by Amy Brent
She sat down and groaned. “Sorry it took me so long to arrive. I had way too much to drink last night.”
“That makes two of us.” I chuckled. “I ordered their strongest blend,” I informed as I poured some coffee into her cup.
“God bless you,” she said as she p.icked up the cup and took a gulp.
As she enjoyed her coffee, I enjoyed the sight of her. The golden glimmer of her chocolate. skin, mixed with the natural perfection of her relaxed attitude made my cock twitch, and my mind hate the social standards that separated us.
“How was the rest of the party?”
Not having too much practice at it, I knew my attempt at small talk was pathetic, but there was still a hint of appreciation in Grace’s deep eyes. She relaxed a little. I didn’t.
“It was eventful,” she started with a grin. “Bill from sales hooked up with Stella from reception in the bathroom and her boyfriend saw it. It was a huge scandal. Valerie threw up in the elevator and which pissed off the cleaning crew, and all the accountants ended up with ties around their foreheads and acting like morons.” She stopped talking for a moment and stared at me with slightly widened eyes. “I don’t think I should have told you those things.”
My brows pulled together. “Why not?”
“Because you’re the b-o-s-s and I don’t want to get people into. trouble.”
I wanted to laugh but didn’t. “No one is getting into trouble. It was a party. People making stupid mistakes is expected.”
Although not at all intended towards what had happened between us, my words wiped the smile right off Grace’s face. There was a part of me that wanted to explain that she hadn’t been a mistake, but what was the point? We both knew that was a lie, so I just stayed silent and drank my coffee.
She nodded slowly and took a doughnut—another thing I liked about her. Most of the women I knew wouldn’t be caught dead eating a sugary, deep-fried treat covered in chocolate.
“I’m not going to say anything about what happened, Fletcher. You don’t have to worry,” she said without looking at me. “As much as I’d like to think otherwise, I know it only happened because we were both stupid drunk. We’ll just pretend it never happened. That’s what you want, right?”
The tone of her voice made me feel like an asshole. Although this was how things should be, it wasn’t how I wanted them to be. I wanted things to be simple; just a man and a woman who are attracted to each other. However, the life of a billionaire is never simple. Money comes with expectations and responsibilities that spoke louder to me than my desire to be with Grace, and apparently, she understood that—maybe even better than I did.
After a deep, steadying breath, I nodded. “I’m sorry, but yes. Last night was wonderful, but we don’t mesh.”
She looked up at me, and the look in her eyes cut me. It was clear that I had hurt her, which was maybe for the best. Still, she didn’t know that and, as I looked at her, I saw her hurt turn into anger.
“Seriously, Fletcher? We don’t mesh? That’s it?” Her voice was hard, the question a warning of what was to come. For the first time, I didn’t feel good at hearing my name come out of her beautiful mouth. “You don’t pay me enough to deal with this crap. You do know .that, right?”
That was not what I expected to come out of her mouth. In a surprised shock, I asked, “What?”
“You heard me. You don’t pay me enough to deal with all this bullshit, and, just for the record, I’m not asking for a raise. What I’m asking you is to get your fucking act together and stop leading me on when you know we don’t mesh.”
I looked at her, gaping like a fish out of water, not knowing what to say. She had never spoken like that to me—or to anyone else, for that matter—and seeing such strength and resolve in her voice made me admire—and desire—her even more.
With a straight face and all of my confidence, I nodded. “I’m sorry for putting you through all of this, but rest assured that I’ll do everything I can to keep things between us as professional as they can be. You’re a valued employee, and I won’t allow my personal problems to affect your work any longer.”
For some reason, my reply seemed to make her even angrier, but I couldn’t care about that. I couldn’t care that she looked hurt, or that I’d never taste the sweetness of her mouth again. I couldn’t care that I wanted to toss her over this table and fuck her until she couldn’t walk straight or that my words had felt awfully wrong. I had to remain strong and firm in the knowledge that I was doing the right thing for myself.
We stared at each other for a few loaded seconds. Then, Grace flipped her huge sunglasses back onto her face and stood up.
“Thanks for the coffee, Mr. Cox. I’ll see you Monday.” With that, she walked away.
Grace
It’s fine. I don’t care.
I kept repeating those words to myself like a mantra as I left the café and walked down the street. These kinds of things happened all the time between Fletcher and me, and even though sex was a lot more intense than just a kiss, it was still the same thing. I should have been used to it by now, but I wasn’t.
Although Fletcher had no real feelings for me, I had some for him. I liked him—like really liked him as more than a boss and more than the escape from reality he treated me as. I would have given him everything I had and everything he could possibly want if he only gave me—and us—a chance, but I knew he never would. His status in society was far too important for him to get involved with a valued employee with whom he simply didn’t mesh.
A loud, vicious groan that made the .people walking by stop and stare at me erupted from my throat. I was never a violent person, but hearing Fletcher’s words had made me want to punch his teeth right out of his mouth. I had no idea where he came up with the crap he said, but I knew I was through hearing it.
Still hungover and with my head buzzing with anger, I decided to forgo a cab and walk to my apartment. The walk was about half an hour long which was too much for when I was late for work or tired after twelve hours in the office, but today the walk was very much welcome.
I was about half-way to my apartment when the cell phone rang. The sound annoyed my still pounding brain and made my heart race. There was a part of me that felt almost giddy with hope that the caller would be Fletcher saying he had made a mistake and knew that we did, in fact, mesh.
With a reluctant smile on my lips, I dug into my purse and retrieved the device. I didn’t even bother reading the name on the screen before I pushed the button to answer the call.
“Hello,” I greeted in an excited voice.
“Grace?” a voice that didn’t belong to Fletcher replied and my shoulders and smile sagged. Not recognizing the voice, I frowned and opened my mouth to ask who it was. However, before I had the chance the man on the other side said, “It’s Harrington.”
Instantly, my lips turned into a broad smile. Harrington and I had been inseparable all throughout high school. He had moved away to Boston to attend a prestigious engineering college, and I had stayed behind, which caused us to lose touch. Hearing his voice again gave me the best kind of nostalgia and lifted my spirits just a smidge.
“Oh, my gosh! Harrington ‘Hairy’ Jones. How long has it been?” I asked in an upbeat tone.
He chuckled. “Eight years and four months, which is far too long but somehow still not long enough for you to forget that unfortunate nickname.”
I couldn’t help but laugh. “It’s not my fault. An afro that big can never be forgotten. It’s something that just stays with you, ya know?”
“As a matter of fact, I don’t. I spent the past eight years trying very hard to forget all about that bird’s nest, and I’m completely over it now.”
Once more, I laughed. Unlike some people I worked for, Harrington never failed to lift my spirits. It was one of the many things I had missed about him.
“It’s great to hear from you. How are you doing?”
“I’m doing pretty good, actually,” he said in hi
s signature tone. “And I’m in town. My mom just sold her house, and I’ll be here for a few weeks to help her move. I was wondering if you’d like to meet up?”
My eyes rounded and the awful feeling of my hangover lifted a little. “Of course, I do. Are you free tonight?”
He laughed at my enthusiasm and said he was. We made plans to meet at around seven at this a new pub called Rat and Parrot. It was a trendy place close to my apartment I had been dying to go.
With a new pep in my step and with my worries about Fletcher almost forgotten, I made my way to my apartment. Once there, I took a quick nap to get rid of the rest of my hangover and then started getting ready to meet Harrison.
Because he was one of those ridiculously good looking men, I put some effort into my look. I smoked out my eyes, put on a bright lipstick, high heels and a cute dress that was flattering but not too form fitting—I didn’t want to give my old friend the wrong idea, after all.
I arrived at the pub at exactly seven and saw his smiling face right away. I couldn’t help but grin back as I walked through the dim lit corridors towards his table at the back. Boy Harrington had been good looking, but man Harrington—with his buzzed head and broad shoulders—was something out of a fashion magazine ad.
He stood up and hugged me. He smelled like Tabaco and cologne, a combination that would usually be nasty but worked well on him.
“Holy shiz . . . You grew up good, Hairy.”
Laughing, he released me and kissed my cheek. “So did you, Gracie.”
The nickname gave me mixed feelings. On one side, it brought back so memories of our past together, and on the other made me cringe with thoughts of the other man who called me that.
“I was thinking beers and whatever fried platter they have. You in?” Harrington asked.
“As long as there are wings involved, I say hell yes.”
With a pitcher of beer and a ton of deliciously greasy food in front of us, we spent time catching up. The conversation flowed freely between us as it always did. We talked about college and work, we remembered the past and discussed our plans for the future. All in all, I was super proud of the man my old friend had become. Aside from his nasty smoking habit, he had grown into a pretty decent guy.
The food was mostly over, and we were half-way through our second pitcher when Harrington started to fidget in his seat. He was never much of fidgeter, so I narrowed my eyes at him which made him laugh.
He ran a hand through his barely there hair and shrugged. “I guess there’s no subtle way of asking this, so here it comes . . . Single or taken?”
I laughed through the rim of my beer mug. It was clear that Harrington was flirting and though he was doing a great job at it, I couldn’t help but feel weird. We had been platonic friends for ages, and the idea he would be interested in me like that was funny to my tipsy self.
“Is the question or my interest funny?” he asked with the tiniest bit of hurt in his voice.
Feeling like a jerk for making him feel like that, I immediately stopped laughing.
“Neither,” I said honestly. “I’m laughing because a nun couldn’t be more single. I recently got dumped by a one-night stand guy,” I added, not specifying just how recently the dumping had happened. “I never knew that was even possible.”
Harrington visibly relaxed and laughed as well. “I didn’t either, which is just one more proof that whoever the guy was, he’s an idiot.”
My cheeks blushed at the clear compliment. I had never thought about Harrington as anything other than a good friend, but his sweetness compared to Fletcher’s assholeness made my heart warm up to him—at least a little.
“What about you? Any lucky Bostonian snatched you?”
He leaned over the table and narrowed his eyes as he held my gaze. “C’mon, Gracie. You know I wouldn’t be flirting with you if that was the case.”
I couldn’t help smiling. “People change.”
“Not that much,” he assured me.
There was a long moment of silence but, to my surprise, it wasn’t at all awkward. Quite the contrary actually. I was perfectly content sitting across from my flirty old best friend. Deep down, I knew my delight at this moment had less to do with Harrington than with the fact that after feeling like two-day old garbage this morning, I was finally feeling beautiful and wanted. It was a magical feeling.
Tipsy and too elated to think, I blurted out, “I’m glad, then.”
With that discussion behind us, we moved on to other, non-flirtatious subjects and the night went on great. Unwilling to deal with another hangover, I switched from beers to diet cokes as we talked and laughed as we had back in high school.
By the time I started to yawn, and Harrington asked for the check, I realized just how awesome it was to have the attention of someone who actually cared. It made me wonder how I could have ever wasted my time with a selfish man like Fletcher. I couldn’t deny that thoughts of him and our night together still made my heart skip several beats, but I now knew that I deserved better than what he had to offer. I deserved to be treated right by a man who saw me as something more than just a cheap lay, and though Harrington didn’t make my skin sizzle and my heart pump as Fletcher did, I wondered if he could be that man for me.
“I loved seeing you again,” I told him as we walked out of the pub.
He gave me one of his million dollar smiles and hailed a cab for me. “I did too, Gracie. And I hope to see more of you while I’m in town.”
I took a deep breath and nodded. “I’d like that as well.”
A car parked beside us, and we both knew our time was over. His deep brown eyes flickered to my lips, making his intentions very clear. For a moment, I felt panicky.
In all our years of friendship, I had never envisioned myself kissing Harrington. He had never given me goosebumps, sweaty palms or any of the exciting emotions that led to kissing.. But he was a good man, a steady man, a man I knew I could count on and who made me feel beautiful and happy. Those things, I decided, were more important than fireworks and butterflies, and so I closed my eyes and welcomed his lips into mine.
The kiss was warm, just like Harrington, and he was gentle. There was absolutely nothing bad or strange about the kiss, but there was nothing special either. I didn’t know if it was because it wasn’t a case of forbidden fruit, but I honestly didn’t care. The kiss was nice enough, and Harrington was great, and I was determined to enjoy the moment.
“Are we going, or what?” the cab driver called from inside the car, forcing us to break the kiss.
I pulled away from him and giggled. “I have to go.”
Harrington sighed and nodded as he opened the door for me. “Can I call you tomorrow?”
“Of course,” I assured him as the car drove away.
Looking out of the window, I waved at him until he was out of sight. Then, I rested against my seat and closed my eyes. What the hell am I doing?
I wasn’t leading him on because I genuinely liked our time together, but I wasn't exactly honest either. He was a great person and didn’t deserve to be the rebound. My dubious attitude towards him made me feel awfully like Fletcher, and I felt dirty as a result. I didn’t want to cause my oldest friend the kind of pain my boss had inflicted upon me, but there was a part of me that desperately needed the attention and desire I saw in Harrington’s eyes.
Hoping to appease my mind, I decided to take things slowly but still give whatever this thing between us was a real shot. Yes, there was no spark, and I was in love with another, but I knew those things could change. There was no other option, after all.
Fletcher
The weekend had provided me plenty of time to regret every decision I had made, from sleeping with Grace to telling her I would keep things strictly professional between us. As hard as I tried, I couldn’t push her out of my mind. Whiskey hadn’t help, fucking Charlotte had been useless, and even exercise did shit to flush the taste of Grace’s mouth and the feel of her skin from my mind. I was stuck bet
ween wanting her and needing to keep the control I had fought so hard to achieve over my life.
For that reason, stepping into the office on Monday morning had been difficult. To my surprise, although Grace had been more reserved around me, she continued to be kind, attentive and efficient as usual. It was as if nothing at all had happened between us and seeing her that unaffected had annoyed the living crap out me. Nevertheless, as promised, I did everything I could to keep our interactions professional and proper.
Every once in a while, however, I would sit at my desk and simply watch her. I’d admire the sexy way her hips moved as she walked, the way she always tucked the left side of her hair behind her ear but left the right side hanging loose, and the way the skin on the bridge of her nose crinkled when she laughed.
Those little things I had never noticed about her made me that much more attracted to her and that much more frustrated that I couldn’t just invite her out for a nice dinner and get to know her better as a typical man would. As the days and weeks went by, that frustration grew into an almost insane jealousy. In my mind, every man was someone who could have her when I couldn’t, and it made me grumpy and even more short-tempered than usual.
That new behavior got completely out of hand on a Friday morning, when I walked into the lobby and bumped into a young man who was on his way out. His eyes were looking at his cell phone, and because of that, I dropped the stack of papers I was carrying, which scattered on the floor. I swore under my breath.
“I’m so sorry, sir,” the man said and immediately dropped to his knees to help me gather my things.
Even on his knees, he had a confidence about him that was undeniable. Aside from his youth and reasonably good looks, I seriously couldn’t understand what he had to be so confident about. His clothes looked cheap, his phone was outdated, and he screamed middle class. Still, his politeness and good boy smile told me he was the kind of man who could have an actual chance with Grace, and for that alone I immediately disliked him.
After my papers had been all gathered and placed in my hands, I huffed and walked away without even thanking the boy. From the corner of my eyes, I saw his reproachful look at my lack of gratitude, but I just rolled my eyes and kept walking. He had bumped into me and caused me to be late, I owned him no recognition for cleaning the mess he had made.