Two of them were familiar.
“It’s about time you joined us, little sister.” Alex slurs as he wraps his arm around my shoulder.
I shake my head and grab the glass of alcohol from his hand before swallowing it down.
If I had any hopes of getting the image of Blue with another girl out of my mind it was going to have to be drowned out by alcohol.
London slips me a fresh bottle of alcohol and I grin to him as he places his arm possessively around my waist.
I was going to try and enjoy this as much as possible.
Music begins to surround us as we laugh and sing along while getting drunk.
London moves closer as the night moves on.
It felt good to be wanted by him, but it still felt wrong.
Feeling drunk I sway on my feet. “I have to go to the bathroom.” I slur.
London nods and begins to lead the way but I stop him. “I can go on my own. I’ll be right back, I promise.”
He grins and nods before pulling me in for a long kiss before letting me go again.
Laughing I walk slowly through the room and outside before making my way around the building.
I don’t know why I wasn’t using a nearby bathroom but I had the need for privacy.
The thought of Blue still being with that other girl doesn’t hit me until I turn the knob to our room and walk in.
Thankfully no one is in either of the beds.
Swaying slightly I make my way through our room and into the bathroom.
Before I can even get to the toilet my legs give out and I crumble to the floor.
I laugh and fight to get to my feet before strong arms lift me back up to stand.
“London, I told you I could do this on my own.” I argue.
“Think again, wolf.” Blue’s voice rings out in response.
I groan. “Why can’t I have a little bit of luck on my side?”
Blue snorts as he turns me around to face him. “Exactly what are you trying to do?”
I give him a goofy grin. “I have to pee.”
He smirks. “That’s attractive.”
I nod and then try to unbutton my jeans to pull them down.
I didn’t have a care in the world about who saw me. I just needed to go to the bathroom.
When I fail at getting the button undone I growl.
“Let me help you.” Blue grunts and quickly unbuttons my pants for me before tugging them down my thighs.
His eyes remain on mine the entire time until he pushes me back to sit down on the toilet.
I lean forward and close my eyes as I go.
“You are completely wasted, aren’t you?” Blue asks.
I nod my head and then almost fall off the seat.
“How much did you drink? I didn’t think wolves could get drunk this easily.” Blue then inquires as he holds me upright.
Holding up my hand I tick off the drinks that I had had. “I had two bottles of vodka, a bottle of jack, and then a bottle of something that glittered.”
Blue scoffs in disbelief. “You had whole bottles?”
I nod and then try standing to my feet. Blue once again holds me steady as I take care of myself and then pull up my pants the best that I could.
Blue then buttons my jeans for me before I try to push past him.
“Hold on, Parker, you can’t leave. You’re too drunk and you’ll get yourself hurt.” Blue grunts as he stops me.
I laugh harshly. “You already hurt me enough today.” I admit against my better judgment.
“I didn’t want to hurt you.” He whispers.
Shaking my head I push my way past him so I could at least get to my bed.
Stumbling a little I make it to the edge of my bed before sitting down. “Let me guess, you didn’t want to hurt me but you had to, am I right?”
“It’s for the best. I’m not who you want me to be and I will never be him. I see the way you look at me.” Blue replies.
“I know you’re not him. You will never be half the person he was. He loved me no matter what. I went through heaven and hell to get to him.” I yell. “I went to the depths of hell to pull him out only to have him killed right in front of me.”
“A Hunter just like you killed him with a single shot, and as much as I should hate every Hunter out there for what happened to him, I don’t.” I cry.
“I should hate you.” I then growl as I stand to my feet and get into his face.
Tears flow freely down my cheeks as I look deep into his eyes. “I should hate you for looking like him, but I don’t.”
Once that confession is out I fall back to my bed and place my head into my hands as I begin to sob. “I hate me. I hate who I am, and I hate the hole in my heart.”
Suddenly London bursts into the room and snarls at Blue. “I told you to stay away from her.”
“I did, she was just drunk and needed my help.” Blue replies.
Grabbing onto London’s hand I pull his attention towards me. “I’m fine, just really drunk.” I reassure.
Tugging him down on the bed next to me I grab him into a hug as I look at Blue over his shoulder. “Make me yours like you did before.” I whisper into London’s ear.
He pulls back to look into my eyes. “Why, why do you want that now after you’ve fought me on it so many times before, what’s changed?”
I answer him while staring right at Blue. “Because I can’t live like this anymore, I need to belong to someone.”
London glances back to Blue before shaking his head. “I will only do it if you ask me when you’re sober.”
Growling out in frustration I shove London away before laying back on my bed.
Within moments I close my eyes and drift off to sleep but not before I hear London and Blue talking together softly.
“She is a mess.” London sighs.
“I messed up earlier. I didn’t think that it would affect her like this, I thought it would force her away from me, to make her realize I’m not her mate.” Blue replies.
“She knows you’re not, there’s something else going on.” London sighs and the bed dips next to me. “There has to be more to it, she knows our laws.”
Their words fade as I fall deeper into the darkness.
Groaning I wake up and toss London’s arm away from my body before slowly sitting up on the edge of our bed.
My head was pounding.
Moving slowly I walk into the bathroom and strip down before making my way into the shower.
I needed the hot water to sooth my body.
With my hands against the wall I close my eyes and think about what I had said and done.
I had confessed too much.
There was only one real way out of this and I needed to push Blue as far away from me as I could.
I could chalk everything that I had said to him up to me just being drunk.
Making up my mind I shut the water off and climb out of the shower before drying my body off quickly.
Quietly I make my way back out to my bed before slipping under the covers naked.
London stirs a little but with a few soft strokes of my hands he comes to life and snuggles his nose into my neck to take a deep breath.
His hands slide down my body and set every inch of me on fire.
I moan softly and he quickly covers my lips with his to keep me quiet.
Moving quickly he strips out of his clothing and then climbs over me.
His yellow eyes flash in the low light of the room as he looks down at me for my response. “Are you sure you want to do this, Sweetheart?”
I nod and glance over at Blue’s sleeping form. “Make me yours.”
London smiles and moves with one smooth motion deep inside of me.
A loud moan falls from my lips before either of us can cover it up. It’s just enough to wake Blue up from his sleep.
He sits up for a moment as he rubs his eyes until they land on me and my position under London.
London moves again and I throw
my head back as another moan falls from my lips.
I close my eyes as my heart breaks as the door to our room opens and then slams shut with Blue’s departure.
It was like placing a knife through my own heart.
“It’s for the best.” London reassures softly as he moves again.
Soon he reaches his hand to the back of my neck before his claws dig in deep.
“I love you, Sweetheart.” London grins.
“I love you too.” I reply as my heart warms with love for the wolf in front of me.
Any thoughts of others fade away so only the bond between us remained.
“That’s my girl.” London sighs happily as he brings me to the peak of bliss before pushing me over the edge.
I cry out with pleasure as he rides the waves with me.
As we finish I snuggle into London’s arms both feeling content and empty at the same time.
My heart felt as if it was longing for someone else.
It still felt broken.
“Rest, Sweetheart, we have a long day ahead of us.” London states as he holds me close and begins to drift back off to sleep.
My eyes remain open as I stare at the empty bed across from me.
I stay awake until the door opens quietly and then shuts before Blue sits down on the edge of his bed and sighs roughly as he scrubs his hands through his hair.
As he looks up his eyes meet mine with sadness and then determination as he stands to his feet and crooks his finger for me to follow him.
I don’t know why I get out of bed, but I do.
I follow Blue through the darkness and into the bathroom where he shuts the door behind us quietly.
He then moves through the darkness as he turns on the shower.
I stand motionless as he moves around some more before coming back over to me.
His bare skin glides against mine as he pulls me forward and into his strong arms. “I can’t stay away from you. I have to feel you even if it’s just once.” He whispers into my ear.
“We can’t do this.” I whisper back. “It’s against all of our laws.”
“No one will ever find out.” Blue replies before pressing his lips against mine as he lifts me up and wraps my legs around his waist.
Just as I feel him enter me I sit up panting in my bed.
It was just like before.
Blue was sitting up in his bed panting for his next breath as well.
This time he growls and then motions for me to follow him into the bathroom. It wasn’t at all friendly like it had been in our dream, he was angry.
Once the door shuts he grabs onto me roughly. “Stay out of my head. I can’t think of you like that especially after you did that with him. You’re a wolf and you make me sick.”
With those words he lets me go and then storms back out into the room.
I hold back the sob that threatened to fall from my lips before moving back out into the room and back under the covers with London.
I turn my back to Blue and push back the emotions that were ready to explode at any moment.
Somehow I manage to numb myself enough to fall back into a dark dreamless sleep.
6-Rollercoaster
“Wake up, Sweetheart.” London grunts as he shakes me for the sixth time.
I groan and turn my back to him.
“Sweetheart, what’s wrong?” He then questions as he kneels down to look me in the eyes since I wouldn’t face him any other way.
I stare past him absently.
Scrunching his nose he reaches his hand behind my neck and curses. “How are you healing so quickly?”
I had an answer for that but I wasn’t about to speak his name.
It hurt just to think about him.
“I don’t want to get up.” I argue with London as I move to turn my back to him again.
He sighs roughly before tugging me back around to look at him. “The Hunters need us to help them find their lost ones. You promised Pops that you would help.”
“Let them find their own people. I don’t know why I even bothered to care about these stupid humans anyway.” I clip out harshly.
Moving London out of his way Blue gets into my face. “My sister is out there and you’re the only one who can help find her so get up.” He demands.
I laugh harshly. “You should have thought about that before you told me that I made you sick.”
My words were only loud enough for him to hear.
He had dug his own grave on this one and he could find his damn sister all on his own. I would have no part in helping anyone.
The wolves were my people not these petty human Hunters.
We were enemies and it was best to remember that.
“You’re a real bitch, do you know that.” Blue growls out as he stands to his feet and then thankfully leaves the room.
London sighs roughly as he glances between me and the door. “I’ve got to go help them, Parker.” He states before leaving me alone as well.
I roll my eyes and turn my back to the door as I close my eyes and will myself to fall asleep again.
I don’t get the chance to fall back into the darkness though as Blue storms back into the room and snatches me up from the bed before carrying me into the bathroom over his shoulder.
He turns on the water and then puts me down once he slams the door shut and then locks it trapping me inside completely naked.
I cross my arms over my chest as I give him my best glare. “What do you think you’re doing?” I ask.
He shrugs as he begins pulling off his clothing, discarding it to the floor. “I’m going to give you what you want.”
I shake my head and laugh. “You’re a little too late for that.”
Grinning he shakes his head as he tosses his last piece of clothing to the floor. “I don’t think it’s too late judging from the way your eyes are looking at me right now.”
I had to admit that he looked good.
My hands were aching to reach out and touch him.
But instead I stand my ground and shake my head. “Stay away from me.”
Not listening to me he smirks and then grabs me around my waist before carrying me into the shower.
The hot water hits my skin and I gasp as he pins me against the wall with my legs wrapped around his waist.
His eyes stare into mine as he lifts me for a moment before pushing himself into me.
I moan and throw my head back in ecstasy.
A moan slips from his lips before they descend onto the sensitive skin on my neck.
He nips and kisses a trail as he moves within me.
My hands grasp at him as wave after wave of pleasure slams into my body.
It was like nothing I had ever felt before.
Not with London, and not with Gage.
“This is what you’ve been wanting from me, isn’t it?” Blue asks before he nips my bottom lip with his teeth.
I only answer him with a moan.
Grabbing hold of my chin he forces me to look at his face for a moment. “I’m not him.” He growls.
I nod my head and trace my finger over his scar. “I know you’re not him.”
He nods and then pulls my lips to his.
I open my mouth as his tongue forces its way inside to tangle with mine.
Too soon Blue brings me up and beyond my peak of bliss before we both fall over the other side together.
A moment later Blue grunts and then leaves me alone in the shower.
I listen as the door opens a few moments later and then shuts.
He was so hot and cold that I was left completely and utterly lost.
Moving slowly I shut off the water and climb out of the shower before wrapping a towel around my body.
With a deep breath I open the door and walk out into an empty room.
I raise my brow in confusion.
Had I just dreamt everything that had happened?
Glancing back at the bathroom I give up thinking and move to get my clothes on so I co
uld figure things out.
Just as I pull down my shirt the door opens and in walks Blue. “Get your ass moving, wolf. We’ve got lives to save.”
I stare at him in confusion until he motions for me to keep moving.
“Did you not hear me, wolf? Are you suddenly deaf?” He taunts.
“Go to hell.” I growl.
“I was just there.” He replies with a glare.
He was implying that what we had just done had been hell for him.
It was laughable considering he had enjoyed it just as much as I did.
Getting into his face I shove him hard.
All of my anger bubbles to the surface for him to see.
His anger quickly mimics my own before he shoves me against the nearest wall and assaults my lips with his as his hands grip my hips possessively.
It was like we were in a battle where neither of us would win unless we got lost in each other.
It was maddening.
With a rough shove Blue pushes me away before spitting on the ground between us. “Stay away from me.”
He then leaves the room but not before I flip him off.
Gathering what sanity and strength I had left I take a deep breath before leaving our room and joining the group of Hunters that were standing around Pops.
Each one was heavily armed.
“Alright, now that we’re all here we can split into two groups. The wolves are going to lead the groups since they are going to be tracking for us. If they stop so do you, do you understand?” Pops questions and then glances around at each of the Hunters gathered.
“Okay, then let’s go.” He then claps his hands.
The Hunters split off into two groups and file into the back of two large trucks.
London moves to my side. “Be careful, Sweetheart. We still can’t trust these Hunters. I hate the fact that they are splitting us up.”
I nod in agreement.
Being apart from London made me uneasy. “I’ll stay with you no matter what.” I reply as I point to my head.
Before we part ways London pulls me in for a quick but passionate kiss.
Stepping back he gives me a goofy grin before changing into his wolf form.
I turn and watch as he jumps into the back of one of the trucks with the Hunters.
Looking towards the other truck my eyes lock onto Blue’s.
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