Silent victim s-2

by C. E. Lawrence

  "This case is odd in a lot of ways," Lee answered. "They do usually kill relative strangers, which helps them depersonalize their victims."

  "And makes them harder to catch," Butts interjected.

  "True," Lee agreed. "But guys like Gacy and Dahmer had some interaction with their victims before killing them, for example, so I think we should start with the idea that this UNSUB knew the victims-at least to an extent."

  "He must have known the man he killed in the bathtub, no?" Krieger asked. "There was no sign of forced entry."

  "I agree," Lee said. "A key element here is motive. Once we figure that out, it will help us to connect the victims. I'm convinced there is a link-we just haven't seen it yet."

  "Maybe the killer is the only link," Butts suggested.

  "Is there any chance the choice of victims was random?" Chuck asked.

  Lee shook his head. "Highly unlikely. The notes all suggest a relationship of some kind-at least in the killer's mind."

  "Okay, then we need to set up more interviews with people who knew the vics," Chuck said. "Detective Butts has done a few already, but I'm thinking we need to cast a wider net."

  Lee nodded in agreement, but what he was thinking was that nets have holes, and their prey had already proven slippery enough to evade them so far. He was beginning to wonder if there was a net in the world big enough to catch him.

  CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

  When Lee arrived home, there was a message on his answering machine, and it wasn't entirely welcome. It was from Kay Shackleton, the head of the Psychology Department at John Jay College, asking him if he was interested in being a guest lecturer at the college. He sank down in the red leather armchair by the window and listened to the message a second time.

  "We've been working on the list of visiting professors, and Tom thought of asking you," she said. Tom Mariella was a senior professor on the faculty and an excellent teacher-Lee had taken several of his courses.

  "… your position on the police force gives you a unique point of view, and we thought you might be interested in giving your perspective on the attack on the World Trade Center. It would be part of a series of lectures given by other faculty members as well. With the anniversary coming up, we just thought-" Lee hit the STOP button on the machine.

  He had read somewhere-R. D. Laing, perhaps-that the primary emotion experienced by people in the presence of evil was confusion. He felt that now-as he did with every case he worked on. It was a familiar feeling, and yet one he never seemed to get used to… underneath the cold, hard fact of three dead victims lurked a whirlpool of bewilderment. Spuyten Duyvil… Whirlpool of the Devil.

  He wandered into the kitchen and made himself a martini, shaking it in the sterling-silver decanter that once belonged to his father. He poured it into a V-shaped glass, added an olive, and took a swallow. The taste of gin was reassuring-sharp, medicinal, like drinking pine sap. He drank some more and wandered into the living room.

  The anniversary is coming up… He had lived through more than enough anniversaries already-his father's desertion, his sister's disappearance-and now this. His profession was about solving things, the puzzles and mysteries behind crime, and yet he could not solve the mysteries in his own heart. The questions gnawed at him, and they all seemed connected. How could his father have left his family behind, just walking out the door one rainy night, never to return? And how could his sister have disappeared without a trace, as though she had never existed? And how could someone slip through the crowded streets of the city, carrying the knowledge that he was a murderer, yet not betray that dark fact to anyone he met-until it was too late?

  Dusk settled uneasily over Manhattan as Lee stared out his front window, martini in hand. The rays of the setting sun fell on the Ukrainian church across the street, caught in the vast circular design of the stained-glass window that took up most of the church's front facade. He imagined the light traveling forever in the circular whirl of saints and visions, caught in an endless trajectory of faith and belief. He was reminded that many of the stars whose distant light we see on clear nights are already dead, and that what we see is just the trail of ghosts, left behind long after their lives have ended.

  Laura's trail still blazed brightly in Lee's mind, but he was afraid that her light was beginning to dim for others who knew her. His mother rarely mentioned her anymore, and Kylie had been too young when she disappeared to have any memories of her. He had taken up the torch to find her killer when he became a criminal profiler, but so far he had failed. His need to punish himself for this failure was intense, and it was only with an extreme effort that he could pull away from it.

  The ringing of the phone snapped him out of his self-recriminations.

  He grabbed the receiver.

  "Hello?" "Lee?"

  The voice was deep, resonant, and cultivated. He recognized it at once.

  "Hello, Diesel. How are you?" "More to the point, how are you?" "I'm okay." "You don't sound it."

  Lee smiled, in spite of the feelings raised by Diesel's voice. He had met the man through his late friend Eddie Pepitone. He missed Eddie, and he knew Diesel did, too.

  "How's Rhino?" he asked, trying to steady his voice.

  "Oh, he's very pleased with himself. He's lost five pounds this month and is unbearable to live with."

  Diesel and Rhino (a.k.a. John Rhinehardt Jr.) were the most unlikely couple Lee had ever met. Diesel was a giant of a man, with shiny mahogany skin, whereas Rhino was tiny, muscular, and pale as a ghost. Lee was grateful for Diesel and Rhino's continued presence in his life. They were good men and all he had left of Eddie.

  "Are you both still working at Bellevue?" he asked.

  "Actually, I've had a promotion. I'm now in charge of all the other orderlies."

  "Congratulations-that's great."

  "Yes, it's great if you don't have to live with John K. Reinhardt Jr., I suppose. He's never forgiven me for it."

  "You mean because now you're his boss?"

  "Something like that," Diesel answered. "He said to say hi, by the way. But I actually called to see if you were investigating these bizarre killings."

  Lee wasn't sure how to respond. His assignment to the case wasn't exactly a secret, but it wasn't something the NYPD would broadcast to the public. Luckily, Diesel saved him from having to answer.

  "I can see by your hesitation that you are," Diesel continued smoothly. "I just called to offer our services. If there's anything we can do-anything at all-don't hesitate to ask. I think Eddie would have wanted…" Diesel began, but his voice trailed off, the silence on the line between them like a physical presence. "I'm sorry-I don't know what Eddie would have wanted. Maybe I'd just like to think I know."

  "Yeah," Lee agreed. "I know."

  "I think he would want us to keep in touch, anyway."

  "I agree," Lee said. "I'm glad to hear from you. But this killer is dangerous, and I don't think-"

  "Hey, look," said Diesel, "Rhino and I can take care of ourselves. I'm just saying that if you can use us as a resource, we're here for you."

  "I appreciate that."

  "There are some things Eddie didn't tell you about us. We have certain… skills, let's say, that might be of use to you at some point."

  That was all very mysterious, and Lee was intrigued, but he heard the click of call waiting on the other line.

  "Thanks," he said. "I'm sorry, but I have an incoming call."

  "No problem. You know where to find us."

  "Yes-give my best to Rhino," Lee said. "I'll talk to you soon." He clicked the receiver and picked up the other call.

  The voice he heard had the same reptilian coldness as before.

  "I know about the red dress."

  Ripples of terror slithered across the surface of Lee's skin. He clutched the edge of the piano to steady himself. "Who are you?" "Does it matter?"

  "If you know something," Lee said, trying to keep his voice from shaking, "why don't you go to the police?"

 
The caller chuckled-a low, unpleasant sound, like two rocks knocking together.

  "What would be the fun in that?"

  "Look," Lee said, but the line went dead. He immediately dialed*69, but a recording told him that the caller had blocked his number when he called.

  He stood there for a moment, then picked up his martini glass and gulped down its contents. As he did, he made a grim vow. If this caller really did know something about his sister's murder, Lee swore to himself that he would hunt him down, no matter the cost.

  CHAPTER NINETEEN

  The largest of the five buildings comprising the campus of John Jay College of Criminal Justice is Haaren Hall, a handsome, imposing redbrick and gray-stone building on the west side of Tenth Avenue. The building spans the entire block between Fifty-fifth and Fifty-sixth Streets, the sidewalk outside busy with the comings and goings of students and faculty from early in the morning until well after dark. The building, originally the home of a public high school, houses a fully equipped theater, as well as a swimming pool and a gym.

  Around twilight the next day, Lee stood across the street on Tenth Avenue staring at the entrance, thinking about all the times he had mounted the broad stone steps, on his way to class or, after graduating, to meet a friend or former classmate there. The building was backlit in the pink glow of the sun setting over the Hudson, the temperature of the windless air so perfectly matching the warmth of his skin that it felt as if there were no atmosphere at all. He could smell the fresh woodsy smell of the magnolia bushes in the little pocket park behind him.

  He was still in a daze from the phone call of the night before, immersed in a deep, bitter fog of self-pity he couldn't seem to shake off.

  Behind him, he heard a familiar voice.

  "Hello, my friend!"

  He turned to see the Greek hot dog vendor who worked that corner, a man who had sold him dozens of hot dogs over the years, pushing his cart along the sidewalk, on his way home. The man's weather-beaten face broke into a broad smile, displaying strong, yellow teeth.

  "How are you, my friend? I no see you in long time!" he said, stopping his cart next to Lee and clapping a friendly hand on his shoulder. His hands were thick and brown, the skin mottled and cracked from the wind and sun. "Is good to see you!"

  "Yes, it's good to see you, too," Lee replied, and in truth, it was. One of the sweet things about life in New York was the relationships you had with people like this man. The young Guatemalan immigrant who makes your breakfast sandwich so quickly and efficiently, the Cuban deli owner who knows just how you like your coffee in the morning, the Korean salad bar lady with the good sushi at the Essex Market, the Indian grocer who sells you your daily bagel or newspaper. You rarely know their names, and you may not know much about them, but the moment you share with them every day is a thread in the fabric of city life. Lee valued these relationships: they were not complex and layered and ambiguous like intimate relationships, but that was part of their charm. New York was so full of people who came from other places, and those moments where they briefly touched, exchanging a sandwich and a greeting, were something Lee clung to and valued greatly.

  He turned to face his friend. "How have you been? How's business?"

  The man wagged his head back and forth. "Now is so-so, you know-not so good. When September come, is much better. Everyone back to class, everyone hungry!" He winked and let out a robust belly laugh. Lee was always impressed with the man's good spirits. After a hard day of standing outside in all kinds of weather, he still had good humor and a belly laugh. Lee didn't think he'd be up to a job like that-and this man probably had fifteen years on him.

  "So, my friend, is good to see you-I see you again?" the man said, beginning to wheel his cart away.

  "Yes," Lee replied. "You will definitely see me again."

  He watched as the vendor pushed his cart uphill along the sidewalk, stooped over with the effort, favoring his right leg, his shoulders rounded from years of physical labor. Watching him, Lee's self-pity and indecision evaporated like steam from a hot dog bun. When the light changed, he strode out into the dusky street and toward John Jay College of Criminal Justice.

  Little had changed since he was last there some five months ago. The building was quiet, in the break period between the end of summer classes and the beginning of the fall term. At the front security desk, the pretty black girl with the colorfully beaded hair was absorbed in her textbook and barely glanced at him as he flashed his ID card. She pressed the release button, and he went through the metal turnstile as he had a hundred times before. Lee wanted to get used to being in the building again, to acclimatize himself, as it were, before tackling a lecture hall full of students.

  He started up the stairs to the third floor, where most of the faculty offices were, and pushed open the door to the familiar corridor. The hall was empty, which wasn't surprising-most of the professors and staff would be enjoying the last week of summer vacation. He walked slowly down the hall, his footsteps ringing hollow through the deserted corridor.

  As he turned the corner, he heard the dreaded voice in his head, in all its reptilian coldness.

  I know about the red dress.

  His knees weakened and he began to sweat.

  "Get a grip, Campbell," he muttered, and walked onward. But each step seemed to pound out the same three syllables, over and over. The red dress… the red dress… the red dress. His vision seemed to narrow, and the walls felt as though they were slowly beginning to press inward, closing in on him. He knew the warning signs of a panic attack, but fought the sensation by swinging his arms vigorously, concentrating on taking deep breaths.

  He passed the familiar place where there was a water stain on the ceiling in the shape of Florida, and the janitor's closet two doors away. He headed for the big lecture hall at the end of the corridor, which was where he would probably be giving his talk. He thought he detected a faint, lingering aroma of clove cigarettes in the air.

  He reached the lecture hall, but the door was closed and locked. He tried to peer in through the gray smoked-glass partition on the door, with no success-he could see nothing except the sheen of sunlight coming through the row of tall windows on the far wall. The interior of the room was foggy and indistinct. The numbers 303 were stenciled on the top of the glass in an old-fashioned, gold-colored typeface.

  He thought he heard footsteps behind him and spun around, his heart pounding, but the hall was empty. He felt all of his senses were magnified, more acute, but especially his hearing. It was as though he had the ears of a bat, and every little sound gave him a start. He leaned against the wall and put his hand to his left side, throbbing and pulsing with each beat of his heart. Steady on, Campbell.

  There, on the opposite wall, was a student bulletin board, and clinging to it was a tattered scrap of paper with the remnants of a photograph of a smiling young woman wearing a lopsided graduation cap. Underneath the picture he could still make out the words, Please Help. He recognized it at once as a picture of one of the thousands still missing from the attack on the World Trade Center-no doubt buried under the mounds of rubble still piled high in Lower Manhattan. In the months following the tragedy, these pictures were everywhere-plastered on bus stops, park benches, trees, fences-hundreds of them, perhaps thousands, and the message was always the same: Missing-Please Help. And there was always a phone number to call. The smiling faces in the photographs were a terrible irony, as if mocking the reality of their fate-the people were never found, the phone numbers never called.

  The girl in this photo was about the same age his sister had been when she disappeared.

  The irony was suffocating. He tried to intellectualize it: Here he was, in the halls of the largest school for criminal justice in the greatest city in the world, yet he was as helpless to find his sister as the family of the lost girl was to ever find her again.

  He turned to go but was overcome with nausea and had to lean back against the wall again. Saliva spurted into his mouth. His sto
mach rolled and churned, but he fought it. "Damn," he muttered, "I'll be damned if I'm going to be sick. " Even as he said the words, he was aware they were somewhat ridiculous, but he fought the nausea anyway, and after a couple of minutes he felt a little better. He took a few steps but was still shaking. and then realized what he really wanted, more than anything, was to scream until he was hoarse. That was impossible, as there were other people in the building.

  Suddenly he wheeled around, his body filled with an intense, gathering rage. Hardly knowing what he was doing, he lunged back toward the door and swung at the glass partition with all his might, hitting it almost directly in the center with his right fist. The glass shuddered and held for a fraction of a second, then cracked and shattered, crashing to the floor in a waterfall of broken shards.

  Lee stared at the broken pieces of glass at his feet, then at his hand, which was bleeding. He felt no pain yet-that would come later. His body was too full of adrenaline to register anything. It did occur to him with some irritation that it would be a while before he could play the piano again-some of the cuts were pretty deep. He watched with detachment as his blood dripped onto the polished tile floor. He thought of how a forensic investigation might classify it: Blood spatter from a puncture wound, non-high-velocity impact, indicating no blunt-force trauma or femoral arterial spray. Not enough volume to indicate the death of the victim. No, he wasn't dead-not yet.

  But instead of feeling satisfaction or relief, he felt only a terrible, heavy sadness.

  CHAPTER TWENTY

  It began that day, the delight he took in wearing soft, fluffy fabrics and lacy undergarments-the kind of thing his mother wore when she was alive. It all started that day Caleb came back home with his father, and the house was so still. Instead of the sound of his mother preparing dinner in the kitchen, there was nothing-only the quiet scuttering of mice in the attic, the dripping of rain from the eaves. It had started raining when they left the river. His father drove without speaking as the drops grew in size, splashing onto the windshield as the wipers did their brisk business of flinging them off the car. He sat watching the wiper blades swoosh back and forth. Foopah, foohpah, foo-PAH. The sound they made was so soothing-they swung in front of his tired eyes like a pendulum, hypnotizing him. Their timing was off, so that one blade was always falling a little bit behind the other one. He remembered liking the syncopated rhythm they created-he found it comforting. Foopah, FOOpah, foo-PAH.