She and Frank will be there partly to pay their respects, partly to observe the family, and partly to keep an eye out for anything—or anyone—unusual in the anticipated crowd of mourners.
Before leaving home this morning, she’d discussed the case again with Jermaine as they shared a bathroom mirror.
“I’m telling you, babe,” Crystal said, running a brush through her shower-damp hair, “the killer was someone close to Meredith Heywood—or someone who felt as if he knew her. It might have been someone who was acquainted with her only through her blog, but whoever it was still cared about her on some level.”
“And you’re basing that on . . .”
“Instinct, and the way the body was positioned.”
“That’s right. I remember.” Jermaine squirted a fat cloud of shaving cream into his hand. “You said that was one of the first things that struck you when you arrived at the scene.”
She nodded, closing her eyes and envisioning the way Meredith Heywood’s nightgown was arranged neatly and demurely down to her ankles, as if to preserve her dignity.
“It wouldn’t—couldn’t—have settled that way if she’d fallen dead in a scuffle,” she told Jermaine.
“So whoever killed her had some remorse.”
“Exactly.”
“You know there’s a thin line between love and hate,” her husband reminded her. “Remember that article I showed you, back when you were working on the case involving that mother who drowned her baby?”
“Diaphanous Jones. I do remember.”
The article was from one of the scientific journals Jermaine likes to read. It discussed a recent neurological study that had found that contrary to popular thinking, intense love and intense hate aren’t opposite emotions at all—they’re strikingly similar, biologically and behaviorally speaking. Both can arouse passionate behavior; both can trigger irrational action; both involve the same circuitry in the brain.
“Okay,” she’d said. “So did Meredith Heywood’s killer act because he loved her? Was it some kind of twisted angel of mercy scenario? Or was it because he hated her?”
“Maybe both,” Jermaine said with a shrug, and put his arms around her from behind. “But since you’re always saying I have a one-track mind, you can rest easy, because my brain circuits are only wired for one thing when I think of you.”
She’d laughed as he pressed up against her. “I don’t think we’re talking about your brain, here.”
That was a pleasant, if fleeting, distraction.
Now, her own mind is right back on track, constantly working, working, working the case from every angle.
As she and Frank near the exit for McGraw’s Funeral Home, she’s confident that if Meredith Heywood really was killed by someone who knew her well enough to love her or hate her—even just via the Internet—then there’s a good chance that person will be drawn to show up today.
They often are.
And if that happens . . . we’ll be watching.
Sheri Lorton has been on autopilot ever since her husband, Roger, was senselessly murdered while out walking their puppy early Thursday morning. It’s amazing, when you think about it—and she has scarcely allowed herself to think about it—that she’s managed to propel herself through forty-eight hours that have involved walking, talking, breathing . . .
Forget sleeping and eating. Even on autopilot, she’s incapable of accomplishing either of those.
But the rest of it—somehow, she’s still upright, functioning in the aftermath of the worst thing that’s ever happened to her.
She had no inkling of the looming tragedy when she awakened Thursday morning to barking beneath the bedroom window. She tried to sleep through it at first, then finally peered out to see Maggie at the back door, dragging her leash from her collar. Roger was nowhere in sight.
At the time, unaware that the world can end in an instant, Sheri assumed the puppy must have gotten away from him and found her way home. They’d only had Maggie for a few weeks, and she was pretty feisty.
She let the dog into the house and set out a bowl of water, wondering if Maggie was too much of a handful after all. They’d decided against having children—Roger has three from his first marriage—and it had taken him almost a decade to agree with her notion that a dog might make their house feel more like a home. Maybe he’d been right about adopting a more mature dog, though.
“I think you might just have too much energy for us, huh, Mags?” she’d said, watching Maggie lap up the water eagerly, wondering how she could possibly bear swapping the puppy for a better-behaved dog.
She called her husband’s cell phone to tell him Maggie had found her way home, but heard it ring in the next room. He’d left it behind again, plugged into the charger—not unusual for the quintessential absent-minded professor.
She figured he must be out combing the streets for the dog. But when minutes turned into a half hour with no sign of him, Sheri began to get nervous.
Hearing sirens in the distance, she called the police station. By that time, runaway puppy or not, her conscientious husband should have been at home showering and getting ready to leave for work. He was teaching an early class this session on Advanced Abstract Algebra, and with summer construction between their neighborhood and campus, the commute had been longer than usual.
The police officer on the other end of the line seemed to take the call in stride, as if people went missing every morning around there. Sheri couldn’t imagine that was the case, though. The surrounding blocks had changed over the past decade since they moved in, but this was hardly a sketchy inner-city neighborhood.
The cop asked a few questions—including what Roger was wearing.
Sheri hadn’t seen him since she dozed off beside him the night before, but she knew him well enough to guess at the clothing he’d had on. Jeans, a T-shirt, and, because the morning was cool, a front-zip hooded sweatshirt jacket.
When a pair of uniformed officers turned up at her door an hour later, she assumed they were coming to gather more information, having convinced herself that the sirens she’d heard screaming through the neighborhood earlier were probably responding to a fire or something . . . something . . .
Something, anything, else.
Please, God, not Roger . . .
Oldest, most comforting rule ever: when you hear sirens and worry, they never turn out to be wailing for the person you’re worrying about.
Rules: made to be broken.
A body had been found matching her husband’s description.
Catapulted into grief and disbelief, Sheri remembers thinking, in the back of her mind, that he must have had a heart attack. He was fifteen years older, in his mid-fifties, a small man—short in stature with a slight build, though not as fit as he should have been. And he was a smoker.
Whenever the dreadful truth managed to hit her—murder—it trampolined away again.
Only now, two days later, has it really begun to sink in.
Now that her husband’s body has been released to the funeral director for burial, a somber detective is standing on the doorstep offering Sheri condolences and a small bag filled with the “final effects.”
In other words, the contents of Roger’s pockets and his gold wedding ring.
His wallet, of course, is missing. And the officer tells her they’re hanging onto the clothing he was wearing—jeans, a T-shirt, and a hooded sweatshirt, just as she’d guessed. Evidence, he explains.
Of course. The case is unsolved.
All they know is that someone mugged Roger as he walked the dog Thursday morning, viciously stabbing him and leaving him to bleed to death on the street where a passerby found his body. Too late.
“Again, I’m so sorry for your loss,” the officer tells Sheri as she stands numbly clutching the bag.
> “Thank you.”
Over the policeman’s shoulder, out on the sidewalk, a couple of neighborhood kids roll by on skateboards. Across the street, toddlers in bathing suits jump through a front yard sprinkler as their mothers keep a watchful eye from the porch steps. Out there in the world beyond Sheri’s doorstep, it’s a gloriously sunny Saturday morning: birds chirping, lawn mowers buzzing, kids playing . . .
Incredulous, Sheri tries to focus on what the officer is saying.
“We’re doing everything we can to find the person responsible, Mrs. Lorton.”
“Thank you.”
“Here’s my card. Call me if you need anything at all. I’ll be in touch.”
“Thank you,” Sheri says yet again, pocketing the card.
She closes the door, tosses the bag aside, and collapses on the floor, sobbing.
Cancerversaries = Bullshit
I don’t commemorate Suspicious Ultrasound Day, Biopsy Day, Diagnosis Day, Mastectomy Day. No offense to those of you who do. But for me, those dates are just uncomfortable to remember and always will be. It’s certainly easier to look back with some perspective years later, but I’m not sure anything is gained by marking those days as an anniversary. To me, it’s more the whole journey that matters and how far I’ve come overall.
However, there is one milestone I’d like to mention. The Boobless Wonder turned one last week. As my first grade students like to say, “That’s cool, right?”
When I started this blog, I never considered how long I’d keep it up. I went in thinking “One day at a time,” because honestly, sharing intimate details with the cyber world seemed batshit crazy. Looking back now, I see that it was never the world I was reaching for, but one person that might relate to my experiences. Maybe I’d find someone else going through the same crap and we could support each other.
In the aftermath of my diagnosis, my brain was still so cluttered with all things cancer, I’d lost the ability to go about my days. It was one thing to have a calendar full of appointments, a million never-ending questions, pain from expanders, then implants, but it was quite another to talk about it all the time to my fellow teachers, my friends, even the jerk I was dating at the time. I mean, who wants to listen to it?
Even those closest to me needed a respite once in a while. Which I totally got, but that didn’t change the fact I was on overload, my emotions consistently raw.
I realized I needed an outlet. A way out of my own head, some breathing room from those oppressive walls of cancer.
This is where I found it. And so, Happy Blogaversary to me! Sharing personal crap on the Internet turned out better than I ever hoped.
PS That doesn’t mean I think cancer is a gift! I don’t!
PPS No offense to those of you who do!
—Excerpt from Elena’s blog, The Boobless Wonder
Chapter 8
Bright sunshine and clear blue skies in Northern Kentucky—where the Cincinnati airport is located—catch Landry off guard.
The weather had been so gloomy at takeoff after a nonexistent sunrise in Mobile, and it poured nonstop in Atlanta. Somehow, she didn’t expect to be greeted by a dazzling summer day upon reaching her destination, but there it is, beyond the wall of plate glass in the terminal. Somehow, it makes her feel slightly reassured about whatever lies ahead.
As she makes her way to the ladies’ room, she finds herself scanning the faces of passing strangers, and of the women waiting on the long line to use the stalls. Among them she might just find Elena, whom she knows should also be landing here right around now.
Landry knows what she looks like, having seen the photos posted on Elena’s blog. Dark hair, round, pleasant face, in her early thirties . . .
Which describes many of the women she’s encountered so far in the airport.
Stepping out of the stall, she makes eye contact with one.
“Elena?”
The woman looks at her.
“Are you Elena?”
She shakes her head, shrugs. “No habla ingles.”
Landry apologizes, conscious of the curious stares of other women in the line. She wonders what they’re thinking, then decides not to care, tired of fretting about . . .
Well, just about everything.
What would Meredith do? She’d move on without a backward glance.
Landry dries her hands and does just that.
It’s probably better that she hasn’t run into Elena here at the airport, she decides, having caught a glimpse of her reflection in the mirror. She’s definitely looking travel weary. The sooner she can get to the hotel and pull herself together, the better.
At the car rental counter, she finds another long line and busies herself calling Rob from her cell phone while she waits.
“So you made it.”
His familiar drawl makes her aware of just how far from home she really is.
“Yep—I made it.”
“You doing okay?”
She hesitates. “Sure.”
“Good. Listen, I was just talking to John, and he used to have a client up there. He said that if you get a chance, you should try the chili at Skyline.”
“Did you tell him this isn’t a pleasure trip? I mean, I’m walking into a funeral for a friend who was murdered . . .”
And they haven’t caught whoever did it.
“I know you are,” Rob says quickly. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to—”
“No, it’s okay. I know.”
He’s back there at home, where everything is nice and normal, instead of here in a strange place worrying that whoever killed Meredith might turn around and come after her.
Because of course there’s no reason to think that.
Is there?
She stares at the blond hair of the woman standing directly in front of her and idly speculates about whether it’s a wig. It looks like one. Fashion choice by a brunette who thinks blondes really do have more fun, Landry wonders, or is she just yet another woman who’s lost her hair to cancer treatment?
“Next!” calls the counter agent, and the woman steps forward.
“I’m going to have to hang up in a minute,” Landry tells Rob. “It’s almost my turn.”
“Okay, wait—do you have any idea where the new car insurance cards are? Because I need to put them into the glove compartments and I can’t find them anywhere.”
Of course he can’t.
She reminds him—again—that she thumb-tacked them to the bulletin board in the kitchen.
“I looked there.”
“Look again.”
“But I didn’t—”
“Next!” calls the rental counter agent, finished with the woman ahead of Landry.
“Trust me,” she tells Rob, “they’re on the bulletin board. I’ve got to go.”
She hurriedly hangs up, steps forward, and pulls out the folded papers containing printouts of her reservations.
“Thank you, Mrs. Wells. Are you a member of our frequent renter program?”
“No, I’m not.”
“Would you like to join?”
“No, thanks.” I’d like to get into a hotel room with a hot shower, that’s all I’d like right about now.
“Are you familiar with Cincinnati?”
Feeling more impatient by the second, she admits, “No, I’ve never been here before.”
“You’ll want a GPS system in the car, then. And I’ll get you some maps.” The agent briskly steps away from the counter.
“I can tell you how to get where you’re going,” says a familiar voice behind Landry.
She turns to see Bruce Mangione, Private Investigator and Personal Security.
They hadn’t done much more talking for the duration of the flight. He’d gotten busy on his laptop after takeoff, and she’
d finally managed to lose herself in the celebrity biography she’d downloaded to her e-reader the other night. The other passengers seemed equally subdued, probably thanks to having risen in the wee hours to make an early flight, then spending several mind-numbing hours at the gate. No one—not even the flight attendants—seemed to be in a conversational mood anymore.
After they landed, Bruce Mangione lifted Landry’s bag down from the overhead bin, she thanked him, and that was that. She lost track of him amid the mass exodus that began when the door opened onto the jetway.
“Hi,” he says. “I’ve been standing behind you but you seemed busy and I didn’t want to interrupt.”
“Oh . . . thanks . . . I just—that was my husband.”
“I just called my wife, too. She gets nervous when I fly. Sounds like your husband is worried about you, too.”
“He . . . not really. I mean . . .” She wonders how much he heard. “He just likes to make sure I’m okay.”
“I don’t blame him. Crazy things can happen. Trust me—in my line of work, I’ve seen it all. So where do you have to go now that you’re here?”
“I think it’s a Residence Inn . . . or maybe a Fairfield Inn. One of those Marriott chains . . .” She starts to reach for the reservation paper she left on the counter.
“You’re going to the hotel before the funeral?”
Caught off guard by his mention of the funeral, she turns back to him in surprise—then remembers that she told him about it on the plane. Still, she wonders again how much he overheard of her conversation with Rob just now. She wasn’t exactly whispering.
Not that it matters . . .
Does it?
“The hotel is right down the road from the funeral home,” she tells him with a shrug, “so—”
“All right, Ms. Wells, here you go . . .” The counter attendant is back, handing over a couple of maps and a contract. “The shuttle driver will wait for you if you hurry, right through those doors, if you’ll just sign here, here, here, initial here and here . . .”
“Thank you.” She scans the contract, signs, signs, signs again, initials and initials, and turns quickly to Bruce. “I’ve got to run. It was nice—”
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