They looked at me, the men along the street, and well they could look. I weighed two hundred and forty pounds, but looked twenty-five pounds lighter. I was three inches over six feet, with black hair curling around my ears under a black flat-brimmed, flat-crowned hat, and the brim was dusty and the crown was torn. The shirt I wore was dark red, under a black horsehide vest, and there was a war on my left cheek where a knife blade had bit to the bone. The man who had owned that knife left his bones in a pack rat’s nest down Sonora way.
My boots were run-down at the heels and my jeans were worn under the chaps stained almost black. And when I swung down, men gathered around to look at my horse. Big Red is seventeen hands high and weighs thirteen hundred pounds a blood bay with black mane, tail, and forelock.
“That’s a lot of horse,” a man in a white apron said. “It takes a man to ride a stallion.”
“I ride him,” I said, and walked past them into the bar. The man in the white apron followed me. “I drink tequila,” I said.
He brought out a bottle and opened it, then found lemon and salt. So I had a drink there, and another, and looked around the room, and it all looked familiar. For there had been a lime .
“I’m looking for a ranch,” I said, “on Cherry Creek. It’s owned by Nana Maduro.”
The bartender’s face changed before my eyes and he mopped the bar. “See Wetterling,” he said. “He hires for them.”
“Ill see the owner,” I said, and put down my glass.
A girl was coming up the street, walking fast. She had flame-red hair and brown eyes. When she saw Big Red she stopped dead still. And I stood under the awning and rolled a cigarette and watched her, and knew what she was feeling.
She looked around at the men. “I want to buy that horse,” she said. “Who owns him?”
A man jerked a thumb at me, and she looked at me and took a step closer. I saw her lips part a little and her eyes widen.
She was all woman, that else, and she had it where it showed. And she wore her sex like a badge, a flaunting and a challenge the way I liked it.
“You own this horse?”
One step took me out of the shade and into the sun, a cigarette in my lips. I’m a swarthy man, and her skin was golden and smooth, despite the desert sun.
“Hello, Lou,” she said. “Hello, Lou Morgan.”
“This is a long way from Mazatlan,” I said. “You were lovely then, too.”
“You were on the island,” she said, “a prisoner. I thought you were still there.”
“I was remembering you, and no walls could hold me,”
I said, smiling a little, “so I found a way out and away. The prison will recover in time.”
“How did you know I was here?”
“I didn’t,” I said. “Remember? I killed a man for you and you left me, with never a word or a line. You left me like dirt in the street.”
And when that was said I walked by her and stepped into saddle. I looked down at her and said, “You haven’t changed. Under that fine-lady manner you’re still a tramp.”
A big young man who stood on the walk filled with the pride of his youth, thought he should speak. So I jumped the stallion toward him, and when we swept abreast I grabbed him by his shirtfront.
I swung him from his feet and muscled him up, half strangling, and held him there at eye level, my arm bent to hold him, my knuckles under his chin.
“That was a private conversation,” I said. “The lady and I understand each other.”
Then I slapped him, booming slaps that left his face white and the mark of my hand there, and I let him drop. My horse walked away and took a trail out of town.
But those slaps had been good for my soul, venting some of the fury I was feeling for her! Not the fury of anger, although there was that, too, but the fury of man-feeling rising within me, the great physical need I had for that woman that stirred me and gripped me and made my jaws clench and my teeth grind.
Nana Maduro! And that thin-faced man in the cantina hiring me to come and get you away from this what was his name? Wetterling!
Nana Maduro, who was Irish and Spanish and whom I had loved and wanted when I was seventeen, and for whom I had killed a man and been sentenced to hang. Only the man I killed had been a dangerous man, a powerful man in Mexico, and feared, and not all were sorry that he had died. These had helped me, had got my sentence commuted to life imprisonment, and after two years I broke out and fled to the hills, and after two more years word had come that the records had been lost and that I was a free man.
At fifteen Nana Maduro had been a woman in body and feeling, but untried yet and restless because of it.
And at seventeen I had been raw and powerful, a seasoned Indian fighter knowing mining, hunting, and riding, but a boy in emotion and temper.
It was different now that seven years had passed. Nana now was full-flowered and gorgeous. But they had been seven hard, lean years for me, a man who rode with a gun and rode alone, a man who fought for pay, with a gun for hire.
Three days I rode the hills and saw no man, but looked upon the country through eyes. And field glasses. And I saw much, and understood much.
Cherry Creek range was dream range, knee-deep to a tall steer with waving grass and flowers of the prairie. Even on the more barren stretches there were miles of antelope bush and sheep fat, the dry-looking desert plants rich in food for cattle. There was water there, so the cattle need walk but little and could keep their flesh, and there was shade from the midday sun.
And this belonged to Nana Maduro, to Nana, whom I’d loved as a boy, and desired as a man. And did I love as a man? Who could say?
She had cattle by the thousand on her rolling hills, and a ranch house like none I had ever seen, low and lovely and shaded, a place for a man to live. And a brand, N M, and a neighbor named Wetterling.
The Wetterling ranch was north and west of hers, but fenced by a range of hills, high-ridged and not to be crossed by cattle, and beyond the ridge the grass was sparse and there were few trees. A good ranch as such ranches go, but not the rolling, grass-waving beauty of Cherry Creek.
Then I saw them together. He was a huge man, bigger than I was, blond and mighty. At least two inches taller than I, and heavier, but solid. He moved light on his feet and quickly, and he could handle a horse.
Other things I saw. Nana was without friends. She was hemmed in by this man, surrounded by him. People avoided her through fear of him, until she was trapped, isolated. It could be a plan to win her finally, or to take her ranch if the winning failed.
But they laughed together and raced together, and they rode upon the hills together. And on the night of the dance in Battle Basin, they came to it together.
For that night I was shaved clean and dusted, my boots were polished, and though I went to the dance and looked at the girls, there was only one woman in that room for me.
She stood there with her big man, and I started toward her across the floor, my big California spurs jingling. I saw her face go white to the lips and saw her start to speak, and then I walked by her and asked the daughter of a rancher named Greenway for a dance.
As the Greenway girl and I turned away in the waltz I saw Nana’s face again, flaming red, then white, her fine eyes blazing. So I danced with Ann Greenway, and I danced with Rosa McQueen, and I danced with the girls of the village and from the ranches, but I did not dance with Nana Maduro.
Nana watched me. That I saw. She was angry, too, and that I had expected, for when does the hunter like for the deer to escape? Especially, the wounded deer?
Two men came in when the evening was half gone, one of them a thin man with a sickly face and a head from which half the hair was gone, and in its place a scar. This was Clevenger. His partner Mack was stocky and bowlegged and red of face.
Both wore their guns tied down, and both were dangerous. They were known along the border for the men they had killed. They were feared men who had not acquired their reputations without reason.
They were there when I stopped not far away from where Wetterling was talking to Nana. I saw Wetterling move toward her as if to take her for a dance, and I moved quickly, saying, “Will you dance?” and wheeled her away as I spoke.
Wetterling’s face was dark and ugly, and I saw the eyes of his two killers upon me, but I held Nana close, and good she felt in my arms. And she looked up at me, her lips red and soft and wet, and her eyes blazing.
“Let me go, you fool! They’ll kill you for this!”
“Will they now?” I smiled at her, but my heart was pounding and my lips were dry, and my being was filled with the need of her. “You’ll remember that was tried once, long ago.”
Then I held her closer, her breasts tight against me, my arm about her slim waist, our bodies moving in the dance.
“To die for this,” I said, “would not be to die in vain.”
It was my mother’s family that spoke, I think, for poetic as the Welsh may be, and my father was Welsh, it is the Spanish who speak of dying for love, though they are never so impractical. My mother’s name was Ibanez.
When the dance was finished, Nana pulled away from me. “Leave me here,” she said, and then when I took her arm to return her to Wetterling, she begged, “Please, Lou!”
My ears were deaf. So I took her to him and stopped before him, and, with his two trained dogs close by, I said, “She dances beautifully, my friend, and better with me than with you and what are you trying to do with that fresh cut trail through the woods? Get your cattle onto her grass?”
Then I turned my back and walked away and the devil within me feeling the glory of having stirred the man to fury, wanting that, yet desolate to be leaving her. For now I knew I loved Nana Maduro. Not prison nor time nor years nor her coldness had killed it. I still loved her.
At the door as I left, a red-faced man with bowed legs who stood there said, “You’ve a fine horse and it’s a nice night to ride. Cross the Territory line before you stop.”
“See you tomorrow,” I said.
“Have a gun in your hand, if you do,” he said to me, and went back inside. Mack, a brave man.
In the morning I rode the hills again, doing a sight of thinking. Wetterling wanted both the ranch and the girl, and no doubt one as much as the other. Another man wanted the place, too, and maybe the girl. But why that particular ranch?
Lovely, yes. Rich with grass, yes. But considering the obstacles and the expense why? Hatred? It could be. A man can hate enough. But my employer was not a hating man, to my thinking. He just knew what he wanted, and how to get it.
Small ranchers and riders with whom I talked could give me no clue. I did not ask outright if they knew my employer, but I could tell they must know the man.
The trail I had found through the woods was guarded now. Two men loafed near the N M side of it, both with rifles across their knees. Through my glasses I studied that trail. It was wide, and it was well cut. When I got into my saddle I saw something else a gleam of sunlight reflecting on a distant mountainside. Distant, but still on Maduro range.
Big Red took to the trail and I rode for so long that it was after dark before I returned to Battle Basin. I left Big Red stabled in a small, outlying two-horse barn, and, with my guns on, I walked down into town. I moved quietly among the buildings until I reached the street. Merging with the shadows I looked to right and left.
A drunk cowhand staggered along the boardwalk across the street. He lurched against a building, then went on. Starting to step out into the light I froze, for it suddenly had come to me that the drunken cowhand had not been talking to himself, but had spoken to someone in the shadows!
Moving back into the darkness I worked my way along in the shadows toward the corral. There were horses there, saddled, bridled, and tied an even dozen of them, all wearing the Wetterling brand. I traced it with my finger.
In another hour I knew the Wetterling crew would be all over the town, in ambush, waiting for me. No matter where I showed up, they would have me in a cross fire. There had been some good planning done! They were figuring I’d spoil their beautiful plan and were out to stop me, but they’d forgotten the life I’d lived, and how I’d lived the years I had only through caution. I was an Indian on my feet, quiet and easy.
From the cover of the darkness, I studied the saloon, the roofs of the town. And then I walked up to the back door of the saloon and went in.
Mack was there, at the bar with another man, not Clevenger. One man could be deadly, two were poison, but as I entered I said, “All right, Mack. You looking for me?”
It startled him. I saw his shoulders bunch, then he turned. I was standing half in the shadows, and it was not right for him. His partner was more foolish. The instant he saw me he grabbed for a gun.
Two guns were on my hips, but I had another in a shoulder holster, a Wes Hardin rig. When both moved for their guns, I shucked it.
Strange how at times like that minutes seem hours, and the seconds are expanded unbelievably. Mack’s gun was coming up fast, faster by far than that of the other man. In the background the bartender was transfixed, his mouth gaping, eyes bulging. Another man who had started through the door and was directly in the line of fire stood there, frozen, and in that instant the room was deathly still.
My shoulder gun slid true and easy. My hand rolled outward as I brought my elbow down, and the gun jumped in my hand. The flash from Mack’s gun came a breath later. I saw him bunch his shoulders forward as if he’d been struck in the stomach, then my gun muzzle had moved left and the gun bucked again.
Mack’s companion pulled his feet together, went up to tiptoes and fell. Mack caught himself on the table corner and stared at me, aware that I’d killed him. With that awful realization in his eyes, his gun fell. .
Then I was out the back door, going up the outside stairs, running lightly and through the door, ducking into the first room, luckily empty. I climbed out the window, stood up on the sill and, catching the roof edge, pulled myself up and over.
Men rushed by between the buildings, footsteps pounded in the hallways below. The chase was in full cry. Lying there, stone still, I waited.
Movement in the room below alerted me. Then voices spoke, near the window, and I could hear every word plainly.
“You knew him before?” That would be Wetterling.
“In Mexico,” Nana’s voice answered. “He rode for my father, and when Sanchez killed my father and took me away with him, Lou Morgan followed. He killed Sanchez in the street, then took me home. He was tried for it and sent to prison.”
“You love him?”
“Love him?” Her voice was careless. “How could I? I was a child, and he was a boy, and we scarcely knew each other. And I don’t know him now.”
“You’ve been different since he came.”
“And you’ve been insistent.” Nana’s voice was edged.
“I’m not sure which it is you really want my ranch or me.” He evidently started toward her, for I heard her move back. “No!”
“But you told me you’d marry me.”
“I said I might.” She was right at the window now. “Now go away and find some more gunmen. You’ll need them.”
He started to protest, but she insisted. I heard the door close then, and I heard Nana humming. She came to the window and said distinctly:
“Next time you use my window for a ladder, please clean your boots.”
Swinging down by the edge of the roof, I went through the window and away from it.
She was wearing a blue riding outfit, her hair beautifully done. I’ve never seen a girl look more desirable. She saw it in my eyes, for I was making no effort to conceal what I felt. “What are you, Lou?” she demanded. “An animal?” “Sometimes.”
My blood was heavy in my pulse. I could feel it throb, and I stood there, feet apart, knowing myself for what I was a big, dark man hunted in the night, looking at a woman for whom a man would give his soul.
“When I’m close to you I am,” I a
dded.
“Is that a nice thing to say?”
“Maybe not. But you like it.”
“You presume too much.”
I sat down, watching her. I knew that the amusement which must be in my eyes bothered her. She knew how-to handle men and she was used to doing that. She had been able to handle me, once. That was long ago. I’d left tracks over a lot of country since then.
“You’re not safe here,” she said. “Twenty men are hunting you. You should go ride on out of here.”
“Know a man with thin hair, nice-looking, like a college professor?”
The question startled her, but the sharpening of her attention told me she did. “Why do you ask?” she said. “He hired me to come here. To stop Wetterling.” “You lie!”
It flashed at me, a stabbing, bitter word.
An angry word.
“It’s true.”
She studied me.
“Then you didn’t come because I was in trouble?”
“How could I? How could I know?” I smiled. “But the idea of a job to keep a man away from you was attractive. I liked the idea.”
Despite her wish not to show it, she was disappointed. She had been seeing me as a knight-errant, come to her rescue. As if she needed it! Most men were toys for her. Yet she did need rescue, more than she guessed.
It was not Wetterling who made me jealous now, but the unknown man, my employer.
“He would not do such a thing,” she insisted. “Besides, he doesn’t even know about Henry.”
“He knows. That isn’t all he knows. He’s after your ranch, too, you know.”
She was wicked now. “Oh, you liar! You contemptible liar! He’s not even interested in ranching! He’s never been on a ranch! He wouldn’t think of hiring a killer!”
The name had been applied before. To an extent, it was true. I shoved my battered hat back on my head and began to build a smoke, taking my time.
“Wetterling doesn’t care about the ranch, either,” I said slowly. “He’s interested in only part of it.”
It went against the grain for her to believe that any man was interested in anything but her. Yet she accepted the accusation against Wetterling, but against the other man, no.
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