Neither of us said anything. It wasn’t just the heaviness of the meal that kept us silent. In my case, at least, it was also the sense that I had no idea what I was going to do with the rest of the day. Food was, as always in my schooldays, a temporary distraction.
Perhaps Mr Veal sensed something of this. ‘There’s ratting up at Mr Witney’s.’
I looked up. ‘In his big barn?’
‘Yes — all afternoon till the light goes.’
‘We could go,’ I said. ‘He wouldn’t mind, would he?’
‘More the merrier. More than enough rats to go round.’
‘Ratting?’ Faraday said. ‘I’ve never done that.’
‘It’s ripping fun,’ I said.
‘There are some sticks in my shed if you want them,’ Mr Veal said. ‘Always best to take your own. You want one the right weight, don’t you?’
Faraday was reluctant but he wasn’t proof against my enthusiasm and Mr Veal’s gentle encouragement. We found a couple of sticks and walked through the Porta. Angel Farm was across the green, beyond the theological college.
‘Do we — do we actually hit them? The rats, I mean?’
‘Of course we do.’ I whacked the grass with my stick. ‘But you have to be quick. Or the dogs get them first.’
‘You’ve been ratting before?’
‘Loads of times.’ I had been ratting only once, in fact, with the vicar’s son at home. ‘It’s awfully good sport — you’ll see.’
We turned into the muddy drove to the farm. They had already started — I could hear the shouting and the excited barking. To tell the truth, I was a little nervous.
‘Better put your cap in your pocket,’ I said, taking mine off. ‘You might lose it otherwise.’
My real reason was that our caps advertised the fact that we were King’s School boys. The school was not universally popular in the town, and there was no point in courting trouble. Not that I was seriously worried. Mr Witney was a tenant of the Dean and Chapter, and the school subleased their playing field from him; he would keep an eye out for us.
Men and boys were milling around the yard. The barn doors were open, revealing a space large enough to take a laden wagon. Dogs were everywhere, small ones mainly, terriers and the like.
‘That’s like mine at home,’ I said, pointing at a mongrel with a lot of spaniel in him. ‘He’s awfully bright — understands almost everything I say.’
This was a lie, as I did not have a dog. But I had pretended I had one for years. My aunt wouldn’t let me have a real dog. It would bring mud into the house and, besides, who would look after it in term time? So I had a dog in my mind instead. The precise breed varied (he was often a mongrel) but his name was always Stanley, after a dog my father had owned when he was a boy. The dog’s other permanent attributes included his almost human intelligence and his unswerving loyalty to me.
Mr Witney was concentrating his operations both inside and outside the barn. The building was very old, perhaps mediaeval in origin, and constructed of soft, crumbling sandstone. The target areas lay along the base of one of the immensely thick gable walls, both inside and out. Two or three men on each side were attacking the ground with spades, iron rods and pickaxes, breaking up the compacted earth. A score or so men and boys gathered around the diggers, all of them armed with sticks. Dogs of all shapes and sizes scurried about everyone’s legs, tails high in excitement.
Faraday and I sidled into the outskirts of the larger crowd, the one outside the barn. Nobody seemed to notice us. They were all staring at the diggers. Some of the dogs, careless of danger, were diving into the loosened soil and burrowing like maniacs with their front paws.
One of the dogs was already so far into the ground that only his hind legs and tail were visible. Suddenly he pulled himself out of a hole with a wriggling rat clamped between his jaws. He shook his prey in the air, and two other dogs instantly converged on him. One of them leapt up and grabbed the rat by its head. A tug of war ensued, each animal trying to wrest the rat from the other until the rat resolved the matter by dividing itself into two unequal parts.
I heard a sound beside me and glanced at Faraday. His face had gone white, the fleeing blood leaving a cluster of freckles scattered across the bridge of his nose and his cheeks.
‘Come on,’ I cried. ‘It’s—’
Another rat broke cover and darted to and fro among the sticks and stamping feet and snarling dogs. It saw an opening and shot towards the open field beyond. It was making for the gap between Faraday and me. People were shouting. I swung the stick down and felt the jar as it hit the ground, the impact running up my hands and arms.
‘Well hit, young ‘un!’ shouted Mr Witney. ‘That’s the way.’
I looked down and saw to my surprise a little mass of bloodied fur, still squirming feebly.
‘Oh God,’ Faraday said.
A sort of frenzy seized me, a bloodlust. I ran berserk among the men and boys and the dogs and the rats. I held my stick in both hands and pounded it down, again and again. One of the dogs attached itself to me. How many rats did I kill or help to kill that day? Half a dozen, perhaps more?
Mr Witney put a stop to the ratting only when the light was beginning to fade.
It felt as if we had only been at the farm for five minutes but it must have been at least an hour and a half. The dog rubbed itself against my leg. It was a mangy little animal, a mongrel, with a piece of rope for a collar and a half-healed wound on its side.
‘Well done, lad,’ Mr Witney said. ‘So you learn more than Latin and Greek at that school of yours.’
I bent down and scratched the dog between his ears. ‘Good boy, Stanley,’ I murmured. ‘Good boy.’ Just for a moment I was blindingly happy, dizzy with joy.
Faraday nudged my arm. ‘Can we go back now? Please?’
I looked at his pale face and his big teeth, ghostly in the fading light, and all at once the joy evaporated.
‘There’s blood on you,’ he said. ‘There’s blood everywhere.’
He was right. My hands were streaked with blood, some of it from the dog’s muzzle and some of it from my stick. The corpses of rats lay everywhere, some complete, some in fragments. The dogs’ interest in them diminished sharply once they stopped moving.
‘Come on,’ he said. ‘Please.’
I glanced over my shoulder, hoping for a wave from Mr Witney or a nod of farewell from one of my comrades in the battle. But no one was looking at me. No one paid any attention when we left the yard and walked down the muddy lane towards the green.
For a few moments, for an hour even, I had been part of a group; I had played a useful part; I had been, in some small way, valued for what I did. That was all gone. Now I came to my senses and discovered that part of my collar had come adrift from my shirt and the tip of it was nudging my left ear. My overcoat was splashed with mud and cowpats, as well as blood. I had lost my cap. And I was alone once more with Faraday.
‘They were talking about me,’ he said in a voice that wobbled. ‘Mr Nicholls was there. He knows.’
‘Who’s Nicholls?’
‘He is a lay clerk. A tenor.’ For a moment there was a hint of superiority in Faraday’s voice. ‘Not very good, though he thinks he is.’
The lay clerks were the basses and the tenors of the Cathedral choir. They were grown-ups. Many of them had been at the choir school when they were young, and they still lived in the town.
‘What does it matter if he recognized you?’
‘You don’t understand.’ Faraday was always accusing me of that, and quite rightly. ‘Mr Nicholls was pointing me out and whispering about me. They know.’
‘I expect it was about your voice breaking and not being in the choir any more.’
‘No. You should have seen their faces. They’d heard about… about the other thing.’
He meant the postal order. If Mr Nicholls knew about it, the story could no longer be confined to the Choir School and a handful of trusted outsiders like Mr Ratcli
ffe. It would be all over the place in a day or two, in the College and in the town.
‘I can’t bear it,’ Faraday said.
I glanced at him and saw a tear rolling down his cheek.
‘We’ll go back to the Rat’s now,’ I said. ‘We can make tea. If there’s bread, perhaps we can have toast. He’s got a toasting fork in the fireplace.’
‘Thank you,’ he said, blowing his nose. ‘Thank you.’
7
Poor little devil. I was sorry for Rabbit. I wanted to help, as long as doing so wouldn’t inconvenience me too much. The question is: did trying to help make matters worse?
It was starting to rain. In order to get back to the Sacrist’s Lodging as swiftly as possible, I took us back through the Cathedral, which was not only shorter than by going through the College or through the town but also, at that time of day, lessened the chance that we should meet anyone who knew either of us.
My suggestion wasn’t entirely altruistic: if a boy from King’s was found outside the College without his cap, it automatically earned him a beating. It was possible that the rule did not apply in the holidays, but I didn’t want to put it to the test. Besides, I was starving, Mrs Veal’s lunch a distant memory, and the idea of food was powerfully attractive.
Most people in the College used the Cathedral for shortcuts, and so did many townspeople. There were three doors open to the public — the west door under the great tower, the south door, which led through the ruins of the cloisters to the College, and the north door, from which a path led both to the High Street and to the Sacrist’s Lodging. Using the Cathedral also meant you kept dry. It was considered bad form to hurry, however.
We walked through the porch and pushed open the wicket in the west doors. It was dark, much darker, inside the Cathedral than it was outside. The lamps had not yet been lit, apart from one or two at the east end, beyond the choir screen.
The emptiness of the place enfolded us like a shroud. The air was cold and smelled faintly of earth, incense and candles.
Ahead and to the left, in the north aisle, was one of the great stoves, each surmounted by a black crown, that were supposed to keep the building warm. There was a faint but clearly audible chink as the coke shifted in its iron belly.
‘I’m freezing,’ Faraday said.
He walked over to the stove and held his hands to it.
‘Hurry up,’ I said. ‘I’m starving.’
‘Just a minute. I’m so cold.’
I joined him by the stove. If you stood about three inches away from it, you could actually feel the warmth of it on your skin. It wasn’t so much that the stoves weren’t occasionally hot: it was more that the Cathedral was eternally cold.
Faraday glanced at me. ‘There’s blood on your hands,’ he said. ‘And on your sleeve.’ His voice lurched into a croak. ‘It’s everywhere.’
‘Shut up,’ I said. ‘It doesn’t matter. I can wash it off. What’s water for?’
I turned my head to avoid seeing his white face and rabbit teeth. My eyes drifted away. It’s a funny thing about buildings, how they take control of you and guide your eyes along their own lines, towards their own ends. In the Cathedral, the rhythm of columns and arches, diminishing in height as the layers climbed to the roof, made you look upwards and upwards. Towards heaven, the school chaplain once told us in a sermon. Or to the roof. Not that it matters in this case: the point is I looked up into the west tower.
Its west wall rises sheer, a cliff of stone pierced with openings; first the doors. Then there is a great window which doesn’t let in much light because of the stained glass. Then, higher still, bands of Norman arcading run across the inside of the tower. The first set has a walkway that runs behind it. The next one, further up, is blind, its arches and pillars flattened against the tower wall behind. Above that still, 120 feet above the ground, is the painted tower ceiling, above which the tower rises, higher and higher, stage by stage, to the lantern that perches on top.
I knew a little about the internal organization of the tower because sometimes one of the younger masters would take a party of boys up to the top as a treat. You went up a spiral staircase in the south-west corner, crossed the width of the tower by the walkway behind the lower arcade, climbed another set of stairs, and then another, until your legs felt like lead. Finally you came to a little wooden door that led out to the very top of the tower, more than two hundred feet from the ground.
Up there was another world, full of light, where a wind was always blowing. You felt weightless, as if floating in a balloon. Far below were the streets of the town and tiny, fore-shortened people scurrying through the maze of their lives, oblivious of the watchers above. Beyond the town stretched the Fens as far as the eye could see, its flatness dotted with the occasional church tower or tree or house, which served to emphasize their monotony rather than relieve it; and at the circular horizon, the sky and the earth became one in a blue haze; and it no longer mattered which was which.
I had been up to the top of the west tower only once, about six months earlier before the end of the summer term. It had been a bright, clear day. There was a story, the master said, that a day like this you could see almost every church in the diocese from here. I tried to count the churches I could see. But I soon gave up and thought instead about Jesus in the wilderness, and how the devil took him up to a high place and tempted him.
If I had been Jesus, I would have struck a deal with the devil. In return for my soul I wanted not to be at school; I wanted to live at home with my parents; and I wanted to have a dog called Stanley.
I remembered all that as I stood by the stove with my bloody hands. I was still thinking about it when I saw the man. He was walking from left to right, quite slowly, along the walkway behind the lower arcade, perhaps 90 feet above our heads. The light was so poor I couldn’t see him clearly. When he passed behind one of the pillars he seemed to dissolve and then reconstitute himself on the other side.
‘Can you hear it?’ Faraday said.
Irritated, I glanced at him. ‘What?’
‘Those notes.’
‘Shut up, Rabbit.’
I looked back at the arcade. The man wasn’t there anymore. It was conceivable he had put on a bit of speed and reached the archway at the northern end. Or he might have stopped behind a pillar. Or, and perhaps this was most likely of all, he hadn’t been there in the first place. The Cathedral at dusk was full of indistinct shapes that shifted as you tried to look at them.
Faraday nudged me. ‘There it is again.’
‘What are you talking about?’
‘The four notes I heard last night. Remember?’ He hummed them, and they meant nothing to me. ‘It’s like the start of something.’
‘You’re barmy,’ I said. ‘Come on, I want some toast.’
* * *
There was an odd sequel to this a few hours later, when we were having our evening meal at the Veals’.
While we ate, Mr Veal was in the parlour with us. He had begun to relax in our company, as we had in his.
‘This place would fall apart at the seams without the Dean and me,’ he said with obvious satisfaction. ‘Some of these clerical gents would forget who their own mothers were. Heads in the clouds. And your masters aren’t much better.’
I told him about the glorious ratting we had had at Angel Farm.
‘So you missed the rain this afternoon?’ he asked, for the minutiae of the weather’s fluctuations fascinated him, as they did most grown-ups.
‘Just about. It was beginning to spit as we were going back to Mr Ratcliffe’s so we cut up through the Cathedral.’
‘We’ll have worse tonight,’ he said. ‘Mrs Veal feels it in her bones. Her bones are never wrong.’
‘I saw someone up the west tower,’ I said.
‘Up the west tower?’ Mr Veal shook his head. ‘Not at this time of year.’
‘Well, I thought I saw someone.’ I shrugged. ‘But it was already getting dark. I could’ve been wrong.’
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‘No one was up there,’ Mr Veal said. ‘There wouldn’t be. You can take it as Gospel, young man. Not without me knowing.’
8
That evening Mr Ratcliffe made cocoa again. The three of us — four if you counted Mordred — sat close to the fire.
The weather had changed during the afternoon. It was still cold, but clouds had rolled in from the south-west, bringing with it a wind that blew in gusts of varying strengths with lulls between them. The wind carried raindrops with it, with the promise of more to come. It rattled doors and windows in their frames. It sounded in the wide chimney.
It was Faraday who reminded Mr Ratcliffe about his promise.
‘Please, sir — you said you’d tell us about Mr Goldsworthy.’
‘Did I?’
‘Yes, sir. You said there was a real story about the ghost.’
‘Real? To be perfectly truthful, Faraday, I can’t be absolutely sure which parts of the story are real and which are not. I don’t think anyone can after all this time.’
‘When did he live, sir?’ I asked.
‘Nearly two hundred years ago. He was the Master of the Music, one of Dr Atkinson’s predecessors. He was a composer, too. You remember the anthem we have on Christmas Day? The Jubilate Deo? He wrote that.’
Faraday’s face was in shadow. But he shifted in his seat as if someone had touched him. It was the anthem that Hampson Minor had sung in Faraday’s place.
‘He died as a result of a fall,’ Mr Ratcliffe went on, ‘and he’s buried in the north choir aisle. There’s a tablet to him on the wall more or less opposite the organ loft.’
‘But why is he a ghost?’ I said. Into my mind slipped an image of Dr Atkinson, who was small, red-faced and irascible, draped in a sheet and rattling chains like the Ghost of Christmas Past.
‘If he is,’ said Mr Ratcliffe. ‘That’s the question, isn’t it?’
‘Has anyone seen him, sir?’ Faraday asked, leaning forward. ‘They must have done. Otherwise, you wouldn’t have said he was a ghost last night.’
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