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by Bertrice Small


  He was… stuffing the cloth up inside her.

  She winced, invaded by his finger, by more washcloth, his finger again, and yet more washcloth. Just when she lifted her head and started to protest that she was not a jar which needed to be cleaned out by swirling a cloth inside, he took her into his mouth.

  Liquid heat. Scalding moisture.

  Megan's head banged the pillow of crumpled blankets; the mattress squeaked in protest. She stared up at the largest water stain; darker circles rimmed the outer edges, more re-cent leaks, a part of it yet separate. Just as Muhamed's sexuality had been a part of his nature, yet separate from his life.

  Thoughts of Muhamed and images of the circle of water slowly blurred until sight and sensation became one, and that one was his tongue and the washcloth that was tightly packed inside her.

  He stabbed the very tip of her, his tongue hotter than had been his fingertip. Wetter. Faster.

  A drop of cool water trickled down her vulva and into the crevice between her buttocks. There was no room for air inside her body, yet her lungs independently sucked it in, deeper, deeper…

  Her peak of enjoyment hit her with the force of lightning, searing, rending. Dimly she had time to wonder who had coined the term "peak of enjoyment"-there was nothing remotely enjoyable about the agony that rent her body asunder; was this what Muhamed was afraid of, this pleasure that consumed one's very soul-then she was crying out. At the same time her body convulsed. It felt as if his tongue were sucking out her insides.

  She tightened her muscles-vulva, buttocks-and could not stop it. With each spasm another inch of her was drawn out.

  No, not her... the washcloth.

  He was slowly pulling the washcloth out of her even as her muscles clenched down, trying to stay the motion.

  Suddenly there was no stopping it, her body bore down and gave up the washcloth… gave up her release… gave up a part of Megan that she had not known she possessed until an Arabic eunuch had taken the time to show her.

  Megan plummeted back into her body, and once again she was staring up at the ceiling and the large water stain that was ringed by smaller dark circles, joined but separate. A hard hand pressed down on her stomach, as if feeling the contractions that continued to ripple through her womb. A facile tongue probed her vulva, as if feeling the contractions that continued to ripple through her vagina.

  Slowly the contractions ebbed and his tongue withdrew. Something soft and silky and alive slipped through her fingers-hair.

  When had she grabbed his head? she wondered dazedly.

  "In the Orient, strung pearls are used instead of a cloth."

  Hot air seared her nether lips, breathing desire back into sated flesh.

  "You have seen men," she gulped air, "insert pearls inside women?"

  Hard heat abruptly invaded her-a finger. She winced. It was not padded by cloth.

  "I have read about that act and many more," he said hoarsely. "In Arabia there are treatises that describe the various ways a man may please a woman."

  "And are there treatises that describe the various ways to please a man?"

  "It is through a woman's vulva"-he inserted a second finger, a quick shock that rapidly gave way to tantalizing fullness-"that a man gains his pleasure."

  Tears burned her eyes. She determined to find a way to give Muhamed the same pleasure he had given her.

  "Thank you for improvising with the cloth. I feel quite… cleansed."

  His fingers inside her throbbed. Or perhaps it was she who throbbed.

  "If you could have anything you wanted, what would you wish for, Megan?" he asked unexpectedly.

  "I… " This. This time with him was everything she had ever wished for. "I don't know." Hard pressure pinched her vagina. "What are you-what would you wish for?"

  "This, Megan." He pushed inside her-three fingers-it felt like five. "This is what I've dreamed about ever since I can remember. "

  She sucked in air-consciously trying to relax her body and give him what he needed. The ceiling was superimposed by images: Muhamed relieving himself; Muhamed preparing for condemnation, when he turned and saw her watching him; Muhamed's face growing shuttered when he thought she was not going to stay with him for another day, another night.

  Imagery gave way to the sound of Muhamed cursing the night as he found his first release with a woman.

  He twisted his fingers.

  Electricity shot through her.

  She stared blindly at the ceiling, forcing herself to hold still and allow him to explore her. "What did you say… in Arabic, last night?"

  "I don't remember."

  He was evading her again.

  His fingers surged more deeply inside her.

  Megan bit her lip. "Ela'na. What does that mean?"

  "'Damn.'" He crooked his three fingers inside her and gently raked the front wall of her vagina. "You have a button inside you."

  A button!

  Heat shot through her-hotter than fire, more galvanizing than lightning.

  "What does… Lowsam-" She couldn't remember the word, could barely remember how to speak. "What does mara-"

  Her body independently surged upward. "Oh, my God! What are you doing?"

  He repeated the caress. "Mara wahda means 'one time.' Does it give you pleasure, with just my fingers inside you?"

  Pleasure was not the word she would use to describe what she felt. Agony. Torture. "Yes, it gives me pleasure. Does it bring you pleasure?"

  "Your flesh burns, Megan, with the heat of your desire. Yes, you please me. Can you obtain your release like this?"

  "I… I don't know."

  "Then let us find out."

  He found the rhythm that her body needed, as if his fingers were his manhood, driving deep, hard, tips curled, so that each thrust, each withdrawal, teased the special button he had found.

  Wave after wave of pleasure rolled over Megan.

  She thought of the Arabic women who had been altered, and hoped that they were able to experience this, at least, the pleasure that accrued from having the inner wall of a woman's vagina strummed. And then she didn't think, she could only feel as a wave of blinding sensation broke over her, and her entire world shrank to the heat of his hand pressing on her womb while the heat of his fingers pistoned inside her.

  Her body bowed in a perfect arch. Seeking to escape. Lifting for more.

  He gave her more. Deeper. Harder. Always pressing inward against the inner wall of her vulva.

  He gave her release. And did not seek his own.

  Megan slowly became conscious of his fingers that were a part of her and the tension that surrounded her.

  "I have read that a woman is inexhaustible," Muhamed rasped. "That she may reach a thousand and one orgasms in a night."

  "I do not think…" She took a shallow breath, unable to draw a deeper one. "I do not think I will survive even one more orgasm right now, let alone nine hundred and ninety-nine more."

  His fingers curved around her stomach; at the same time they curled inside her vagina.

  "There is a well nearby," he said abruptly. "Madron Well."

  It was a mile or so above Madron church.

  "Yes." Megan raised her head. Sweat glistened on his face. "I know it."

  But how did he know about it?

  "I would see it. With you."

  Her heartbeat drummed against her chest; her breast quivered with the force of her breathing. "I would much rather see to your satisfaction."

  His mouth twisted. "I have told you, Megan. Eunuchs are not like men."

  His fingers throbbed inside her, telling her he lied, either deliberately or unknowingly.

  He was a man, and he could gain release. If only he would trust her.

  "I need to… to return to my room," she said.

  "Why?" he asked, his voice suddenly guarded.

  "I need to get…" How ridiculous it was, to blush over mentioning an innocent thing like underclothes when his fingers filled her and her body still shook w
ith the release he had brought her. "I need to get my cloak."

  "We will stop by your room and get it on our way out."

  "I would rather you have the innkeeper prepare us a picnic basket to take along with us while I dress."

  "You will not"-he prodded her more deeply, fingers straightening, reaching, as if he mapped her vaginal walls- "change your mind?"

  "No. I am hungry." He reversed direction. She took a deep breath, internally following the slow withdrawal of his fingers, one knuckle, two… "I did not eat my dinner last night."

  His fingers glistened in the dim light, moist with the essence of her release.

  Megan glanced up. His gaze was waiting for her.

  That slight half smile hitched up the corner of his lips "I do not want you to go hungry on my account."

  "Then I suggest you feed me, sir."

  The trace of his smile disappeared. "I did not know that women like you existed."

  "I did not know that men like you existed."

  His expression immediately closed. "Eunuchs are mentioned in your Christian Bible, Megan."

  "But men who value a woman's satisfaction are not, Muhamed."

  Muhamed stood in one swift motion; he was blatantly erect. Bending down, he scooped up the white turban and robe he had discarded the night before.

  The muscles in his back, legs and buttocks rippled when he walked. He dropped the washcloth across the wooden bar beside the bureau, then neatly pulled the robe on over his head. Opening the top drawer, he took out a wooden-handled hairbrush and ran it through his hair. It neatly fell into wavy curls.

  A brief pang stabbed her chest, that he should have such a beautiful head of hair when hers was limp and straight. The pang of envy was immediately replaced by a sense of Tightness.

  It was comforting to watch a man perform his morning toilet.

  His habits were the same as those of an Englishman; he dressed, brushed his hair, his teeth…

  Bending his head, he spat into the basin.

  She bit her lip to stop her protest when he proceeded to wrap the turban around his head. When he opened the second bureau drawer and took out a pair of baggy white trousers, she could not keep her mouth shut. "Please don't."

  The back of his white robe stiffened. "Don't what?" he asked, without turning around.

  "I rather fancied that Arabic men did not wear anything under their robes. The Scots are reputed not to wear anything under their kilts. It is… interesting for a woman to think that all she need do is toss up a man's skirt."

  Muhamed turned, white robe flurrying. "You are… jesting with me."

  He seemed surprised that a woman would do so.

  "Not at all, sir," she said whimsically, feeling absurdly young and carefree. "The English have no sense of the ridiculous, especially when they sit naked in front of a clothed gentleman. Or perhaps that is not well-known in your country."

  Shadow crossed his face, a trick of light. "Concubines and slaves do not picnic in Arabia."

  She had overseen many picnics as the wife of a vicar, but she had never attended a picnic unchaperoned with a man.

  "I dare say it would not be a practical custom in a desert land," she said gently.

  "What shall I have the innkeeper prepare?"

  His uncertainty was endearing.

  "I suspect an inn of this size will not have much of a menu to chose from. A meat pie and cheese will do quite well, thank you."

  "You will be here when I return?"

  Megan felt a flutter deep inside her chest. Muhamed was so very vulnerable underneath his outward gruff ness.

  "If I am not here, I will be in the second room down to the left of yours," she said calmly.

  He turned toward the door, in a soft swish of cotton.

  "Muhamed."

  Muhamed halted; he did not turn around. "Yes?"

  "How did you come to know about Madron Well? It is a local phenomenon."

  "How did you come to know about it?"

  She had not imagined the shadow that had crossed his face and now pervaded the room; it had nothing to do with a passing cloud.

  He had said no more pretense.

  "I was born in Land's End," she replied evenly. "My mother-like most of the folk hereabouts-clung to many of the old ways. She baptized me in the well waters."

  "What would you like to drink with your meal?" he asked in his old brusque manner.

  He was not going to answer her question.

  Megan fought down a prick of hurt.

  "Cider will be fine, thank you."

  With a swirl of robes he opened the door and slid out of her sight. A final click of closure followed his departure.

  Her heart skipped a beat. Suddenly she felt forty-eight again instead of twenty-six and full of joy.

  What had she said to upset Muhamed?

  What if he did not return?

  Standing up, Megan picked up her black wool gown from off the floor and dressed. Hairpins dotted the pillow and sheet. She scooped them up. Slipping into her shoes, she rescued her black felt hat and the hatpin underneath it.

  She stared at the small brown tin on the nightstand. There was no advertisement on the outside, nothing at all to indicate what was inside it.

  On impulse, she removed the lid.

  It was filled with what looked like rolled-up sausage skins. French letters. She had often wondered what they looked like. They hardly seemed large enough to accommodate a man of Muhamed's size.

  Megan grabbed a rubber sheath and replaced the lid, a quick click of metal on metal.

  The hallway was dark, empty; a worn wool runner tiredly traversed the length of it. An oil sconce guarded each of the six doors, a dull gleam of pewter. She hurried to her room.

  A glint of gold greeted her.

  Her wedding band waited on the nightstand beside the narrow, neatly made sleigh bed.

  The sight of it did not incur the sense of betrayal she had associated with her marriage over the last twenty-two years.

  Impulsively, Megan crossed the wooden floor, heels echoing determinedly, and flung open the worn drapes. Blinding sunlight spilled into the sterile room, proof that there was light after darkness. Turning, she plucked the wedding band off the nightstand and dropped it into the top dresser drawer.

  Feeling as uncertain as a young girl awaiting her first beau, she washed, brushed her teeth, loosened her braid, and brushed her hair. Rummaging in her trunk, she pulled out a corset, chemise, petticoats, wool drawers-no, she did not want to wear drawers, she wanted to be accessible to Muhamed.

  Megan pulled out a black skirt and bodice. She realized with dismay that all of her clothes were black. They belonged to a woman who was resigned to widowhood, not to a woman who planned upon demonstrating to a eunuch that he was a man.

  No time now to worry about her wardrobe.

  Hurriedly, she slipped into her chemise and rebraided her hair.

  A sharp knock splintered the silence.

  Megan's heartbeat quickened.

  "One moment!" she called out, mouth full of hairpins.

  The knock came again. Louder.

  Stomach roiling with nervous anticipation, she coiled the braid on top of her head and secured it with pins.

  A third knock came, louder still.

  The entire inn would know that Muhamed sought entrance to her room if he continued knocking.

  She jerked open the door. And perforce had to step back to prevent Muhamed from walking over her.

  A black cloak billowed after him. He carried a battered bucket.

  "They did not have a picnic basket," he said without preamble.

  "Oh." She flushed, suddenly, painfully aware of the sunshine that warmed her back and starkly revealed a patch of chipped paint on the wall behind him. Shadow had cloaked her nakedness before; the thin cotton chemise would not conceal the changes that age had wrought in her body-breasts that were too soft; hips that were too rounded. "If you like, you may wait downstairs-"

  "I have neve
r watched a woman dress."

  Her flush deepened. "I have never had a man watch me dress."

  "You will not wear a corset to our picnic."

  Megan blinked at Muhamed's peremptory manner. "I beg your pardon?"

  "Corsets restrict a woman's circulation."

  "Corsets also support their… bosom."

  "Your bosom does not need support, Megan."

  "That is for me to decide, surely."

  "Men, too, have fancies." His black eyes were wary. "I would like to look at you over our meal and know that it is you I am gazing at and not a miracle of whalebones."

  Megan mentally struggled with the vicar's wife she had been for so long and the woman she wanted to be for this Arab. She had not worn a corset to his room the night before, but.…

  She took a deep breath. "When you returned to your room, did you don trousers?"

  "I am as you saw me."

  Was he still erect?

  Instinctively, she glanced down; his white robe was tented.

  He was ready for her; completely accessible if she wanted to flip up his skirt.

  Scalding blood scorched her cheeks and pounded in her temples.

  "I cannot go outside with nothing on underneath my dress," she said firmly, raising her gaze to his. "I must wear a bustle and petticoats, or the hem of my skirt will sweep the ground."

  As it had swept the hallway last night.

  Muhamed set the bucket on top of her neatly made bed. "Very well. I will assist you."

  And he did.

  Megan had never had an abigail. Had not been assisted with her dress since she was a young child, so young that she could not even remember having received assistance.

  He buttoned up her bodice, fingers lingering at her breasts.

  Desire knotted inside her stomach.

  "Thank you," she murmured, suffocating on the tantalizing aroma of spice and masculinity that was uniquely Muhamed's.

  When she made to withdraw, he clung to her button.

  "You said you weren't from around here." Almond-scented breath bathed her face. "Why did you lie?"

  "I've lived in Birminghamshire for the last thirty years," she said truthfully. There was no need to lie, not anymore. She was neither young nor wealthy nor in any way desirable other than to this man. "Land's End is no longer my home."

 

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