The Needle's Eye

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by Margaret Drabble


  Rose, for her part, was thinking, Oh God, how can I face it. It may seem all right, now, in the sun for an hour or two, with Simon to keep the peace, but if he weren’t here we’d have been in the shit already, we’d have quarrelled about the way I distributed the sandwiches, about the way we each treat the children, we’d have been locked right now into some bitter ideological dispute about this empty beach and the relative merits of Southend and conservationism and Fabian pamphlets and expanding economics and Galbraith. I can hear it going on in my head, that dreary bitter row. I am like a child, I can no more keep my temper than a child can, I can no more resist provocation than a child can.

  I want to go home, thought Rose.

  Christopher was thinking, she’s stubborn, but she’ll give in. Twenty-four hours of space will have been enough. She’ll never want to endure that squalid little dump again. How can she? How can she?

  He really did not see how she could.

  Rose was thinking, I want to go home, I want to be home.

  Then she fell asleep. They all fell asleep.

  They woke at the return of the children, laden with cockles, excited, triumphant. I picked millions, said Maria, and the boys conceded that she had not done too badly, at all. Rose felt again the sensations of childhood, the fingers sinking into the wet sand, the cockle, a little knob, its hiding place revealed by the small breathing hole in the surface above. It had never seemed very cruel, catching cockles. One couldn’t feel much emotion about a cockle. There was always a nasty moment in the pan, when they started to put their grey and orange tender feet out and walk about, but that was all. They weren’t very vulnerable, cockles.

  After a while they all went swimming, except for Simon, who said that he hated the sea, meaning that he didn’t like to be seen without his trousers. The sea itself was nearly a mile away: the children lost interest in reaching it, and made do with lagoons and lakes, that the tide had left. Rose and Christopher set off for the open sea, but they too gave up, swimming for a few minutes in a deep channel, then returning, shivering, complaining of the cold. While they were dressing, Simon looked out across the water, and saw suddenly, quite close in, a yacht, sailing northwards. It was a pretty sight: white, with white sails. He pointed it out to the children: they all turned to watch its progress. ‘Lovely, isn’t it?’ said Christopher, drying his hair elegantly, staring out through his dark glasses – he had swum in his glasses. ‘I’d like a yacht.’

  ‘Why don’t you buy one, Daddy?’ said Konstantin.

  ‘It’d be fun, wouldn’t it?’ said Christopher, idly, quite innocently, or so Simon thought: but Rose turned on him with a look of fury, and said sharply, ‘Piss off, would you?’

  There it was, in a nutshell, their domestic life. Rose, distorted by rage from all her virtues: Christopher, idly provocative. Simon felt a chill in his bones: he shivered.

  They set off back, shortly, having watched the yacht out of sight. The picnic bags were lighter to carry, but the swimming things heavier, because wet, and the buckets were full of cockles. But the route seemed shorter, going home; as routes always do. On the way they paused, on a little wooden bridge over one of the deeper crevasses: there were two boys, fishing for crabs with a string and a bent pin. The crabs were so intent on destruction that they would cling to the pin with only the merest suggestion of a bait to tempt them. The boys put them in a large pail. The pail was nearly full. ‘What do you do with them, when it’s full?’ asked Rose, gazing at the heaving mass. ‘Oh, we just put ’em all back in again,’ said one of the boys, and smiled happily. ‘Then we catch ’em all over again.’

  It seemed a satisfactory arrangement, to both boys and crabs, endowed with the repetitive futility of joy. As they moved away from the ditch, Rose found herself walking between the two men, on the widening, hardening track – they were nearly back now, to the solid ground – and said suddenly, ‘Once I saw a corpse, in that ditch.’ She had only just remembered it, and was surprised by the effect that her words produced: she hastened to correct herself. ‘Well,’ she said, as they continued to look awed and horror struck, ‘I didn’t actually see the corpse, I just knew it was one, if you know what I mean.’

  ‘Not at all, we don’t know,’ said Simon. ‘Tell us more.’

  ‘Well,’ said Rose, ‘I was out here one day, on my own I was, I must have been quite old, about sixteen or seventeen, and I was walking with Jack’s dog, a Dalmatian she was, a really nice dog, and anyway just as I was going over that bridge back there the dog disappeared. I called her, but she was barking away, and had obviously found something interesting, so I went after her, and there she was a bit further up this creek, getting all excited about a sack.’

  ‘A sack?’

  ‘Yes, a sack. It was a very wet, muddy sack, and it was carefully tied up with rope, and it was half in, half out of the water. The dog was mad with excitement, she kept whining, and nosing and scratching at it. It was just the right shape for a corpse. And I remember saying to myself, I bet that’s a corpse in there. And then I got the dog away and put her on the lead till she forgot about it.’

  ‘Didn’t you tell anyone? Didn’t you ring the police?’

  ‘No, of course I didn’t. The thing is, I didn’t really think it was a corpse. I mean, I thought it was, but I didn’t think it really was. But the more I think about it now, I think it probably was. It was a good place to dump one after all. And what else could it have been?’

  ‘How very odd of you, not to have told anyone.’

  ‘Do you think so? Perhaps it was. Do you know, I haven’t thought of it from that day to this. I didn’t even remember on the way out this morning. I only remembered when we stopped to talk to those boys.’

  ‘It could have been a sheep. Or a cow.’

  ‘Who would put a sheep or a cow in a bag and tie it up with a rope and dump it? Anyway it was too small for a cow. It might have been a sheep.’

  ‘Perhaps it’s still there. Shall we go back and look?’

  ‘The skeleton, you mean? No, I don’t think so. I didn’t look any closer that last time because I was afraid it was what it was. Why look for trouble? Mrs Sharkey once found a dead baby in a carrier bag in a ladies lav in the park. She wished she hadn’t looked, you know. She said to me, if only I wasn’t so nosy.’

  And reminiscing in such a vein, it was in a way a shock, and in a way somehow unsurprising, when they came in sight of the car, and found it accompanied by a police car, and two policemen, who were standing at the edge of the ploughed field deep in consultation.

  ‘They’ve found your skeleton at last,’ said Christopher. ‘Taken them a long time, hasn’t it?’

  ‘It’s not my skeleton they’ve come for,’ said Rose, putting two and two together rather quickly. ‘It’s you.’

  And at that they all stopped, because it was obviously true. The children were way behind, lagging again, poking in ditches and kicking stones. The adults looked at each other in alarm, until Rose started to laugh.

  ‘They won’t take me away, will they?’ said Christopher. ‘After all, I haven’t done anything.’

  ‘I should think they’ll lock you up for ever,’ said Rose. ‘And serve you right.’

  ‘However did they track us down here?’ said Christopher. ‘And more to the point, why ever did they bother? You two haven’t been engaged in any criminal activities, have you? Simon, what on earth do you think is going on?’

  ‘I really don’t know,’ said Simon, truthfully: he had forgotten all about injunctions and contempt of court orders in the warmth of the afternoon. He could not imagine what those two policemen were up to, standing there in a field. Had they come with a writ of attachment for Christopher? Was he about to be taken off to jail before their very eyes? Surely not. He hadn’t even done anything. The more one thought about it, the clearer it became that he hadn’t done anything, except send a threatening telegram. It was even by now his official day for seeing the children: Sunday. It seemed, on reflection, that everybody
had panicked in a ridiculous way, lawyers included. How harmless he looked, Christopher, standing there with a bathing towel round his neck and a string bag in his hand.

  But then, so had Mr Calvacoressi, on the television on Friday night. He had looked harmless enough, until he had got talking. They were all under his shadow, all of them. He had spread panic through them all – father, mother, children, friends, vacation judges, barristers, solicitors, the lot – and now, from the look of it, the police as well had panicked, the Home Office too had lost its calm. Such is the force of precedent, the king-pin of the law.

  They stood there for a few moments, hesitating, the two separate groups, in the bright sunlight. The turned earth of the massive furrows glinted blue back to the sky: the earth itself was blue. The police had noticed them, were studying them – noticing, too, the children, now running up behind.

  ‘Come on,’ said Rose. ‘We’d better go and see what they want.’

  And she made her way across the field towards the two cars, stumbling on the uneven ground. The two men followed her. As she approached, the police began to look extremely uneasy: they communicated indecision. It was reassuring.

  ‘Hello,’ said Rose, cheerfully, bravely, nervously, arriving in range. ‘Is anything the matter?’

  The policemen, curiously, did not answer. They looked by now acutely embarrassed. One of them coughed, the other kicked at a pebble. The younger looked reprovingly at the elder, who coughed again, cleared his throat, and with a note of agonizing effort managed to speak. His words had the air of being picked at random.

  ‘You do realize,’ he said, ‘that this field is private property, not a parking lot?’

  The younger policeman exhaled a breath of relief, and shot his colleague a glance of deep admiration. The spokesman himself, having spoken, appeared remarkably pleased with himself, quite suddenly: his anxious gloom gave way to a certain jauntiness and enjoyment. Rose, for her part, was quite enchanted.

  ‘But of course, of course,’ she said. ‘We know it is. It belongs to Mr Cooper. He doesn’t mind us using it, we’ve been using it for years, he really doesn’t mind.’

  ‘You live round here, then, do you?’

  ‘I used to,’ said Rose. ‘My parents do.’

  ‘Well, that’ll be all right then,’ said the policeman. He was smiling broadly, as at some private amusement, and at the same time giving Christopher a funny look. ‘You’ll excuse us asking, won’t you. We have to keep an eye open, with it being holiday time. You wouldn’t believe the damage we get.’

  ‘That’s quite all right,’ said Rose, opening the car door, bundling the children in. The policemen were still standing there, as they drove off, over the bumps and furrows. They were laughing. One of them slapped the other on the back, and they were laughing.

  ‘They were up to no good,’ said Rose.

  ‘No,’ said Christopher, ‘I think you’re wrong. I think they thought we were up to no good. They probably thought I’d dumped the car in the field and was abducting you all on my private yacht.’

  And they all laughed, but not more loudly than the policemen in the field, for that – owing to the Sunday papers, and crossed messages from the Home Office, one about illegal immigrants and one about a threatened kidnapping – was precisely what they had thought. And while they were slapping each other on the back, the little white yacht moored on a deserted stretch of beach a few miles north and landed ten bewildered Pakistanis.

  They all met up again at the end of the week, on Friday, in Court. The Law Courts were being cleaned: dust sheets draped the stony corridors, and giant vacuum cleaners lay like snakes upon the ground, lending the place a festive, temporary look, reminiscent of a display in a marquee. There was something festive in the reunion. There they all were, Mr Justice Ward in his wig, looking very small on the bench, his large size dwarfed by its dimensions: Francis Morris in his wig, the ends of which stuck out smartly and wildly like a lobster’s white whiskers into the sunny air: Christopher’s counsel, his solicitor, an unexplained black man in a wig, Christopher himself, Rose, Julie, Emily, Jeremy Alford. Jeremy Alford’s wife had had her baby: it was a boy, welcome after two girls. Christopher, Rose whispered to Simon and Julie, had sent Shirley Alford a huge bunch of flowers. Isn’t he awful, she whispered to Julie. Awful, yes, said Julie, but there were worse ways of being awful. Yes, I suppose so, said Rose.

  Rose had got to work on Julie, during the week. Or had it been the other way round? It was no longer possible to tell, thought Simon, but it had happened. And explanations had, of course, been necessary. She had probably done the right thing. She had an instinct for these things.

  Mr Justice Ward was explaining the nature of the injunction to Christopher’s solicitor who was listening politely and humbly, as well he might. He was consulting his papers, he was saying that the custody case was due to be heard by his colleague Menzies in three weeks time, and that it would be a good idea if time were saved by having the Welfare Officer’s Report, which had been ordered months before, ready by that date. It is more than usually important, Mr Craddock, he said, that the case should be disposed of soon. These are children we are dealing with, not building sites, you know. Yes, my lord, of course, my lord, said Craddock. And now, said Mr Justice Ward, perhaps your client would step into the witness box for a moment, I want to make quite sure that he has understood the meaning of the solemn undertaking that he has been required to give the court.

  And so there stood Christopher in the witness box. He too listened politely, and nodded his head intelligently. He had been subdued, since the press had got on to him. He had himself hidden the Sunday papers, that morning in Norfolk: he had got up early and shoved them all under his mattress. They had been full, once more, of the Vassilious: Greek abducts children: Vassiliou makes trouble again: More Drama for Ward-of-Court Heroine: More Thorns for Rose: Another Calvacoressi Case: Divorced Greek steals Heiress’s children: the papers variously declared.

  He had not been able to conceal their contents for ever: his father-in-law had got hold of them in the end, and he had not been very pleased. Neither, it is true, had he been very angry: he had forgiven him, but not without some unpleasantness. And now the press were on to Christopher all the time. He had moved out of his flat, into a small hotel in South Kensington, and was trying to keep himself out of the papers. He had called on Simon, one evening, and stayed for a meal, at Julie’s insistence. He seemed lonely. It was hard to resist the notion that he was lonely, and penitent. There he stood, looking sad and remorseful, agreeing with every word that the judge said, apologizing for his behaviour. Behind him the usher stopped cleaning her nails, and looked up, idly, as Christopher said, ‘I assure you, my lord, I never at any point intended to abduct those children. I assure you. I would never take any action without the court’s consent.’

  ‘In that case, Mr Vassiliou,’ said the judge, blinking and peering, ‘In that case, what a pity it is that you wasted so much of the court’s time. And gave some of us, if I may say so, a rather unquiet weekend.’

  ‘Ah well,’ said Christopher, ‘I’m sorry about that. I didn’t realize what a trouble it would cause. Though it was, in some ways, quite a useful experience.’

  ‘What do you mean by that?’ said the judge. But Christopher would not repeat it, was reluctant to explain himself. I meant nothing, he said, I did not mean what I said. I meant only that now I know where I am. You may say that I have been wasting the court’s time, I cannot help feeling sometimes that the court, with its extraordinary delays, has been wasting mine. It is reassuring to find that things do get moving, when they have to.

  Mr Justice Ward was amused, despite himself, by this.

  ‘Oh yes,’ he said, in quite a friendly tone, ‘we can get moving when we have to. And I can tell you, if you make another move either to remove the children, or to threaten your unfortunate wife with removing them, you will find yourself in prison in no time. You know what that means, don’t you?’

 
‘Yes,’ said Christopher, smiling dourly. ‘Yes, I’ve been through this before.’

  And he looked, from the witness box, at Rose.

  And that was that.

  ‘You’ll have no more trouble from him,’ said Jeremy Alford, as they stood out in Fleet Street and waited for a taxi. ‘He wouldn’t dare.’

  And he was right. The case came up before Mr Justice Menzies in three weeks’ time, as had been predicted, and Mr Justice Menzies, who did not much care for Rose, nevertheless found himself obliged to admit that Christopher might be an even worse prospective guardian for his own children. ‘Really, Mr Craddock,’ he said, glaring at him angrily, as though Christopher had broken the rules of some club by smoking in the wrong room, ‘really, I should have been very much more inclined to give your client a favourable hearing, had it not been for his irresponsible behaviour over the Whitsun weekend. I am afraid I cannot take his application very seriously, in view of the way he himself has acted.’

  He did not mention the fact that when the Welfare Officer had called on Christopher, Christopher had been an hour late for the appointment, and had nothing to show as suitable accommodation for three children but a small single room in a hotel in Gloucester Road, full of whisky bottles. (When the Welfare Officer had called on Rose, she had felt guilt because she was reading the Guardian instead of scrubbing the floor.)

  The judge did not like to dwell too much on all of this. He did not like Rose. He managed to convey that if Christopher had not proved himself even worse, there were things in his affidavit about Rose that he would have taken very seriously indeed. Jeremy Alford, listening to this, trembled: for was it not Menzies who had, in similar cases, rudely dismissed medical and psychiatric evidence, pouring contempt on expert witnesses? He had once given custody to a father, because his wife was living with her lover: the father had been a most unsuitable parent, a religious maniac, a vindictive and violent man. Menzies had dismissed the family doctor’s evidence on these matters as an impertinence. There had been an outcry, at the time, but he had got away with it. Jeremy Alford wondered if he dared do it again. But he did not. He gave Rose the children: he said she could keep them. When it was over, it was obvious that he could not have done anything else. The Welfare Officer, a nice woman in her fifties, had liked Rose immensely. They had had a long conversation about the problems of the district, ending up with a discussion of the prospects of Mrs Sharkey’s Eileen’s baby. Both agreed that they were poor. They had shaken their heads, over a cup of tea, and liked each other, and the Welfare Officer had said firmly to the judge that the children were perfectly happy and well-cared for with their mother.

 

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