by Blue Belle
No, but check anyway.
You got it.
One more call. Belle answered on the first ring, sounding like she ran a hundred yards to snatch it off the hook.
Hello?
It's me. Want to get some dinner?
Oh, I'm starved. There's nothing in the house.
I know. Why didn't you go out?
I knew you were going to call.
I said . . . never mind. I'll pick you up in an hour, okay?
Hurry up, she said.
I put the phone down, moving fast to beat the charge out of the city.
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I pulled in behind the red Camaro a little after five. The door opened as my fist came down to knock. A hand came around my neck, pulling me inside. Belle mashed her face against mine, kissing me hard, firing her hip at the door to close it.
She pulled her face back a couple of inches, still holding on to me.
That was a cold kiss. Didn't you miss me?
I was working, Belle.
Her mouth went down at the corners. I'm sorry, she said. I didn't mean to push you.
I put my hand on the back of her neck, working the tight muscles, keeping my voice quiet.
You're not pushing me. You don't know me, okay? I don't show a lot on the surface -it's not my way.
You did miss me?
I did miss you.
She twirled away, flashing a smile. Her face was all made up, the blue eye shadow making her eyes look bigger, bright lipstick smeared on her teeth. She was wearing a fire-engine-red T-shirt big enough for a linebacker. It fell to mid-thigh, just covering the tattoo.
I'm just about ready, baby. Give me a minute. I have to find my shoes.
She scooped a pair of glasses from the dressing table. Big round lenses with a light-blue tint, sitting in a thin black plastic frame. Here they are, she said happily, dragging a pair of red spike-heeled shoes from under the bed.
Belle.
She was bending forward, slipping on the shoes. Black panties that didn't have a prayer of covering her rump peeked out as the T-shirt rose. What, honey?
You're going out like that?
Her face fell. You don't like it?
Damn. It's not that, I said quietly, walking over to her, taking her chin in my hand. With the spikes on, she was taller than me - l had to look up into her eyes.
You go on the street like that, every man that's not brain-dead is going to remember you.
So?
So it's not my game to attract attention, girl. The places I have to go - I don't make reservations, understand?
You like me better when I'm all covered? When I look like a big fat cow?
I like you the same. It's you I like, yes?
Yes?
Yes! I said, slapping her rear.
She grabbed my hand, pulled it around to her butt. Held it there. You like this big fat thing?
I looked deep into her eyes, watching a tear run down her cheek. Keeping my voice quiet: Belle, I told her, it works on me like a hormone shot.
She never took her eyes off mine. Burke, I'd do anything for you.
Will you put on a pair of pants?
Sure, baby. I've got just the thing.
She rummaged through a chest of drawers, throwing clothes on the bed. Finally, she pulled out a pair of white overalls, the kind with suspender straps. She kicked off the high heels and stepped into the overalls, pulling the straps over her breasts. She wouldn't disappear in a crowd, but at least she wasn't flashing a hundred yards of skin.
You look beautiful, I said.
She threw me a smile, lacing up a pair of dirty white sneakers. I'm ready, she announced, bouncing off the bed to me. She wasn't the only thing bouncing.
Belle . . .
What now?
Could you put on a bra too?
She took off her glasses, unsnapped the suspenders, pulled the red T-shirt over her head. She found a white bra with heavy shoulder straps. Slipped into it, hooked it in front.
I didn't know they made them that big, I said, watching her.
Boobs?
Bras.
She slapped me on the arm, smiling, pushing me to the door with her hip.
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I held the car door open for her. She slid across and flicked the inside handle to let me in. I wheeled the Plymouth in a tight U-turn and headed back to the city. When we hit the highway, I shoved a cassette into the dash. Belle sat with her back against the door, feet on the seat between us, hands clasped around her knees. Smoking and listening. Charley Musselwhite's harp barking its challenge on Stranger in a Strange Land. Buddy Guy driving his mojo north to Chicago, Junior Wells riding shotgun. Lightning Hopkins being sly about grown-up schoolgirls and John Lee Hooker threatening anyone with an eye for his woman. Paul Butterfield riding the mystery train.
The tape looped over to the Brooklyn Blues. One group after another slipped through the speakers and surrounded us. The Jacks, the Chantels, the Passions. When I heard Rosie and the Originals, the clear, high voice of the girl singer hitting Angel Baby like no one else ever could, I kicked out the cassette.
I felt Belle's eyes on my face. Remind you of something?
Yeah, I said. Dancing with Flood in the warehouse garage, helping her pull it back together before her last fight. I should have erased the fucking thing.
We were heading toward the Midtown Tunnel. I pulled into the Exact Change lane, tossed a two-dollar token into the basket, and slid into the right lane. When we pulled up outside the magazine stand on Second Avenue, it was already past six.
Go inside and tell the guard you're there to pick up a package from Mr. Morelli, I said.
She didn't ask any questions. She was back in a minute, tossing a thick manila envelope on the seat between us.
Where're we going, honey?
You wanted to meet Pansy, I said, pointing the car downtown.
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I tucked the Plymouth into the garage, showed Belle the back stairs, motioning her to go ahead. Her swaying hips narrowed the staircase.
She knew how to act - didn't make a sound on the way up. When we got to the office door, I gently pushed her to one side while I worked the locks. I went in first, saying Pansy, jump! as soon as I did. She hit the floor, paws out in front, her monster's head tilted up to watch Belle.
I made the hand motion that said everything was okay, and told Belle to come in.
This is Pansy, I said.
Belle stood on the threshold of the office like she was rooted. Good sweet Jesus! That's a dog ? He looks like a swamp panther. What kind is it?
She's a Neapolitan mastiff. The most beautiful Neapolitan mastiff in the world, aren't you, girl? I asked Pansy, rubbing her head. Pansy growled agreement, her tongue lolling in happiness. Belle hadn't moved.
Go sit on the couch, I told her. It's okay.
Belle obediently went to the couch, sat down like she was in church, knees pressed together, hands in her lap. I spread my arms wide, telling Pansy she was released. The beast plodded over to Belle, sat in front of the couch, cocked her head.
Belle didn't move. Pansy rammed her head into Belle's lap, shoving at her hands, demanding a pat. Or else.
She won't hurt you, I said.
Belle gave Pansy a halfhearted pat on the head. The beast made a rumbling noise in her chest. Belle jerked her hand away. Pansy shoved her head back in Belle's lap.
She just wants to be friends.
Burke, I swear to God, she's scaring me to death.
That's her happy noise, I assured her.
How much does she weigh?
About the same as you.
I'd kiss you for that if I wasn't scared to move off this couch.
I went into the next room, pulled a couple of strips of steaks out of the refrigerator, tossed one at Pansy, saying Speak! as I did. The steak disappeared. I threw the other piece on the floor and watched Pansy drool over it.
Why won't she eat it?
She's waiting for the word.
What you just said?
Yep.
Belle looked at Pansy, said Speak! in the same tone I'd used. Pansy ignored her. It only works when you say it?
That's right.
Well, say it, then. The poor dog's dying for the meat. Pansy flashed Belle a grateful look as I gave her the word. As soon as she polished off the steak, she came back to the couch. Belle patted her with a bit more confidence. I think she likes me, Burke. Does she do any more tricks?
Those aren't tricks, I told her. Pansy works. Just like you and me.
I threw Pansy the signal and she came over to the door. I opened it and she disappeared into the dusk.
Where's she going?
To the roof.
It must be beautiful - can we go up there?
Belle, I said, trust me. That roofs one place you never want to go.
Can I get up?
Sure. it's okay - Pansy understands.
I showed Belle the rest of the office. I let her poke around by herself while I laid out the clips Morelli got for me on the desk, thinking I should have heard from the Prof by then.
Belle walked in, put a hand on my shoulder. Pansy will know me from now on?
Sure.
So if I came here by myself . . . if I had a key . . . she'd let me in?
She'd rip you to pieces, Belle.
Oh, she said in her little-girl's voice, watching as Pansy came back inside and curled up in a corner.
I stubbed out my cigarette, anxious to get in the street, see if the Prof had called in.
Want some dinner?
If you do, baby.
I thought you were starving.
I can wait for what I want, she said, her voice still too small for her body. I waited for you.
So she went through a lot of résumés looking for the ideal hijacker. Big deal. Let's go, I told her.
Belle was still rubbing my shoulder, watching the dog. Will she get jealous if I kiss you?
She couldn't care less.
That's my kind of girl, Belle said, and kissed the side of my mouth.
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The joint I took her to just says Bar over the green metal door. A hustlers' hangout off West Street, it serves decent food in the back room, all the tables set aside in booths so people can do business.
I left Belle in the booth to call Mama from one of the pay phones in the bar. I dialed the number that rings at her desk, in the front of the restaurant. She said something in Cantonese.
Anything? I asked.
No calls, she said, recognizing my voice.
I hung up, went back inside. A redhead waitres was talking to Belle. I recognized her as I got close. MaryEllen. She'd been working there for years. It was a nice quiet joint, no grab-ass drunks, all business.
What'll it be? she asked, like she'd never seen me before. My kind of place.
You order? I asked Belle, watching her settle into the booth. Sitting down, she was shorter than me - I guess most of her height was legs.
I waited for you, honey.
I looked up at MaryEllen. There's no menu, but the food doesn't vary much.
We have some real nice shell steaks.
I looked a question at Belle. She nodded. One medium and one . . . I looked at Belle again. Rare, she said. I ordered a ginger ale. You have beer on tap? Belle asked. MaryEllen shook her head no.
What brand?
Cold, Belle said, smiling at her.
Maybe she had been starving - Belle TKO'd her steak in the first round. She had two more beers and half my potatoes before I was halfway through. You want another one? I asked her, joking. She nodded happily. Even with the head start, we finished about the same time.
MaryEllen cleared the plates off. I lit a smoke.
Don't they have dessert? Belle asked.
Not here, I told her. You want coffee?
Can I have ice cream later?
Sure.
I was smoking my cigarette, thinking about the Prof. Belle sipped her coffee, watching me quietly. I felt a hand on my shoulder, a lilac-and-jasmine smell. Michelle. Wearing a wine-colored silk sheath, a black scarf at her throat. She looked a question at me. I moved over so she could sit down next me. She gave me a quick kiss as she slid in, turned to look at Belle, talking to me out of the side of her mouth.
Hi, baby. Who's your friend?
Michelle, this is Belle.
Michelle held out a manicured hand. Hi, honey.
Hello, Belle said, shaking her hand. Holding on to it too long, watching my face.
Michelle took her hand back, figuring it all out in a split second. Don't look at me like that, girl. This ugly thug's my brother, not my lover.
Belle's mouth twitched into a half-smile. He's not so ugly.
Honey, please!
Belle laughed. He's got other fine qualities.
I know, Michelle said.
Belle's face went hard. Do you?
Michelle stiffened, her claws coming out. Look, country girl, I say what I mean. And I mean what I say. Let's put it all out, okay? I never had a brother until Burke came along. I love him - I don't sleep with him. Wherever you go with him, I don't want to go. And where I go with him, you can't go. Get it?
I get it.
Get this too. You want to be my friend, you come with the best recommendation, Michelle said, patting my forearm. You want to be a bitch, you came to the right place. I'll be here after you're gone, girl.
I'm not going anywhere, Belle said.
Then let's be friends, yes? Michelle said, her sculptured face flashing a deadly smile.
Yes, Belle said, reaching over and taking my hand.
Michelle took one of her long black cigarettes from a thin lacquer case and tapped the filter, waiting for a light. I cracked a wooden match. She cupped my hand around the fire, gently pulling in the smoke. Belle watched Michelle as if she had the answer to all her questions.
Michelle fumbled in her huge black patent-leather purse. She pulled out a sheaf of photographs. Terry. In a blue blazer with gold buttons, wearing a white shirt and a striped tie, his hair slicked down. Isn't he handsome? she asked me.
A living doll, I assured her.
Michelle jabbed me in the ribs with her elbow. Pig, she snapped. She held the photos out to Belle. My boy.
Belle took the pictures. He is handsome. Does he go to boarding school?
I laughed. Michelle jabbed me again. He most certainly does, honey. One of the most exclusive in the country, I might add. And if it wasn't for certain people teaching him bad habits . . .
Don't look at me, I said.
The Mole does not smoke, Michelle said, ending the discussion.
How old is he? Belle asked.
He's almost twelve.
He's going to be a heartbreaker when he gets older.
Just like his mother, Michelle said, ready to talk about her favorite subject for the next few days.
I can't find the Prof, I told her, bringing her back to the real world.
Well, honey, you know the Prof. He could be anywhere.
He was supposed to call in, Michelle. We're working on something.
Oh.
Yeah. Will you . . . ?
I run on a different track now, baby. But I still have my associates in the right spots. I'll throw out some lines, okay?
Tonight?
I have a late date - I'll make some calls before I start. If you don't hear by tomorrow, give me a call and I'll take a look myself.
Thanks, Michelle.
She waved it off.
I got up to call Mama again. She answered the same way.
Anything at all?
Nothing. You worried?
Yes.
Call later. Leave number, okay?
Okay.
When I got back to the booth, Michelle and Belle were yakking it up like old pals. Michelle had Belle's face in her hand, twisting i
t different ways to catch the light. The big girl didn't seem to mind. I sat down, lit another smoke, listening to Michelle rattle on.
You draw the eyeliner away from the center, honey. Separate those eyes. And we use a sharper line here - drawing her fingernail across Belle's cheekbone - for an accent. Are you with me so far?
Belle nodded vigorously, not trying to talk while Michelle was grabbing her face.
Now the mouth . . . we use a brush, yes? We paint a thin line just past the lips, then we fill it in with a nice dark shade. Widen that mouth a bit. Then we . . . Oh, come on, Michelle said, standing up, dragging Belle by the hand. We'll be back in a minute, she said to me.
I ignored her. I knew what a minute meant to Michelle. I knew what it meant when the Prof didn't call in.
It was two ginger ales and a half-dozen cigarettes before they came out of the ladies' room, Michelle still leading Belle by the hand. They both sat across from me. I had to look twice. Belle's soft face was sharpened, different. Her eyes looked set farther apart, bigger. Her cheekbones stood out, her tiny mouth was more generous. And her hair was pulled over to one side, tied with Michelle's scarf.
You look beautiful, I said.
You really like it? she asked.
Honey, face it, you're a traffic-stopper, Michelle told her. All it takes is a little work.
Michelle, you're a doll, Belle said.
They all say that. Michelle smiled. Don't they, Burke?
Among other things.
Michelle was in too good a mood to pay attention to me. Stripes, she said to Belle. Vertical stripes. You're big enough to be two showgirls, sweetie. And watch the waist -you cinch it too tight, your hips look huge.
He likes my hips, Belle said, smiling at me.
All lower-class men like big hips, honey. Don't pay attention to him.
Belle looked at me. You've got some family. A little black brother and a big Chinese one. And a gorgeous sister.
Michelle flashed her perfect smile. It's the truth, girl. She gave each of us a kiss. I've got to go to work - my baby needs violin lessons.
Belle kissed her back. Thanks, Michelle. For everything.
Fry their brain cells, honey, she said, and watch the walk.
A quick over-the-shoulder wave and she was gone.
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I was stopped at a light at 43 rd and Ninth when Belle's baby voice poked through the mist in my brain.