“Listen to me right now, Aiden. I can’t help what people do or how they act towards me. It always feels like your blaming me for the shit that happens. I didn’t ask to be hassled, and I sure as hell didn’t lead Lucas on. I get that he has a little crush on me, but it means nothing. NOTHING! I don’t encourage him. I’m always just friendly to him. We already agreed that he was harmless, so why the fuck have you changed your mind all of a sudden?! I don’t look at him or hug him the way I do with you,” I say breathing hard. God, he pisses me off.
He doesn’t respond. He just looks at me defeated and walks into his room without a backwards glance, slamming the door behind him. Um, ok, so does that mean that agrees with what I said, or is he still mad at me? At this point I really don’t fucking care. I didn’t do anything wrong tonight. I just defended myself, and if he still blames me, then fuck him! I don’t blame Aiden for all the shit that has happened to him in the past. Can’t he see that we are both so similar? For some reason we get caught up in unnecessary bullshit.
I don’t know if he’s expecting me to come into his bedroom and apologize, but that sure as hell won’t happen. My pride is still too intact to break now. I walk into the guest bedroom and lock the door. I don’t want him coming him in the middle of the night trying to make nice. I’d rather my anger keep me company for the night, thank you very much! I drop my bag onto the floor and pull out my iPod dock. I go into the bathroom and turn on the shower, looking forward to washing off the memories of today. Hell, I wish I could wash off the memories of the last year while I’m at it!
I plug in my iPod and get into the shower. I start to sing along to a song, when I hear a small tap on my bedroom door. It’s probably Aiden coming over to grovel or some shit like that. I ignore it and a little while later, the knocking ceases. Ugh, why do I feel like shit now? Did you really expect him to stay outside your door, begging you to open it? Yeah, I guess my sick inner bitch wanted that. That’s pretty fucked up, and you know it!
I get out of my unsatisfactory shower and dry myself off. I keep the music on, hoping the melodies will aid me in falling asleep. I climb into the cold, empty bed, and I begin crying softly. What the fuck? Crying because you had a stupid fight with your boyfriend? What a joke. I try to mentally halt the tears from flowing, but it does no good. Great, well I guess my distress can keep me company.
Before I drift off to sleep, I whisper to myself, “Fuck you, Aiden. Fuck you for making me love you so much.”
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I wake up, feeling the rays of the sun streaming in from my bedroom window. Ugh, fuck you sun! Go bother somebody else, why don’t you? I reluctantly open my eyes and see Aiden sitting next to me on the bed.
“Shit, Aiden!” I say startled. “You scared me,” I say holding my frantically beating heart. How the fuck did he get in here? I thought I locked the door last night.
“I’m sorry, Emma. I kind of picked the lock to your door this morning. I missed you, and I didn’t want to wait until you were done being mad at me. I had to see you and make sure you were ok,” he says guiltily. Oh, Aiden. It’s so hard staying mad at you when you’re like this. He looks so much younger when he’s vulnerable.
“I was mad. Really fucking mad, but I’m not anymore. I thought you didn’t want me around you, seeing how you went into your bedroom alone last night,” I say honestly.
“I’m such a fucking idiot!” he says. “Everything I do always comes out wrong. The only person I was mad at was Todd and…me especially.” What? He was mad at himself?
“I’m pissed at myself for not trusting you and your judgment. I know it’s not your fault that guys give you a hard time,” his says, grabbing my hands in his.
“And I also see you around Lucas. There’s nothing sexual or suspicious about the way you are around him. He’s another story, though,” he says irritated.
“Do I want you to work at the bar anymore? Fuck no! But that’s not my decision to make. I’m selfish and want you all to myself, all day, every day. Whenever I try to protect you from others, it seems like I just wound you myself,” he says tormented. Oh, Aiden. I love you so goddamn much.
I move closer to him and wrap my arms around his back. He feels warm and strong, like always. Damn, I missed this contact so much. He wraps his arms around me and kisses my forehead. I have to make him stop feeling so guilty.
“Thank you for that, Aiden. I get that your good intentions sometimes turn sour, but when I sit back and look at the situation, I empathize with you,” I say looking into his eyes.
“I wouldn’t want anybody fucking with you either. But we just have to protect each other, within reason. I’ve dealt with crap like this before; men acting like their God’s gift and thinking women should bow down to them. I know that I start shit with people sometimes, but I know when to quit. I’m not looking for trouble, but I sure as hell won’t back down if someone attacks me. My pride is a fucking bitch,” I say sighing.
“Can we just enjoy today? I promise that I won’t be an asshole on your day off. I have a few things planned that I hope will help you to forgive me,” he says hopefully.
“Oh, Aiden. There’s nothing to forgive. We obviously both have short tempers when provoked. We get angry quickly, but we also make up quickly. You and I make a dangerous team,” I say poking him in the ribs.
“Hey, stop. I’m ticklish there!” he says laughing.
“Oh, now you really fucked up by admitting that to me, Aiden. No mercy!” I say tickling him some more. We both are laughing uncontrollably, when he finally escapes me.
“Ok, brat. That’s enough of that. We’re going swimming at the beach, so you better meet me out back soon,” he says walking out my bedroom door.
“But Aiden, I don’t have a swimsuit!” I say, wondering what he wants me to do about that.
“I don’t either, baby. Guess we’ll just have to swim naked. Unless you don’t trust yourself around me of course; wouldn’t want you taking advantage me when I’m in such a defenseless state,” he says smirking.
“Oh, I’ll fucking swim with you, but your bare ass won’t make any difference to me. You’re not that irresistible, you know,” I say with smugness. I just hear his laughter as he leaves. Self-righteous bastard!
Shit, maybe it isn’t a good thing going skinny dipping. Ever since last night when he came into the bar, I’ve been wanting to get him into bed. Ugh, stay strong, Emma. You’ll be fine.
I grab one of his shirts and open the back door to the deck outside. God, it’s beautiful out here. The weather is sunnier than it’s been all week, but I’m sure the water will still be pretty cold. I look over by the shore and see Aiden standing there, looking at the ocean.
I go over to him and notice a few towels and blankets laid down on the sand, near the deck. There’s only one other house close to us, and I hope they don’t look over here and see us half-naked. I look over at Aiden and see him undressing. Shit, this is actually happening. Sure, I’ve swum naked before, but with Aiden, it’s way more nerve wracking and exciting. I try to look away, giving him privacy, and I hear him splash into the water.
“Emma! Are you coming in or not?” he yells from the ocean. Shit, I’m really hesitant about this.
“It looks cold, and I don’t want to freeze to death,” I say, making a valid excuse to stay dry.
“The water is a little cold, yeah, but once you swim around you’ll be fine. Hurry up and get naked!” he says laughing. Oh fine! I’ll just rip off my clothes and jump straight into a huge pool of ice; so fucking easy.
I keep cursing him under my breath, as I start walking towards the water. I decide to keep the shirt on, just to defy him. I look up at him, but he’s not paying any attention to me; just swimming around enjoying himself. Ok, Emma. Hurry up and get your ass in there.
I run into the water and am immediately hit by what feels like cold knives piercing my skin.
“Jesus Christ, it’s cooooold!” I say, yelping out in surprise. I start to tr
ead up onto the shore, but Aiden yells, “Baby, just swim on over to me. The more you move around, the warmer you’ll get.” I clench my chattering teeth in aggravation.
I swim over to Aiden, but as soon as I get near him, he ducks right underneath the water. Ugh, jerk! I know he’s just going to pop up and frighten me or something. I’m slightly annoyed but also trying not to burst with amusement. I start swimming around, struggling to find him. I feel something pull my leg, and I go underwater. He releases me, and I immediately resurface, spitting out the salty liquid. I feel Aiden come towards me, grabbing my waist from behind.
“Aiden, you asshole!” I say sputtering and laughing.
“I’m sorry, baby, but I couldn’t help myself. Now you’re choking and cold. Here, let me warm you up,” he says, trying to soothe me. Don’t get all sweet on me now, Aiden. It won’t work.
He pulls me around, holding me close to his body. I start getting chills, but no longer because of the water temperature. Shit, he can probably feel my instantly erect nipples. Great! I hear him moan into my ear.
“Fuck, Emma,” he says breathless. I feel his hand touch my sensitive nipples, pinching them softly through my clinging shirt. I don’t protest or push him away; I just enjoy the attention they’re getting. I look up at him and notice that his eyes have gotten duskier. He stops tweaking my nipples and grabs my face in his hand. He moves his lips over mine, gently at first and then frantically. I wrap my arms around his neck, and I feel him start to touch my center. I moan into his mouth, urging him on. I feel him shove his finger deep inside of me, and I clench around it. Shit, I’m pretty sure were not just swimming anymore. He breaks away from my lips and removes his finger from me. I start to protest in vexation.
“I’m going to fuck you, Emma, but not here. Cold water doesn’t help a guy out if you know what I mean,” he says huskily. Yeah, I guess freezing temperatures are like the kiss of death to a hard-on. I nod and wrap my legs around his waist, allowing him to grab my ass with his hands. He starts kissing me again, moving us out of the water. I feel him drop me on the blanket, and I look up at him. Hmm, so this is what the blankets were for. I smile at him, liking the way his mind works. I give him kudos for pre-planning.
“Yeah, so I guess you know why these are here. Hoping I’d get lucky,” he says smirking, his dimples creasing.
He pulls the other blanket over himself and gets on top of me. He starts kissing my breasts and moves down my stomach, his moist lips leaving a trail of fire behind. Oh God, it feels like forever since we’ve done this. I feel him pause at my center, licking me hard and deep. My back arches swiftly up off of the sand. Shit! I’m overly sensitive from the water, I think. He continues to lick me, and I squirm underneath him, feeling an orgasm in the making. He stops and I groan, hating the departure. I see him reach over and pull out a condom from under one of the towels.
“When you come, it’s going to be with my cock inside of you,” he says putting on his rubber comrade. He positions himself over me again, and in one swift thrust, enters me violently. The air leaves both of our bodies, and he leans down to my neck and kisses it. I grab the blanket and throw it off of him, feeling the surface of his back. We both moan in unison.
“Fuck, Emma. Touch me more, please. Put your hands everywhere,” he says rocking into me. I let my hands wander over his spine, stroking and caressing all of his scars. He shivers underneath my touch, and I realize that he’s never had anyone do what I’m doing.
He leans down and latches onto my nipple with his teeth, causing us both to shudder. God, feeling him naked over me is so much better than him fully clothed. I could get used to this. I keep touching his back, and he starts biting my other nipple, stinging my sensitive flesh. His thrusts start to get more frenzied, and I go wild.
“Aiden, make me come. Please,” I beg him. He smiles down at me.
“We’ll come together. I’m almost there. Hold on a little longer, baby.” Ugh, I’m trying to hold back, but it’s so difficult. He rocks into me a few more times and groans.
“Ok, baby. Come for me. Hard,” he breathes into my ear. I push myself up, feeling him deep inside, and he brushes my clit with his finger. I feel the orgasm materializing, and I start coming around him, thrashing underneath his rigid body. I still feel the waves of my release, when hear him cry out.
“Emma!” Shit, were coming together, and it’s the fiercest thing I’ve ever experienced. He grabs my hips, emptying all of himself into me. He collapses on top of me, grinning like a Cheshire cat.
“I win, baby,” he whispers, rolling off and gathering me up against his side. I smile into his chest.
“Yeah, you did. I’m glad you seduced me. I was a fucking idiot for making that stupid ‘no sex’ rule. You can fuck me again if you want to make your point even more clear,” I say panting.
“Whoa, baby. Later on tonight, you little sex fiend. There’s something I want to try with you if you’re up to it,” he says. Oh, now I’m really intrigued.
“Oh, yeah? Well, I’m up for pretty much anything,” I say yawning. Damn, that sex really wore me out.
“Yeah, I can see that,” he says chuckling. “Why don’t you take a nap and get some energy for what I have in store for you later on,” he murmurs into my hair.
“Ok, Aiden. Just a quick nap,” I say, falling fast asleep in his arms.
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I wake up to kisses being rained all over my face, and I giggle. I look up and Aiden is hovering above me. He stops and looks down at me. “Baby, as much as I love lying with you, this ground gets kind of uncomfortable after a while.”
Oh shit. I forgot that I fell asleep outside on the shore. Poor Aiden.
“Sorry, sorry. I’ll get up now,” I say, letting the blanket fall away from me. I’m still undressed, but I like Aiden looking at me, so I don’t bother covering up. As he helps me to my feet, I thoroughly look over his frame, appreciating every inch of it. Even with the imperfections that mar his skin, he’s my perfect man. He notices my admiration, covering his body with a towel.
“Ok, brat. Stop ogling my goods. What kind of man do you take me for?” he says in mock horror. I laugh at him.
“I’m so sorry for lusting after you; won’t happen again. Scouts honor,” I say, putting my three fingers up in the air.
“Don’t you think that’s a little drastic? I wouldn’t take it that far,” he says laughing. “Let’s go inside and get dressed.” I follow him into the house and go into my room. He follows in behind me.
“Um, I’m getting dressed now. Just like you asked me to, Aiden,” I say to him confused.
“I know. Let me watch,” he purrs. Damn, everything he says is sexy. Ok, Emma. Let’s give the man what he wants.
I go over to my bag and pull out another dress. I don’t bother to put on my bra and panties; let him think about me bare underneath my dress for the rest of the day.
I start to put on my dress slowly, with my back turned towards him. Perfect! This dress has a zipper. I’ll just pretend I can’t zip it up and ask him to do it for me. I peek over at him and notice a wicked look in his eyes.
“Hey Aiden, honey? Can you zip me up? This damn zipper is so hard to do,” I say casually.
“Uh, yeah,” he says, clearing his throat. “But don’t you need to put on stuff underneath?” he says deeply.
“Nope,” I say quickly.
He walks over to me, admiring my bare skin. He places his hands on my hips and feathers kisses all the way down my back. I shiver, loving the feel of his soft lips. He grabs the zipper, kissing each section of skin as he zips the garment up higher. As he fastens it up to the top, he starts kissing the side of my neck. I push my body back into his, moaning loudly, my ass hitting his already solid length. He starts sucking the other side of my neck, and I roll my hips back into him. He groans, and I feel his hand start to lift up my dress. He caresses my outer thigh, bunching the dress in the process. He moves to my inner thigh and massages the smooth skin. Oh, please
touch my pussy!
I feel him get closer to my center, and he gently slips one finger inside of me. I buck against his finger and press my ass even harder against his cock. “Fuck, Emma. You’re drenched,” he says in amazement. I smile, and he starts massaging my clit with his finger, the smile instantly wiped right off my face.
“Harder. Faster,” I pant, not shy about telling him how I want him to touch me. He obeys, and I lean my head back against his shoulder, trying to remain upright. My legs start to wobble from the sensations, and he keeps touching me, sending waves of pleasure throughout my body. I start breathing heavily, feeling my arising orgasm. He senses the change in my body.
“That’s it, baby. Come for me.” He pinches my clit, and I explode. He shoves his finger inside of me, and I clamp around him, loving the new invasion.
“Aiden! Fuck, Aiden!” I say whimpering. My body finally relaxes, and my muscles stop contracting inside of me. He pulls his finger out of me and grabs my waist, turning me around to face him. He puts his finger in his mouth, sucking me off of him. So. Fucking. Hot.
“You taste good, baby,” he says with a satisfactory smile. I look down and notice that he’s still hard. I want to touch him, but my legs and arms have turned to jelly.
“Don’t worry about it, Emma. I want to wait until tonight anyway. I don’t think this old body can come as many times as you can,” he says smirking.
“Oh, shut it! You’re not even close to being an old man. Your only four years older than me!” I point out, laughing.
“You’re cute when you’re feisty,” he says kissing my nose. “I’m going to go and take a cold shower. If you want, I have some food in the fridge. Most of it you have to cook, but I have a few frozen things to eat if you’re hungry.”
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