by Pip Harry
Pip Harry has worked as a magazine journalist, university lecturer, camp counsellor, pool lifeguard and check-out chick. She has contested six Head of the River regattas as a rower and coach but never took home the title. This novel is a suitable consolation prize. Pip lives on the Northern Beaches in Sydney with her family. When not at a keyboard, she can be found searching for the perfect flat white or swimming in the ocean.
UQP published Pip’s debut novel, I’ll Tell You Mine, which won the 2013 Australian Family Therapists’ Awards for Children’s Literature.
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I’ll Tell You Mine
For John
‘Believe me, my young friend, there is nothing – absolutely nothing – half so much worth doing as simply messing about in boats.’
Kenneth Grahame, The Wind in the Willows
Author’s note
The Victorian Head of the River is the oldest continuous schoolboy rowing event in the world, dating back to 1868, when it was a two-boat race between Melbourne Grammar and Scotch College staged on the Yarra River in Melbourne. Today it is held between the eleven Associated Public Schools on Victoria’s Lake Nagambie.
Although girls from co-ed schools have been rowing in the Head of the River since 1972, a dedicated event, The Head of the Schoolgirls’ Regatta was first held in 1985 on Lake Wendouree, Ballarat. Today it is held on the Barwon River in Geelong. Both events draw huge crowds and public interest.
The winner of the first eight in the boys’ and girls’ division is crowned ‘Head of the River’. A prestigious and highly sought after award for the brave young rowers that compete each year.
Heads of the River are also run annually in South Australia, New South Wales, Queensland, Tasmania and Western Australia. The name ‘Head of the River’ is taken from similar international regattas, including the famous event staged on the River Thames in London since 1926.
The author acknowledges some changes to the running and location of the Head of the River in this novel, due to creative licence.
Glossary
Blade – Flat end of an oar.
Bow – Back of the boat.
Bowside – Left side of boat (if you are a rower sitting in the boat).
Catch a crab – When the oar becomes trapped under the water.
Check – To stop the boat with turned blades.
Coxen (cox) – Person who steers the boat and offers in-boat strategy.
Easy oar – Call to stop rowing.
Eight – Boat containing eight rowers and a cox.
Ergometer (Erg, Ergo) – Stationary indoor rowing machine on which rowers are tested and train.
Rigger – Triangle-shaped outrigger on which oars are attached.
Scull – Single boat with one rower.
Slide – The runners on which the wheels of the seat run.
Stern – Front of the boat.
Stroke – The rower who sits in the front seat and sets the pace for the crew.
Strokeside – Right side of boat.
Zoot suit (Zootie) – All-in-one rowing suit.
Repechage: A rowing heat in which the best competitors who have lost in a previous round compete for the remaining places in the next round.
Positions in the boat: (From the front of a coxed eight) Cox, stroke seat, seven seat, six seat, five seat, four seat, three seat, two seat and bow seat.
Monday, 4 April
Two days after Head of the River
Cristian
Assembly is like a funeral. There are no overconfident victory speeches from the Captains of Boats or pats on the back for a ‘job well done boys and girls’. Nobody holds aloft the precious Head of the River cup. Instead of a cheesy victory song like ‘Holy Grail’ or ‘We Are the Champions’ playing, there’s a hushed silence.
Eight hundred students sit perfectly still and upright. A quiet sea of green blazers and white shirts. Usually, this would be the time our principal Mr Kentwell would ask us to settle down. ‘Monday morning, people, let’s get it done’. Today, there’s no need. Gripping the lectern emblazoned with our school crest, ‘Harley Grammar – Success Smiles on Effort’, he has our full attention.
‘As I’m sure you are aware the APS Head of the River was held on Saturday at the Barwon River in Geelong,’ Mr Kentwell says. ‘It’s customary to hold a celebratory assembly and to announce the results of our hardworking rowing team as the culmination of a very successful season, however, this year we felt that wasn’t an appropriate course of action. One of our students is seriously ill,’ he says.
A girl in front of me starts to sob loudly and I want to lean over and say, ‘Stop being such a drama queen. You weren’t even friends. This has nothing to do with you.’ I wish it had nothing to do with me.
Gossip swirls and Mr Kentwell momentarily loses control of the room.
Around the hall are guys I’ve rowed with for the past four years. I can pick them out by the slope of their shoulders, crookedness of haircuts or the way their ears stick out. Up close I know what they smell like when they’re scared to death.
Nick, our stroke, is two rows in front of me. His head is dipped slightly to the right side as it is in the boat. Leaning into our riggers helps us find the balance. It’s hard to shake the habit on dry land. Charley, Mal, Julian … they’re all here. It’s tradition for Head of the River crews to sit together during this assembly. Last year I was even on stage. Here at Harley, winners are elevated.
But this year the rowing team is blown like dandelion fluff all over the room.
‘We wish a speedy recovery to this very well-liked member of our school community,’ says Mr Kentwell. ‘Some housekeeping – it’s been requested that no flowers are sent to the hospital and no visitors are permitted at this critical stage. However, counselling is available for any students who witnessed this incident, particularly the rowers. Please see your home room teacher to make an appointment.’
That’s it. The briefest of reports and onto the day-to-day running of the school – a visiting author, music exams, the upcoming school fete and the Year Ten trip to Papua New Guinea to walk the Kokoda trail.
There’s so much more to say than Mr Kentwell’s five-minute wrap up. I want to take the microphone and speak up, before everyone clatters out of the room to PE, chem or history classes. Could I put up my hand? Ask for a minute of everyone’s precious time?
I could tell the students what colour skin turns when all the oxygen runs out of it. What a body looks like when the heart stops beating. How you can completely forget every single thing you learnt in Outdoor Ed about how to do CPR, how many breaths and what angle to tilt the chin. And all you can do is stand there like a statue while paramedics pound away, hoping for life to return.
I could tell them what it sounds like when a chest compression breaks a rib. Like cracking a stick, if you want to know.
Leni
I try to leave the house without detection, but Mum pounces on me as I’m heading for the front door with my schoolbag.
‘Not so fast, Leni. I’ve made you an appointment with Dr Chang,’ she says.
Dr Chang has been my GP since kindy. He’s a kind Asian man who’s liberal with jellybeans, but I don’t want to see him today. I want to be at school with my crew, trying to make sense of what happened at the Head of the River.
‘But I don’t want to miss assembly,’ I complain as she bundles me into the car.
‘You need a check-up, sweetie,’ Mum says firmly.
I knew I couldn’t get away with letting her know I wasn’t feeling well after
the regatta. Mum’s been a pediatric nurse at the Royal Children’s for twelve years. No cough or sniffle has ever gone unnoticed by her.
‘How do you feel?’ she asks as she squeezes into a parking spot outside the clinic, which is already heaving with people and germs.
‘Fine.’
‘And how do you really feel?’ she presses.
‘Tired,’ I admit, although actually I’m beyond exhausted. So knackered and sore I could barely get out of bed. ‘My throat hurts.’ Probably from shouting all day at the regatta.
‘Saturday was quite a shock,’ she says.
‘I’m so worried.’
I hardly slept last night thinking of the accident. Of one of my best friends being stuck in hospital.
‘I know,’ says Mum, patting my knee. ‘We all are. Any news?’
‘Nothing,’ I say, shaking my phone, as if the lost news might fall out.
We sit next to the healthiest looking person in the clinic. Across the room a man wearing a chicken beanie coughs up phlegm into a dirty hanky. I breathe under my hand. I don’t want to get sick before nationals. They’re only a fortnight away. And then there’s the AIS trials. State crew selections. This is the worst possible time to be at a doctor’s surgery.
Mum talks shop with Dr Chang, who’s holding a plastic container of my urine. It’s bright yellow. He puts it into a plastic bag and labels it.
Funny, I thought today would be the best day of my life. I thought I’d be swimming in relief, accepting accolades and sitting up on stage with my crew. Instead, I’m wrestling in a tangle of anxiety. Waiting for a test result that might ruin all my plans.
‘How are things at the Royal, Jodie?’ Dr Chang asks.
‘Busy,’ says Mum tightly.
Mum leans into me. I can smell the garlic she had last night for dinner – sour and close in my ear. ‘It’ll be okay, Leni,’ she says. ‘Whatever the result.’
I look down at my hands, which are clenched shut.
‘Roll up your sleeve, Leni, and let’s take some bloods,’ says Dr Chang. ‘Which is your writing hand?’
What he should be asking is, which is your turning hand on the oar? I hold out my right arm.
My head is heavy with pain and I have an urge to lie down in Mum’s lap and let her stroke my forehead with her cool palm. But I’m seventeen, so that might look weird. I sit up tall as Dr Chang prepares the needles. Staring at a tatty food pyramid poster on the wall. Dr Chang’s face is expressionless as he plunges the needle into my skin. He would make an excellent poker player.
‘Just a couple more, you’re being very brave,’ he says, as if I’m a toddler. These are the longest seconds of my life. Longer than the quiet, panicky silence before the starter’s gun. Longer than being six and busting to get out of bed and look at Santa’s presents, longer than waiting for a winter tram in the freezing rain without an umbrella. Longer than hearing paramedics say, ‘I’ve got no pulse’, when someone you love is lying on the ground, not a single part of their body moving on its own. Longer than any seconds of my life so far.
The wrong result here and everything might fall apart, even more than they have already. They might disintegrate.
October
Six months to Head of the River
Leni
The Yarra Classic is the craziest event on the rowing calendar. Hundreds of eights row in staggered starts down the 8.6-kilometre length of the Yarra River. The course is full of odd bends and kinks and the aim is to get the fastest time and avoid hitting bridges, islands, the rocky banks or each other.
We’re coming down the tail end of the race in the blazing heat. We’ve had a clean run but I’m rushing the slide and everyone’s desperate to get to the end. Our hands and bums hurt and I’m not the only one thinking of the sausage sandwich and can of cold soft drink that waits for us on the bank.
‘Come on girls, let’s finish off!’ screams Aiko, our cox. She’s cute, peppy and everyone likes her. She gets away with bossing us around in the boat. ‘You can still get St Ann’s!’
We’ve managed to hold off the other schoolgirl first eights, but our arch rivals, St Ann’s, slipped ahead in the melee. We won’t know for sure until we get handicap times, but as we cross the line and collapse, I have a sinking feeling we are second best today. I don’t like being second best.
On the bank our coach, Laura, is weaving through other bikes and spectators, trying to make her voice heard.
‘Don’t just sit there, Harley, row off the start!’ she yells. ‘Come on, Leni! Get them going!’
I sit forward and take a jelly stroke. We wobble, completely spent, out of the way. Dozens of eights are clawing for the finish line, blades reaching out like insect legs.
‘I’m. So. Freaking. Knackered,’ whines Rachel in the seven seat, directly behind me. I can feel her heavy breath on the back of my neck. As usual, she’s behind on pre-season training, leaving it to the rest of us to pull her along. The sound of her voice makes me tense. She complains constantly and only seems to do rowing to keep an eye on her boyfriend down at the river. I’ve actually seen her take her hand off her oar to fix her hair – mid stroke.
‘Everyone’s stuffed. Let’s just get the boat in,’ I say.
‘Yes, sir,’ Rachel says.
I roll my eyes and keep rowing. Rachel will follow me. It’s hard not to in rowing.
Laura gathers us in a grassy spot out of the way of the crowds. She has the results of the race, on times.
‘Firstly, I’m thrilled with how you raced today. It was strong, consistent rowing,’ she says.
‘St Ann’s beat us,’ I prompt, glumly.
‘St Ann’s won the Schoolgirls Division One in 33.04. You guys were second in 33.24.’
‘They were twenty seconds ahead?’ says Rachel. She sighs through her nose. ‘They always beat us.’
‘Let’s not be too disappointed. Second is a very solid result.’
Solid. Something about the word makes me unhappy. I’m the stroke of our crew and when we don’t win, I take it personally. I’m desperate to be elected Captain of Boats in a few weeks’ time, so every race counts.
‘This is a pre-season, fun race. So we have a little competition on our hands. Gives us something to train for,’ Laura says. ‘Get a feed and hit the drinks station. Meet back at the boat to row home in an hour and a half.’
Penny Mission grabs me as I head for the school tent on shaky legs. She’s in Year Ten – the year below me – and seems keen to be mates. She’s sweet, but I’m so busy training I don’t have much time for new friends.
‘Don’t worry about St Ann’s,’ she says. ‘You rowed really well today. We all did.’
Penny was a ballerina before she ditched pliés for oars and she still stands with slightly ducked feet – toes pointing outward. Her long limbs and graceful touch mean she’s risen quickly to the top crew. I should get to know her. She’s quieter and more thoughtful than the other girls. Sometimes I hardly even notice she’s in the boat. That can be a good quality in an eight.
She gives me a hug, which I find awkward and wriggle out of. I don’t like touching, especially in public.
‘We beat thirteen other first crews today,’ she reminds me.
‘But not the crew that counts,’ I add.
Penny droops and looks deflated. I can never see the glass half full. My brother, Cristian, says it’s not a good character trait.
‘Come on,’ I say, forcing a smile. ‘Let’s eat. I’m so hungry I could eat half a cow.’
Instead of standing with the other parents drinking from plastic champagne glasses and eating dainty chicken sandwiches, my parents are tinkering with boats. They’ve been tinkering with boats my whole life. Dad’s adjusting the height of a rigger. Mum’s oiling a squeaky seat wheel. Dad’s the Harley Grammar boat caretaker, so he fixes, tunes and cleans all sixty boats
in our fleet.
Mum has a smudge of grease on her cheek and she’s dressed in cargo shorts and an old T-shirt. I feel an itch of embarrassment. The other rowing mothers have white teeth and done-up hair, Broome pearls and designer jeans. The dads wear polo shirts and aviator sunnies. They carry long lens SLR cameras and the Saturday Age.
‘Leni!’ calls Mum. ‘Great race.’
Dad puts his screwdriver in his tool belt and sweeps me into an oily, sweaty hug. The kind you can’t wriggle out of. He should be racing with his own masters crew today, but work on the boats comes first.
‘Dad, what did I say about PDAs?’
‘No PDAs ever?’ he says, smiling. ‘I saw the end of your race. Very well done, Elena.’
‘But we came second,’ I say. ‘St Ann’s beat us again.’
‘What’s wrong with second?’ says Dad. It’s a loaded question.
My parents’ rowing medals are framed and adorn every spare wall in our house. There are Olympic medals, too. Dad’s is silver. Mum’s is gold.
‘Lovely wind up at the end, good pacing,’ says Mum. She shakes my hand, her grip still so strong.
Mum puts an arm around Dad and he kisses her nose.
The story goes, my parents first made eyes at each other across the dance floor at the athletes bar at the Olympic Village in Seoul – post racing. It was 1988. Mum had a perm and Dad had a sixpack. Dad was rowing in the Romanian eight and Mum was stroke of the Australian pair.
Dad says he had to carry Mum back to her room after she literally became legless on four champagnes. She’s 6 feet, so he must’ve been keen. Mum says he was the perfect gentleman, sleeping on the floor next to her bed while the rest of the village danced until the sun came up.
‘Wait a minute, Dad slept on the floor? Then why do they need thousands of condoms in the Olympic Village?’ said Cristian when Mum told the story for the millionth time. ‘You two must have been complete dorks.’