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Before the End (Beyond Series Ultimate Glom Edition)

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by Kit Rocha


  It was hard to tell which answer he preferred. "It could be an invitation," she murmured. "If Jas doesn't mark her soon, you could step in. No one would fault you for it."

  "No one except Jas." Dallas continued to study her. "I can't tell if you want me to fuck Noelle or collar her, but I'm sure as hell not doing the latter."

  "Don't you like her?"

  "She's not my type, love. If Jas handles her right, he'll have a sweet little sub to pet and cuddle. That's fun for a night or two, but it's not for me."

  And yet Lex could have sworn that was exactly what Dallas wanted--a woman who would gladly, happily be owned. "I think it might be--under the right circumstances."

  His dark gaze didn't shift from her face. "And what are those?"

  Always so intense, and it was that intensity that drew her closer even as she felt locked into place. Ensnared.

  Lex straddled his leg and settled with her hand resting lightly on his fly. "I know what you were thinking the other night. What you wanted to see while she was sucking your dick."

  His expression remained bland, but his dick hardened. "What did I want to see?"

  She leaned in, putting her mouth close to his. "My head between those pretty, pale thighs, for starters."

  "Your head between anyone's thighs is a hot sight." He stroked her cheek and then brushed his thumb over her lips. "You've never been under me. You don't know what I do with the women in my bed."

  The lack of personal experience was irrelevant. "I know what you like, Dallas. What gets you off. I pay attention."

  He nodded once. "And when you bring Noelle to my bed? What do you imagine we'll do with her? It would be both of us, wouldn't it?"

  "Nothing so inflexible." Lex grinned and tugged at his pants until the button and zipper both opened under her fingers. "Did you like watching her touch me?"

  Dallas growled. "What do you think, Lex?"

  His cock jumped in her hand, rigid and hot. "You liked it. Maybe..." She fought to steady her breathing and stroked him slowly. "Maybe you're more interested in watching her eat my pussy. You'd have to teach her how."

  "I think we're into your fantasies now." He sank a hand into her hair. "Not that I wouldn't enjoy the hell out of watching her lick you with her shy little tongue. It'd take her forever, but that's part of the fun, isn't it?"

  "Part of it." The rest was the thought of control, both seizing and relinquishing it.

  Maybe it showed on her face, or maybe he just knew her that well. "She'd do anything I told her to. I don't think you'd be as obedient."

  "You don't want me to be." Lex leaned over and let her hair trail over his dick.

  He jerked the hair he held twisted around his hand and hauled her head up. "When I want your obedience, I'll get it."

  He seemed so sure of that, as sure as he was of everything else, and the realization both terrified and comforted her. There was no mountain Dallas O'Kane couldn't climb. No woman, either.

  She swallowed hard. "Noelle would mind herself, kneel at your feet and await your command. So would that new girl--Six."

  "Probably," he agreed mildly. "Noelle doesn't know any better, and Six has been beaten down."

  "Not me." An unpleasant possibility drew Lex up short, and she stared at him. "Is it a problem?"

  "Now what part of what I just said made it sound like a problem, Lexie? You think I want you to be clueless?" His hand relaxed, cupping the back of her neck as he smoothed his thumb over her throat. "You think I want you beaten?"

  "No," she whispered. "But I'm starting to think you don't want me to be the way that I am."

  Dallas sighed and closed his eyes. "There's what's good for the gang, what's good for business, and what's good for you. What I want doesn't rate on the list most days."

  She couldn't let him own her, but it still hurt to watch him like this. "Is this about Trent?"

  "It's about you being exposed." Dallas released her and refastened his pants. "I like you just the way you are, Lex. I don't want to put you on a leash. But you stand out, and that's not safe for you."

  She barely heard the words, all her attention focused on his hands. He was getting good at that, at pulling away when she wanted to bring him closer. At one time, her touch had melted his resistance, and it had been enough. But now...

  Distance. She could feel it, a chasm yawning between them, and a blowjob wouldn't fix it. She'd been so damn careful not to challenge him outright, never to compromise his authority.

  Somehow, she'd failed.

  Lex couldn't stop the words that tumbled out. "You don't want me on a leash, but that's what they'd like to see, isn't it? It's what they understand." She caught his wrist. "Collar me. Give them the show they need."

  Dallas hauled her down into his lap. "Say that again?"

  It sounded like a request, except for the intense thread of command in his voice. "A collar," she repeated softly. "Not for real, I mean. We'll know the truth."

  "A collar. For show." A low laugh shook his chest. "Don't lie to yourself, Lex. You're smarter than that. You and I can't share a bed for show."

  He'd have her on her knees every night, screaming herself hoarse. "I'm not talking about fucking." She held his gaze. "I'm talking about control. Enough to satisfy anyone who thinks I'm stringing you along by your dick."

  He gave her a too-serious look, ruined only by the twitch of his lips. "Aren't you?"

  She didn't bother to be careful where she put her knees as she climbed off his lap. "Go ahead and laugh at me, Dallas. Like I give a shit."

  He uncoiled like a spring, shooting half off the couch to drag her against him. This time, he closed his hands around her arms and trapped her, her back to his chest. "This is all my fault. I let you get away with shit none of the others would dare, and you're so used to it you don't even realize."

  She struggled, her own fury rising. "Then don't do me any more fucking favors. Treat me like everyone else."

  "I'd turn anyone else over my damn knee right about now. Settle the hell down."

  Lex stilled, forcing herself to slowly breathe in and out. "Can I go now?"

  "No." His grip eased, caging her without crushing her. "We haven't discussed the collar yet. It's a good idea, if we can do it without killing each other."

  "It's not the only solution." She craned her neck to look back at him. "I can find someone else. You didn't want me, simple as that."

  "I think we both know that's bullshit."

  Which part? "Then you're stuck with me, Declan."

  "Mmm." He rubbed his thumbs over the backs of her arms, stroking in slow, lazy circles. "The collar might be for show, but I'm not a noble man. You know you can't fuck anyone else while you're wearing it."

  She shivered. "It wouldn't be very convincing if I did. Unless you were with me."

  "And I will be." Dallas pressed his mouth to her ear. "Put yourself in my hands, Lexie. Just a little. Let me keep you safe, and I'll make it worth anything you have to give up."

  You had to have something in order to give it up, and what did she have? Desire, a longing so primal it felt as if it had always been a part of her. His lips grazed her ear again, and Lex released a shaky breath. "How will you do that?"

  "You'll see, love. Soon enough, you'll see."

  Chapter Eleven

  Jasper was halfway into a bottle when someone pounded on his door. Noelle's voice followed, low and intent. "Please let me in. I forgot to put on pants."

  Of course. Groaning, he rubbed a hand over his face and opened the door. "What the fuck are you doing with no pants on?"

  "Bren put me to bed." She ducked under his arm without waiting for an invitation, padding into his room on bare feet. "I got up after he was gone, but I've never been to your room before. I knocked on three wrong doors."

  Jesus Christ, she was in her underwear, tiny black panties that bared more than half of her ass. "Well, here you are. What do you want?"

  She wandered over to his punching bag and traced her fingers over
the leather. "This is the first time we've been alone together. In private, I mean. You never touch me when we're alone together, only in front of other people."

  He'd thought it the most expedient way to cut through the inexperience she sometimes wore like armor. "You don't like it?"

  "I like it when you touch me in front of other people." She wandered around the punching bag, dragging her hand across it until she'd made a full circle and was facing him. She was still drunk, sleepy-eyed and loose-tongued, and she kept talking, raw truth tumbling past her lips. "I like it more than I feel like I should. Sometimes I wish you'd just tell me I'm bad. Take me over your knee and spank me and let me pretend I'm atoning for my sins instead of committing a new one by wanting your hand on my ass until it's all I can think about."

  Maybe it wasn't a hurdle to get past, an obstacle to surmount. Maybe Ace was right, and the punishment was part of her pleasure. "Bend over the table."

  Her breathing hitched. "Don't tease me."

  He swept his arm across the table, shoving his keys, wallet, and books to the floor. "Now, Noelle."

  Wide-eyed, she crossed the room and bent forward until her elbows rested on the table. Her scant tank top slid up her spine, revealing the generous curve of her hips and how skimpy her panties really were.

  He took another swig of whiskey and set the bottle aside. "Is this what you want?" he asked, teasing his fingertips above the top edge of her panties. "For me to spank your ass until you can't sit down, tell you how naughty you are for wanting it?"

  "Yes," she whispered. "Only you don't want me to feel dirty. I can't even do this right."

  "I don't want you to believe everything those bastards in the city told you. But if you like it..." He scratched her skin lightly and dragged her panties down. "If you really like it, Noelle, I'll punish you."

  She shifted her weight uncertainly. "I don't know why I want it. I don't know how to find out without doing it."

  He stared down at her pale skin, but he didn't touch her again until he hit her, his palm smacking hard against her flesh. Noelle gasped, sucking in air before releasing it in a hungry, helpless little noise.

  Instead of slapping her this time, he wound his other hand in her hair and pulled her head back. "What do you like about it? Tell me."

  "I don't know," she whispered, scraping her nails over the table. "It hurts, but not really. And I don't--" She bit her lip.

  He slid his hand around to the front of her throat. "You don't what?"

  She swallowed. "I don't have to feel guilty for liking the shame, because that's the point."

  All twisted up, and he'd been a fool to think he could unravel it. "Why can't you just like it?"

  Noelle let out a frustrated noise and arched up on her toes, practically wiggling her ass at him. "Maybe I could if you'd do it."

  And he'd do it...if she just liked it. He'd had lovers who got off on pain before, but never one who used it as an excuse. "I didn't say you could move."

  Noelle scoffed, no trace of the shy, demure little city girl left in her eyes as she glared back at him. She was drunk enough to throw caution to the wind and she did, taunting him. "What are you going to do? Spank me?"

  He leaned over her, frustration twining with anger. "You'd like that, wouldn't you? Is that your plan? Push me until I'm really pissed? Until I lose control?"

  Her spine stiffened. She tore her gaze from his, fixing it on the wall instead. "No. I don't want you mad at me."

  Jasper laid his hand on her ass and squeezed the reddened skin.

  She trembled in reaction, but she didn't look at him. "Do you have to be angry to want this?"

  "To really want to punish you, yes. Otherwise, it's just another thing that gets you off." He slapped her ass again. "If you like it, I'll do it." Another blow. "I'll do anything. But I want to know why."

  "I don't know," she panted and squirmed. She spread her arms wide, palms flat on the table, as if she needed to balance herself to stay standing. "It should be punishment, but it's not. That's the part I like."

  "What does that mean to you? That you're dirty, Noelle? That there's something wrong with you?" If he slid his hand down, he knew he'd find her thighs slick, her pussy swollen. "That there's something wrong with me?"

  "Not with you." The words were too fiercely protective to be anything but the truth. But the fight went out of her in the next moment, and she dropped her cheek to the table. "But maybe there is something wrong with me. I don't like things even though they feel shameful. I like them more because of it."

  So close. "Why, sweetheart?"

  She barely whispered the answer. "Because it feels good."

  "Would it feel as good if you weren't ashamed?"

  "How can I tell?"

  The question was so earnest that it left him with only one answer. "I don't know."

  Sighing, she rocked up on her toes again. "Help me find out? Please?"

  He couldn't, not if he had a hope in hell of keeping his own head on straight during all of it. "If you trust me, I have an idea."

  She whimpered. "Does your idea mean I have to go back to my own bed all--all wet and aching and frustrated?"

  "No." He kissed her shoulder and backed away. "Turn around and sit on the table."

  "I trust you." She kicked free of her panties before sliding onto the table with her knees tucked primly together. "I don't need the other stuff. If you don't like it, if you don't want it, it's okay--"

  "Open your legs."

  Her teeth snapped together and her cheeks flushed, but she spread her legs wide. "Should I take off my shirt too?"

  Jasper had to drag his gaze up to her face. "That depends. If you were alone in your room, would you take it off? Play with your pretty little nipples?"

  "No," she said after a moment's hesitation. "If I started doing that in Lex's room, I don't think I'd be alone for long."

  He couldn't help his bark of laughter. "No, I guess you wouldn't." Her nipples were hard under the thin fabric. "Leave it on. Touch yourself."

  "What?" She sounded shocked--scandalized--but her hand was already drifting toward her breast. "You mean...touch my nipples?"

  Her bewildered shock tightened his balls, made them ache. "For starters. Then we'll move on to everything else."

  After another breathless moment, she obeyed, closing her thumb and her middle finger around one bud. Her gaze stayed fixed on his as she pinched and tugged until a moan escaped her.

  "You like it hard," he murmured. "I remember."

  She nodded and brought her other hand into play, mirroring the movements of the first. "I thought of asking Ace if I could keep those little magnetic rings, but I didn't think I'd be able to survive the teasing."

  "That's the whole point." Jasper nodded to her spread legs. "Lower, Noelle. Show me how you touch your pussy too."

  "I've never touched it like you do," she admitted, sliding her hand down. She brushed her fingers over the dark curls there before inching the very tip of her middle finger over the hood of her clit in a tiny circle. Her eyelids drooped as she repeated the caress. "Just like this."

  He felt an answering tug, a tingle at the base of his spine. "Do it again."

  She caught her plump lower lip between her teeth and obeyed. It was a light, shy touch, one that barely counted, but this time she didn't stop. She edged her fingers lower, parting her swollen folds as she explored tentatively. "I liked your fingers inside me."

  "Gonna try yours now?"

  She did, leaning back to brace her weight on one hand as she pushed two fingers inside. A slow, wicked smile curved her lips. "Not as good. Too small. Too short."

  Jasper caught his breath. "You have more fingers."

  "Show me." She worked a third finger into her pussy in spite of the words, moaning when she thrust them deep. "Why won't you touch me? Don't you want me when we're alone?"

  He dropped into a chair to keep from crossing to the table. "You're drunk, sweetheart, and I have my rules."

  "I do
n't understand them. I'm doing everything you tell me to. My hands might as well be yours, except they're not as good."

  Maybe she was right. He nodded to the bedroom. "Bed's through there. I'll take the couch."

  Shock painted her features, followed swiftly by mortification. She stumbled off the table and snatched up her panties, and by the time she dragged them up her legs she was shaking.

  Her next stop would be the door. Jasper shot across the space between them and grasped her upper arms. "If you don't see the difference between me touching you and what was happening, that means there is no difference. I shouldn't have been doing it."

  "Why is it always so easy for you to stop?" The question tore free, ragged and edged with honest pain. "I must want you so much more than you want me. I'm like one of Ace's groupies, needy and pathetic."

  He wanted to shake her. "Because I don't get to lose control. If I lose control, people die. Things go wrong." Her hair brushed the back of his hand, and he couldn't resist running his fingers through it. "You'd get hurt."

  He saw the moment the words penetrated, the moment she not only understood but believed. Her eyes widened, and she pressed both hands to his bare chest, fingers splayed wide. "Don't you get tired of it? Having to be in control, having to protect me?"

  "Yes and no." He tugged at her hair, then indulged himself by stroking his fingers over her cheek. "In the long run, it's worth it."

  She absorbed that in silence as she turned her face into his palm. Her lips tickled the heel of his thumb in a ghost of a kiss. "Don't make me sleep alone. I won't try to do anything, just...hold me? Please?"

  "Noelle..."

  Something wet brushed his palm. Tears. "I don't understand the rules here. I'm trying. I swear I'm trying."

  She was crying. Fuck. Jasper folded her in his arms. "Stay. I want you to. I can keep my hands to myself."

  "I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to--" She swiped at her cheeks angrily, dashing away tears. "I should go. I don't want to stay like this."

  "This is why you should stay," he argued. "Not sex, not like this. But being here is okay."

  She shivered and leaned closer, rested her forehead against his shoulder. "When I was ten, one of my tutors gave me a kitten. I only had her for a few hours before my father came home, but I fell in love with her. She would nuzzle my cheek and climb all over me... I had something to cuddle."

 

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