Something flashed in her eyes and then she inclined her head. “Pay for your own whiskey, then.”
“I wouldn’t have it any other way.” He nodded toward her and looked around, tried to figure out where the fucking hell he’d put the damn whiskey. He’d had a drink, hadn’t he?
“Son of a bitch,” he mumbled, barely even noticing that he’d banged into the wall on his way out of the bar. Lights blurred together and shadows swayed in and out of the focus, coming alive on him.
There were voices.
Then a shout.
The one last clear thing he remembered was trying to remember where the hell he’d put his damn phone.
* * *
A harsh pounding noise split through his head, like a cleaver striking through bone.
Trey jerked upright and immediately wished he hadn’t so much as moved.
Nausea churned inside and his belly revolted.
He shuddered, braced an arm over his gut as he looked around.
No light.
Couldn’t see—
“You awake there, sunshine?” Lights flashed on.
He flinched at the sound of that voice, as familiar to him as his own. It was quiet—logically, he knew that, but it sounded as loud and booming as a fucking gong.
He groaned and rolled over, grabbing for his pillow so he could drown out the too loud sounds and the too bright lights.
Hearing his twin’s sigh, he thought maybe Travis would take pity on him and let him sleep off this hangover from hell. Trey couldn’t remember the last time he’d been this wasted.
“Come on, man,” Travis said a moment later. “You need to wake up.”
The sound of his brother’s voice was too loud, too harsh and he groaned pitifully.
“Mr. Barnes?”
He jerked at the sound of the new voice.
A hand pressed down on his shoulder.
“Easy there, Trey. I’ll take care of it. You just . . . try not to fall out of the bed.”
That made him crack open one eye—immediately, he wished he hadn’t, because the lights were harsh and bright and unforgiving. Anybody who had ever painted hell as a dark and smoky place was out of his mind. Hell was pure, unrelenting, blinding light and there was no escape from it. Trey flinched away from the searing brightness, feeling like his eyeballs had been singed.
He heard low voices, a hushed, hurried argument and he decided he was going to have to brave that hell. Cracking open his eye once more—just a slit—he looked around.
The place was disturbingly familiar.
Too bright. Yeah, he didn’t like that. Aseptic smells—
That tugged at something—immediately, his mind went on a sideways lurch and he rolled into a seated position and found himself on the edge of a bed that was most certainly not his own. He was bare-chested but wearing pants that he thought probably were his, although they were torn at the knee and dirty. His knuckles were bandaged—bruised.
What the—
“You okay there?”
He flexed his hand as Travis came around to stand in front of him.
Looking up, he found himself looking face-to-face at a disheveled mirror of himself. Then he glanced down at his wrecked trousers, his bare chest and his torn-up fists. Maybe he was the disheveled reflection this time around. Swallowing the nasty taste in his mouth, he eyed the wrinkled button-down Travis was wearing with a pair of trousers. He looked like he’d slept in them.
Then he looked down at himself, eyed the identification bracelet on his wrist. His head was an endless void—nothing but black stretching back—an awful pain settled at the base of his head and he slid from the bed, half stumbled, half shoved his way past his twin.
“Why am I in the hospital?”
“You . . .” Travis paused, taking his time before he said anything else. “You were at a bar. There was a fight. The bartender ended up calling the cops—you were all but unconscious in the parking lot.”
Trey ran his tongue across his teeth. “A bar.”
“Yeah. Ah . . . you lost your wallet. Whatever cash you had. I already shut down the credit cards, although I think whoever had them might have already tried to use them—I heard some talk from the cops. You can . . . we can talk about this later.”
“There was a woman,” he muttered as he flexed his aching hands. “I . . . I almost remember.”
“The doctors here, they ran a few blood tests. Ah . . . nothing happened. Just so you know—apparently you defaulted to fight mode and some . . .”
“What aren’t you telling me?” Trey asked, studying his brother’s face.
Travis came to stand closer, only a couple of feet away. “It looks like somebody slipped you something in your drink, Trey.”
“Slipped . . . what?”
He stared at Travis, confused.
“Somebody gave you drugs—you’ve got Xanax in your bloodstream.” Travis’s mouth went tight.
Trey’s head continued to pound and it only got worse as he studied his brother. “You didn’t need to come here for this, man. I can . . .” He swore and reached up to rub at his head, hoping it wouldn’t fall away. A memory tried to work free.
Voices . . . shouting . . .
Misery.
Abruptly, his throat started to ache.
“Why are you here?” he asked, his voice rough. “You were working some stupid-ass case in Toledo, last I heard. Wouldn’t be able to visit for a while.”
“Trey . . .”
The compassion in his twin’s voice almost shattered him.
“No.” He shook his head and spun around. The movement almost sent his aching head crashing off his shoulders and he welcomed it. He banged into the bed, almost fell down—would have—if Travis hadn’t steadied him.
He threw his twin’s hands off. “Get out of here!” he shouted. “You got a fucking job to do! Ain’t no reason for you to . . .”
He almost hit the floor when he tried to take a swing at Travis, his aim off. Just that movement had nausea pitching through him.
“Easy,” Travis said, steadying him once more, ignoring the anger as if it had never existed. “Come on, Trey. Just sit down. Just sit down . . . and breathe. This . . . some of this, it’s just the drugs. Once that shit is out of your system, you’ll feel better.”
“Drugs.” He latched onto that, desperate to think of anything but the knowledge that had started to work free in the back of his head. “Why would somebody spike my drink?”
“Yeah.” Travis eased him back onto the bed. “The bartender saw you talking to a woman, but he can’t really describe her.”
Trey’s lids drooped down. There was an echo of a laugh, but even as he tried to grab that memory, something else snuck up, grabbed him.
Aliesha’s memory. Warm and soft and wonderful. Out of the gaping void of his mind, something ugly crept up. He saw himself, gripping a phone.
“Mr. Barnes, I’m afraid there’s been an accident . . .”
“Travis?” he whispered.
“Yeah?”
He swallowed, the words trembling on the tip of his tongue. He didn’t want to say it—didn’t want to think it.
No, what he wanted to do was go back to those few moments when he’d only had the hangover from hell to deal with.
Those few moments when he’d forgotten that his wife was dead.
Chapter One
Week One
The first time Trey Barnes saw her it caught him by surprise.
Not because he knew her.
Not because of anything she did.
But because it had been almost six years since a woman had caused this kind of reaction in him.
Six years.
So it was a punch in the gut when he walked into the main branch of the Norfolk library for the kid’s reading program and saw her. His tongue all but glued itself to the roof of his mouth and his brain threatened to do a slow meltdown.
The woman was kneeling down in the middle of a circle of kids, a smile on her f
ace. Her mouth was slicked wine red, and he suddenly found himself dying of thirst.
It had also been almost six years since he’d touched a drop of alcohol, but in that moment, he found himself imagining a glass of wine. Wine . . . wine red lips, wine red sheets and the two of them stretched out on a bed as he ran his hands over that warm, lovely brown skin.
“Come on, Daddy!” Clayton jerked on his hand. “Let’s go! I want to go play.”
His son’s voice dragged him out of the fantasy, rich and lush as it was, and he shook his head a little to clear it. A heavy fullness lingered in his loins and he was glad he’d gotten used to looking like a bum. The untucked shirt had fit him well enough when he bought it years ago, but the weight he’d lost after Aliesha’s death had stayed off, so the shirt hung loose on his rangy frame. Loose enough that he figured it would hide the hard-on that had yet to subside.
A few minutes surrounded by chattering preschoolers ought to do it.
Clayton let go of his hand as he got closer and Trey reached up, nudging his sunglasses firmly into place. As he’d retreated further and further into hermit mode, fewer people recognized him, but he rarely went anywhere without something to hide his face. Between the hair he rarely remembered to cut and the sunglasses, people often looked right past him these days.
A shrill shriek split the air as two kids started to fight over a book.
That’s going to do it, he mused. Blood that had burned so hot a minute before dropped back into the normal zone.
Only to jump right back up into the danger zone.
Miz Sexy Librarian had crossed to the kids and now stood in front of them, her back to him.
And fuck . . . her voice was a wet dream.
“Now I know you two weren’t raised to treat books that way. Do you do that at home?”
Two pint-sized little blond heads tipped back to stare up at her. Trey barely noticed them, because his gaze was riveted on the plump, round curve of her ass. How could he not notice that ass? She wore a long, skinny skirt that went down a few inches below her knees and her stockings were the kind with a seam that ran up the back of her legs.
He passed a hand over his mouth.
Hell of a way to realize he could still get aroused—in the middle of the children’s section of the very public, very busy, Norfolk library. Gritting his teeth, he focused on the ceiling. Would counting sheep help?
“Hello.”
That whiskey-smooth drawl was like a silken hand stroking down his back . . . or other things. He cleared his throat. Speak, dumb-ass.
“Hi!”
Saved by the Clayton-meister.
Mentally blowing out a breath, he watched as his son rocked back and forth on his heels, smiling up at the woman.
“Are you here for the program?” she asked.
“I am!” Clayton stuck out his hand. “I’m Clay. I love books. My dad tells me stories. All the time. Sometimes he even makes them up. He gets paid to do that, too.”
Despite the total insanity of the moment, Trey found himself biting back a laugh.
That boy, in so many ways, had been a bright and strong light in what would have been nothing but a pit of misery for far too long.
* * *
Oh, honey . . . come to Mama.
Ressa Bliss would have been licking her chops if she had been anywhere remotely private.
Long, almost too lean, with a heavy growth of stubble and a mouth made for kissing, biting . . . other things . . .
He wore a dark pair of glasses that hid too much of his face and she wanted to reach up, pull them off.
Because she wanted so much to do that, she focused on the boy instead.
She shook his hand, much of what he’d just said running together in her head. She’d caught his name, though. “Well, hello, Clay. It’s lovely to meet you.”
He grinned at her, displaying a tooth that looked like it might fall out at any second—literally—she thought it might be hanging in there by luck alone.
Clay caught the man’s hand in his and leaned against him. “This is my daddy.”
She slid Mr. Beautiful a look. “Hello, Clay’s daddy.”
He gave her a one-sided smile. “Hi.” Then he crouched in front of his son. “So. Program lasts for fifty minutes. I’ll be over in the grown-ups area if you need me.”
“That area is boring.” Clay wrinkled up his nose.
“Well, if I stay here, I’ll just play.” A real grin covered his face now and Ressa felt her heart melt. Since he was distracted, she shot a look at his hands—ring? Did he have one?
Crap. Some sort of gloves covered his hands from knuckle to well up over his wrists. No way to tell.
Clay leaned in and wrapped his arms around his father’s neck. “Love you.”
And her heart melted even more as he turned his face into his son’s neck. “Love you, too, buddy. Have fun.”
A man like that was most certainly not unattached.
But she still stole one last, quick glance as he walked away.
The back was every bit as fine as the front.
Chapter Two
Week Eleven
Just breathe, man.
That had become his mantra any time he was even in the general area of the library.
Trey sometimes felt like Pavlov’s dog or something, but instead of salivating every time he heard a damn bell, he got hard every time he was close to the library. Didn’t matter if he went inside, didn’t matter if he knew she was here.
Because he was used to seeing her here.
Which was why he was now in the condition he was in. He’d gone for a run, but not anywhere around home. No. He’d come downtown. Close to the library and as he crossed onto Ocean View, he caught sight of the sun shining off the glass and, right on cue, his gaze locked in on the second floor, the children’s library, where she worked.
And predictably, his blood started to pump harder and hotter. It didn’t have jack to do with the fact that he was two miles into his run, or that it was barely ten o’clock and it was already pushing up on ninety degrees out.
He found his feet slowing down, an idea spinning through his mind.
He could go inside.
The air conditioning would feel good.
No, he didn’t have Clayton with him, but he could wander around. Maybe wander upstairs, say hi . . . let one thing lead to another.
If the opportunity presented itself, would it hurt to ask her out for coffee sometime? Maybe dinner?
If he had an hour or so alone with her, maybe he could take a chance and see if he could do the one thing he’d been dying to do for almost three months now.
Take that lush, sexy mouth with his, tug that amazing body close—
Feel her moving against him . . .
And then the same thing will happen that happens whenever a woman touches you. Your brain is going to lock down and your dick is going to play dead, just like always.
Closing his eyes, he turned away.
Yeah.
Better to just keep things in fantasy land.
But hey, at least he had fantasy land back.
That was better than nothing . . . right?
* * *
“That is him, right?”
All but pressing her nose to the glass, Ressa jabbed her elbow into Farrah’s . . . err . . . boob? That’s what happened when your best friend kept jabbering on in your ear and stood about four inches shorter than you. “Hush,” she said irritably, watching as the muscled back, barely covered by a threadbare, heather gray tank top started to pound down the sidewalk, the runner moving at a sharp angle—away from the library.
“Ress!”
Heaving out a sigh, she looked over at her best friend.
“I couldn’t see his face.”
“Nobody can ever see his face. The man seems to have two looks. Either his hair is in his face or he’s hiding behind those glasses.” Farrah pursed her lips. “Maybe he’s a criminal.”
“Get out.” Annoyed,
Ressa nibbled on her lower lip and went back to looking out the window. Not that she could see him any longer. But man, what she wouldn’t give for another few minutes to stare.
That man had a body on him, for real. Skin stretched tight over long, rangy muscles, and while she had a weird need to feed him a sandwich—or ten, that long and lean look fit him. And the tattoo . . . She hadn’t been able to make out what it was, but it was something dark and dense and it appeared to cover his entire back.
Echoing her thoughts, Farrah murmured, “You saw the tattoo, right? I wonder what it is.”
“Hmmm.” Out of habit, Ressa traced the triquetra inked on her chest between her breasts. “Oh, yeah. I saw it.”
Farrah snorted. “So, let me guess, you still haven’t gotten his name, have you?”
Ressa moved away from the window. “Don’t you work? You’re the big gun around here. You should be doing whatever they pay you the big bucks for, not bugging me.”
“How is it possible that you still haven’t gotten his name?” Farrah ignored her completely.
“I don’t know!” She winced as several of the kids in the area looked up at her. Lowering her voice, she shrugged. “I don’t know. It’s like he . . . he . . . he’s tormenting me. I’ve tried every way other than just outright saying, Buddy, just what is your name? Nothing subtle works.”
“Why don’t you ask him outright?”
Ressa moved to the cart. “You know, even if you don’t have work to do, I do. I like my job.” She sniffed. It was summer and that meant more kids in the library, more kids reading . . . the summer reading program . . . man, if she survived another summer of it, she considered herself lucky.
“Obviously. That’s the only reason you’re here,” Farrah said, lifting a brow. “It’s not like you have to be.”
Ressa ignored that comment.
“You didn’t answer me. Why don’t you ask him? And hey . . . just bite the bullet and ask him out on a date?”
It’s too obvious. She kept that answer behind her teeth. Then, with a sidelong look at her boss, she lifted a shoulder. “I just . . .” She grabbed a couple of books and went to shelve them, pausing as she studied one. “I can’t explain it. He’s crazy hot. He’s crazy sexy. But something is holding me back.”
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