“I must confess, that is the truth.” He sounded very amused now. He cradled her in his lap, next to the heat of his body, while he ran steamy water into the huge sunken tub. He added some bath salts from a beautifully shaped bottle. A wave of his hand lit several aromatic candles.
“I
didn’t
see you do that,” Jaxon denied, turning her head away from him. “But I’ve caught the fact that you don’t necessarily always speak out loud to me. You laugh and talk to me, but in my head, in my thoughts.” She pushed her forehead into her hands. “I’m in real trouble this time, aren’t I?” She was trembling hard, and this time she was certain she was more afraid than cold. At least she still had enough of her faculties left to know she should be afraid of him.
“You are just as capable of speaking to me in the same way, honey,” he replied, his voice soothing. “Jaxon, look at me. Do not hide from this. What would be the point?” Lucian found she was turning him inside out. She brought such joy into his formerly bleak, violent world.
She raised her head so that her large chocolate-brown eyes could meet his black ones.
“You are not afraid of me,” he insisted. “Search inside yourself. The knowledge that there are things in your world you knew nothing about is understandably frightening, but you do not fear me.”
“And how do you know that?” She would not fall into his eyes and allow him to mesmerize her. That was it, right? He had some kind of black magic spell thing he did with his eyes. She just wouldn’t look into them again.
His perfect mouth curved into a smile. “I have shared your mind. I know all kinds of things about you. Just as you know all manner of things about me.”
“Well, I don’t want to know them,” she snapped. “I don’t want any part of any of this. I shot that thing right in the middle of his forehead, dead center, and he didn’t die.”
“There is only one way to kill a vampire and ensure that he does not rise again. You must extract his heart and incinerate it. His blood acts like tainted acid on the skin or poison if ingested into the bloodstream. It must also be destroyed. Even after death a vampire can cause tremendous damage if not disposed of properly.”
She glared at him. “I told you I didn’t want to know any more.”
He began to undo the buttons of her shirt, slipping each one carefully from the buttonhole. His fingers brushed warmth over her soft skin, leaving behind tiny dancing flames. She caught at his hands, stilling their actions. “Just what do you think you’re doing?” She tried to look outraged instead of shocked and horrified by her own body’s reaction to him.
“I am removing your wet clothes. They are not doing you much good, honey, if your intention is to hide your body from me. The rain-soaked shirt is now completely transparent.” He pointed out the obvious without any inflection in his velvet-soft voice. “You are very cold, and you need to warm up. I thought this was the best way. But I would be most happy to choose another, if you wish.”
She pushed at the wall of his chest, turning bright red at his implication. He was right; the wet silk shirt revealed everything. “Go away. I am absolutely not taking a bath with you in the room.”
He studied her face. She was very pale. All eyes. In her mind was confusion and fear but no real resistance. She was not the type to throw herself out a window. “I would not like it if you slipped and fell, young one.”
“It’s insulting to have you refer to me as ‘young one,’ as if I were a child. I’m a grown woman,” she informed him haughtily.
His smile nearly took her breath away. “That is what I am afraid of,” he said.
“What does that mean?”
“It means, Jaxon, that I am much too old for you.” Lucian’s black eyes moved over her face with that possessive glint very much in evidence. “And yet there is no other for me, for either of us. We are stuck with each other.”
“Go away.” She pushed impotently at his broad chest again. “I’m going to soak in the bathtub for a very long time and convince myself none of this happened. I must be on drugs or something. Or the blow to my head has left me very confused.”
“You never received a blow to the head.” Amusement turned the warm velvet of his voice to pure seduction. “That was your partner.”
“Go!” This time she pointed to the door.
He gently allowed her feet to touch the tiles. Shaking his head at her silliness, he glided casually out of the room.
Jaxon took a deep, calming breath and let it out slowly. There simply were no such things as vampires in the world. It just wasn’t so. She tossed the wet shirt aside and slipped thankfully down into the hot water.
Yes, there are. You just saw one. His name was Henrique, and he was not very skilled. There are many more. Do not worry, Jaxon. I am a hunter of the undead, and I will protect you.
He was in her mind again. She shook her head as if that would remove him. “I don’t want to know anything about vampires. I could go my entire life without that information and be perfectly happy. I don’t want to know.” What if Lucian was a vampire himself? He had gotten from the courtyard to the door she was fleeing out of, and the entire huge house had been between them. How had he managed it? “And what about all my dreams of dark princes and blood and icky things like that?” she murmured aloud to herself.
Icky things?
He was definitely laughing at her.
I am no vampire, although I pretended to be for a few centuries to help out my brother. I am a Carpathian, a hunter of vampires, those of my kind who have surrendered their souls to the darkness that exists within all Carpathian males
.
“A few
centuries
? Just how old are you, anyway? Wait! Don’t answer that. I don’t want to know. Just stop talking to me. This is crazy. I must be on very powerful drugs, and soon I’ll wake up in the hospital, and everything will be back to normal. I made you up. What I’m going to do is ignore you and take a bath. Vampires and you are gone forever from my mind. So don’t talk to me.”
Lucian found himself laughing aloud. The sound startled him. He couldn’t remember laughter. It felt good. He placed a palm on the bathroom door. He had endured nearly two thousand years of emptiness, of darkness and violence. No emotions. Nothing. His own people, those he had protected, had been so afraid of his power and skill that they whispered his name and hid when he passed through the land. Yet one small human woman had worked a miracle and brought laughter into his life.
He had no qualms about what he was. A killing machine designed to protect Carpathians and humans alike from evil. He was more than good at his role. He destroyed easily without anger or remorse.
But Jaxon Montgomery was the most beautiful thing he had ever encountered. She was his, and he would never give her up. But was she changing him? His palm caressed the door behind which she bathed, his heart turning over strangely, unexpectedly.
The hot water warmed Jaxon’s insides but stung her healing wounds. She frowned down at the evidence of the recent shoot-out at the warehouse. She should have died from those grave wounds. And all her misery finally would have been over. She drew up her knees and rested her head on top of them. Now her burden of responsibility was worse than ever. She would have to protect the world not only from human criminals but from the things of nightmares. She couldn’t do it. Not anymore. She just couldn’t be in this world anymore and be so completely alone. The mere thought of it left her raw and aching.
You will never be alone again, honey.
The voice, so soft and beautiful, was filled with compassion. Jaxon made every effort to rally. “I told you not to talk to me.”
I am thinking, not talking.
The tenderness mixed with amusement in his voice made her heart turn over, made her feel all the more vulnerable.
“Well, don’t think either.” She ran a hand through her wet hair. This kind of thing just didn’t happen to normal people. Why did she attract such weird things?
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“I can’t hear you.” She was smiling in spite of herself. There was something almost endearing about him, if such a frightening creature could be called endearing. Her eyes suddenly widened. He had known she was out there. The entire time. He had known she was on that balcony.
“You did, didn’t you?” She whispered it, but she knew he would hear her. If she could hear him in her head, he could hear her whisper.
Yes.
“And you can erase all this from my mind.” It made sense. How else could someone like Lucian remain hidden from the world? “Why did you let me see that hideous thing? I’ll never get that image out of my head.”
You would not want me to erase your knowledge. Not of anything. I know you would not. The temptation is there, naturally, but you would not wish such a thing, and I have too much respect for you to make the decision for you.
She rubbed her aching forehead. He was right. It was a temptation to forget the horrors she had seen. She wanted to scream at him that no one could assimilate such knowledge. But he was right. She would hate for him to make such a decision for her, and she would never choose ignorance. But what did this new knowledge mean to her future? What could it mean?
For no apparent reason, Jaxon started to cry. Once the tears started, she could not control them. Great sobs welled up, shaking her with their intensity. She never cried. Never! Jaxon deliberately went under the water, hoping to wash away the tears. It would be humiliating to have Lucian catch her crying. At once came the knowledge that he had to be aware; he was there in her mind, a shadow monitoring her most private thoughts and memories. She came up so fast, she hit her head on a faucet. Yelping, Jaxon stood up in the enormous tub, water running off her body.
Lucian materialized directly in front of her, his black eyes anxious as he reached for a large bath towel. Jaxon gasped audibly. “My God, you just appeared out of nowhere! You didn’t even come through the door!”
He enveloped her in the towel. She was far too much of a temptation standing there naked, confused, her eyes enormous and water running off her slim body. Pulling her into the shelter of his large frame, he began to dry her. “Doors really are not all that necessary, honey.”
“Evidently locking them wouldn’t do much good,” she pointed out. She tilted her head to study his handsome face. “I’m tired, Lucian. I need to lie down.”
He swept her into his arms. She looked so fragile. One good, strong wind might blow her over. “If you cry anymore, honey, my heart is going to break.” He meant it, too. His heart actually ached for her. There were dark circles under her eyes. Cradling her close to his chest, against the steady beat of his heart, he glided through the house, up the stairs, and back to her bedroom. Very gently he placed her back in bed.
“You will sleep now, Jaxon,” he commanded. His voice made her want to do whatever it was he asked of her. No, commanded of her. That was what it was—a command—and she was so mesmerized by the beauty and purity of his voice, she succumbed to his power.
“Am I right? Is that what you do?” She allowed him to help her into another shirt His fingers once again spread flames everywhere they brushed her skin as he buttoned it for her. Resolutely, he pulled the covers up to her chin.
“Yes, with my voice and my eyes I can easily control others.” He admitted it shamelessly, the same way he did everything else, matter-of-factly, in his soft, gentle tone.
A faint smile lit her large eyes for a moment “You admit it so easily. How many others like you exist out there?”
“Not many anymore. We Carpathians are dying out. Very few of our males can find their lifemates.”
She closed her eyes. “I know I shouldn’t ask. I know I shouldn’t, but I can’t help myself. What is a lifemate?” Her long lashes lifted, and laughter danced warily in the depths of her eyes, despite their shimmer of teardrops.
He ruffled her hair, his fingers combing it into some semblance of control. “You are a lifemate, honey. My lifemate. It has taken nearly two thousand years to find you, and I never dared to believe in such a miracle in all that time.”
She held up a hand, palm out. “I knew better. I knew I wouldn’t want to hear this. Nearly two thousand years, you say? That would make you
way
old. You’re right—you’re far too old for me.”
His strong white teeth flashed. They were perfectly straight, his mouth sensuous. Everything about him was perfect. She glared at him. “Couldn’t you at least look wrinkled and dusty, with most of your teeth missing?”
Lucian laughed, the sound so beautiful she could feel the whisper of butterfly wings in her stomach. He was incredibly charismatic. She knew she had fallen under his spell. Were her emotions real, or was he suggesting them to her? She had never had these feelings for anyone. It was frightening how strong the emotions he evoked in her were.
“Neither have I felt such before.” He said it starkly. Honestly. The purity of his voice made it impossible for him to be lying. “I have never wanted another woman this way, Jaxon. For me, there is only you.”
“You can’t have me. I live in a world that doesn’t include love. There’s no room for you. Tyler Drake may not be a vampire, but he’s very dangerous. I will not be responsible for any other deaths. I have enough blood on my hands for an entire army.” She wasn’t going to believe in this vampire nonsense, she decided. That was all there was to it. Otherwise, she would have to be committed. God in heaven, maybe she
wanted
to be committed.
He took her hands in his, turned them this way and that to inspect them carefully. He brought her palms to the warmth of his mouth, then pressed a kiss into the exact center of each hand. “I do not see one drop of blood, honey. You have never been responsible for what Tyler Drake has chosen to do.”
“You aren’t listening to me.” She sounded sad, snuggling more deeply into the pillows. Once again she felt safe, when she knew that couldn’t possibly be true. “I will not take chances with your life.”
Lucian laughed again. Jaxon could hear the genuine amusement in his voice. “You still do not understand me, young one, but you will soon enough.”
Chapter Three
The sounds and smells told Jaxon she was in a hospital. She opened her eyes warily. She was lying in a bed, but she could still feel her gun in her hand. A nurse was hovering nearby.
The woman smiled at Jaxon. “You’re awake. Good. The doctor is planning to release you this evening. He was worried about your going home alone, but your fiancй assured him you would be well taken care of.”
Jaxon’s heart sank. She was hoping she had merely dreamed about vampires and dark, sexy, “Carpathian” strangers, but she was more than certain she had had no fiancй prior to being shot. She stayed very still. She had no idea what to say, how to respond. She didn’t know even know how she had come to be in a hospital. The nurse was bustling around, opening the curtains, and allowing Jaxon to see that the sun was already down.
Jaxon realized she no longer felt safe. She was in an environment where she had little or no control. If Tyler wanted to get to her, it would be easy. He could disguise himself as an orderly and waltz right into her room. And she was alone again. For a few precious moments of her life she had really shared with someone—Lucian--however bizarre that event had been. Now she was alone and once more responsible for the safety of those around her.
You do not listen very well, Jaxon.
There was that soft, soothing
voice. Either that, or I have completely misread your intelligence and need to explain things much more clearly and carefully to you.
She heard a tinge of masculine amusement.
Jaxon looked around her quickly. No one else was in the room with her but the nurse. The nurse appeared not to have noticed any disembodied voice. Now
you’ve got me hearing voices. I’m going to the nearest mental institution and insisting on immediate help .
She chose her thoughts c
arefully, willing him to hear her response.
He laughed. She could hear his genuine amusement, that velvet-soft and beautiful, perfectly pitched voice that seemed to caress her whether he was touching her or not. It was so very familiar now, a part of her she never wanted to lose.
But you have to go away.
She was taking a firm stand on this. Either she was completely crazy and he was a figment of her imagination because she needed someone so desperately, or he was very real—and more trouble than she could handle.
I doubt if you would make up someone as domineering as I. You would want some fop to order about so you could continue believing you have to protect everyone. That isn’t funny, Lucian. You have no idea what Tyler Drake is like. Some of the best people in this country have tried to catch him and failed. You’re so arrogant, you’re going to get yourself killed. I hate that trait in men. It isn’t bravery, it’s sheer stupidity. I know Drake is dangerous, and I’m always prepared, because I don’t imagine myself so much more skilled than he is.
There was an edge to her voice. She was becoming irritated with Lucian’s arrogance.
His voice never changed, remaining as gentle and soothing as
ever. It is not arrogance, Jaxon, when one knows one’s own abilities. I have confidence because I know who I am, what I am. I am a hunter. It is what I do. He’s a killer. It’s what he does. You are becoming distressed. I will be with you soon to take you home with me. We will have plenty of time to discuss this. In the meantime do whatever the doctor says to get you released.
Jaxon became aware that the nurse was staring at her. She blinked rapidly to focus her attention on what the woman was saying. “I’m sorry, I was off in my own little world. What were you saying?” She forced a small smile.
“I think anyone with a fiancй like
yours would
be off in her own little world. Is he really a billionaire? What would that be like? I can’t conceive of a billion dollars. He met last night with the hospital board and is giving a huge donation in thanks for taking such good care of you. He had this room guarded day and night.” Her voice turned dreamy. “He said you were his world and he couldn’t breathe without you. Imagine a man saying that right out loud to a roomful of other men. I’d give anything to have my husband feel that way about me.”
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