Releasing the Watcher: The Fallen Angel Trilogy #3

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by Kim Loraine


  “And Selah?”

  “Her soul will escape hellfire, but she will stay in purgatory.”

  “Why? She doesn’t deserve that.”

  “She’ll be given another chance at life. A chance to redeem her place in Heaven when our Father chooses.”

  Anxiety claws at my throat. I did this to her. But if she can have another chance, if she’ll be reborn, I can find her.

  I nod, taking her cold hand in mine. “So be it.”

  “Brother, I offer you this one kindness. Do you accept?”

  Knowing what he’s offering, I tense and kneel by the bed. My heart beats erratically as instinct takes over and I fight the urge to run from coming death. Resting my lips on Selah’s hand, I say, “Thank you, Gabriel.”

  Blinding light fills the room and the press of his warm hand on my back makes me flinch. But soon, the warmth is replaced by a jolt and my vision fades as my heart stops.

  I’ll find her again.

  No matter how long it takes.

  Present day, Seattle

  My bed still smells of lavender even three full days after I sent Selah home. It’s torture as I lie here trying desperately to fall asleep. All I can think about is her. The Selah from my past, and from my present. There’s no denying she is not the same woman I crashed into love with all those lifetimes ago. But I don’t care. I can feel that same pull, the need to be with her. She is meant for me, beyond any doubt.

  Rolling onto my side, I let her floral scent cover me, invade my senses. I don’t resist my body’s instinctive reaction. My cock swells, and I welcome the ache of unchecked arousal. Closing my eyes, I let the need to be with her, to be inside her, take over. My wings flare to life, trapped under my skin. It’s less pain and more heat, as my power unfurls and I let my dream world and reality blend until there is no line between them.

  I shouldn’t do this, but I can’t resist going to her. It’s not real—but it is.

  She’s sound asleep, one arm draped across her eyes and the opposite leg kicked free of the covers. I almost don’t want to disturb her peaceful slumber, but then she moans, and it’s my name on her lips. The sound sends a pulse of desire through me so strong, I have to bite my lip to keep from rushing to her. If I’m being honest with myself, I really just want to claim her as mine here and now. There’s nothing I want more than for her to come back to me, remembering who we were to each other, who we can be again.

  “Sariel,” she whispers in her sleep.

  With the amount of power I’m using, I can keep myself from her perception, just as I used to, sharing in our desire without truly consummating our union up until we were wed. All I have to do is touch her and I can join her in her dream. She sighs and shifts, her hand drifting across her thin camisole. My dick is so fucking hard, I ache, and when she cups her own breast and arches her back, I’m done.

  Striding across the room, I slide my hand over her exposed leg, and I’m instantly transported to her fantasy.

  My heart clenches as soon as I see the pistachio tree. She isn’t supposed to know this place. How can she dream of it? Gabriel had said she wouldn’t remember.

  Selah’s soft gasp has me turning toward her. The confusion in her eyes makes me certain she sees me standing by the riverbank.

  “Sam? How did you get here?”

  Shrugging, I smirk. “I don’t know. It’s your dream. Maybe you have the hots for me.”

  Her answering blush sends a jolt of lust straight to my groin. Those beautiful lips of hers turn up in a soft smile as she meets my gaze. “You’re very, um, I don’t know how to describe you.”

  “Is that a good thing?”

  I take a step toward her and gather a lock of her long hair between my fingers, twirling it slowly.

  She doesn’t respond, but her eyes never leave mine. I’ve wished for those beautiful dark lashes and deep gray irises to lock with mine day and night since I lost her the first time. Now that she’s here, I can barely breathe.

  “Kiss me, Selah. You know you want this.”

  She closes her eyes and lets her head fall back. “I really do. But I don’t know you.”

  I can’t help myself, my hand drifts across the silky skin of her shoulder until I’m cupping the nape of her neck and pulling her toward me. “You know me better than you think.”

  “Why would you say that?”

  Her words ghost over my skin—she’s so close, I can feel the tension radiating from her. “Because it’s the truth,” I force through a throat so tight, I can barely speak.

  Working to control my need, I let my gaze drop from hers. My focus drifts down to the plump bottom lip I used to love nipping with my teeth just before I’d bury my cock inside her. I fight a shiver as her fingernails scrape lightly over my collar. Then she adds pressure, her fingers running along my chest and down the tight muscles of my stomach until they find the hem of my shirt. When she slides her hands under the fabric and our skin meets, I groan.

  Loving the feel of her body connected to mine, I murmur, “I don’t ever want you to stop touching me.” It’s really a plea, but she doesn’t know that.

  “Don’t give me a reason to, and I won’t.”

  Tightening my grip on her hair, I pull her face to mine and claim her mouth for the first time in far too long. My chest expands, an astounding pressure filling me as we connect and her tongue parts my lips. Everything is right. Drinking her in, I let her take everything I have to offer, all my attention, my desire, my love. She has me. I’ve wanted this for thousands of years, and it’s better than I could have imagined.

  Her nails dig into the small of my back, sending a welcome burn through me that has nothing to do with the marks of my obligation to my brothers. But then she starts trailing her fingers over my wings, and I release her, gripping her wrists and bringing them up and away from the tattoo she thinks I have. In one smooth motion, I place her arms around my shoulders and lift her until she has no choice but to wrap her legs around my hips. I’m certain she can feel my rigid cock against her core, and my suspicions are confirmed as she moans and grinds her center against me.

  “I want you,” I murmur against her temple.

  “Yes.” It’s only one word, uttered on a needful sigh, but it’s all I need.

  Pushing her up against the tree, I shove her panties to the side and sink one finger deep inside her heat. She feels like fucking ecstasy, slick and tight, waiting for me.

  “You’re so beautiful, my Selah.”

  I trail kisses along her collarbone and shoulder as I move my finger back and forth, opening her. My cock is throbbing with desire, begging for release. With my free hand, I palm my shaft, squeezing in a futile attempt to provide myself some relief.

  “This is just a dream, right?” she asks.

  Not removing my lips from her skin, I nod and sink a second finger into her. She groans and clenches around me.

  “Then fuck me already.”

  Oh, for the love of all that is holy. She never spoke to me this way before. My dick jerks against my thin sweatpants at her brazenness. Shoving the offending fabric down my hips, I lick along her throat until my lips and tongue find her earlobe. “Get ready, beautiful little one. You’ll never want another.”

  She squirms as I line my cock up with her entrance and press inside, just barely, torturing us both.

  “Yes, Sam.”

  My blood runs cold at the name, making me pause at the gates of everything I’ve been searching for. And then fire races across my back, my wings burning like molten lava, and with a scream of agony, I fall to the floor. Opening my eyes, I see a pair of black biker boots and legs encased in leather pants. I’m in my bedroom. Damn. And Gabriel stares at me with a frown marring his usually perfect brow. Double damn.

  “What have you been up to, brother?” he asks, disapproval in his tone.

  “It was just a dream.”

  He cocks an eyebrow. “Was it?”

  Holy shit.

  My eyes snap open as I’m jolted
from sleep. That was the most intense dream I’ve ever had, and it was about Sam. Well, initially it was about Sariel, the man I met once but can’t seem to forget. At first, I’d been angry when he disappeared and Sam took his place in the dream. But that emotion was quickly replaced with desire for Sam. I can smell him on my skin, feel the head of his thick erection penetrating me, just an inch. Not enough.

  Of all the times to wake up, I had to do it before I’d been able to at least enjoy an orgasm. Stretching, I sit up and glance at the clock. It’s barely four in the morning, but I know I won’t be getting any more sleep. That’s not how I’m wired. Once I’m awake, that’s it, my day starts. The hardwood floor is frigid at this ungodly hour, sending shocks of chill along the soles of my feet as I stand. It seems such a contrast to the heat of my fantasy world, the warm sun baking the earth, Sam’s hot kisses. Shit. I need to stop thinking of him.

  Wrapping myself in my favorite fleece robe, I grab a thick pair of socks from the dresser and slip them over my feet. With a huge yawn, I trudge out of my bedroom and down the hall. Coffee. I need coffee and a shower before I’m functional. As I walk past the chair Adam had been using as he waited for me to return, I wince inwardly. His harsh words, the plea in his eyes, those big hands pinching my flesh, all play out again like they happened to someone else.

  I should have listened to my instincts rather than give in to the pull he had on me. But now, what I’d mistaken for love was clearly just attraction. Adam and I don’t have even a quarter of the connection that exists between me and Sam. I’ve only seen the man twice, but I’m dreaming of letting him inside my body without hesitation. If it hadn’t been for my fresh breakup, I’d have let it happen for real only a few hours ago. He’d had me in his bed, at his mercy, and he’d behaved with restraint, respecting me.

  “You don’t even know the man, Selah. Stop overanalyzing,” I mutter, tossing a coffee pod into my machine and waiting for it to brew. It takes me a few seconds to realize there’s not a mug under the damn dispenser, and I shout a curse as hot coffee splashes on my robe. Grabbing a cup from the drying rack to my left, I slide it under the stream of caffeine and heave a frustrated sigh.

  I have too much on my plate to let a silly sex dream throw me off. Grabbing my phone, I scroll through my calendar for the week. Rehearsal, rehearsal, rehearsal, a day off, more rehearsal. I’ve been a regular dancer for a burlesque troupe for the last five years, ever since a spot opened up when one of the principal dancers ran off without a word. According to my friend Rosie, it was a shame for the show to lose Trisha; she’d been really talented. Everyone suspects she found herself a rich husband and is enjoying the life of a trophy wife. A weight lifts off my shoulders as I realize that’s another thing I won’t have to worry about now that Adam is out of my life. He knows I’m a dancer; he doesn’t know I make most of my money doing burlesque.

  Taking my coffee with me, I curl up on the couch and turn on Netflix. I just need a mindless distraction. Eyes the color of mercury flash in my memory without my brain’s permission, and I finally give up after nearly an hour of fighting with myself.

  I need a shower and an orgasm—maybe two.

  Present day, Seattle

  I’d given in and gone to Selah. Almost taken her in the dream. It’s only made the ache worse and the phantom traces of her still linger, if only in my memory. I haven’t allowed myself to invade her dreams again, not after what nearly happened last time. I don’t know what I’d been thinking. Who am I kidding? I know exactly which part of me had been in charge. In the past, it seemed so primal, the instinct to take and claim, but that was largely due to the vampire I shared a body with. Galen’s need for Reese, combined with my misplaced thought that she was my soul mate, had created a nearly unstoppable lust. With Devin, I’d known Willow wasn’t mine. That hadn’t stopped me from feeding, but I’d done that with the sole goal of building my strength so I could take control of him. Now I’ve got my own body, I’m not dependent on sating my lust to survive, and the drive to claim Selah as mine comes from my heart and my humanity.

  “You heard me, right, Sariel?” Gabriel’s commanding voice holds a hint of frustration as he snaps me from my reverie.

  “I did, but tell me again.”

  He sighs, leaning back in his seat at the dockside restaurant. The cries of gulls and the rush of cars meld with the sound of waves crashing against the dock. “You need to be on guard. Our Father has alerted Michael to the increased level of desperation amongst the fallen. They’re abandoning the vampire hosts and jumping from human to human, trying to get to you. You need to stay away from Selah. Every time you’re near her, you put her at risk.”

  Panic climbs across my skin in the form of a cold sweat. “How does that protect her? I need to have her with me. That’s the only way I can keep her safe.”

  He shakes his head. “You’ve always been stubborn. Why did I think it would be any different this time?”

  “Because you never learn?”

  “The fallen are converging in Seattle. We’ve been able to trace a few who are not at full power. They don’t have the strength to consistently ward themselves, but they all disappear at this location.” He flicks his wrist, and my phone chirps.

  Opening my lock screen, I frown down at the map displayed. “That’s…in the middle of nowhere.”

  “Exactly, but we can’t get in. It is hidden from the sight of all angels.”

  “Then how are the other Watchers getting in?”

  “Brother, you need to ready yourself for the possibility that they are no longer angels. They’ve cast out their grace and have embraced Lucifer. They’re demons now.”

  My gut churns. I knew this was coming, but deep down, I’d hoped I could save them. “Fuck,” I whisper.

  Running a hand through his hair, Gabriel stands, oblivious to the world around him. We’d kept our conversation quiet enough that the neighboring diners couldn’t overhear us, but the angel is a formidable presence. He’s easily six foot seven and heavily muscled. Add in his penchant for leather and he looks like an alpha male model out on the prowl.

  “Be ready for them,” he says, ignoring the two women at a table in the corner. They’re staring like their lives depend on him.

  “I’m always ready.”

  With a disbelieving smirk, he laughs. “When you’re not trying to sate your lust for your woman.”

  He’s not wrong. Glancing around us, I catch the eye of a pretty woman seated at a table across from us. Her cheeks burn crimson as soon as she realizes I’ve caught her, but it’s not me she’s really wanting. It’s Gabriel.

  “I think you’ve got a chance to find out what sating lust is like.” I jut my chin in her direction and when he looks at her, she tosses her hair, and her friends giggle.

  He snorts and shakes his head at her. “Sex isn’t worth the fall. Especially not with a human woman.”

  “My human is worth it.”

  “She’s a distraction.”

  Maybe if I quench my lust, I’ll be more focused.

  “Don’t even think about it, Sariel. I see that glint in your eye. If you take her, you’ll only do more damage. Wait until you’ve earned your wings. You’ll see she was your downfall, not your saving grace.”

  I won’t let his words sink in. There’s nothing I can say to change his perception. This is between our Father and me. Truly, only He knows why He gave our souls such a deep connection. I have to believe He wouldn’t do that for any reason other than His plan. I may have fallen, but I still have faith.

  “Girl, what is with you today?” Rosie is only half teasing me as I miss my cue for the third time in as many attempts.

  Irritation courses through me. “I know. I’ve done this routine a hundred damn times.”

  Her wide brown eyes hold a hint of anger mixed with hurt. “Fine, then do it. Don’t be a bitch about it.”

  She sashays across the stage with her shoulders back and head held high. I shouldn’t have snapped at her. It was u
ncalled for. But I’m exhausted after a solid week of rehearsals, and dress rehearsal is always the most stressful part of any performance. My costume for this number leaves little to the imagination, and my ample breasts are held in only with the help of some serious double-sided tape. Not that I mind. There’s something about the sensuality of this kind of performing that is so freeing. I can be whomever I want when I’m on stage. Hold the audience captive as I move with just a sway of my hips.

  But today, I’m just not feeling it.

  “All right, ladies. Take ten and we’re running the show from the top,” the director barks across the empty rows of tables and chairs.

  Glad for the chance to pull it together, I head toward the dressing room. I need to make things right with Rosie. If I know her, she’ll be holed up back there, scrolling through her social media accounts. As soon as I breach the door, I’m greeted with the familiar scent of hairspray and powder. The hairspray keeps our hair in place, but it also cuts down on static electricity. As I knew she would be, Rosie is parked on the tattered chaise lounge, phone in hand.

  “Hey,” I offer, settling in beside her. “I’m sorry about earlier. I’m just tired.”

  She gives me the side-eye before one corner of her mouth lifts and blossoms into a full smile. “It’s okay. You still not sleeping after the breakup?”

  Shaking my head, I sigh. “I’ve got a lot on my mind.”

  I wish I could sleep. I’d give anything for another dream visit from Sam.

  “Has Adam been bothering you?”

  “I haven’t heard from him aside from an apology text a few days after he left.”

  She runs a hand over my arm. “That’s a relief. He was here earlier looking for you. He’s always been kind of intense, but he made me flat-out uncomfortable.”

  “What?” Alarm shoots through me.

  “Management ran him off. I’m sorry, doll. God, men are such assholes.”

 

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