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by Amy Sorrells




  Praise for Amy K. Sorrells

  Then Sings My Soul

  “Flashing back between the present and [the] past, Sorrells stitches together a beautiful story of family and belief that illustrates the importance of closure and the peace derived from faith. Recommended for readers interested in realistic fiction in the style of Kate Breslin, Kristy Cambron, and Chris Bohjalian.”

  LIBRARY JOURNAL

  “Then Sings My Soul is the most phenomenal and heartrending story I have ever read. This struck my heart and soul and will remain in my memory forever. The horrific treatment of the Jews during the Holocaust will never be forgotten. Amy K. Sorrells could not have described the events happening with more authenticity . . . than she did. If this story doesn’t ‘get’ you, no others will.”

  FRESH FICTION

  How Sweet the Sound

  “This book will turn your emotions inside out and grip your heart with a clawed fist before pouring acid—and then balm—over the wounds. You have been warned. Now, by all means, go buy this unusually edgy and entirely moving inspirational novel and read it for yourself.”

  SERENA CHASE, USA TODAY

  “Debut inspirational novelist Sorrells opens her story powerfully . . . Sorrells will likely move many readers of faith, and she’s worth watching.”

  PUBLISHERS WEEKLY

  “You could read How Sweet the Sound because you love a well-told story, but Amy Sorrells delivers so much more. Here the depths of pain mankind can inflict meets the unfailing grace that waits to heal all who’ll come.”

  SHELLIE RUSHING TOMLINSON, BELLE OF ALL THINGS SOUTHERN, AUTHOR OF HEART WIDE OPEN

  “With poetic prose, lyrical descriptions, and sensory details that bring the reader deep into every scene, Amy K. Sorrells has delivered a lush, modern telling of the age-old story of Tamar. But that’s not all. With a full cast of colorful characters and juxtaposed first-person narratives woven through, this story dives into the Gulf Coast culture of pecan orchards and debutante balls exposing layers of family secrets and sins. In the end comes redemption, grace, forgiveness, and faith, but not without a few scars carried by those who manage to survive the wrath of hardened hearts. Bravo!”

  JULIE CANTRELL, NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLING AUTHOR OF INTO THE FREE AND WHEN MOUNTAINS MOVE

  “How Sweet the Sound is one of those books you want to savor slowly, like sips of sweet tea on a hot Southern day. Achingly beautiful prose married with honest, raw redemption makes this book a perfect selection for your next book club.”

  MARY DEMUTH, AUTHOR OF THE MUIR HOUSE

  “Meeting these characters and stepping into their worlds forever changed the contour of my heart. Sorrells’s words effortlessly rise from the page with a cadence that is remarkably brave and wildly beautiful.”

  TONI BIRDSONG, AUTHOR OF MORE THAN A BUCKET LIST

  “Filled with brokenness and redemption, grit and grace, How Sweet the Sound is a heartrending coming-of-age debut about God’s ability to heal the hurting and restore the damaged. Sorrells deftly reminds us that no matter how dark the night, hope is never lost. Not if we have eyes to see.”

  KATIE GANSHERT, AUTHOR OF WILDFLOWERS FROM WINTER AND WISHING ON WILLOWS

  “A stirring tale of loss and redemption. Amy Sorrells will break your heart and piece it back twice its size.”

  BILLY COFFEY, AUTHOR OF WHEN MOCKINGBIRDS SING

  “A daring and enchanted story, Amy K. Sorrells’s How Sweet the Sound beckons readers to a land of pecan groves, bay breezes, and graveyard secrets rising up like the dead on judgment day.”

  KAREN SPEARS ZACHARIAS, AUTHOR OF MOTHER OF RAIN

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  Lead Me Home

  Copyright © 2016 by Amy Sorrells. All rights reserved.

  Cover photograph of sky copyright © Dzulfiqar Zaky/EyeEm/Getty Images. All rights reserved.

  Cover photograph of field copyright © Alejandro Gallardo/EyeEm/Getty Images. All rights reserved.

  Cover designed by Nicole Grimes

  Interior designed by Alyssa E. Force

  Edited by Kathryn S. Olson

  Published in association with the literary agency of WordServe Literary Group, www.wordserveliterary.com.

  Unless otherwise indicated, Scripture quotations are taken from the Holy Bible, New Living Translation, copyright © 1996, 2004, 2015 by Tyndale House Foundation. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers, Inc., Carol Stream, Illinois 60188. All rights reserved.

  The Scripture quotation in the epigraph is taken from the Holy Bible, New International Version,® NIV.® Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 by Biblica, Inc.® Used by permission. All rights reserved worldwide.

  Scripture quotations in chapters 6, 8, and 23 are taken from The Holy Bible, English Standard Version® (ESV®), copyright © 2001 by Crossway, a publishing ministry of Good News Publishers. Used by permission. All rights reserved.

  The Scripture quotation in the author’s note is taken from the Amplified Bible®, copyright © 1954, 1958, 1962, 1964, 1965, 1987 by The Lockman Foundation. Used by permission.

  Lead Me Home is a work of fiction. Where real people, events, establishments, organizations, or locales appear, they are used fictitiously. All other elements of the novel are drawn from the author’s imagination.

  Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

  Names: Sorrells, Amy K., author.

  Title: Lead me home / Amy K. Sorrells.

  Description: Carol Stream, Illinois : Tyndale House Publishers, Inc., [2016]

  Identifiers: LCCN 2015047359 | ISBN 9781496409553 (softcover)

  Subjects: | GSAFD: Christian fiction.

  Classification: LCC PS3619.O79 L43 2016 | DDC 813/.6—dc23 LC record available at http://lccn.loc.gov/2015047359

  ISBN 978-1-4964-1438-0 (ePub); ISBN 978-1-4964-0957-7 (Kindle); ISBN 978-1-4964-1439-7 (Apple)

  Build: 2016-02-25 16:57:11

  To Tucker, Charlie, and Isaac,

  that you may be assured of and rest in his plans

  The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance.

  —PSALM 16:6, NIV

  Habitat loss, isolation of populations, combined with the extremely small size of many of the remaining population, puts [the Karner blue butterfly] at high risk of “winking out.”

  —UNITED STATES FISH AND WILDLIFE SERVICE

  Contents

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Epilogue

  A Note from the Author

  Discussion Questions

  About the Author

  1

  All at onc
e, the Reverend James Horton understood why Frank Whitmore had killed himself. He pushed the manila file folder back across the desk of his office at Sycamore Community Church. Across from him sat George Kernodle, the sides of his burgeoning belly pressed tight against the arms of the old chair, the flesh of his neck falling over the starched collar of his shirt and striped silk tie.

  “I’m sorry, James. I’ve done all I can to keep this from happening.”

  The red splotches on Kernodle’s jowly cheeks and the sweat he wiped off his brow and upper lip did not seem to indicate much sympathy, and James’s thoughts wandered back to Frank Whitmore. James had heard about the circumstances of Whitmore’s demise through Charlie Reynolds, the pastor of the Methodist church, who had presided over the funeral and arrangements.

  Whitmore’s wasn’t the first suicide among farmers in the area, the arrival of corporate farms having caused many already-ragged farmers to bend, break, and foreclose, unable to compete with the massive machinery, the demand for genetically modified crops that withstood weeds but sucked the life from the land, and the giant dairies that used heifers for two years and sent them to the slaughterhouse. What broke Whitmore, however, was not the nearby commercial dairy offering public tours and their own label of milk selling for eight dollars per half-gallon (compared to the $1.60 per gallon he received from the co-op), but rather a particularly nasty storm that knocked out the power on his farm. A widower of nearly a decade, Whitmore had isolated himself so much over the years that no one knew about his predicament. No one came to help him, and he did not ask for help. So when the power company indicated it would take over forty-eight hours to restore the power, Whitmore, faced with losing most of his milkers to the mastitis that would set in before then, shot thirty of his best cows and then himself, sparing them all from the misery.

  The whole scenario bothered James for many reasons, not the least of which was that Whitmore had not felt like he’d had anyone to ask for help. The cows he hadn’t shot were going to be moved to the Burden dairy farm across the fields from where James and his daughter, Shelby, lived. Though well aware that sowing seeds of Scripture and tending proverbial sheep did not make him a farmer, James had long watched the work and unpredictable nature of farming through the windows. Tucked between the Burden dairy and Stuart Granger’s hog farm, James and his wife had been close to Laurie Burden and her two sons until time and seasons and tragedies came between them, until all that remained was an occasional smile and nod if they happened to see each other in the aisles of the IGA. Laurie’s two boys were mostly grown and helped run things at the dairy, but they had enough of their own problems, and he was concerned about how they’d take on the added work of Whitmore’s surviving herd. Then again, farmers had a way of figuring out and making do. Like barren fields each spring, just when he thought they had nothing left to give, they gave some more.

  “The Lord gave me what I had, and the Lord has taken it away,” James thought, reminded of the passage from Job.

  “Are you alright?” Kernodle asked, jolting James back to the conversation.

  Though he was seated, the room seemed to sway, and James gripped the arms of his chair. “How soon?”

  “The auction will be Labor Day. That gives you about a month—”

  “Less than a month. That’s three weeks.”

  “Okay, three weeks. You have three weeks to tidy things up, notify your congregants, finish whatever you need to finish.”

  “How does one auction off a church? I mean, who buys a church?”

  George struggled to shift his weight, and then he cleared his throat. “Might not be another church who buys it. Might be someone interested in using the land to start over. Build something new.”

  “And tear down over a hundred and fifty years of history? George—you have to know the carvings and stained glass alone are worth thousands. At the very least this building is a piece of history.” James felt his throat thicken, and his eyes burned. He was determined not to become visibly emotional in front of Kernodle, but any warmth the two had shared over the years had long ago curdled under the strain of the loan applications and reapplications, the refinancing and now the default of the account.

  “I’m sorry. I wish there was something more we could do.” Kernodle hoisted himself up out of the chair, picked up the folder, and stuffed it into his leather attaché. Sweat began to discolor the top edge of his collar.

  James knew he should stand and offer the man his hand, but in that moment he could not. Surely Seraiah and Zephaniah hadn’t been exactly warm to King Nebuchadnezzar when he and his pals destroyed the Temple in 2 Kings. Granted, in James’s case, there had been no forced famine, no siege, no one breaking in and scattering his congregants across the countryside. There had been no fires set, no plundering of the church’s few possessions, no physical harm to blame for the church’s demise. But after spending over twenty years in ministry, he couldn’t help thinking up biblical parallels to situations he found himself in, whether he wanted to or not.

  Though he felt the familiar urges of the Holy Spirit to love the enemy who sat before him, and to be kind, at the moment it felt a whole lot better to flat-out dislike George Kernodle. Although if he were honest, he’d admit Kernodle didn’t deserve all the blame.

  The decline of Sycamore Community Church was well under way by the time problems with the bank arose. A few years back, Gertrude Johnson noticed a small crack in the basement wall during the covered dish supper they’d had after the Palm Sunday service. By fall, the crack had grown into a fissure extending down to the floor and across the entire length of the room. Three assessments and estimates later from local foundation repair contractors declared the century-and-a-half-old foundation was not only cracked, but dangerously and precariously shifted. They’d pointed out bowed walls on the inside and extensive evidence on the outside, each symptom adding thousands to the structural repair required.

  For generations, the building had been a trustworthy physical sanctuary, the sturdy brick and mortar taken for granted, so much so that James had been acutely aware of exactly where to step as he walked down the aisle each Sunday so as to avoid the creak of an ancient, warping floorboard. But even as he preached and they had their potlucks and weddings and baptisms and funerals, water seeped silent into cracks in window casings. Tree roots pushed and shoved through the soil and into the footings, weakening them. A shoddy roof replacement a decade before had neglected to upgrade the gutters and downspouts, so one whole side of the foundation had to be removed and replaced. One hundred and fifteen thousand dollars later, the church had a sturdy base and a generous, though ultimately insurmountable, loan from the bank.

  What choice did they have? James and the elders knew debt was wrong, but the work had to be done. The elders pitched a fund-raising campaign to anyone they could think of—descendants of charter members, local and regional businesses, organizations supporting small-town churches. Molly, with the help of the vivacious Lizzie Bailey, had organized a community barbecue. A few children had tried to sell lemonade from stands on seldom-traveled country roads. But even with all that, they’d only raised $4,800. The bank had been willing to give them a low-interest rate and stretch out the payments, but contractors were not partial, not even to near-bankrupt churches.

  The problem was not that people did not care about Sycamore Community Church. The problem was the same of any small town. The congregation, strongest in the Eisenhower era, had remained vibrant during the decades that followed. After James took over in the early 1990s, it had grown steadily for the first years he’d been there. But then, sometime around 2010 if he had to guess, attendance had been stagnant, eventually dwindling severely. The attendance the previous Sunday had been fourteen. It had started out as thirteen, which despite the fact he was not superstitious always made James cringe. Thankfully, Wilma Petticrew had shuffled in late, so the number rose to fourteen. There wasn’t anyone to blame for this either, anyone except himself for not being more charismatic,
not having the foresight to envision the postmodern pilgrimage of parishioners from the pews. Farms foreclosed. Families moved away. And the rest—if they hadn’t given up on church altogether—were drawn like bugs to a streetlamp to the lights and sounds of the megachurch down the interstate. Congregants aged and died off until tithes—even from those willing to give their 10 percent—were nearly nonexistent, and the interest from a handful of aging endowments barely paid for the light bill, let alone allowed enough of a salary for James and Shelby to eat.

  Even with the foundation fixed, the parking lot was full of horrendous chuckholes, and the velvet offering bags were threadbare to the point that just last week one busted open when a well-intentioned grade-schooler plunked in a plastic bag full of pennies he’d collected, and which had gone rolling every which way across the warping oak floors. And now, on the afternoon of September 4, he would be forced to pull the door of the church closed for good.

  God’s will and sovereignty aside, the loss of the church was one more death in James’s life, creating the same sort of despair Whitmore must have felt when he shot each of the cows he’d raised between the eyes and then held the gun to his own head.

  All that work.

  All that blind trust.

  All that faith in the weather bringing rain after drought and warmth after frost, of trying to be still and know somehow the Lord, Jehovah-Jireh, would come through at the last minute.

  James wondered how the suicide rate of farmers compared to that of pastors.

  He tried to force a congenial smile, but before he could extend his hand, Kernodle turned and ambled stiffly out of his office.

  Moments later, Bonnie Thompson rushed in. “Are you alright, Reverend? Mr. Kernodle, he looked positively beside himself.”

  “Have a seat, Bonnie.” James motioned toward the chair Kernodle had vacated.

  Bonnie, the wife of Hank Thompson, owner of the local hardware store, never spoke ill of anyone. Besides the seasons, she’d been one of the few predictable things in James’s life—and Shelby’s, for that matter. Ever since Molly died, Bonnie had been there picking up slack when he was too depressed to make heads or tails of expense and budget reports, taking care of the weekly bulletin, taking care of most everything, really, so he’d have time to focus on what he did best, which was his sermons. She’d taken care of the accounting, too.

 

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