Every time she felt something meaningful directly to her core and her heart, thoughts of Rico and her past invaded and destroyed those thoughts. Would she ever feel safe, confident, and willing to risk a broken heart or even a broken body? Why did thoughts of being with any man make her feel pain, worthlessness, and like she was being used?
She closed her eyes to will back the tears and adjusted her body in the seat. Both men climbed into the truck and she felt claustrophobic. She zoned in on her aching elbow and her sore ass and hip to clear her head of the lustful, wanting thoughts now ruling her mind.
This was not real. Their desire for her, their attraction, their compassion was an act. They would hurt her threefold. They were even bigger than Rico, more capable than Rico, and they would destroy her once and for all.
* * * *
Buddy’s heart was hammering in his chest. He couldn’t believe how turned on and aroused her was. When he saw Nina riding her bike, her ass moving on the small bike seat and her toned thighs accentuated with every stroke of the pedal when she pushed down, it aroused him. She was wearing a black tank top and flimsy cotton shorts that hugged the curves of her ass. The tank lifted slightly, revealing toned abs and tan skin. But when she looked back, the shocked expression on her face, and look of intimidation did something to him. When she lost control of the bike and fell, he cursed, as did his brother Trent, who stepped on the gas and quickly pulled over.
She was not going to ignore them and hide from them any longer. Seeing her injured did something to his insides. It upset him, angered him, and made him want to wrap her up in his arms and protect her from ever feeling any pain even as minor as a bee sting ever again.
As Trent pulled into the long driveway, they both saw Johnny’s truck, and he smiled to himself. Johnny must have headed home early to try to catch Nina before she got to her apartment. It seemed even Johnny was getting fed up with Nina hiding out and avoiding them.
“We’ll get you patched up quickly, especially with Johnny here. He’ll make sure you didn’t get hurt worse than you’re letting on,” Trent told her firmly and Buddy felt her leg shaking. She was nervous.
“I told you that I’m okay. I can take care of myself.”
“No you can’t. That’s why we’re here,” Trent snapped at her.
The truck stopped and Buddy got out then reached for Nina.
“I can do it,” she said, holding his gaze, but damn it, he needed to touch her again, to feel her in his arms. Wanting her acceptance was becoming a priority.
“I’m going to carry you and you’re going to let me.” He pulled her by her hips toward him. Her thighs widened as she slipped on the leather seats and wound up straddling Buddy’s waist. He stood there holding her hips, and she placed her hands on his shoulders for support.
Gazes locked, heart racing, he spoke softly to her. “You are the most gorgeous woman I have ever laid eyes on. I’ll admit, I’ve known a lot of women in my thirty-two years of life, but none, and I mean none whatsoever, compare to you, Nina. I want to help you. I want to protect you, wrap you in my arms and take away that expression of fear, timidity, and uncertainty that some asshole caused. Now, I’m not the only one who feels this way. Avoiding us isn’t going to happen anymore. I’m carrying you inside our house. We’re going to make sure you’re okay, and maybe, maybe I’ll even kiss each boo-boo, and you’re going to let me because you want to and you feel the attraction, too. Now, hold on, honey, while I carry you.”
He felt her hands grip his shoulders and then she hugged him as he carried her into the house.
Buddy locked gazes with Trent who winked and opened the door for them.
As he carried her into the kitchen he saw Johnny standing there, concern filled his eyes.
Buddy was too consumed with emotions, feeling Nina cling to him as he placed her ass down on the island in the kitchen. She didn’t let go. Instead she hugged him tighter and he knew his words, his confession and honesty, had gotten to her.
He rubbed her back as Johnny and Trent stood on either side of her.
“It’s okay, baby. My brothers feel the same way and want the same thing. To protect you and get to know you better. You feel so good in my arms.” He whispered on the top of her head and then kissed her hair. Her fingers tightened and he could feel her warm breath penetrate his shirt over his heart.
“What happened? Why the bandage?” Johnny asked, and Trent explained. Nina slowly pulled back and her expression of uncertainty pulled at Buddy’s heartstrings. Her lips were wet and full, her eyes glossy, and having her this close to him, with her breasts nearly pouring from the tank top, was too much to resist.
“I’m going to kiss you now, Nina, and you’re going to let me because you want to, don’t you, honey?” he asked. Her cheeks turned a shade redder, but he wanted to leap for joy when she nodded her head in compliance.
He leaned closer and took her lips gently, to savor in the taste, the feel of such a sweet, intimate action. Her palms rubbed his chest and he pulled her closer, ran his large hands over her delicate, feminine back then up under her hair to the base of her neck. He plunged his tongue deeper, and ravaged her mouth, unable to stop himself from wanting more.
He pulled her closer with his other arm wrapped around her and now her breasts were pressed against his chest, her warm pussy could be felt against his skin despite the material that covered his belly. She began to move against him and he wanted nothing more than to bury his cock deep inside of her and make her part of him and him a part of her forever.
He moved his lips along her cheeks and neck as she tilted her head back, giving him access to her body. He cupped her breast and she moaned.
“Oh God, Buddy, I can’t believe this. I never felt anything like this before.”
“That’s because this is real. Our feelings for you, our desire to protect you and make you all ours is real,” Trent told her and Buddy massaged her left breast, completely turned on that it didn’t fit in his large hands.
“You’re perfect and so beautiful, Nina,” Johnny told her as he placed his hand against her cheek and kissed her deeply.
Buddy pulled her off the counter while Johnny continued to kiss her and then Trent joined in. The second Trent touched her, ran his hands under her tank top against her skin, she moaned into Johnny’s mouth.
Her hips were moving and Buddy was pressing his cock against her crotch as Trent was rocking his hips slowly against her ass. Buddy imagined them taking her together, filling her in every hole, and bringing her more pleasure than she ever experienced in her life.
Johnny pulled from her mouth, breathing heavy, and Trent lifted her tank top up and over her head.
She gasped and pulled back only for Trent to turn her face toward him and tell her how he felt.
“You are an amazing woman. We’re not going to hurt you. In fact we want to bring you pleasure and make you part of us, Nina. Let go of the fear and give us this chance to show you, to prove that the four of us can be one, can be a family.”
“Family?” she asked, her voice cracking.
“Damn straight. You’re everything we’ve ever wanted in a woman for the three of us. Please, Nina, let go, and let us in,” Johnny begged.
* * * *
Nina was shaking with desire and, of course, fear. This was a chance she thought she wasn’t willing to take. She never wanted to feel hurt, betrayed, or used again. She never imagined being involved in such an unconventional relationship as a ménage, yet here she was considering it. She knew if she said yes and she allowed them to make love to her, then she would truly be ruined forever. There would be no other man, or men, in her life, in her bed, inside of her but these three men.
“Nina?” Trent whispered as he kissed her neck and then her shoulders and back.
“I’m scared,” she admitted, holding Johnny’s gaze.
“So am I. I’m afraid you’ll continue to push us away, or you’ll leave us and not be able to commit to the three of as we make a commi
tment to you. It scares me to take this chance, yet I’ve never felt so compelled, so right about anyone like I do about you with us.”
“We’ll go as slow as you need, Nina,” Buddy told her.
She swallowed the lump of fear and emotion in her throat. She loved how their hands felt on her, against her skin. She wasn’t even freaking out that Trent had a perfect view of her back and the faint scars along it. She just knew that she felt content and safe this close to these three men.
“Nina?” Buddy whispered.
“Kiss me, Buddy. Just keep making me feel important, special, and cared for. It’s all I ask right now. It’s more than anyone has ever given to me.”
* * * *
Buddy felt so bad for her. To know that no one had ever shown her true love and compassion was heart wrenching. He would make it his mission in life to always make her feel special and a part of him, starting today.
He leaned forward and kissed her deeply, explored her mouth, and swallowed her moans of pleasure as he moaned along with her. He wanted to explore every inch of her body, and as he reached back to unclip her bra, she pulled back and stared at him. He took his time. His brothers stood beside him as the black lace bra fell to her shoulders and the sight of her gorgeous, sexy breasts came into view.
Nina licked her lips and took a deep breath. He wondered if she would stop here and not go any further. He didn’t even care right now. Any part of her she was willing to give was a step closer to making her theirs.
She shocked them when she removed the bra the rest of the way, ran her hands up his chest, and kissed him.
He hugged her to him, feeling this petite, sexy woman in his arms as he wrapped her up just like he wanted to and carried her upstairs to the master bedroom.
* * * *
Nina stood there in the bedroom, half-naked, and Buddy and Johnny spoke softly to her. They told her how lovely her breasts were, how soft her skin felt, but Trent focused on her back and her ass and the faint lines of scarring that remained there. Johnny was pushing her shorts down as Buddy removed his shirt, and Nina reached out to press her palm against his skin. Buddy closed his eyes and held her wrist then moved her hand down lower to his cock over his dress pants.
Trent took in the sight of her faint scars, the ones on her ass a little darker in comparison to her back. He reached out and ran a finger gently over the marks, he leaned forward and kissed them when Nina tightened up and looked over her shoulder at Trent.
“Please don’t look.”
He held her gaze, ran his finger along her chin and jaw, and looked deep within her eyes. “You’re not the only one with scars, baby. I know exactly how you feel, and how much deeper these go than the surface.”
“How?” she asked, her eyes glazed over with unshed tears.
He stepped back slightly and pulled his shirt up and over his head.
He knew the second she saw the burn marks, the scarring from the fire. It ran along his ribs and toward his lower back. She inhaled and then locked gazes with him. In that moment Trent felt as if they connected on such a deep level it frightened him and left him in awe. He didn’t think he could feel more compelled to love her until she lowered onto her knees, ran her hands along the scarring, then softly brushed her lips against the raised skin.
He closed his eyes and ran his fingers through her hair while she hugged him around his center.
Overwhelmed by the connection and the emotions he felt, he lifted her up and kissed her deeply, as he used his hands to explore her naked, curvy body. He squeezed her ass and she thrust against his hips.
He lifted her up and carried her to the bed.
When he laid Nina down, she looked like a goddess. Her long brown locks cascaded over the comforter. Her mocha eyes held his with a mix of anticipation and arousal. He wanted this to be perfect.
“Slow, Nina. Nice and slow,” he whispered, trailing his fingers along her jaw, down her throat, over her taut belly, and to her mound. Her eyes darted to either side of him, and he knew that Buddy and Johnny were there, undressing, revealing their bodies to her and what would soon be hers.
Trent leaned over with his thigh between her thighs, and he softly kissed her lips. He slowly, gently kissed a trail along her skin exploring her breasts, licking and swirling his tongue around her areola as she moaned and shook beneath him.
“You taste so sweet, Nina. As sweet as those delicious pies you make.”
His brother Buddy crawled up on the right side of her and began to explore her breasts. He kissed Nina on the lips and then along her breast and areola as Trent made his way with his mouth and hands between her thighs.
The moment his thumbs touched her groin, she tightened up.
Johnny was there to calm her fears as he lay down to the left of her. He cupped her cheek so she would look at him.
“Easy, baby, we’re going to take this nice and slow so you know how much you already mean to all three of us. If we do something that scares you, makes you feel afraid or uncomfortable, you let us know, and we’ll stop.” Her eyes widened and Trent paused.
“You’d do that? You’d stop for me?”
Trent needed to shove down his anger at the bastard who hurt her so deeply she feared that the only way to take a woman was roughly and without her consent. If he ever got the chance to meet the fucker, he would be sure to teach him a lesson about how to treat a woman.
“Of course we will. We’re not him, Nina. Remember that you can trust us,” Buddy told her.
Trent lowered to his knees by the bed and stroked his thumbs along her pussy lips. She jerked and then tightened up, prepared to pull her legs closed, but he was between them. Buddy and Johnny slowly pushed their palms onto her thighs, keeping her wide open for them. He wasn’t sure what her reaction might be as he paused to feel her out when she moaned, closed her eyes, and cream dripped from her cunt.
“Damn, baby, you are so responsive and sexy. I love it,” Trent said and leaned forward to take a taste.
Nina quivered beneath him, but with every stroke of his tongue, every nip to her clit, her body showed her enjoyment, and her moans turned to soft mews of pleasure.
“So delicious. My brothers are going to love how you taste, baby.” Trent maneuvered a finger to her cunt and slowly pressed his digit up into her. He watched how her pussy gripped it tight and drew it in as she thrust her hips upward.
“Will you let us make love to you, sweetie?” he asked her.
She opened her arms and held his gaze.
“Come closer,” she whispered with tears in her eyes. His heart raced. It ached with emotion.
He leaned up and she placed her palms against his cheeks and held his gaze.
“I’m so scared right now. But, all three of you touching me, saying the things that you’re saying to me, is making me want to try this with you. I want to feel more. I want to be free of him, Trent. Free of the past, the pain, and the fear. I don’t ever want to feel used, abandoned, and alone again. Is it a mistake? Will I regret this, or will I regret turning the three of you away and never knowing what it feels like to actually have men care about me?”
Trent turned his face slightly and kissed her palm. Johnny kissed her left shoulder and Buddy kissed her right.
“We know that you’re scared,” Trent said. “We’ve all made mistakes, made poor choices or may have been involved in things we’re ashamed of or things that changed how we feel about connecting to other people or even opening up our hearts to love. I can tell you that I haven’t been with a woman in quite some time because of my fears, my insecurities about my scars. I’m not saying that I was a saint, Nina. God knows I’ve fucked around just to feel anything instead of feeling empty. But with you, being here with you like this is so damn amazing. Ask my brothers and they’ll tell you this is real, and this is special.”
She looked at Buddy. “You are the most amazing woman we’ve ever met. I know I’ve never met a woman who struck me so deeply so instantly like you did when we first met. You
’re a grown woman, Nina. You’re not a kid, you’ve had to go through some pretty dangerous and serious things in your life to get here, and to break free. That takes a mind, a determination, and a desire to be someone. This decision is all yours, and if you say you need to wait out of fear that we could hurt you or that you may regret it, then hell, baby, we’ll wait. It will be fucking torture, but you’re worth it.”
He winked and Nina nodded.
“Your choice, Nina,” Johnny said. “We’ll wait for you. We’ve waited this long to find a woman who could complete our family and make us feel so deeply it actually hurts inside. You’re ours and we’re yours.”
* * * *
Nina took a few unsteady breaths as their words filtered through her head. They were already so different than what she was used to men being like. They were compassionate, loving, and affectionate and put her first even before their needs. She could feel Trent’s erection against her mound. To know that he would stop things right now, all three of them would put their needs aside and allow her time to ease into this, touched her heart.
Their bodies were so amazing, and she wanted to feel them against her and feel their cocks inside of her, joining their bodies as one. Trent shared her fears, her insecurities about the scars because he had scars, too. All of this talking, touching, exploring made her feel so comfortable that she knew she wanted to take a chance. If it turned to shit, then so be it. At least they had tonight. They had one another.
“I want to try. I want to feel all three of you kissing me, touching me, and making me feel beautiful.”
“You already are beautiful,” Johnny said and leaned down to kiss her shoulder. His mouth continued to explore her skin then trail down over her breast. She was shocked when Buddy did the same on her other side to her other breast just as Johnny nipped her nipple.
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