religious leaders and performance anxiety, (1), (2)
resilience, (1)
Rich (author’s husband), (1), (2), (3), (4), (5)
Richter, Sviatoslav, (1)
Ridout, Nicholas, (1), (2), (3)
right-handedness, (1), (2)
right hemisphere of brain, (1), (2), (3), (4)
Rivers, Sam, (1)
Robbins, Anthony, (1)
Robson, Bonnie, (1)
Roosevelt, Eleanor, (1)
Rosen, Charles, (1)
Rothman, Mark, (1), (2)
Rubin, Burton, (1)
Russia, (1)
Russian School (violin technique), (1)
Sacks, Oliver, (1)
Sadie (Rothman’s music teacher), (1)
San Jose International Airport, (1), (2)
Santa Barbara Symphony, (1)
Sant’ Ambrogio, Sara, (1)
Sasser, Mackey, (1)
Sax, Dave, (1)
Sax, John, (1), (2)
Sax, Nancy, (1), (2)
Sax, Steve, (1)
Schiff, András, (1)
Schlueter, Charlie, (1)
Schnabel, Artur, (1), (2)
Schnabel, Karl Ulrich, (1)
the schneid, (1)
Schumann, Clara, (1), (2)
Schumann, Robert, (1)
Schumann’s Piano Concerto, (1)
Segovia, Andrés, (1)
Seinfeld, Jerry, (1)
sekimen-kyofu, (1)
self-acceptance, (1)
self-consciousness, (1), (2), (3)
Self-Expression Center, Houston, (1)
semen-worry, (1), (2)
separation anxiety, (1)
sexual dysfunction, (1), (2), (3), (4)
Sey, Jennifer, (1)
the shadow, (1), (2)
Shainberg, David, (1)
Shainberg, Diane, (1)
Shearing, George, (1)
shinkeishitsu, (1)
shubo-kyofu, (1)
shy bladder syndrome. See paruresis
Sierra Community College, (1)
Simon, Carly, (1)
singing brain, (1)
slack rope vs. tightrope, (1)
Slenczynski, Joseph, (1), (2), (3)
Slenczynski, Ruth, (1)
Smith, Larry, (1)
Smith, Laura, (1), (2), (3), (4), (5)
soccer, (1)
social phobias, (1), (2), (3), (4), (5), (6)
Socrates, (1)
Soifer, Steven, (1)
Solo Piano Album (Pullen), (1)
Solovitch, Sara
attack, escape from, (1)
Bach, feelings about. See under Bach, Johann Sebastian
beta-blocker use by, (1), (2), (3), (4), (5), (6)
Brahms, feelings about. See under Brahms, Johannes
childhood piano playing by
at graduation recital, (1)
at St. Catharines competition, (1), (2)
stage fright, (1), (2)
cognitive behavior therapy assignments, (1)
college, marriage, and family life of, (1)
earthquake survival, (1)
exposure therapy
airport recitals, (1), (2)
concert, (1), (2)
library recital, (1), (2)
piano camp, (1)
soirees, (1)
family of
Aunt Bessie, (1)
Aunty Maddy. See Maddy (author’s aunt)
brother Joseph, (1)
father, (1), (2), (3), (4), (5)
grandparents in Russia, (1)
husband Rich, (1), (2), (3), (4), (5)
mother Polly. See Polly (author’s mother)
sister Syma, (1)
sons, (1), (2). See also Ben (author’s son); Jesse (author’s son); Max (author’s son)
in family photos, (1), (2), (3)
Greene’s work with, (1), (2), (3), (4)
Kageyama’s work with, (1), (2), (3), (4), (5), (6)
mindfulness quest by. See mindfulness
Mozart, feelings about, (1)
perfectionism of, (1)
at piano camp, (1)
return to piano
confrontation of stage fright, (1)
in group piano class, (1)
at lake house, (1)
lessons with Landis, (1)
little recital, (1)
teacher search, (1)
auditioning for, (1)
Ellen Chen, (1)
Landis Gwynn, (1)
Lynn Kidder, (1)
Mark Rothman, (1)
need for guru and, (1)
Sonata Workshop, (1)
Song, Master (tae kwon do instructor), (1)
sport psychology, (1), (2)
sports
beta-blocker restrictions in, (1)
mind-body disconnect, (1)
music compared to, (1), (2)
overthinking in, (1), (2)
perfectionism in, (1), (2)
performance anxiety in, (1), (2)
performance inventory, (1), (2)
St. Catharines piano competition, (1), (2)
St. Norbert College, (1)
stage fright. See also anxiety; fear; social phobias
author’s confrontation of, (1)
author’s early experiences of, (1), (2)
author’s evaluation for, (1)
beta-blockers used for. See beta-blockers
childhood experiences and, (1), (2), (3), (4), (5), (6), (7)
Chiu on, (1)
culture-specific variants of. See culture-specific variants of performance anxiety
in DSM, (1)
history of. See history of stage fright and famous sufferers
Jungian view of, (1)
mindfulness and. See mindfulness
pathogenic beliefs and, (1)
perfectionism and. See perfection, pursuit of
psychology of. See psychology
PTSD compared to, (1)
public speaking and. See public speaking, fear of
as reversion to infantile behavior, (1)
Rothman and, (1)
Slenczynska’s preparation for, (1)
in sports. See sports
strategies to lessen, (1), (2), (3)
terms used for, (1)
tightening up and, (1)
Stage Fright, Animals, and Other Theatrical Problems (Ridout), (1)
Stage Fright: Its Role in Acting (Aaron), (1)
Stagefright Survival School, (1), (2), (3)
stage lighting, history of, (1)
Stanislavski, Constantin, (1)
Stanislavski system, (1)
Steinbeck, John, (1)
Steve Blass disease, (1), (2)
Steve Sax syndrome, (1)
Stewart, Rod, (1)
stimulant medications, (1)
stop exercises, (1)
Strassmayer, Karolina, (1)
Streisand, Barbra, (1)
suicide, (1), (2)
Sullivan, Ira, (1)
“Summertime” (Shearing), (1)
supersoldiers, (1)
survivor guilt, (1)
Suzuki, Shinichi, (1)
Sweet, Pete, (1)
swimming, (1)
Syma (author’s sister), (1)
synesthesia of sounds, (1)
Syracuse Symphony Orchestra, (1), (2)
Székely, Zoltán, (1)
tae kwon do, (1), (2)
taijin kyofusho, (1), (2)
A Tale of Two Cities (Dickens), (1)
talmid haham, (1)
Talmud, (1), (2)
target panic, (1)
Taubman Approach, (1)
Taylor, Billy, (1)
Tcherepnin, Alexander, (1), (2)
tennis, (1), (2), (3)
thalamus, (1)
the Thing, (1), (2)
third-person reflection, (1)
Thomas, Michael Tilson, (1)
Thompson, Ron, (1)
thoracic outlet syndrome, (1)
Thorndike, Sybil, (1)
tightrope vs. slack rope, (1)
Toastmasters, (1)
tolerances, design, (1)
Tolstoy, Leo, (1), (2)
Torah, (1), (2), (3), (4)
track and field, (1), (2)
traqueuse, (1)
Twain, Mark, (1)
Tyner, McCoy, (1)
ultra-Orthodox Judaism, (1)
United States Military Academy, (1), (2)
University of California at Berkeley, (1)
University of Nebraska, (1), (2)
unresolved intergenerational loss, (1)
U.S. Department of Defense, (1)
U.S. Olympic Diving Team, (1), (2)
U.S. Women’s Bobsled National Team, (1)
USA Track and Field Team, (1)
vagina and stage fright, (1)
valerian, (1)
Vamos, Roland and Almita, (1)
van der Linde, Polly, (1), (2), (3)
Vermont
Landis’s father’s accident in, (1)
piano camp in, (1)
Ron Thompson’s farmhouse in, (1), (2)
Verrilli, Donald, (1)
virtual reality therapy, (1)
visual cortex of brain, (1)
Vos, Rein, (1), (2)
Wagner, Richard, (1)
Warren, Rick, (1)
WDR Big Band, (1)
Weiss, Harold, (1), (2), (3), (4)
Weiss, Joseph, (1), (2)
West Virginia University, (1)
Wharton, Edith, (1)
Wieck Schumann, Clara, (1), (2)
William and Flora Hewlett Foundation, (1)
Wilson, Brian, (1)
WKCR-FM, Columbia College, (1)
Wolfenden, Mrs. (piano teacher), (1)
World Anti-Doping Code, (1)
World Championships in Berlin (2009), (1)
Xanax, (1)
yips, (1), (2), (3)
yoga, (1), (2), (3), (4)
Yoga Sutras of Patanjali, (1)
Zeitlin, Denny, (1)
Zimmer, Sandra, (1)
the zone, (1), (2)
A NOTE ON THE AUTHOR
Sara Solovitch is a former reporter for the Philadelphia Inquirer whose articles have appeared in Esquire, Wired, the Los Angeles Times, and Politico. She has been a health columnist for the San Jose Mercury News and worked as a medical writer at Stanford University. She also has taught writing and journalism at the University of California, Santa Cruz Science Communication Program, where she was a lecturer for five years, teaching the art of profile writing to graduate students. Solovitch has played classical piano since she was seven and attended Eastman School of Music’s preparatory department during her last two years of high school. A graduate of Barnard College, where she majored in English literature, she is the mother of three sons, two of whom are professional musicians. This is her first book. She lives in Santa Cruz, California, with her husband, Richard Scheinin.
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