The Ivy Lessons (Devoted, Book 1)

by J Lerman

  My stomach turns over as I think about that. He says he’ll take care of me, but punishment isn’t taking care of someone. When he talked about spanking me or tying me up, I admit it felt ... exciting. Okay, more than exciting. But to do anything like that for real ... I just don’t know.

  I check my watch. It’s noon and it’s Saturday. Noon! I don’t think I’ve ever slept in so long my whole life. I’m used to working most days of the week, and when I’m not, I’m taking care of Samuel or cleaning.

  I sit bolt upright. I should be getting the train back home to see Dad and Samuel. I pick up my phone and dial Dad’s number.

  He picks up straight away. ‘Hello love. How are you?’

  ‘I’m about to come down to visit,’ I say. ‘But I’m running a bit late -’

  ‘Don’t be silly.’ He cuts me off. ‘This is your first weekend at college. Get settled in. Get used to your new room. Spend time with the other pupils. I wouldn’t dream of you coming home.’

  ‘Okay,’ I say. ‘Thanks Dad.’

  What do students do on Saturday? I have no idea, but I need to do something to take my mind off Marc.

  I send Jen a text: I’ve just had a window into your life, Saturday with nothing to do!  xx

  She texts back straight away: You’ve only just woken up? Welcome to my world! MISS YOU BABES!! xxxx

  I smile, and head towards the cafeteria, but there’s something going on in the campus main square. Students are dressed in bright coloured wigs, painted like clowns and handcuffing themselves together.

  I see Tanya among them, and she comes running up to me. ‘Sophia! We were just about to come and get you.’

  I see Tom behind her wearing a bright blue fright wig. ‘Fetching, don’t you think?’ he says.

  ‘Very,’ I laugh, with a yawn. ‘Sorry. I just woke up.’

  ‘We’ve got one for you,’ says Tanya, running to a cardboard box and returning with a bright red wig.

  ‘What’s this all about?’ I ask.

  ‘Student Rag week,’ says Tom. ‘Raising and Giving. Which means we all dress up like arses, and roam the streets asking for money. Tied to each other.’

  I smile. ‘Sounds like fun.’ And a great way to distract myself from Marc.

  Tanya waves the wig at me ‘A new hairstyle for you.’

  A silly, vain part of me is glad Marc isn’t accommodated on campus. I’d be embarrassed for him to see me wearing this wig, but he’s not here, so when in Rome ...

  ‘Thanks,’ I say, tugging on the wig. ‘I guess I’ll be needing some make-up too.’

  ‘And a beer,’ says Tom, reaching into a cooler box and throwing me a can of fosters.

  ‘At midday?’

  ‘You’re a student now,’ says Tom. ‘Prepare for alcoholism. This is just breakfast.’

  He opens my can for me. ‘Drink, drink, drink!’

  ‘Okay, okay.’ I take a sip from the can.

  Ryan comes over with a bottle of evil looking bright red liquid and a plastic shot glass.

  ‘She needs a shot too,’ he says.

  ‘She’s only just woken up,’ says Tom. ‘Give her a chance, she can probably still taste the toothpaste.’

  ‘You just gave me a beer,’ I laugh.

  ‘Sophia, my love. It’s Fosters. It’s practically a soft drink.’

  ‘Take a shot,’ says Ryan, pouring red liquid into the shot glass. He fills it so high that liquid spills onto the floor and stains the concrete.

  ‘I’m surprised smoke isn’t coming off the floor, the look of that stuff,’ says Tanya. ‘Ryan, it’s too early.’

  ‘No, she needs a shot,’ says Ryan, pushing the glass towards me.

  I sigh. ‘Fine.’ I take the glass and down it, swallowing quickly so it doesn’t come back up again. Part of me wants to get a bit drunk today. Anything to forget about Marc and last night. My body is aching for him, but I know I won’t see him until Monday. And then, I don’t know what side of him I’ll be seeing ...

  I feel wobbly as the red liquid takes affect, and Ryan smiles. ‘There’s a good girl. Take your medicine.’

  Cecile comes marching up to him. ‘Ryan, what are you doing?’

  ‘Giving our little star pupil a shot. A little bit of truth serum. Maybe she can tell us what’s going on with her and Mr Blackwell.’

  ‘What?’ I say, feeling cold. Do they know about last night?

  ‘Cecile saw you coming out of the stationary cupboard, isn’t that right?’

  ‘What are you talking about?’ says Tanya. ‘Are you trying to start some horrible rumour? Why don’t you two just grow up.’

  ‘I saw her,’ says Cecile, with a smug smile. ‘She came out of the stationary cupboard, and Mr Blackwell was right behind her.’

  I stand there stupidly, not knowing what to say.

  ‘So?’ says Tanya. ‘What are you implying exactly?’

  ‘What do you think I’m implying?’ says Cecile. ‘Small-town Sophia is up to no good with the teacher.’

  ‘Which is exactly what you’d like to do, given half the chance,’ says Tanya. ‘You said as much on our first night here. You’re just jealous because Marc sees something in Sophia that he doesn’t see in you. Or maybe any of us. She’s got something – any idiot can see that.’

  ‘We’ve all got something,’ says Cecile. ‘That’s why we’re on this course. Why Mr Blackwell would favour her, unless she’s doing something she shouldn’t -’

  ‘Stop trying to start rumours,’ says Tanya. ‘There are plenty of reasons to go into a stationary cupboard. You’re letting your imagination run away with you.’

  ‘Yes, stop being ridiculous Cecile,’ says Tom. ‘You’re just jealous.’

  ‘Of her.’ Cecile practically spits the word. ‘Miss sweet and innocent? I don’t think so. Come on Ryan.’ She pulls him away.

  Chapter 30

  A tall female pupil with blonde hair shouts: ‘Okay, gang! Time to get tied up.’ She comes through the crowds with a box full of plastic handcuffs, giggling and passing them out. She pulls students back and forth, handcuffing students together. She slaps a sticker on each handcuffed student – one sticker says slave, the other says gladiator.

  ‘What’s going on?’ I ask Tanya.

  ‘The theme is gladiator and slave,’ says Tanya. ‘Which means whoever you’re handcuffed to is either in charge of you, or you’re in charge of them.’

  I feel a ripple of something in my stomach and between my legs, as I think of how Marc took charge of me last night.

  ‘So how does it work?’ I ask.

  ‘Whoever the gladiator is, they decide everything – where to go to raise money, when to stop for breaks, when the slave can go to the toilet, everything. But if you raise the least amount of money, then the gladiator gets thrown to the lions, as it were. They have to drink a gallon of beer in one go. Oh. Looks like I’m up.’

  Tanya turns to the smiling, blonde student.

  The student pulls Tanya away, and handcuffs her to Cecile. Neither of them look happy, until Tanya is given a sticker saying: gladiator. Then she smiles from ear to ear and winks at me.

  I stand close to Tom, hoping I’ll be handcuffed to him, but the blonde student is doing a good job of mixing everyone up. To my horror, she drags Ryan through the crowd towards me. She grabs my wrist.

  ‘I saw him chatting you up earlier,’ she says with a wink. ‘I always like to play matchmaker.’ She hands a fundraising bucket to Ryan, and adjusts his wig.

  Through the crowd, I see Tanya laughing and shaking her head. Cecile looks furious.

  I expect Ryan to complain. To say he doesn’t want to be near me. But he doesn’t say anything.

  The blonde pupil handcuffs us together. ‘There. You make a lovely couple. Now. Who should be gladiator and who should be slave?’ She looks from one of us to the other. ‘Oh wait – you’re the girl with a crush on Mr Blackwell, right?’

  ‘Why do you say that?’ I ask, going pale.

  ‘Cecile’s been tel
ling everyone that you won’t leave him alone. But I don’t blame you. I mean, who doesn’t have a crush on him?’

  I look at the floor. I guess it’s better people think that I’m some crazy, love sick pupil than they know the truth.

  Tom is handcuffed to a short, black-haired girl who looks smiley and good fun, and the two of them are soon chatting away, Tom roaring with laughter.

  I turn to Ryan, wondering what on earth we’re going to say to each other.

  ‘This is a turn up for the books,’ he says, an unpleasant smile on his lips. ‘I bet you’d prefer I was Marc Blackwell, though.’

  I take a sip of beer, not knowing what to say.

  ‘So it’s true then?’ says Ryan. His face is broad and flat, and for the first time I notice tiny gaps between his straight teeth.

  ‘What’s true?’ I ask.

  ‘That you’re obsessed with Marc Blackwell? That you have a crush on the teacher.’

  ‘I’m not obsessed with anyone,’ I say, but I know I’m lying to myself. All I’ve been able to think about since I got here is Marc, and thoughts of last night still send trembles down my legs.

  The handcuffed couples ahead of us start walking off campus.

  ‘Come on,’ says Ryan, tugging hard at my wrists. ‘We don’t want to be left behind, and I’m determined to win this. I won’t be the loser. And the couple who raises the most money by the end of the day win free drinks all evening at the campus bar.’

  ‘I don’t think I need any more to drink,’ I say, still feeling a little giddy from the shot.

  ‘You take the bucket, slave,’ says Ryan. ‘I’ll hold your beer.’

  ‘Fine,’ I say, passing my beer over. The charity bucket feels nice and light, but I know it’ll get heavy soon.

  Ryan tugs at my wrists. ‘I think we should go on the tube. Ask commuters for money.’

  ‘While we’re handcuffed together?’

  ‘Don’t answer back to me, slave. It’ll give us the best chance of winning.’

  ‘You’re taking this whole gladiator thing a little too seriously,’ I say. ‘Isn’t the tube a little bit unsafe?’ I want to add: since we’re tied together and you’re clearly already drunk.

  ‘It’ll be fine.’ Ryan downs my beer, and shouts at the blonde pupil: ‘Rachel, another beer. I’m dry.’ He throws the empty can on the floor.

  ‘Please would be nice,’ Rachel says, as she throws him a beer from the ice box.

  ‘One isn’t going to last me five minutes,’ says Ryan.

  ‘Alcoholic in the making, I like it!’ says Rachel, handing him another beer. Ryan stuffs it in the pocket of his cargo trousers.

  ‘Okay, team,’ says Rachel. ‘Let’s get going.’

  Ryan drinks half the new can in one go, and I notice he’s swaying slightly.

  ‘Do you think you’d better take it a bit easy?’ I whisper.

  ‘No I don’t,’ he says, chugging more beer, and pulling at the handcuffs.

  I follow him and the other couples through the campus grounds, and onto the streets of London. We walk past Great Ormond Street Hospital, and towards High Holborn, where crowds of people are flowing back and forth.

  Ryan is unsteady on his feet, and nearly pulls me over a few times. I’m left scrabbling to stay steady as he walks without the slightest regard for the fact someone is attached to him.

  ‘Wait, please, you’re going to fast,’ I say, the bucket swinging in my hand.

  ‘If we’re not fast, we won’t win,’ says Ryan. ‘Where’s your killer instinct?’

  ‘I don’t have one,’ I say. ‘We’re raising money for charity, not running a marathon.’

  ‘Well I want to win,’ he says. ‘And I’m in charge of you. So you’ll do as I say and walk at my pace.’

  I stumble behind him. When he sees Holborn tube station he drags us towards the steps that say: ‘No Entry’.

  ‘Get out of the way,’ he shouts, as streams of passengers emerge from the dark mouth of station. ‘We’re on student rag week. For charity.’

  He pulls me down and through the crowds, but I trip and fall on the first step, and tumble down the rest, landing on my rear end at the bottom. The bucket clatters away.

  ‘Ouch,’ I say.

  ‘You dropped the bucket,’ says Ryan, dragging me across the floor.

  ‘Wait,’ I shout. ‘Please, let me stand up.’

  Chapter 31

  Some passengers come to my defence, and I hear an elderly woman berating Ryan for going after the bucket.

  ‘Let her stand up, young man. Can’t you see you’re hurting her? And what are you doing drinking at this time of the day? You should be ashamed of yourself.’

  Ryan looks at the woman with angry, red-rimmed eyes. ‘Mind your own business.’

  ‘Are you okay dear?’ the woman asks me, as I struggle to my feet. My ankle feels sore, but okay.

  ‘Just a little bump,’ I say. ‘I’m fine. Really.’

  Ryan uses his oyster card at the tube barriers, then bundles us both through. The gates catch on my arm. Double ouch. I never knew they shut so hard.

  ‘Don’t drop the bucket,’ Ryan shouts.

  The gates open again, sensing an obstruction, and I’m free to be pulled towards the escalator by an unsteady Ryan. I hold tight to the moving handrail, and when we reach the platform, a train is just about to leave.

  ‘We can make it,’ Ryan shouts, tugging me behind him.

  ‘No, please Ryan. Wait.’

  ‘Do as you’re told.’ He mounts the crowded tube train and tries to pull me on, but the doors are closing. There are tuts from passengers as Ryan jostles them aside.

  ‘Just climb on the bloody train,’ Ryan says. ‘You’re so slow. I’m not going to lose.’

  ‘Ryan, please. There’s no room’ I’m terrified the doors will shut between our arms and the handcuffs, and the train will carry Ryan away on one side, and drag me along on the outside, ripping my arm off in the process.

  ‘I’ll make room,’ says Ryan, pushing people out of the way, and pulling me onto the train just as the doors close.

  The doors slam into each of my arms, but I grip the bucket tightly this time. It’s so embarrassing. Then the doors reopen and I squash myself into the other passengers, apologising the whole time.

  ‘Rag week,’ Ryan shouts. ‘Give us your donations.’

  Not surprisingly, no one is happy to part with any money after what they’ve just seen, especially since it’s so clear Ryan is very drunk.

  We wander up and down the train for the next hour, but Ryan certainly doesn’t have a winning manner and every time I ask anyone for money, he shouts: ‘Be quiet, slave.’

  When Ryan’s beer runs out, he drags me up to the street so he can find a supermarket.

  He’s pleased to see a Tesco Metro, and pulls me into the cold drink aisles, throwing cans of Stella into the crook of his arm.

  ‘I need the toilet,’ I say. ‘Can we find somewhere nearby?’

  ‘What are you drinking, slave?’

  ‘Just a coke,’ I say.

  ‘I order you to drink something alcoholic,’ says Ryan.

  ‘Well I won’t,’ I reply.

  ‘Fine. If you won’t get drunk with me, no toilet breaks.’

  ‘Oh for goodness sakes,’ I say. ‘Don’t be ridiculous.’ I tug at the plastic handcuffs but they’re surprisingly firm. I’d need a pair of pliers to break them open.

  ‘You’re stuck with me,’ says Ryan smugly. He pauses for a moment, and blinks in a languid, drunk way. Then he appears to have a change of heart. ‘Okay, fine, have a coke.’

  ‘Can we find a toilet after this?’

  ‘Yes.’

  He takes the drinks towards the till, then pulls me into a nearby pub and up some stairs to a ladies toilet.

  ‘This is embarrassing,’ I mutter, going into a cubicle and closing the door over the plastic handcuff chain.

  ‘I won’t peak, I promise,’ says Ryan.

  I hear two drinks
being opening, and roll my eyes. ‘Ryan, we’re never going to win if you’re falling all over the place.’ This is awful. It’s like being chained to a six-year old child.

  There’s a fizzing sound, and I wonder if Ryan has spilt his drink.

  ‘Are you managing okay in there one handed?’ Ryan asks. ‘You don’t want me to wipe for you?’

  ‘Oh, be quiet,’ I say, pulling up my jeans and flushing the toilet.

  I wash my hands, and then Ryan hands me my coke.

  ‘Thanks,’ I say, noticing that he’s opened it for me. ‘That’s the first thoughtful thing you’ve done all day.’

  Chapter 32

  Half an hour later, I’m not feeling good. Ryan’s dragged me up and down Oxford Street, thrusting the charity bucket in people’s faces. We see a few of our fellow students, their buckets rattling with money, but we’re barely collected more than a few pounds.

  My heart is pounding, and I lean against a wall. ‘Wait,’ I say. ‘Please, Ryan, I’m serious. I need to rest.’ The world begins to spin, suddenly, and my head hurts.

  Ryan looks at me strangely. ‘What’s wrong?’ he asks. ‘Aren’t you feeling good? You should be.’

  I sink to the floor against a brick wall, not caring where I am or who’s looking at me. The pounding in my heart is overtaking everything, and I feel frightened.

  ‘You’re bleeding,’ Ryan says.

  ‘I am?’ I say, dazed. ‘Where?’

  ‘From your nose.’

  I put my hand under my nose and see blurry blood on my hand. Then I pass out.

  When I wake up, I see a white ceiling. I look down and discover I’m under green bedclothes. My body aches and my head hurts. I try to sit up, and see a large lady in a nurse’s uniform come towards my bed.

  She takes my hand. ‘You’re alright. You’re just in A&E, that’s all. Nothing to worry about.’

  ‘What happened?’ I ask.

  ‘You tell us,’ she says, with a knowing smile. ‘You’ve taken something you shouldn’t, and it had something nasty in it. Nothing too harmful, we don’t think, but better we keep an eye on you.’

  ‘Taken something?’

  The nurse raises an eyebrow. ‘You may as well be honest about it, love. The more honest you are, the more we can help you.’