It’s easier to drown your temporary sorrow while wearing terry cloth.
Flopping down on the bed, I crack open my book again.
A little while later the door creaks, then it slides open with a loud, demanding groan. Laughter spills into the room. A man with a soft lilt to his English accent says, “I’ll make your last night so worth it.”
Worth it.
Those words resonate with me.
Trysts can make a night worthwhile. Can make a moment sing.
I’m glad Veronica’s going to have a fabulous night.
Even if it means my game plan has changed.
They stumble around the corner, and I wave at Veronica and Lars. Her lipstick is smeared. I hold up a hand before she can even breathe a word. “I’ll go make myself scarce in the lobby bar.”
“You’re a saint,” Lars says to me with a flirty smile. “A French saint. And she’s a French angel.”
“I don’t think she’s an angel, Lars,” I say.
“Even better.” He buries his face against her neck, smothering her skin in kisses.
“You don’t mind?” Veronica’s breath catches. “Oh my.”
That last comment was not meant for me.
“Enjoy yourself. Seize the night.”
“I will,” she says breathily. “Did you already seize yours?”
“He didn’t show.”
She knits her brow. “He didn’t?”
“Trust me, I scanned all of Jane for my handstander,” I say, tugging on panties and leggings under the robe, then dipping into the bathroom to pull on a sweatshirt.
When I pop out, Lars lifts his chin at me. “Did you go to Jane the bistro, or The Jane, the hip, trendy lounge bar that’s supposed to be popular with French ex-pats down on Kronerghaven?”
I freeze. “Are you kidding me? There are two Janes?”
Lars laughs, as he yanks Veronica impossibly closer. “It’s such an easy name to say and to spell. It was good for the tourists. But the newest one is The Jane.”
Veronica gasps and jumps up and down. “You know he went to the other Jane. You could still go and find him.”
Her excitement is adorable and thoroughly misplaced. I shake my head. “It’s eleven thirty. Have fun. Good night.”
“Bonsoir,” Lars says, a dirty sound to his voice that makes it clear he intends to give Veronica a hefty dose of bonsoir.
Grabbing my book, my glasses, and my phone, I head to the bar.
I’ve no interest in drinking though, so I find an empty chair at the edge of the lobby bar and tuck my feet under my legs.
I read till one in the morning.
With no sign of Veronica, I head to the front desk. “Do you have any extra rooms tonight?”
A ponytailed attendant smiles, taps the keyboard, then frowns. “We are all sold out.”
“Are you sure?”
“So sorry. But yes, I’m sure.”
I return to my chair. Surely, Veronica can’t go all night long.
But at two thirty, it’s still me and my book.
I yawn, barely able to stay awake anymore. My eyes flutter closed, and before I know it, I sit bolt upright at five thirty, greeted by the blazingly bright morning sun, and a massive crick in my neck, having spent the night curled up in an uncomfortable emerald green leather chair in the lobby of my hotel.
But it was worth it, evidently, I learn when I return to the room, greeted by a contrite but glowing Veronica.
“I’m so sorry I didn’t fetch you. We were busy, and then we were busy again, and then I crashed, and I’m the worst friend in the world.”
“Don’t even think twice about it. I’m glad you were—wink, wink—busy,” I say as we pack.
“I’m terrible. But you truly are a saint,” Veronica declares as she stuffs clothes and makeup hastily in her bag.
“I’ll be awaiting my official canonization any day, then.”
Sitting back on her heels, she tugs the zipper with vigor, sealing her suitcase. She grabs her phone when it buzzes, then scans the message as I check and double-check that my passport is secure.
“Eek! The airline gave me a first-class upgrade.”
“Lucky you.”
She dances her way over to me, her eyes twinkling. “No. Lucky you. It’s my gift to you for the valorous act of compassion you performed last night for me.”
“No, I can’t,” I say, but I can, I truly can.
“I insist.”
Twisting my tired arm won’t be hard. “Really?”
“Take it. You deserve it.”
All the way to the airport, Veronica tells me it was the best sex of her life. The best night of her life. The most interesting man she’s ever met. She can’t stop smiling. She can’t stop beaming. “I’m happy, Elise. I’m ridiculously happy.”
Happy.
What does it take to be happy anymore?
“Will you see him again?”
She laughs, shaking her head. “Doubtful. He’s a boat captain in Denmark. I’m a candy-maker in France.” Veronica runs a handful of popular artisan candy shops in Paris. “Besides, I don’t need something to last to make me happy. I don’t even need something to happen twice for me to enjoy it. Though, let me tell you, it was three times.”
She’s brimming over in the morning-after glow of great sex, buzzed on the lingering effects. I know too well what that’s like, to be so blissed out that anything feels possible.
Turning, I stare out the window as the brick buildings and cobbled pedestrian streets give way to sleeker, more modern structures. I wonder how I should live my life now—a year after everything with Eduardo fell to pieces. Like Veronica, daring and wild? Or perhaps like me, the woman who lubricated a magical kind of night for a friend?
She’s glowing. I’m thinking.
She’s bubbling. I’m contemplating.
Who do I want to be?
When we reach the airport, make our way through security, and step onto the plane, I sink into a plush, first-class seat.
It’s so lush, so comfortable, and so precisely what I need.
I sigh happily, then laugh at myself. My friend is on cloud nine from orgasms. I’m walking on air from a leather seat.
Maybe last night wasn’t such a loss after all. Maybe it was the start of starting over.
As a spectator.
As the sidekick.
As the friend who sleeps in the lobby so one of her besties can seize the day.
Yes, that’s the better path for me. I have a business to run, a company to shore up, and a heart that I won’t let out to play again. Life is for living well, not loving well.
I shut my eyes, briefly wondering if I’ll ever see the man from the dock again.
The world doesn’t work like that. You only see a naked handstander once.
That’s just how life is.
4
Christian
The night they were supposed to meet
* * *
Win some. Lose some.
After an hour at The Jane, during which I engage in several heated discussions with other patrons about football, European-style; the best digital currency to invest in; and finally, the astounding versatility of eggs as a food topping—you can slap a fried egg on rice, pizza, a crepe, noodles, and so on—I resign myself to reality.
My little mermaid isn’t coming.
Grabbing my pint, I down the remainder of the beverage and set the glass on the bar.
Maybe one last scan.
I survey the sleek bar with its chaise lounges and royal-blue couches. Tall men and women have poured themselves over the cushions, clinking glasses, chatting, flirting.
None look like the woman from the boat.
“C’est la vie,” I tell the bartender.
He nods knowingly and repeats the saying. He has no clue what it means to me in this moment. But he’s a good bartender, so he agrees.
Maybe it was foolish to think she might actually show up. The woman did add a perhaps befor
e she said she’d see me. There’s hardly a more noncommittal word in the English language than perhaps.
My gaze drifts to my phone by force of habit, as if there might be a text telling me she’s late, but she promises to be here any minute. As if she’ll say I can’t wait to see your sexy arse.
But of course she sends no text because she doesn’t have my number.
This was just a lark.
I toss some money on the counter and head out. I stroll along the canal, through Nyhavn, passing the colorful homes, including the one where Hans Christian Andersen penned his most famous fairy tales, like “The Princess and the Pea.” Across the bridge, I wind my way through the quieter streets to my place.
I bought this modern two-bedroom home when I had business in this city relatively often. But I also liked being near my mum, and my grandfather too, especially since, as tough as he is, his health has been touch and go lately. In my humble opinion, it’s his spirits that are bringing him down. They’ve dampened, understandably, since our grandmother passed away a year ago.
I slide the key in the lock, go in, and flick on a hall light to find Erik sprawled out on the couch, snoozing. A glossy magazine is in his hands, sliding through his fingers, as if he was reading it mere moments ago. It falls to the hardwood where it hits with a gentle thud. He flinches, as if he’s about to wake up, but instead flips to his side, still snoozing.
Quietly, I pad over to him and pick it up, since I’m not fond of messy homes. He’s been reading an article on Copenhagen nightlife, and I peruse it quickly.
The Jane, not to be confused with the little bistro Jane, is a happening joint.
I groan as I toss the magazine on the coffee table.
Jane.
I bet that’s where the little mermaid went tonight. Jane, not The Jane.
I can’t believe I forgot about that little eatery and its nefarious plans to trip me up tonight. Damn. I’m losing my touch.
I shrug as I head to my room. What can you do?
I’ll never see her again.
* * *
After I brush my teeth, my phone buzzes.
A bolt of tension shoots through me. Phone calls this late can only bring bad news. Perhaps it’s Grandfather. Perhaps it’s another frantic call from my mum that his health has taken a turn for the worse.
But the number is a Paris one. I answer it.
“Is this Christian Ellison?” It’s a man’s voice, a French accent to his English.
“Yes, this is he. How can I help you?”
“This is Jean-Paul at the Capstone Language Institute. Sorry for the late hour, but your name was given to me by Griffin Thomas,” he says, mentioning my good friend.
Griffin and I went to school together in London, and he recently moved to Paris. He’s been telling me to put my language skills to use. Griffin says it’s an affront to the universe if I don’t share them, so he must have passed on my name. I didn’t learn six languages to not use them. I studied my arse off from the age of five so I’d never be without the ability to communicate.
“Tell me more,” I say to the man on the phone.
Jean-Paul gives me the basics of the assignment. A large multi-national company with business interests across the globe is hosting a conference in Paris, and yada, yada, yada. That’s all I need to know. Business, multinational, partnerships—those words whet my appetite. Besides, my calendar has been mockingly empty, longing to be filled.
“Can I lure you out of retirement?”
He barely needs to ask once. “When does it start? A week?”
“Monday,” he says, his voice nervous. “I’d need you on a plane to Paris tomorrow. The eleven a.m. flight.”
“Consider it done.”
A burst of excitement zips through me. I have something to do. Somewhere to be. I text my mates that I’ll miss drinks tomorrow night, and I’m not bothered when they text back that there’s no way in hell they’ll let me cash in another time.
The next morning, I sling a duffel bag on my shoulder and head to the airport.
When I retired a year ago, flush with cash from the sale of most of my holdings, I imagined that my greatest goal would be to do what I wanted any second of the day.
To live life to the fullest.
To climb mountains, sail the seas, wander the streets and take leisurely lunches, meet lovely and brilliant women and entertain them with my tongue and other talents all night long. Don’t get me wrong. I’ve enjoyed all of it, yet there’s nothing quite as fulfilling as, well, filling my days.
As I head down the Jetway and onto the plane, I glance briefly to the left, checking out the first-class section. That used to be my stomping ground. First-class everywhere, a champagne and caviar lifestyle. I wouldn’t complain about a cushy seat in one of the first rows, but since Capstone is flying me over, I’ll spend the short flight in economy.
I turn the other way to find my seat, then stop in my tracks, the strangest thought flickering through my head. I whip my gaze back, peering at the second row in first class. A petite brunette with black cat eye glasses reminds me vaguely of the woman from yesterday. She’s sound asleep, and I can only see her profile. But it scratches an itch in my mind, and I can’t stop wondering if it’s her.
“Excuse me, sir. Can I help you find your seat?” The flight attendant asks kindly but pointedly too. Move along. There’s nothing to see here.
I point to the back of the jet. “I’m all good.”
I shake away the crazy thoughts. My brain is playing tricks on me. That’s not her, and there’s no way I’ll see her again, no way she’d be on the same plane.
As we fly over Germany, I let the date that never was fall out of my head.
I don’t think about her any longer.
* * *
For the next year, I enjoy the hell out of having something to do nearly every day. Something I love. Something that keeps me more than busy—something that brings me pleasure.
Talking.
I’ve always loved to talk. To tell stories. To chat, whether with strangers or friends, business partners or adversaries, my family or the women I’ve dated and sometimes become entangled with. Talking about anything and nothing is one of my greatest pleasures.
Griffin was right. I do love translating, and I love Paris, and I love the life I’ve carved out as I bounce from assignment to assignment, translating for French, Danish, Swedish, and other companies that need my expertise, picking up jobs as I want them, enjoying evenings out with friends in the City of Lights.
The best part? My brother, Erik, moves to Paris with his wife, and works feverishly to expand the firm and strike new deals. That keeps me occupied too, since he lets me dip my fingers in the pie now and then and help him bake the partnerships to the right temperature.
I don’t mind helping him. He’s the reason I have two homes, a fat bank account, and the choice to live my life the way I want. I owe all my success to him.
It’s a brilliant year as I turn 30, with one exception.
For one dark month, I return to Copenhagen to mourn the loss of my grandfather when he passes away at the ripe old age of ninety.
We cry, and we comfort our mum, but mostly we remember how good he was at being human.
Then, I see her again.
5
Elise
Nearly three years ago . . .
* * *
Stop and Smell the Days blog
* * *
December 12: The enticing scents of cedar and smoke, and being swept off your feet
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My lovelies . . .
* * *
We must talk about the allure of cedar. Do you know the way your senses tingle when you inhale that fresh, woodsy scent?
You picture newness. You feel first times.
That’s where I am now, in the throes of early enchantment since I’ve met someone. I met him at a bistro in The Marais when I was dining alone. He was too. Isn’t there something about a man who dines alo
ne that intrigues you? It intrigued me. It takes a certain confidence to stroll into an establishment and ask for a table, party of one.
His eyes strayed toward me from time to time as he drank his wine. He looked at me with such intensity that my skin warmed all over.
When at last he rose, walked over, and asked if he could join me, my nose tingled as I inhaled him. His scent, cedar and a hint of sweet smoke, was the kindling. I was the match. He was nighttime and the notion that a feeling can last forever.
After that night, I dabbed some “Daring” behind my ears. It’s a brand-new scent, and it’ll always remind me how I felt when I met him.
Like fire and hot urgent kisses.
Until the next time. May your nights be daring too.
* * *
Yours in noses,
A Scentsual Woman
6
Elise
Present day
* * *
My heels clack against the sidewalk as I exit the metro in Oberkampf, on my way to meet friends. I wonder what Joy’s new beau will be like. He seems like a stand-up fellow, so enchanting.
But I thought that about Eduardo too. We were all enchanted by him, including my followers, from back when I used to weave stories about him into my perfume blog—a blog I rarely write anymore. He’d cast a spell far and wide, across continents.
Flicking memories of him away, I stroll past Annalise & Charlie, doing a quick scan of the windows at one of my favorite boutiques. My gaze lands on a pair of candy-pink shoes with a strap over the instep.
“I’ll be back for you,” I whisper to the shoes, because shoes can’t hurt your heart.
When I reach the hotel, the doorman nods in greeting, swinging open the door with Hotel Particulier Tenth calligraphed across the gleaming glass. I’m early, and that’s by design. I say hello to the owner, Armand, who’s working at the front desk. He’s also a new client.
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