by Kit Rocha
"Do you know how much each of your rifle rounds costs this city, Officer Donnelly?"
Silence.
"Was that an appropriate and necessary allocation of resources?"
"No, sir." Then Bren's chin rose, and a quiet sort of defiance lit his eyes. "But I'd do it again."
She smacked her palm down on the tablet, silencing the voice and obscuring Bren's face. The walls were pressing in, making her room feel too small, too dark.
It had been dark in the back of the trucks, too. Endless dark, with only the crying of the younger children to remind her she wasn't alone. It had taken years before she could stand the dark again, even more before she'd learned to love it for how easy it made to hide.
"So you executed them."
Bren had come across captives. People snatched from their lives, kidnapped, lost in the dark and doomed to God only knew what fate. And he'd shot them.
She didn't know what horrified her more--that her stomach could roil at the thought, or that her mind skipped instantly to rationalizations. If she let herself, it would be all too easy to conjure the feeling of chains around her wrists and ankles, of staring into the darkness where the door should be, throat parched, stomach empty, scared the captors would come. More scared they wouldn't.
Faced with the choice between leaving those people to a slow death or making it quick, he'd chosen mercy. And the city had chastised him for it. He'd been defiant.
But not defiant enough to try to save them.
"Fuck." The word slipped free, and she moved in a rush, shoving the tablet down between the side of the couch and the cushion before lunging to her feet. Pacing didn't usually help, but it did remind her body that the room wasn't small and she wasn't trapped.
Most of all, she wasn't a helpless kid. And she wasn't going to let Noah Lennox fuck up the only good thing to ever happen to her.
Leaving the tablet and its damning video, she flung open the door and stepped into the hall, intending to stalk to Bren's room to wait for him. She'd taken only two steps before the echo of gunfire jerked her to a halt.
It was close, and loud. So loud that she spent a few tense moments wondering why O'Kanes weren't bubbling out into the hallway, weapons in hand, ready to defend their territory.
She spun in the opposite direction and whirled around the corner so fast she almost slammed into Trix.
"Hey." Trix laid a hand on her arm. "It's all right. Just a little target practice."
Six listened to round after round, each echo leading into another shot. "That's target practice?"
"It is when Bren does it." Her carefully curled red hair bobbed as she jerked her head toward the back of the building. "Closed-off alley in the back. You can watch from the roof or take the fire escape down."
"Thanks." Six stepped aside so the other woman could pass, too unsettled to manage small talk. "See you at the bar tonight?"
"Double shift. Wouldn't miss it." Trix rolled her eyes a little and laughed. "See you."
Six held her easy expression until the redhead was gone, hating that it felt awkward, that she wanted to drop her masks and let someone else see her distress, even comfort her.
Christ, right now, she'd take one of Noelle's hugs.
She had to backtrack to get to the stairs, climbing past the second floor and its party room and the third floor with its echoing rooms that still seemed in various stages of construction. They'd be in use soon, if the O'Kanes kept inking new members.
The final flight of stairs ended in a small landing and a door propped open with a garbage can. A huge sign covered the middle third of the door, its message conveyed in cheerful pink letters and profanity.
The door locks behind you, dumbasses. Quit trapping yourselves on the fucking roof (ACE) because I do NOT have time to keep hauling ass up here to rescue you.
Nessa had signed her name with a flourish and a heart.
Biting her lip, Six pushed through the door, careful to ease it back against the garbage can. The shots were so much louder up here, thundering from the west side of the roof, where the barracks formed a blind alley with the long, L-shaped building that Dallas used for storage.
She reached the edge of the roof and saw Bren in the alley below, a wickedly large pistol in his right hand. He pulled the trigger almost continuously, firing until the gun clicked uselessly. He flicked his thumb across the release, dropped the empty magazine, and replaced it before switching the weapon to his left hand and continuing to fire at the shredded target at the end of the alley.
It was magnificent violence. Raw, skilled, the kind that usually cranked her up good when it was Bren causing the mayhem. And it did, even with his words slamming around in her skull.
"I'd do it again."
By the time he'd emptied the second magazine, there was nothing left of the target, only ragged bits of paper on a battered straw backstop. Instead of reloading, Bren lowered the gun and stood there, unmoving.
The stillness shattered a moment later with a bellow of pure anguish as he exploded into movement, hurling the pistol down the alley. It skittered across the cracked asphalt, and he stalked after it, only to snatch up a board that was leaning against the wall. He smashed it into the bales with another roar, swinging again and again, sheer desperation radiating from him like heat. Like flame.
She'd seen cracks in his control, tiny slips. Roughness in his voice, his body jerking toward hers, groans he couldn't hold back. This was a hundred times worse. A thousand. Bren's control had shattered...and shattered her heart with it.
God fucking help her, she was in love with Brendan Donnelly.
Bits of straw floated in the air, landed on his shirt and his hair, but he finally stopped swinging. The board clattered to the ground, smudged with red--blood, she realized, as he looked down and flexed his hands.
Wounded, just like he was.
Fuck Noah Lennox. Fuck Eden and the terror churning in her gut, the instinct born of a lifetime of avoiding danger. He wasn't some unknown threat, and he wasn't the cold-blooded bastard Eden had trained. He was Bren, her lover, her protector. Hell, he was the one who'd told her Sector Four had changed him, taught him to be better. Whatever they'd made him do, it was in the past.
She'd make herself believe it. She had to, or else she was just a stupid girl who couldn't stop falling in love with psychopaths.
So move.
Shaking, she reached for the fire escape--and jerked back when the door creaked behind her.
It was Jasper, who approached with a sigh. "He finally stopped?"
"Yes." Her voice cracked, proving she was a coward. "His hands--I think he hurt himself."
Jasper held her by the arms as he leaned over and peered into the alley, then cursed softly. "It's not easy to see him like this, I know. But he'll be all right."
Like this. Jasper seemed concerned, but not worried. Not like the sight of Bren having a violent meltdown was unfamiliar. Which shouldn't matter, and maybe it wouldn't have, if she'd known.
Swallowing hard, she looked away. "I was going to check on him, but maybe he'd rather be alone right now."
Jasper didn't argue. "I'll head down and make sure he's square, okay?"
She took a step back when his hands fell away, then hesitated. Whatever had triggered this must have wider implications than her feelings, because she couldn't believe Bren had just come home and lost his shit. "Did something happen while he was in Three? Something bad?"
But Jasper only shook his head. "It's not my shit to talk about, Six. Give Bren some time to cool off, and you can ask him about it."
He was closing ranks, protecting his brother's back, and Six would have as much luck dragging the truth out of him as she would beating her fists against stone.
No shortcuts. She shouldn't have expected one. She'd told Bren the truth the other night, the only truth that mattered in this world.
Nothing good came easy.
Chapter Sixteen
His hands ached like a son of a bitch.
> Bren toyed with the edge of one bandage as he watched Cruz enter another set of coordinates into the oversized tablet mounted on his wall. "Any patterns yet?"
"Nothing obvious." Another point appeared on the map sketched out on the tablet. "But there wouldn't be, would there?"
No, the bastard wouldn't make it that easy to catch him. "Everyone makes mistakes, even Miller."
"Mmm." Cruz slid the coordinate list aside with a swipe of his hand and pulled up another box, one that spun out the raw data on the various locations. "He has one vice that's only gotten worse since you left. He hates going without his city comforts."
"Yeah?"
"He'll tell his team to catch some shut-eye on dirty concrete when it's five below and half of them have holes in their hide, but God forbid he has to spend a night outside the barracks. Or his whore. It's made him sloppy more than once."
Bren leaned over, bracing a hand on Cruz's desk despite the pain. "Tell me where to find him, and those days are over. Truth."
His friend pinned him with a sidelong look. "Have you got it locked down? If we do find him, I'm in no mood to let you get us dead because your head's somewhere else."
Rage burned in Bren's gut. "You'd better not be saying you don't want him dead, because that's exactly what he is. He just doesn't know it yet."
"Of course I want him dead." Cruz returned his attention to the wall, drilling down through the scrolling lists of data with practiced ease. "You're the one I'm hoping to keep in one piece, Donnelly."
"I'm not getting crazy or careless."
"Good." Cruz flicked his wrist, and four new spots lit up on the map, all of them ringing the main blast zone. "We're lucky Three is a fucking disaster. Not a lot of places fall within the common parameters with regards to resource access."
If these shipments had been as regular as Noah Lennox believed, there were even fewer places they hadn't used recently. "We'll hit them all if we have to."
"We should start here." Cruz stabbed a finger down on a dot glowing near the border of Two. "It's got tunnel access, it's close enough to leech off Two's power grid, and it's far enough west that no one's likely to notice the traffic."
No one but the people they'd snatched off the street to sell into servitude--or worse. Bren started to unwrap his left hand. "So let's check it out."
"Can you use those hands?"
He needed another application of med-gel and a few more hours of healing time, but it seemed like a luxury when Russell Miller could take his cargo and slip out of Sector Three, right under their noses. "I'll let you do the heavy lifting. Happy?"
"Oh, you can do the lifting." Cruz flexed his hands, and finally Bren saw his own rage reflected in the man's eyes. "I'll do the punching."
"Deal."
The place was deserted.
Not just empty, but thick with a layer of dust that told Bren no one had been there at all, maybe not for months. They hadn't missed their prey by hours or days; they were on the wrong fucking trail entirely.
He kicked an empty bottle with a frayed, faded label and swore. "Shitty luck of the draw, or did someone tip him off to our search?"
Cruz crouched in the doorway, his gaze fixed on the street beyond. "I'm working this with a fraction of the data I usually have. Shitty maps, no access to Eden's cameras. Could be nothing more than that."
Bren forced himself to take a deep breath. "Okay. Forget the number-crunching, then. You don't have cameras, what do you do? Talk to people, right?"
"Will people in a shithole like this tell the truth?"
"Maybe, maybe not. But we can't track him like an animal, and he's sure the hell not going to leave us a trail of breadcrumbs to--" The words caught in Bren's throat, colliding with his heart as it kicked up out of his chest. "It's backwards. We're doing this backwards."
Cruz rocked to his feet and turned. "Explain."
"We know how he operates. In a situation like this, he's bound to have help. The kind that comes straight off the streets of Sector Three."
"Thugs," Cruz agreed. "Disposable thugs."
"Thugs who know which poor bastards won't be missed if they up and disappear one day."
"Who do we know who could help us pick out the likeliest suspects?"
Six. Bren shoved the thought away. "There are a few men I could ask." He hesitated. "It's a riskier route. Might not lead us to Miller unless we time it right."
"But it could upset his operation," Cruz countered. "Fuck, Bren, I want him dead too, but shutting this down needs to come first. Worst-case scenario, you climb the walls someday soon and put a bullet in him from a mile away."
"No." He had things to say to Miller's face while he lay dying. Confessions to make. "I want to kill him close."
Cruz stilled. "Even if it risks your life?"
"It won't."
"If you're sure." He jerked his head toward the street. "The bar's mostly fixed up now. We can track down Riff, or maybe Elvis. Isn't he the one with all the black-market contacts?"
"Better to let Dallas do it." Everyone in Three had been wondering what price they'd have to pay for O'Kane's patronage and protection.
Might as well let them know.
When Bren finally dragged himself back to his room, Six was waiting for him.
She wasn't wearing sexy pants this time or thinking about jumping him. She'd been sitting cross-legged on the foot of his bed so long her legs had fallen asleep, but she was sure he'd make his way home sooner or later, and then they'd talk.
She hadn't expected the frustration that rolled off him in waves, or the way he slammed the door shut behind him. Everything about him had always screamed control, but now he tossed his jacket carelessly across a chair and didn't even notice when it slithered to the floor.
Even his greeting was distracted. "Hey."
"Hi." She straightened her legs and told herself she wasn't getting ready to bolt. "You okay?"
Instead of answering, he rubbed his hands over his face. "Who knows Sector Three best? You? One of the guys who worked for Trent?"
"Depends on what you want," she replied carefully. "I know the inner streets, the good places to loot or hide. But Elvis knows shit about the black market no one would ever tell me, and Cain knows about the outskirts of the sectors, and some of the closer farms."
Bren circled the bed and sank down on the mattress. "Elvis, then."
"For what? Do you need something black market?"
"What? No, it's--" He sighed and turned to face her. "Lennox uncovered a human trafficking operation in Three. He brought it to us so Dallas can stomp that shit out."
Her stomach twisted, the coincidence of it too much to wrap her mind around. But of course it wasn't coincidence at all--Noah had found the traffickers. For all she knew, setting Bren and Dallas on their trail was some sort of test. A way for him to judge how far to trust them.
A way to judge whether or not Bren had changed.
She wet her lips. "What are--who are they moving? And to where? Do you know?"
"Not yet, but I've seen things like this before. They snatch people off the streets in the sectors and ship them into Eden." His jaw tightened. "You don't want to know why."
There it was, the perfect, effortless opening. All she had to do was stumble into it, like she'd blurted out a hundred awkward, stupid things before. "I already know."
But he didn't notice. He just rose again and paced the length of the room. "Right next door--no, in Dallas's damn sector. He's fucking pissed."
She was sure Dallas was, but Bren was the one prowling the room. For the first time, she realized how completely she'd held his attention. Since the moment Trent had dragged her into his life, chained and fighting--always fighting--she'd been at the center of all that intense focus.
Now she was invisible.
It stung, but hurt feelings were bullshit compared to what was going down. If she had to give up the comfort of his attention to save people from the hell of being sold, he could ignore her all fucking night. What
ever he needed to get the job done. "Do you know anyone involved? Any of the guys in Three? I know where people like to hide."
"No," he said firmly. "If Elvis knows his way around this shit, we'll work with him. I don't want you involved."
That did more than sting. It wedged under her skin, an echo of all the times Trent had shut her down. "I'm not going to get in your way. I can help."
"I know that." He leaned over to cup her shoulders, his gaze intense. "I don't want you putting yourself in danger. I mean it."
"Some things are worth it, Bren."
"Agreed. And if we need you, I won't stop you from helping. I promise."
He was looking at her now, seeing her, and she braced herself to dig into his past, to do the one thing they never did--push for secrets.
She ended up giving him one instead. "That's how I ended up in Three. My family sent me to the man I was supposed to marry so the wives could train me in my duties, and I ran. And I was young and I didn't know how to live off the farms--"
Two days. That was how long she'd lasted before blundering into a trap no street kid would have fallen for. She'd been twelve, already an adult in some ways, but so hopelessly ignorant in all the ones that mattered.
Bren pulled her close, into the strong circle of his arms. "It's okay."
She closed her eyes and pressed her forehead to his shoulder. "Are they kids? Do you know?"
"There may not be anyone right now, all right? They're probably between shipments, that's why we didn't turn anything up."
"Bren?"
"I won't let them slip past us."
"And we'll get them free?"
"Every single one, sweetness."
She exhaled slowly and pushed Noah's message aside. Digging into the past was stupid when she had the proof she needed in the present. Bren, warm and solid and as gloriously dangerous as ever.
Easing back, she reached for his hands. "You hurt yourself. Do I need to get the medkit?"
"A couple of scratches. Jas took care of it."
She turned his hand over in her own and traced his palm. No sign of cuts or scars. The med-gel the O'Kanes possessed in seemingly limitless quantity was the kind of thing people killed for on the streets. Wounds disappeared like magic, leaving nothing behind.