I put a hand in the center of his chest, to let him know he should hold still, and swung one of my legs over his hips. It took a bit of gymnastic posturing to get him inside of me. It felt so good, I had tears in my eyes. I just sat on him for a while, enjoying the feeling of complete fullness, rejoicing in my own power to enjoy an act that used to leave me cold, alienated, and in pain. There was no pain at all with Glenn. I wanted him.
Using my fingers on his nipples, I began to rise and fall on his hard cock. He moaned and tried to get deeper inside of me. Eventually I let him put his hands on my hips. With his help, I could fuck myself a little faster. I let go of his nipples and jerked myself off, fingers moving in time with his swollen sex. He watched me through half-closed eyes. Was he thinking about tying me up and doing this? Great! But I was glad that we were doing it this way first, so I could be sure I was okay.
We became like two parts of one organism, moving in sync, pumping each other, working up toward a release that we both needed. I felt as if I would never get enough of this man. I wanted him so badly. You could argue that I would have felt that way about anybody who had been willing to come home with me. Not so. Glenn was smart enough to understand my story, and he didn’t bullshit me. He told me if he was scared or didn’t have the answer. That was fine.
The power to think rationally disappeared. We were only bodies, hands that groped at one another, genitals that burned and pleaded for orgasm; taste, smell, feel of his skin, nipples; biting his neck; licking the sweat—oh! We jerked together, and being able to come was such a blessing. Such blissful prolonged pleasure. My toes curled as I took his come, knowing he was responding when I squeezed him with my pelvic muscles. I wished that I could keep him inside of me for a little longer.
Glenn reluctantly separated from me and took the condom off. Then we went into each other’s arms and cuddled, not needing to be under the blankets just yet. His big teeth nibbled at my ear with the delicacy of a deer tasting new growth on the trees. His hands moved slowly over my backside, then stroked down the crack of my ass. “I’m showing you a good time there next,” he rumbled.
“Please do,” I whispered. Then I noticed that there were small tears coming out of his closed eyes, running down his cheeks to get lost in his beard. I moved up so I could lick them. “Don’t cry, I said. “Don’t be unhappy. Not when I feel this wonderful.”
He smiled without opening his eyes. “Not unhappy,” he yawned. “I feel pretty wonderful too. I feel so at home with you. What the hell do you call what we just did, anyway? That was awesome.”
“Sodomy,” I said firmly.
Glenn laughed so hard it brought him out of his sleepy state. He grabbed me and began to tickle me. I hate this, so I attacked in turn. I wasn’t sure where this would lead, but I didn’t care. Let the shop stay closed for one day. I was opening up much more important things.
ABOUT THE AUTHORS
RAHNE ALEXANDER (rahne.com) is a musician and multimedia artist from Baltimore. She is guitarist and vocalist in The Oops and the art rock power trio The Degenerettes, who were featured in the 2010 documentary Riot Acts. Her film and video work screens frequently in festivals and galleries across the country.
TONI AMATO ([email protected]) has been a teacher, editor and writing coach for over twenty years. His fiction has appeared in several anthologies and journals, including The Underwood Review and Food and Other Enemies. He is the editor, with Mary Davies, of the anthology, Pinned Down By Pronouns.
LAURA ANTONIOU (lantoniou.com) is a long-time writer, activist and teacher of sexuality relationship classes, known for her groundbreaking Marketplace books, the first S/M erotica series featuring a transman as the romantic hero. She is always working on new projects and invites friends on Facebook and Fetlife as long as you don’t bother her.
S. BEAR BERGMAN (sbearbergman.com) is the author or editor of three books (most recently the anthology Gender Outlaws: The Next Generation with Kate Bornstein), four solo performances and numerous contributions to anthologies on all manner of topics from the sacred to the extremely profane.
KATE BORNSTEIN is an advocate for teens, freaks, and other outlaws. She tweets incessantly at twitter.com/katebornstein. When she was a boy, she wanted to be Huckleberry Finn.
HELEN BOYD (myhusbandbetty.com) is the author of My Husband Betty and She’s Not the Man I Married. She has spoken at numerous gender conferences and has been running various community forums for transpeople and their partners for over a decade. She is a happy and visible—and happily visible—trans partner.
RACHEL KRAMER BUSSEL (rachelkramerbussel.com) is a New York-based author, editor and blogger. She is senior editor at Penthouse Variations and hosts In the Flesh Reading Series. Her books include Best Bondage Erotica 2011, Orgasmic, Fast Girls, Passion, The Mile High Club, Bottoms Up, Spanked, Peep Show, Tasting Him and more.
PATRICK CALIFIA (patrickcalifia.com) writes about sex politics and queer culture and he counsels sexual minority members. He has edited many anthologies and is the author of fourteen books, including Boy in The Middle: Erotic Fiction, Speaking Sex to Power: The Politics of Queer Sex and the classic Macho Sluts, rereleased in 2009.
IVAN COYOTE (ivanecoyote.com) was born and raised in Whitehorse, Yukon territory, Canada. Ivan is the author of seven books, four films and three CDs. You can find out more about Ivan and hir work on hir website.
KIKI DELOVELY is a queer femme performer/writer who has lived and performed all over the United States, as well as internationally, and now calls Durham, NC home. Her work has appeared in Best Lesbian Erotica 2011, Gotta Have It: 69 Stories of Sudden Sex and Salacious magazine.
GINA DE VRIES (ginadevries.com) is a genderqueer femme, a queer Paisan pervert, and a writer, performer, cultural worker, and activist. Recent publications include The Revolution Starts at Home and Bound to Struggle. Founder and facilitator of Sex Workers’ Writing Workshop San Francisco, she’s currently pursuing her MFA in Fiction Writing at San Francisco State University.
ALICIA E. GORANSON (themaskofinanna.com) is a Boston author, playwright and screenwriter. Her first novel, Supervil-lainz , was a 2006 Lambda Literary Award finalist and winner of the first Project QueerLit Award. She is writing and producing The Post-Meridian Radio Player’s flagship audio drama, “The Mask of Inanna.”
MICHAEL HERNANDEZ loves being a big ole hairy fag. He lives with his long-term husbear, grandkid, and a little brown-eyed beauty named Sugar (i.e., the dog). Mike’s previous work appears in Best of Best Lesbian Erotica 2 and Doing It for Daddy, among others.
ARDEN HILL is a PhD student and teacher out on the prairie where ze writes about gender, sexuality and disability. Hir erotic work has appeared in Best Gay Erotica 2008, Boys in Heat, Best of the Best Gay Erotica 3, loveyoudivine.com, and justusroux.com.
TOBI HILL-MEYER (nodesignation.com) is a trans activist and writer. She started writing to fill the utter void of diverse trans characters in media as well as to offer an alternative to the overwhelmingly exploitative and exotic ways that trans women’s sexuality is often portrayed.
JACQUES LA FARGUE is now a name twice used to grant safe passage to a Canadian Jew. This Jacques appreciates a good historical reference, has a total fetish for books and the printed word and excels at the esoteric. Jacques enjoys both gender and genitals in many combinations.
PENELOPE MANSFIELD is a transwoman in California. She’s still finishing up her electrolysis.
SANDRA MCDONALD (sandramcdonald.com) is the critically acclaimed author of the story collection Diana Comet and Other Stories, which Lambda Literary Review calls “joyful, poignant, silly and clever,” and The Outback Stars trilogy of science fiction novels. Her short fiction has appeared in more than forty magazines and anthologies.
SKIAN MCGUIRE is a working-class Quaker who lives in the wilds of western Massachusetts. Skian’s fiction has appeared in many anthologies, webzines and print periodicals.
Eroticist GISELLE RENARDE (gisellerenarde.webs.com) is
a proud Canadian, supporter of the arts and activist for women’s and LGBT rights. Ms. Renarde lives across from a park with two bilingual cats who sleep on her head.
DEAN SCARBOROUGH (hobbitdragon.livejournal.com) is an aspiring sex educator who writes and illustrates erotica in his spare time. His artwork has been published on the front cover of the queer speculative fiction magazine Collective Fallout and in the queer feminist porn magazine Salacious. He lives in the Bay Area of California.
JULIA SERANO (juliaserano.com) is an Oakland, California-based writer, performer and activist. She is the author of Whipping Girl: A Transsexual Woman on Sexism and the Scapegoating of Femininity, and she has also penned pieces in numerous anthologies, magazines and blogs. Her writings have been used in colleges across North America.
SINCLAIR SEXSMITH (mrsexsmith.com) runs the personal online writing project, Sugarbutch Chronicles: The Gender, and Relationship Adventures of a Kinky Queer Butch Top. With work published in various anthologies and websites, including the Best Lesbian Erotica series, Mr. Sexsmith writes, teaches and performs.
EVAN SWAFFORD ([email protected]) is a genderqueer queer currently living the dream in Oakland, CA. He is a Daddy, a dom and a boish soul. Some of his passions are BDSM, polyamory, transmasculine folks and smut. He was previously published in Best Lesbian Erotica 2009.
SHAWNA VIRAGO (shawnavirago.com) is a celebrated transgender songwriter and cultural activist. The SF Bay Times said Miss Virago is “a transgender songwriting goddess who manages to channel Joe Strummer through a Candy Darling-like persona.” She is the Director of the San Francisco Transgender Film Festival.
ANNA WATSON (femmebibliography.blogspot.com) is an old-school femme living in the Boston area with her butch husband and two sons. More of her writing can be found in Best Lesbian Erotica (2007, 2008, and 2009) as well as Visible: A Femmethology, Vol. 1 and Girl Crazy, among others.
RACHEL K. ZALL (radiosilent.org) is a poet, performing artist, activist and graphic designer living in Somerville, MA. She has published two books of poetry, The Oxygen Catastrophe and New Problems, and is currently working on a third, tentatively titled Naming, about overcoming transphobia. This is her first published work of erotica.
ANDREA ZANIN (sexgeek.wordpress.com) is a gender-fluid queer poly pervert who lives in Toronto and spends her time being a blogger, journalist, community organizer, educator, translator, editor, writer and PhD student while trying to keep up with her two partners and her leather family and do enough yoga to stay sane.
ZEV is a fresh-faced, innocent-looking young man with a dirty, dirty mind. An inveterate globetrotter, he has explored back rooms and bathhouses on three continents and counting. Despite his peripatetic lifestyle, he feels most at home at the feet of his fabulous Owner, who keeps him firmly in line.
ABOUT THE EDITOR
TRISTAN TAORMINO (puckerup.com and openingup.net) is an award-winning author, columnist, editor, sex educator and feminist pornographer. She is the author of seven books: The Big Book of Sex Toys, The Anal Sex Position Guide, Opening Up: A Guide to Creating and Sustaining Open Relationships, The Ultimate Guide to Anal Sex for Women, True Lust: Adventures in Sex, Porn and Perversion, Down and Dirty Sex Secrets and Secrets to Female Ejaculation and Great G-Spot Orgasms (forthcoming). She was creator and original series editor of sixteen volumes of the Lambda Literary Award–winning anthology Best Lesbian Erotica. She runs Smart Ass Productions, and has directed and produced more than twenty adult films, from sex education to reality porn. She was a syndicated columnist for the Village Voice for nine and a half years and writes an advice column for Taboo Magazine. She has appeared in hundreds of publications and on radio and television. She lectures at top colleges and universities and teaches sex and relationship workshops around the world. She lives with her partner and their dogs in Upstate New York.
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“Dixie Belle” © 2006 by Kate Bornstein first appeared in A Fictional History of the United States With Huge Chunks Missing, edited by T Cooper and Adam Mansbach (Akashic Books, 2006). “Cocksure” © 2010 by Gina de Vries first appeared in Bound to Struggle: Where Kink and Radical Politics Meet 4 (2010). “Self-Reflection” © 2009 by Tobi Hill-Meyer was originally published in Best Lesbian Erotica 2010 edited by Kathleen Warnock (Cleis Press, 2010).
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