To ‘Mark’, for reading through the bits you’re in and not demanding I remove them. Sorry for slapping you that time at your party. And for calling you a dick. You’re pretty chill now. And you have a good sense of humour.
And same goes to Dave the Woman. There was a time the legal team thought we’d have to change your name to Steve the Woman to help protect your identity, but that doesn’t have the same ring to it somehow. Thanks for being cool about letting us use it.
To my Muse NYC family – Conor, Becca, Danielle, Veken, Derek, Jess, Chrissie, Dan, Tara and anyone else I may have forgotten – thank you for believing in me when I’ve often given up on myself. You’ve made my dreams come true … and then some!
To all the people reading this who might be struggling with an eating disorder or mental health issues. Help is within reach. You can be happy. I chat to many girls on Instagram who struggle with their body image, and allowing us to share our experiences has aided in so much of my recovery. So thank you, thank you, thank you.
And finally, to my family – especially to my mum, who has had to listen to me tirelessly ask for reassurance (thanks, OCD) for the last twenty years. Thanks for not throttling me at times I’m sure you would have very much liked to. I love you all so much.
xxx
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