by Ella Miles
But, somehow, I think she does love the boy. I just don’t understand how.
Stay away, Nina.
Save yourself.
It’s your last chance.
If you get on the flight, you have no chance left.
Save yourself. Because, once you are back in Italy, I can’t protect you anymore.
5
Nina
The cab pulls up in the airfield parking lot.
He tells me what the fee is, but I don’t hear him. I just pull out all the cash I have, well over a hundred dollars, and hand it to him, knowing that it is more than enough to cover the fare.
I climb out of the car and expect my heart to be racing. I expect my legs to be so weak and shaky that I’ll struggle walking out to the plane. None of that happens though.
Instead, I feel calm. I feel like I was meant to do this. I feel ready.
I walk into the small building that sits outside the airfield.
“I’m here to meet Arlo Carini,” I tell the receptionist behind the desk when she sees me.
She smiles at me. “Going on your honeymoon?” she asks, looking at me in my dress.
“Something like that,” I say without smiling.
She nods. “He’s already on the plane. It’s the first one on the right. I can walk you out.”
“That won’t be necessary. Thank you,” I say and walk away. I go through the double glass doors and then out to the first plane on the right.
I don’t know if it is a large plane or a small one. If it’s painted white or red or green. I couldn’t tell you one detail about it. My sole focus is getting on the plane and saving Heath because I fell in love with him the moment I saw him.
“Can I get a whiskey gorgeous?” a man asks from behind me.
I sigh. Being a bartender sucks. I have to talk to people all day and get hit on constantly, which wouldn’t be a problem if I actually could focus on any man. I can’t. All I can think about is running from Arlo. Doesn’t matter how good looking the man hitting on me is, I don’t want anything to do with them. I need to find a job that doesn’t involve having to deal with annoying men all day.
I grab the whiskey and pour it into a glass and then turn around to disappoint my latest charmer.
My jaw drops when I see him.
He’s tall, muscular, has long blond hair, but so have plenty of the other men that have gone after me. What’s different is his eyes. They are large and bright and caring. I wasn’t expecting kindness when I turned around. I was expecting another drunk man that I would have to fend off.
“Here’s your whiskey,” I say setting the glass down on the counter.
He grins handing me some cash. “Keep the change.”
I smile and nod and try to look away from him. It should be easy since there is a whole bar full of people waiting for me to get them drinks, but I can’t. I’m drawn to this man in a way that I haven’t felt in seven years. I feel a hint of my old self back. The tingling in my hands when I look at him, my cheeks flush, and my heart races. I forget about everything but this man for just a second. My obsession with a complete stranger takes over giving my body a break from constantly obsessing about when Arlo is going to come for me.
I thought my obsessive tendencies were a curse. When I want something, I will do anything to make it happen. It just so happens that most of my life, my obsessive tendencies have focused on men. I obsessed briefly over saving my father when he got sick, but when he died, my feelings locked on to the man in my life. Any man that I found attractive and wanted.
When Arlo threatened my life, my obsession changed to surviving. Living a life in fear. But looking at this man, for the first time, I feel something other than fear. Something other than the need to survive. I want to live again. I want to love. Feel loved. I want him.
I close my eyes. I can’t have him. I can’t drag anyone else into my nightmare of a life. But it feels good to know that the old me is still in there somewhere. That I can do something other than be on high alert that Arlo and his family are going to come bursting through the door and kidnap me.
When I open my eyes, the man is staring at me.
“Here,” he says holding the drink out to me.
“Is something wrong with it?”
“No, but I think you need this more than me.”
I take the whiskey from him and drink it. I should have learned my lesson to not drink drinks from a stranger. He could have put anything into the drink when I had my eyes closed. But I’m tired of always being on edge. Always fearing that the world is out to get me.
“Feel better?” he asks.
I nod. “Thank you.”
He grins. “I’m Heath.”
“Nina.”
“Nina,” he says, grinning even brighter. “Do you trust me, Nina?”
My heart stops. Did Arlo send some stranger here to kidnap me? I look into Heath’s eyes though and I know he isn’t dangerous. He’s the opposite of Arlo. He’s light where Arlo is dark.
“Yes,” I say.
“Good. Let’s get the hell out of here and do something fun,” he says holding his hand out to me.
I frown. “I can’t. I have to work. I need the money.”
His face brightens and I know he is hiding something.
“What?” I ask.
“My uncle actually owns this bar.”
I smile. “So you just come in here and hit on the bartenders and tell them that you’ll make sure they don’t get in trouble when they play hooky?”
“No.”
“No?”
“Fine, my uncle doesn’t own this bar. Everything I just said was a lie, but I really think you should come with me. You look very sad, and you are far too beautiful and smart of a woman to spend her days sad.”
He holds out his hand again.
I stare at it. This is trouble. I shouldn’t do this. I need the money. I shouldn’t take a risk like this.
But I take his hand anyway.
The electricity that pours into me when I do is beyond anything I’ve ever felt before.
He grins. I grin.
“See, you’re happier already,” he says.
“So where are you taking me?” I ask.
He pulls me to him into his arms. I love being in his arms.
“Does it matter?”
“No.”
My heart speeds up again as he holds me in his arms. I haven’t felt this alive in years. It’s like he flipped a switch inside me.
“What are you doing to me?”
He tucks a strand of my hair behind my ear. “I’m falling in love with you and giving you the happily ever after you deserve.”
I raise an eyebrow. “You can’t fall in love with me. You don’t even know me.”
“I don’t. But I have good instincts and I know that you are beautiful, smart, and fierce. I know that you are running from something and I want to be the man that saves you from that if you’ll let me.”
I bite my lip. Heath can’t be real. A man like this doesn’t exist. I shouldn’t let someone else into my fucked up life, but I can’t resist his grin.
“I’ll let you fall in love with me,” I say because I’m pretty sure I’m already falling for him.
He fell in love with me just like he promised. And I fell in love with him. Call it lust. Call it insta-love. Call it my obsession. A distraction. Whatever others might see when they look at us doesn’t matter. Because right now, it’s real. Real love. We may not have been together long. But it doesn’t change how I feel about him.
I’ll give my life to save Heath because he helped me escape a lifetime of running scared. He let me find happiness again if only for a few days. He showed me I could love again. I’ll do anything to save him.
The door is open, and the stairs leading up to the plane are down. I quickly climb up, not thinking about anything but making sure that Heath is okay.
And then I see Heath. He’s sitting calmly in the second seat on the plane. I run over to him
and throw my arms around his neck. He embraces me just as passionately, like we haven’t seen each other in years instead of only minutes.
I pull away enough to check him over. He doesn’t look hurt, not a visible scratch on him, and he isn’t tied up.
“Get out of here, Heath,” I say, trying to get him to get up.
“No.”
“Please, this isn’t your battle to fight.” I grab on to his neck, needing him to go. Needing him to be safe.
“I’m not leaving without you.”
“Well, isn’t this sweet?” Arlo says from behind me.
I turn and see him standing in the doorway of the plane.
“Neither of you will leave without the other. And I thought you got married because of the free gifts.”
I frown. “Let him go, Arlo.”
Arlo grins and steps aside from the doorway, holding his arm out. “He’s free to go. A deal’s a deal.”
I grab Heath’s hand and pull him up. “Go.”
“Not. Without. You.”
Arlo’s eyes narrow, and I know he is growing impatient. If we aren’t careful, he won’t let either of us go. One of us needs to survive this.
I turn to look at Heath and kiss him like I’ve never kissed him before. A kiss to last us both a lifetime. A kiss to top all other kisses. I don’t do it to put on a show for Arlo. I don’t even do it for Heath. I do it for myself. I need to have something to hold on to, to get me through whatever is ahead.
When I stop, I look deep into Heath’s eyes, and then I pull him in for one last embrace. I say, “Go. If you don’t, he will take us both, and one of us will be dead by the end of the night. I need you to go. It’s the only way you have a chance at saving me later. If you come with us now, you’ll be dead before the night is over.”
I pull away and firmly look him in the eyes again. The words I said aren’t for me. I know he can’t come rescue me. He won’t even know where to start looking. The words I spoke are for him. To get him to leave. It’s the only way I can protect him.
Heath thinks about going, but it’s still not enough. He still can’t leave me.
“I love you,” I say as tears flow down my cheeks. “I won’t lose you. I wouldn’t survive it. I need you to go. It’s the only way I have a chance at getting through this.”
Heath kisses each of my cheeks, taking my tears in his mouth. “I love you, Nina. You’re strong. The strongest woman I know. Just stay alive. I’ll come after you. I promise.”
And then I let go of his hand. I take a step back, and I watch him walk down the aisle of the plane. Heath hesitates at the door.
Because I have no voice left to speak, I mouth, I love you. Go.
“I’m going to find you. I’m going to save you. I promise.”
Heath walks off the plane, and I’m alone.
I don’t move as Arlo closes the door on the plane after the pilots step on and into the cockpit. I don’t move as Arlo enters the cockpit to talk to them, leaving me by myself in the back of the plane.
I should move. I should make a run for it. There is no one stopping me. But I’m tired of running. I will not run anymore.
The only things that move are the tears dripping down my face.
Arlo reappears. “Take a seat, Nina. We will be taking off soon.”
I sit. I want to fight, but I’ll have plenty of time to do that soon enough. For now, I need to mourn. I need to feel the pain of losing someone I wanted to spend my whole life with, but instead, I didn’t even get one night as husband and wife. I just lost the only man I’ve ever loved, and I need to deal with that first before I can handle anything else.
Arlo takes a seat next to me. “Buckle your seatbelt,” he says.
I don’t. I can’t move anymore. I can’t function. I just need to deal with everything.
Arlo stands up and reaches across my body. He buckles me in before taking his own seat next to me again.
I feel the engines purr to life. The plane starts moving forward, and it won’t be long before we are up in the air.
I lean my head against the window, looking out into the dark sky that is getting darker with every second that passes, just like the pain in my heart. I let the pain and darkness wash over me. I let it harden my heart, and then I push it out, so I don’t have to feel it.
And then I close my eyes as the tears continue down my cheeks. The plane takes off, and it all becomes real. Heath is my husband. I love him, yet I will never see him again.
But he’s safe. I saved him. And, if it was the last thing I got to decide in my life, it was the best choice I’d ever made. Because Heath deserves to live. He deserves to be saved. He deserves to be loved. And there is no greater way to show my love than by saving him.
I wake up with a startle.
It takes me a second to realize where I am. Kidnapped and on a plane with Arlo, headed back to Italy. Except, unlike my last trip to Italy, I don’t think this one is going to be as nice.
I look around the plane and find Arlo sitting next to me, looking at me with careful eyes.
“How long was I asleep?” I ask, hoping we only have minutes left on the flight. Because, if we still have hours left, then it gives me too much time to deal with the anxiety and fear as I think about what is going to happen next. I want to be there now. I just want to figure out what my new life is and start fighting.
“A couple of hours,” he says.
I exhale deeply. We have several hours left.
“Do you want anything to eat or drink?” Arlo asks.
My eyes shoot daggers over at him. “I thought that kidnappers were supposed to be cruel to those they kidnapped.”
Arlo stands up and goes over to the small bar area at the front of the plane. I watch as he pours a glass of wine and picks up a meat and cheese tray. He walks back and places both in front of me on the table that he pulled out from the wall.
He then takes a seat across from me.
“I didn’t kidnap you. I kidnapped Heath. You chose to take his place.”
I don’t want to eat or drink anything that Arlo has given me, but I’m hungry, and the alcohol will help with the pain. I pop a piece of cheese into my mouth and then start on the wine. I frown the whole time, showing him how displeased I am with this situation, but the second the wine touches my tongue, I melt just a little. The wine is the most extravagant thing I have ever tasted. It’s delicious, and I know I’m going to drink the entire bottle before we get to Italy.
Arlo smiles, satisfied, as I drink the wine.
I hate him.
But it doesn’t stop me from drinking.
“Feel better?” he asks.
“No, I don’t feel better. You just ruined my life. You took me away from the only person I’ve ever loved. I hate you. I will never feel better until you are dead and I’m free again. When will that be?”
He continues to study me with his frigid eyes. “Sooner than you think.”
I narrow my eyes, not understanding anything.
Arlo takes a drink from his scotch. “You really loved him, didn’t you?”
I don’t want to tell him anything. He doesn’t deserve to know anything personal about me.
But I can’t help but answer his question, “Yes, I really loved him. I’ll always love him.”
Arlo rubs his neck. “Why? You barely knew each other.”
I look out the window and into the dark night. I know we are somewhere over the ocean, but I can’t make out the water from so high up. It all looks the same. One dark void that I will never escape from.
I shake my head. No. I will escape. I will find a way through what seems like the impossible. I will not let him win.
I hear Arlo stand up and walk the two feet toward me.
“Why, Nina? Why him? Did your obsessive tendencies get you into trouble again? Is that what this is? You’re just obsessed, not really in love?”
His hand touches my cheek, and I flinch. It was the lightest touch, and I already can’t stand it.
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Arlo pulls back a second, and then he pushes harder. “Do you even know what love is, Nina?”
He strokes my neck, and I can’t help the shivers going up and down my spine.
He grins. “I don’t think you do. Whatever you and Heath had, it wasn’t love. It’s not going to save you.”
He lowers his lips, and I know he is going to kiss me. I can’t take it. I can’t just let him kiss me. Not tonight.
I know it’s stupid, but I do it anyway.
I pull the gun out of my purse, and I aim it at Arlo.
The fucker grins as he slowly puts his hands up, but he doesn’t move more than a few inches away from my face.
“I wouldn’t grin if I were you. I could blow your brains out in a split second. I might still have to face the wrath of your family when I get to Italy, but I can kill you now.”
He nods slowly. “I don’t doubt that you could, Nina. In fact, maybe you should. It would make my life a whole lot easier. But I promise you, your life would become much worse if you killed me. You would no longer just be in my family’s debt; you would owe my family everything. You would never stop paying with your life.”
I feel my arms shaking ever so slightly as I aim the gun at Arlo’s heart. Shoot him, I keep telling myself in my head. I squeeze my finger tighter over the trigger, but I still can’t make myself actually pull it.
“Shoot me.”
Damn it. I shouldn’t have done this. I shouldn’t have revealed my cards so soon. He didn’t know I had a gun. I could have killed his entire family in their sleep instead of just taking out Arlo.
Heath’s face flashes before my eyes. Kill him, he says to me.
I do. I squeeze the trigger and hear the pop of the gun as a bullet explodes out. I’ve spent the last seven years learning how to shoot a gun properly, but I’ve never actually shot at anyone before.
I feel the gun being ripped out of my hands before I even have time to react. And then I feel Arlo’s body on top of me, holding me down so that I can’t move.