Thrall (A Vampire Romance)

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by Abigail Graham


  I want to know why this man cares so much.

  I want to do something else. Be somewhere else.

  So, books.

  I end up staring at the page. I flip through the Lord of the Rings but I lack the patience to really read it. It’s not really the easiest book. A great book, but not a brisk read by any stretch of the imagination. When I look at the pages I see faces staring back at me. Andi, that boy and girl.

  I never knew their names or their ages. What he told me makes me sick. If by feeding the vampires ate their souls, were they torn into pieces? Kept apart? What were they to each other? Lovers, or brother and sister? Maybe I read too much into it and he was just kind and selfless for all the good it did him.

  One thing I know for sure: They died and I didn’t. Or, at least, I got to get up and walk around after. Keep going. They’re gone.

  I look down at the pages and see one is dogeared and wonder what kind of a jerk dog-eared a collectible leather-bound gilded book. I turn to that page and scan down until I see the passage of interest that marks this page as special. There are many who live and deserve death, and many who die and deserve life.

  With a thump, I close the book. No, I can’t give it to them.

  I slip the book back in its case and stare at the others. There’s a collection of textbooks mixed in with the others. English texts, what look like philosophy texts. I’m so curious as to why Michael thought I would enjoy reading Nietzsche and the American Experience that I can’t help pull it off the shelf. It’s a used textbook, like many of the others. As I turn it, I see marks on the bottom. Someone has written across the edge of the pages.

  C. MOORE

  When I open the front cover there’s a name on the inside, beneath another name, crossed out. The latest owner.

  Christine Moore.

  I drop the book. It flops right out of my hands with a dull thud and I stumble backwards until I hit the bed and slide to the floor.

  That’s me. My name.

  My name is Christine Elizabeth Moore.

  I say it softly to myself, out loud. “Christine Elizabeth Moore.” Each syllable is like a word in a song, the whole thing a chant. Each little piece of sound sends a shiver running through me as I play with them, bounce them around with my voice. My name is Christine Elizabeth Moore. I remember my name. I can feel it. There’s more. I was named for my grandmother on either side of my family, a Christine on one and an Elizabeth on the other- we called her Betty. My mother’s name is Sarah. I don’t know her face or her voice or her touch. I feel them but I can’t see them, but I can remember her name.

  Slowly, very slowly, I get up.

  I look around the room. I touch the table, the chairs. I pick up the Nietzsche book and put it on the table, spread open. It belongs there. It owns the place. I look at the hearth, look around the bedroom, at the bed. I go to the closet and open it and pull out the first article of clothing I can. It’s just a shirt, plain, nothing special about it, but it’s mine.

  Somebody took my bedroom and perfectly recreated it in this house. I’m sure of it now. When I look at the television, even it is familiar. It’s a flatscreen but not top of the line, more from age than anything. The plastic parts are a little scuffed, one side a little faded from the sun during the day. How did he get all this stuff? Why would he build a perfect replica of my bedroom in another place?

  I shake my head. It hurts to think about it. Every time I try to puzzle it out I feel something clouding it at the back of my head, making it go all fuzzy.

  There’s something I’m missing. A piece of the puzzle, and when I find it, all of it will click.

  Nietzsche is a little heavy. I put it back, and then spot it.

  The book from my dream. Creased and scratched with a worn cover, just like the one I remember. I pull it down and take it to the bed and begin to read. I fall into another world, away from this one. For a little while I feel alive as I soak in the familiarity. The room is crowded with the edges of memory, like any moment the door will fly open and somebody I recognize step through.

  I yawn.

  I sleep. It hits me before I realize it’s coming. I’m aware of the book tumbling out of my hands, then blackness.

  A voice calls my name in the dark.

  Christine.

  I’m back in the hallway, walking on broken tiles with bare bleeding feet, hugging myself against the cold. I can see puffs of mist in front of my face when I breathe. I’m breathing. The voice rolls through the dark again, echoing off the lockers in a tinny drumbeat. It rolls over my shoulders and moves me forward with a physical force and I break out into a run. The voice rises behind me, louder and louder, in an angry dirge.

  Tiles breaking. Footsteps. I see a long shadow on the wall behind me as she moves down the hall to follow, calling my name.

  Die with me, Christine.

  I can’t do this. I have to get some place safe. I can’t see her.

  If I see her I’ll die. I just know it.

  Someplace safe. I think that over and over as the tiles cut into my feet, biting red gashes into my heels as I run. Someplace away from here, someplace safe.

  Then I’m not in the hallway anymore.

  I’m lying on something fuzzy and hard, staring up a sagging headliner. I’m lying in the back of a car, on the folded down seats. The scratchy carpet is under my arms but I’m lying on a blanket with a flat, lifeless pillow under my head. My chest rises and falls, I’m breathing hard and covered in a thin sheen of cooling sweat. I raise my hand and move it in front of my face, watching my fingers, and giggle softly to myself. I’m sore as hell between my legs, but I feel contented, like a cat lying out in the sun.

  Beside me someone stirs. He rolls over and slides his arm around me. We’re naked under the blankets. His hands are rough from lifting weights but his skin is smooth as silk. I try to turn and face him but I can’t move. My arms move on their own. I’m just a passenger here.

  I hear the words but I don’t hear the voice.

  “I love you.”

  I see my hand, my slender delicate fingers lacing between his as he squeezes my palm.

  “I love you too,” I giggle.

  “Can I keep you?”

  “Yes.”

  He takes my hand and slides a cheap little ring on my finger. It looks like it’s about two steps above something from one of those gumball prize machines. Costume jewelry.

  I’ve never seen anything more beautiful.

  “I’ll get you a real one, someday. I promise. With diamonds and emeralds just like you like.”

  “I don’t need that. I just need you.”

  I can move my fingers. I can move. I turn my head, but when I look at him I see his face as though through shattered glass, behind a blurred mirror. I hear his words but not his voice.

  “I love you so much.”

  I reach out to touch his face and the glass cuts my fingers.

  There’s something behind me. It’s hateful and ancient. I can feel it approaching, feel its silvery sharp legs digging into the carpeting behind me. I draw closer to him.

  “Tell me your name,” I plead. “Tell me who you are.”

  “Why do you ask if you already know the answer?”

  He’s gone and I’m back in the hallway, and the thing is behind me.

  I run, but first I turn to look. It’s in the shadows, swallowing up the light. I see hints of silvery, chitinous legs, a bulbous hairy body, nine eyes instead of eight. It’s so utterly wrong that it freezes me on the spot before I tear my eyes away and bolt full tilt down the hall past the dead classrooms, weaving between and jumping over doors and piles of junk, broken down desks and old books in stacks.

  The impact throws me backwards to the ground. Andi stands over me in her bare feet, her skin as pale as paper, dark rings around her eyes, her lips a pale bloodless blue. Her throat is a ruin of shredded flesh hanging loose down the front of her shirt until she gathers it up and mushes it back in with her hand and speaks in a harsh r
asp.

  You killed me, she accuses, her voice scraping around the insides of my skull.

  “It wasn’t my fault. He made me.”

  You held me down and ripped open my neck.

  “I’m sorry,” I clutch the sides of my head. “I couldn’t help it. I didn’t want to. He made me.”

  I was your best friend.

  I look down at my hands and they’re bleeding. Wounds open slowly across my palms, cutting themselves into my flesh, bleeding down my arms, like I’m raking them through a thorn bush. They’re opening all over, the red soaking through my clothes. Behind me the thing with too many eyes hisses and raises it legs, and glistening wet fangs gleam in the murk.

  A light shines in the darkness, blinding. I collapse back as the sunlight soaks into my skin, and burns. Smoke erupts from under my nails, ash falls from my hair, makes a choking glob in my throat. Andi screams, and all the color leaves her, leaving an Andi-shaped mass of translucent film that barely hangs together.

  “Help me, Chris,” she begs me in a tiny voice. “I don’t know where I am. It’s dark in here. I’m scared.”

  Then she’s gone.

  The light grows stronger, and stronger. When I look I see two things at the same time. I see two serpents twined together, facing each other, over a black sun. I see him. He raises his left hand and the cheap ring on his finger matches mine. The light is in the glass gemstone, hammering away the dark. I can’t see his face for the light, but it’s there, so close I can taste it. I rise up despite the pain, despite the flames sloughing the skin from my bones, and reach for him. His hand is inches away.

  In the dark the thing hisses and takes my leg, ramming its sword-blade limb through my flesh, and drags me back to the darkness.

  His hand closes around mine, his grip firm and strong. When he touches me I feel a dozen flashes, hints of things I used to hold in my heart and sleep soundly.

  “Can I keep you?” he says, and I hear his voice.

  “Yes!”

  A shape moves in my chest, beat-beat, beat-beat. My lungs burn, my eyes water.

  Then I wake up.

  My skin is burning. This isn’t a dream, I can feel it. I topple onto the floor, clutching my chest. It’s not my imagination, there’s something moving in there in rhythmic thumps. I gasp and gurgle for breath, arching my back to breathe deeper and fill my lungs, but no matter how much air I draw in. I can hear voices.

  “This isn’t working, Mike.”

  “Give it time.”

  “You said you could fix her.”

  “I said I could help her. I never said I could fix her.”

  “This isn’t helping her. She’s suffering.”

  “You can’t imagine what I’ve been through, Sarah, and I’d do it all again a thousand times over. I’ll never let her go. Never. I’ll follow her into Hell itself. You know that.”

  “I know, but my little girl…”

  I know that voice. He’s talking to…

  “Mom?” I croak.

  They can’t hear me. I crawl to the door. The movement in my chest is a hammering now. I feel crawly all over, something moving under my skin. Then I look at the clock.

  It can’t be four in the morning. I’d be awake. That means four in the afternoon.

  That means the sun is up.

  I hit the door with my fist.

  Then it stops. My chest goes still. Cold sweeps through my body, more than ever. I fall in a heap to the floor and blackness comes up from the deep in a crushing wave and when it pulls back again, I go with it.

  But not all the way.

  I’m still here. I can hear, almost feel. The door clicks and opens, and I hear two sets of footsteps. Arms slide under my body and lift me bodily from the floor, cradling me against a warm body as I’m carried like a newlywed back to the bed. He lays me down and pulls the blankets up to my chin, turns me, fluffs the pillow, sweeps my hair back out of my face.

  “She almost looks peaceful, doesn’t she?”

  Why can’t I move? If I could just open my eyes. Please, God let me just open my eyes.

  “Mike, look. She moved.”

  “I told you, it is working. We’re getting closer and closer every night. I can reach her.”

  “Can I sit with her a while?”

  “Not now. It’ll be sunset soon. We need to let her come around on her own. Come on.”

  The door closes. I’m alone again.

  When he opens the door I’m already waiting for him. I went right to it as soon as I could move.

  “What are you doing to me?”

  He stops before he enters the room.

  “Can I come in?”

  “Answer me. Please. What’s happening to me? How did I wake up during the day?”

  “I’ll tell you what you need to know. Sit on the bed.”

  “I need to know it all,” I say, rising on my tip-toes.

  He leans in, over me. I freeze, eyes wide. If he moved any closer all he’d have to do is tilt his head a little and touch his lips to mine. Kiss me. I stumble back and he steps into the room and closes the door, and brushes his hair back with his hand as he sets a cooler down on the side table. He tosses me the blood pack. I catch it, and look at it.

  “Is there something in this?”

  “Just blood.”

  “Where does it come from?”

  “I can’t tell you that.”

  “Why not?”

  “It’s given willingly. No one is hurt in the process.”

  I look at the frigid plastic bag in my hands and shudder. I need it. The thirst is roiling in my belly, but as I bring it up to pull off the cap I can’t help but stare at the dark red. Finally I force myself to snap it open with my teeth and gulp it down, squeezing so it goes down that much faster. It pours cold down my throat and churns in my stomach. The usual disgust is there, but I feel like I’m going to be sick.

  “Is my mother here?”

  He’s watching me intently.

  “Yes. She is.”

  “She s-saw me?”

  “Yes,” he says, softly.

  I crack. That’s the right word. I just break, and the sobs start. He leaps up from his chair and rushes to the bed, and sits beside me. When he sinks into the mattress I fall against him naturally, casually, with a feeling of familiarity that almost breaks through the sorrow. He puts his arm around me and I don’t fight it. More than that. I plunge my face into his chest and sob and he takes me in his arms and just lets me.

  “What’s wrong?” he says, finally, as he smoothes my hair out of my face.

  “Not like this,” I whimper. “Don’t let her see me like this.”

  “She already has.”

  I sob all that much harder.

  “She still loves you. More than anything. Your life is still here, Christine. We’re still here for you.”

  “We?”

  “You too?”

  “Yes.”

  “Why? Who are you?”

  He swallows. I can feel his throat move when he rests his chin on my head.

  “We’re working on that. You have to come to it on your own. I can’t just tell you. I wish you knew how much I need to.”

  “Who else? What h-happened to Andi’s family?”

  He sits up and leans away from me.

  “I need to know. Please.”

  “You’re still a missing person’s case, but… we’ll come to that later.”

  “Come to what?”

  “Nothing. Andi was found six weeks after the two of you disappeared.”

  “Found how,” I say.

  “In,” I can hear him choking up, “In a landfill. They just threw her away. Police wrote it off. Young girl goes to Vegas, gets high, falls in with the wrong crowd. When they found her they used that as an excuse to stop looking for you.”

  The crying starts anew, soft and quiet. I swipe at my cheeks and my hand comes away pink.

  I freeze, staring at it. It’s like water mixed with blood. Salt water. Real tears
.

  He rises and heads to the bathroom. He comes back with a warm, damp cloth and sits beside me, turning me to face him. I don’t protest as he dabs my cheeks with the cloth and wipes my hands, working the cloth between my fingers.

  “I don’t understand what’s happening to me.”

  “I know. There will come a time when I can explain everything. I need you to trust me.”

  “You hurt me. You burnt me with the sun.”

  “I know. I didn’t want to. There is no other way, but we’re getting closer. You need to remember. Tell me what you can remember next.”

  I lean on him, and I tell him.

  Chapter Twelve

  I’m not sure how I got back from the party. Vincent must have brought me back to the penthouse. The next thing I remember is waking up, after spending the day on the floor at the foot of the bed, not that it matters where I ‘slept.’

  I sat up, and waited for orders. Vincent stepped off the bed. He never bothered with the sheets or blankets, they were for show. He did not yawn or act in any way human. He barely noticed me at all as he went about his routine of cleaning his teeth and changing his clothes. I knelt there and stared at the floor. There was still a crust of blood on my chin.

  “Clean yourself up. Then go to my sister. I’m going out. You are not.”

  He left me. I looked up as he stepped out into the hall.

  Pausing there, he looked back over his shoulder.

  “Your silly little mind is still open to me. Any thoughts of rebellion and you will be disciplined.”

  I knelt there for a time, then got up and went to clean up. It was worse than I thought. I stopped and stared at myself in the mirror, whimpering. I was covered in gore. There was stuff stuck in my teeth, hair or cloth or both clinging to my nails. I stuffed my clothes down the laundry chute and got in the shower.

  The hot water swept the dried blood away in clots and I watched it swirl around the drain. It looked like chocolate sauce. The heat of the water gave me nothing, and when the water ran clear I shut it off.

  Left to choose my own outfit I put on the most modest thing I could find, and it still made me look like a streetwalker. I didn’t bother with shoes. I wandered out into the penthouse, wondering what Victoria would do to me. I had a terrible certainty that she hated me. She never looked at me, never spoke to me. When she talked to her brother she pretended I wasn’t there, but she was always taking a glance at me here or there, from the corner of her eye. I couldn’t feel her presence at all. She was a walking blank, a void in the world around her.

 

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