years of repairs Mom and I had done on him. He was no longer as nimble and sure-footed as before. I sat him down on the coffee table. I could hear the skittering steps of the other animals behind in the hallway, timidly peeking into the living room.

  “Xiao laohu,” I said, and stopped. I switched to English. “This is Tiger.” Cautiously, Laohu strode up and purred at Mark, sniffing his hands.

  Mark examined the Christmas-wrap pattern of Laohu’s skin. “That doesn’t look like a tiger at all. Your Mom makes toys for you from trash?”

  I had never thought of Laohu as trash. But looking at him now, he was really just a piece of wrapping paper.

  Mark pushed Obi-Wan’s head again. The lightsaber flashed; he moved his arms up and down. “Use the Force!”

  Laohu turned and pounced, knocking the plastic figure off the table. It hit the floor and broke, and Obi-Wan’s head rolled under the couch. “Rawwww,” Laohu laughed. I joined him.

  Mark punched me, hard. “This was very expensive! You can’t even find it in the stores now. It probably cost more than what your Dad paid for your Mom!”

  I stumbled and fell to the floor. Laohu growled and leapt at Mark’s face.

  Mark screamed, more out of fear and surprise than pain. Laohu was only made of paper, after all.

  Mark grabbed Laohu and his snarl was choked off as Mark crumpled him in his hand and tore him in half. He balled up the two pieces of paper and threw them at me. “Here’s your stupid cheap Chinese garbage.”

  After Mark left, I spent a long time trying, without success, to tape together the pieces, smooth out the paper, and follow the creases to refold Laohu. Slowly, the other animals came into the living room and gathered around us, me and the torn wrapping paper that used to be Laohu.

  My fight with Mark didn’t end there. Mark was popular at school. I never want to think again about the two weeks that followed.

  I came home that Friday at the end of the two weeks. “Xuexiao hao ma?” Mom asked. I said nothing and went to the bathroom. I looked into the mirror. I look nothing like her, nothing.

  At dinner I asked Dad, “Do I have a chink face?”

  Dad put down his chopsticks. Even though I had never told him what happened in school, he seemed to understand. He closed his eyes and rubbed the bridge of his nose. “No, you don’t.”

  Mom looked at Dad, not understanding. She looked back at me. “Sha jiao chink?”

  “English,” I said. “Speak English.”

  She tried. “What happen?”

  I pushed the chopsticks and the bowl before me away: stir-fried green peppers with five-spice beef. “We should eat American food.”

  Dad tried to reason. “A lot of families cook Chinese sometimes.”

  “We are not other families.” I looked at him. Other families don’t have Moms who don’t belong.

  He looked away. And then he put a hand on Mom’s shoulder. “I’ll get you a cookbook.”

  Mom turned to me. “Bu haochi?”

  “English,” I said, raising my voice. “Speak English.”

  Mom reached out to touch my forehead, feeling for my temperature. “Fashao la?”

  I brushed her hand away. “I’m fine. Speak English!” I was shouting.

  “Speak English to him,” Dad said to Mom. “You knew this was going to happen some day. What did you expect?”

  Mom dropped her hands to her side. She sat, looking from Dad to me, and back to Dad again. She tried to speak, stopped, and tried again, and stopped again.

  “You have to,” Dad said. “I’ve been too easy on you. Jack needs to fit in.”

  Mom looked at him. “If I say ‘love,’ I feel here.” She pointed to her lips. “If I say ‘ai’ I feel here.” She put her hand over her heart.

  Dad shook his head. “You are in America.”

  Mom hunched down in her seat, looking like the water buffalo when Laohu used to pounce on him and squeeze the air of life out of him.

  “And I want some real toys.”

  Dad bought me a full set of Star Wars action figures. I gave the Obi-Wan Kenobi to Mark.

  I packed the paper menagerie in a large shoebox and put it under the bed.

  The next morning, the animals had escaped and took over their old favorite spots in my room. I caught them all and put them back into the shoebox, taping the lid shut. But the animals made so much noise in the box that I finally shoved it into the corner of the attic as far away from my room as possible.

  If Mom spoke to me in Chinese, I refused to answer her. After a while, she tried to use more English. But her accent and broken sentences embarrassed me. I tried to correct her. Eventually, she stopped speaking altogether if I were around.

  Mom began to mime things if she needed to let me know something. She tried to hug me the way she saw American mothers did on TV. I thought her movements exaggerated, uncertain, ridiculous, graceless. She saw that I was annoyed, and stopped.

  “You shouldn’t treat your mother that way,” Dad said. But he couldn’t look me in the eyes as he said it. Deep in his heart, he must have realized that it was a mistake to have tried to take a Chinese peasant girl and expect her to fit in the suburbs of Connecticut.

  Mom learned to cook American style. I played video games and studied French.

  Every once in a while, I would see her at the kitchen table studying the plain side of a sheet of wrapping paper. Later a new paper animal would appear on my nightstand and try to cuddle up to me. I caught them, squeezed them until the air went out of them, and then stuffed them away in the box in the attic.

  Mom finally stopped making the animals when I was in high school. By then her English was much better, but I was already at that age when I wasn’t interested in what she had to say whatever language she used.

  Sometimes, when I came home and saw her tiny body busily moving about in the kitchen, singing a song in Chinese to herself, it was hard for me to believe that she gave birth to me. We had nothing in common. She might as well be from the Moonmoon. I would hurry on to my room, where I could continue my all-American pursuit of happiness.

  Dad and I stood, one on each side of Mom, lying on the hospital bed. She was not yet even forty, but she looked much older.

  For years she had refused to go to the doctor for the pain inside her that she said was no big deal. By the time an ambulance finally carried her in, the cancer had spread far beyond the limits of surgery.

  My mind was not in the room. It was the middle of the on-campus recruiting season, and I was focused on resumes, transcripts, and strategically constructed interview schedules. I schemed about how to lie to the corporate recr
uiters most effectively so that they’ll offer to buy me. I understood intellectually that it was terrible to think about this while your mother lay dying. But that understanding didn’t mean I could change how I felt.

  She was conscious. Dad held her left hand with both of his own. He leaned down to kiss her forehead. He seemed weak and old in a way that startled me. I realized that I knew almost as little about Dad as I did about Mom.

  Mom smiled at him. “I’m fine.”

  She turned to me, still smiling. “I know you have to go back to school.” Her voice was very weak and it was difficult to hear her over the hum of the machines hooked up to her. “Go. Don’t worry about me. This is not a big deal. Just do well in school.”

  I reached out to touch her hand, because I thought that was what I was supposed to do. I was relieved. I was already thinking about the flight back, and the bright California sunshine.

  She whispered something to Dad. He nodded and left the room.

  “Jack, if—” she was caught up in a fit of coughing, and could not speak for some time. “If I ... don’t make it, don’t be too sad and hurt your health. Focus on your life. Just keep that box you have in the attic with you, and every year, at Qingming, just take it out and think about me. I’ll be with you always.”

 

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