by Meg Cabot
Also at the grocery store, we ran into Claire Lippman. She was standing by the magazine rack, reading Cosmo, while her mom was rooting through the corn in the vegetable section. Mike stared at her longingly for a while. Finally I got sick of it, and poked him and said, "Just go talk to her, for God's sake."
Mike went, "Oh, right. About what?"
"Tell her you can't wait to see her in Endgame."
"What's that?"
"It's a play. She's in it. She plays Nell. She has to sit in a plastic trash can all during the show."
Mike looked at me. "How do you know? Since when are you in the drama club?"
I realized I had made a mistake. I said, "God, never mind. Come on, let's go."
Only Mike wouldn't go. He just kept staring at Claire. "I mean," he said, "it's not like she'd go with me. If I asked her. Why would she go with me? I don't even have a car."
"You could have bought a car," I said, "with all the money you earned working at the restaurant. But, no. You had to buy that stupid scanner."
"And a printer," Mike said. "And a Zip drive. And—"
"Oh, my God," I said. "Whatever. You can always borrow Dad's car."
"Yeah," Mike said. "A Volvo station wagon. Right. Come on. Let's go."
God. I can't believe boys. It's a wonder anybody gets married at all.
Nothing else much happened on Sunday, except that that night, while I was practicing, I thought I heard a motorcycle going down our street again. And this time, when I looked out my window, the one I can see the whole street on, I saw one set of tail lights, way down Lumley Lane, making the turn off onto Hunter.
Hey, it could have been Rob. You never know.
I went to bed all happy, thinking maybe a boy liked me. It's stupid that that's all it takes, sometimes, to make you happy. Thinking that someone likes you, I mean. It's especially stupid in light of what happened the next day. I had way bigger problems, it turned out, than whether or not a boy liked me.
Way bigger.
C H A P T E R
9
What happened was, the next day, Ruth drove me to school as usual. All during the drive, I couldn't get those kids out of my head. The kids on the side of the milk carton I'd bought the night before, I mean. Once again, I'd wakened with this feeling that I knew exactly where they were, down to the street address. It was getting creepy, let me tell you.
But just like on Friday and Saturday, I couldn't stop thinking about them. So, as soon as we got to school, and I managed to ditch Ruth, I gave old 1-800-WHERE-R-YOU a call. This time Rosemary answered.
"Hey, Rosemary," I said. "It's me, Jess. From Friday, remember?"
Rosemary sucked in her breath. "Jess!" she said. Actually, she practically screamed it in my ear. "Honey, where are you?"
I thought it was kind of funny that somebody who worked for 1-800-WHERE-R-YOU would be asking where I was. I went, "Well, right now I'm at school."
"People are looking for you, hon," Rosemary said. "Did you call here on Saturday?"
"Yeah," I said. "Why?"
"Hold on," Rosemary said. "I have to get my supervisor. I promised I would if you called back."
The late bell rang. I went, "Wait, Rosemary. I don't have time. I have to tell you about Jennie Lee Peters and Samantha Travers—"
"Jess," Rosemary said. "Honey, I don't think you understand. Haven't you looked at a newspaper? They found them. They found Sean and Olivia, exactly where you said they'd be. And the children you called about on Saturday—they found them, too. People here want to talk to you, honey. They want to know how you knew—"
So it had been Sean. It had been Sean, after all. Why had he told me his name was Sam? Why had he looked so scared when it was clear I was there to try to help him?
I said, in reply to Rosemary's question, "I don't know how I knew. Look, Rosemary, I'm gonna be late. Just let me tell you—"
"Here's my supervisor, Larry Barnes," Rosemary said. "Larry, it's her. It's Jess."
This man's voice came on over the phone. "Jess?" he said. "Is this Jess?"
"Look," I said. I was getting kind of scared. I mean, I just wanted to help out some missing kids. I didn't want to have to talk to Larry the supervisor. "Jennie Lee Peters is in Escondido, California." I rattled off the address really fast. "And Samantha Travers, it's kind of weird about her, but if you go down Rural Route 4, just outside of Wilmington, Alabama, you'll find her by this tree, this tree with a big rock next to it—"
"Jess," Larry said. "It's Jessica, isn't it? May I have your last name, Jess? And where you're calling from?"
I saw Mrs. Pitt, the Home EC teacher, waddling toward me. Mrs. Pitt totally hates me because of the time I poured a souffle over another kid's head in her class, even though he deserved it for asking me how it felt to have a retard for a brother. Mrs. Pitt would not hesitate to write me up.
"Gotta go," I said, and hung up.
But it didn't matter. Mrs. Pitt was like, "Jessica Mastriani, what are you doing out of class?" And then she wrote me up.
Thanks a lot, Mrs. Pitt. I'd like to record my gratitude for your caring and understanding right here in my statement, which, I understand, will be made public someday, so that everyone in the whole world will know just how fine a teacher you are.
At lunch, I went to see Mr. Goodhart about being written up. He said all the usual stuff about how I need to start applying myself more, and how I'm never going to get into college at this rate, etc. After he gave me another week's detention for my own good, I asked him if he had any newspapers, because I had to do a current event for U.S. History.
This was a total lie, of course. I just wanted to see if Rosemary was right.
Mr. Goodhart gave me a copy of USA Today. I sat down in the waiting area and looked all through it. There were many entertaining stories about celebrities doing foolish things that distracted me, but finally I found it, this story in the "Nation" section, about an anonymous caller who had contacted 1-800-WHERE-R-YOU and told them the exact location of four children, one of whom had been missing from his home for seven years.
Sean.
I stared at the article. Me, I kept thinking. I was the anonymous caller. I was in the newspaper. A national newspaper.
The National Organization for Missing Children wanted to know who I was, so they could extend their thanks.
There was also, it turned out, a substantial reward for finding Olivia Marie D'Amato. Ten thousand bucks, to be exact.
Ten thousand bucks. You could get a heck of a motorcycle for ten thousand bucks.
But then, on the heels of that thought came another: I can't take money for doing what I'd done. I mean, I never paid much attention in church, but one thing that had managed to sink in was the fact that you're supposed to do nice things for people. You don't do them because you expect to get paid for them. You do it because it's the right thing to do. Like punching Jeff Day, for instance. That had been the right thing to do. Accepting reward money for doing the right thing … well, that just seemed wrong to me.
Since I didn't want any lousy reward—and since I didn't want my picture in USA Today—I decided not to call NOMC. I mean, it wasn't as if I really wanted anyone to know about this thing I could do. I was enough of a reject at school already. If people found out about this, I'd end up like Carrie, or something, with pig blood all over me. Who needed the hassle?
Besides, the last thing my family could survive was another crisis. My mother hadn't even begun to get over what had happened to Douglas. Although I suspect finding out your kid is psychic is better than finding out he's schizophrenic, it still adds up to one thing: Not Normal. All my mother has ever wanted was to have a normal family.
Though what's so normal about two women wearing the same homemade dress, I cannot begin to imagine.
But still. I did not need the added pressure. I had enough of my dwn.
So I didn't call 1-800-WHERE-R-YOU back. I didn't call anybody. I just went along, doing my normal thing. At lunch, Ruth teased me
about dating a Grit in front of some of our other friends from Orchestra, so they started teasing me, too. I didn't mind, though. I knew they were just jealous. And they had every right to be. Rob Wilkins was hot. When I strolled into detention after school that day, I have to admit, my heart kind of skipped a beat when I saw him. The guy is good-looking.
We didn't have a chance to speak before Miss Clemmings cracked the whip. But after she did, and I took out my notebook and started doing my homework, Rob didn't lean over and grab it and start writing cute little notes to me, like he had on Friday. Instead he just sat there, reading his spy novel. It was a different spy novel from the one he'd had last week, and I suppose it was pretty engrossing and all, but come on. He could at least have said hi.
The fact that he didn't made me cranky. I suppose other girls would have gotten the message, but I had no experience in that department. I couldn't figure out what I had done. Was it the way I'd reacted when he'd kissed me? You know, almost falling off the back of his bike like that? I'll admit, that was pretty juvenile, but give me a break: it was my first kiss.
Maybe it was the girlfriend-store remark. Or the fact that I so obviously didn't fit in with Teri and Charleen. The fact that I didn't know made me even more cranky.
Which would probably explain why, when Hank Wendell leaned over and whispered, "Hey, Mastriani, what's this I hear about Wilkins slipping you the sausage last Friday?" I elbowed him in the throat.
Not hard enough to crush his larynx and cause him to lose consciousness (unfortunately), but hard enough to make him really, really mad.
But before Hank's fist could connect with my face (I was fully prepared to roll with the punch, as my father had taught me), this hand shot out, and Hank's arm was twisted up and out of my line of vision.
"I thought we agreed you were going to leave her alone." Rob had to lean over me to keep his grip on Hank. Consequently, his belt buckle was level with my nose. Not exactly a very dignified position.
It made me mad. Almost as mad as Hank's remark.
"Have you been going around telling people we had sex?" I demanded, craning my neck to see Rob's face.
Over on the stage, rehearsal had stopped dead. All the cast members of Endgame were staring at us. Miss Clemmings was going, "What's happening back there? Mr. Wilkins, release Mr. Wendell and sit down at once!"
"Jesus, Wilkins," Hank said in a strangled voice. Maybe I'd gotten him harder than I thought. "You're breaking my goddamned arm."
"I'll snap it off," Rob said, in this very scary voice I had never heard him use before, "if you don't leave her alone."
"Jesus, all right," Hank said, and Rob let him go.
Hank collapsed back into his seat. Rob retired to his. And Miss Clemmings, who'd been halfway up the aisle, paused and said, "That's better," in this very satisfied voice, as if the fight had broken up on account of something she'd done.
Right.
I was furious.
"What did he mean?" I hissed at Rob as soon as Miss Clemmings's back was turned. "What was he talking about?"
"Nothing," Rob said. He buried his face back in his book. "He's an asshole. Just cool it, will you?"
Okay, I might as well let you know now that one thing I really hate is when people tell me to cool it. For instance, people often make cracks about Douglas, and then tell me to cool it when I get mad. And I can't. I can't cool it.
"No, I will not cool it," I snarled. "I want to know what he was talking about. What the hell is going on? Did you tell your friends we did it?"
Rob looked up from his book then. He had absolutely no expression on his face as he said, "First of all, Wendell is not my friend."
On my left, Hank, still massaging his wrist, grunted. "You got that right."
"Secondly," Rob went on, "I didn't tell anybody anything about you, okay? So just calm down."
I hate it when people tell me to calm down, too.
"Look," I said. "I don't know what's going on here. But if I find out you've been telling people stuff about me behind my back, I will pound you. Understand?"
For the first time all day, he smiled at me. It was like he didn't want to, but he couldn't help it.
And Rob, well, he has one of those smiles. You know the kind.
Then again, maybe you don't. I forgot who I was writing this for.
Anyway, he went, "You're going to pound me?" in this very amused voice. Which just made me madder.
"Don't, man," Hank warned him. "She hits really hard, for a girl."
"Yeah," I said. "So you better watch it."
I don't know what—if anything—Rob would have replied, since Miss Clemmings went "Shhh," just then, in this way I suppose she meant to be threatening. Rob, looking as expressionless as ever, buried his head back in his book. I had no choice but to turn back to my homework.
But inside, I was fuming.
I was fuming even harder when, after Miss Clemmings let us go for the day, I walked outside and found that I had no ride home. Like an idiot, I had told Ruth not to bother picking me up. I had assumed Rob would give me a ride home.
Great. Just great.
I could have called my mom, I guess. But I was too wound up to stand around and wait for her. I felt like, if I didn't hit somebody, I would lose it. And when I feel like that, it's better not to be around people. Especially my mom.
So I just started walking. I didn't care about the two miles. I couldn't even feel my feet, I was that mad. It was nice out, not a cloud in the sky. No worrying about being struck by lightning today. Not that I cared. A thousand bolts of lightning could come down out of the sky and I wouldn't even notice.
How could I have been so stupid? How could I have been so dumb?
I was walking parallel to the bleachers—scene of the crime—when I heard the purr of Rob's bike. He was coasting along by the curb.
"Jess," he said. "Come on."
I didn't even look at him. "Get lost," I said. I really meant it, too.
"What are you going to do, walk all the way home? Come on, I'll give you a ride."
I told him where he could stick his ride.
"Look," he said. "I'm sorry. I made a mistake, all right?"
I thought he was talking about having ignored me in detention.
"You better believe it," I said.
"I just thought you were older, okay?"
That stopped me right in my tracks. I turned around and looked at him.
"What do you mean, you thought I was older?" I demanded.
He didn't have his helmet on, so I could see his face. He looked uncomfortable.
"I didn't know you were only sixteen, okay? I mean, you don't act like a sixteen-year-old. You seem a lot more mature. Well, except for the whole punching-guys-who-are-a-lot-bigger-than-you-are thing."
I was having trouble making sense of this.
"What the hell does it matter," I demanded, "how old I am?"
"It matters," he said.
"I don't see why."
"It just does," he said.
I shook my head. "I still don't see why."
"Because I'm eighteen." He wasn't looking at me. He was looking at the road beneath his boots. "And I'm on probation."
Probation? I had been out with a felon? My mom was going to die if she ever found out.
"What'd you do?" I asked.
"Nothing."
A Volkswagen went by, honking its horn. Rob was pulled way off to the side of the road, so I couldn't see what the problem was. Then the driver waved. It was Miss Clemmings. Toot-toot. Buh-bye, kids. See you in detention tomorrow.
"No, seriously," I said. "What'd you do?"
"Look," Rob said. "It was stupid, all right?"
"I want to know."
"Well, I'm not going to tell you, so you'd better just forget about it."
My imagination was working overtime. What had he done? Robbed a bank? No, you don't get probation for that. You go to jail. Ditto if he'd killed someone. What could he have done?
"So
, I don't think it's such a good idea," he went on. "Us going out, I mean. Unless … When's your birthday?"
"Just had it last month," I said.
He said a word that I will refrain from recording here.
"Look," I said. "I don't care that you're on probation."
"Yeah, but your parents will."
"No, they're cool."
He laughed. "Right, Jess. That's why you made me drop you off at the end of the street the other night, instead of in front of your house. Because your parents are so cool. They're so cool, you didn't want them to know anything about me. And you didn't even know about the probation thing then. Admit it."
He had me there.
"Well," I said. "They're just going through sort of a hard time right now, and I don't want to cause them any more stress. But look, there's no reason they have to know."
"Word gets around, Jess. Look at Wendell. It's only a matter of time before your parents—and my probation officer—get wind of what's going on."
Well, I wasn't going to stand there and beg him to go out with me. The guy was hot and everything, but a girl has her pride. So I just shrugged and said, "Whatever."
Then I turned around and started walking again.
"Mastriani," he said, in a tired voice. "Look, just get on the bike, will ya? I'll take you home. Or to your street corner, I guess."
"I don't know," I said, looking back at him and fluttering my eyelashes. "I mean, Miss Clemmings already saw us together. Supposing she goes running to the cops—"
He looked annoyed. "Just get on the bike, Mastriani."
I can tell what you're thinking.
You're thinking that, in spite of the whole jailbait thing, Rob and I went on to have this totally hot and steamy relationship, and that I'm going to go into all the lurid details right here in my statement, and that you're going to get to read all about it.
Well, sorry to disappoint you, but that is so not going to happen. In the first place, my love life is my own business, and the only reason I mention it here is that it becomes pertinent later on.