“Stop it. You’re stuck in your head. I want you stuck here with me. All these things you’re worrying about, there’s a fix for everything. We can figure it out. You took the biggest step when you invited me just now. That was huge and I know that.” He felt her wiggle onto his thigh. Oh, fuck.
She made sense but he couldn’t stop the thoughts from coming as they rubbed against each other. He found a new spot to kiss her and his cock jumped when he felt the goose bumps he’d just given her. Her hard nipples scraped against his chest and he groaned inside. Still, the world hadn’t wanted Stefan to be a father to his own child and so that baby had died in Amanda’s belly. Who the fuck was he to think he had any right to this man’s baby?
His mom was right. Just like she’d been when she asked Stefan to move out on his eighteenth birthday. The whole town had thought he was a shameful, selfish asshole. He wasn’t back then but he’d sure grown into one. In a bitter twist, he knew he was no different than his dad. Better or worse didn’t matter. He’d strung Dani along just like Dad had done to Mom. To get what he wanted, he’d strung her along this whole visit with what? The promise of one great night of sex? Her nipples, dark and rosy, held his attention. And then he’d gone and asked her for something she should never do. To put her trust in him and join his crazy life.
“Saying yes, it makes you as selfish as me. I can’t make you like me, Dani.”
New tears welled up in her eyes and fell when she blinked.
“Hey, hey, shhhh. Don’t cry. It’s okay. I shouldn’t have asked.” He wiped away her new tears and kissed her cheekbone.
“You’re taking it back and pulling away.” Her face broke his heart. “If it’s because I asked you to wait … Two months. Three max. That’s all I’m asking you for,” she said to him, killing him with that pained look and her shiny eyes. “I am willing to try this if you are. Are you, Stefan?” Her brows hiked up with her question.
Her hope gave him a glimmer of it too. But she needed someone who would be with her forever. A partner for life. Could he be that for her?
“I’ll be on the road in two months. You’ll have to get settled in all on your own. I won’t have any time to help.” She’d be so pregnant by then.
“Oh.” Her face fell. He was such a dick.
“Sweetheart, I meant that of course I’ll wait. I just wanted to be there, you know. I’m not a very patient man. And I don’t like to share what’s mine.” Stefan took her face in his hands and kissed her nose, aware he was slowly committing to her. “I also can’t lie to you. Dani, you deserve someone who wants to make love to you, and I do. But I also still want to fuck you, sweetheart. Does that sound like the kind of boyfriend you want? Huh? Tell me the truth.”
“What about all we’ve been through in the last week makes you think you can say that to me? Huh?” Her forehead wrinkled with the honest question. He smoothed the lines with his thumbs and kissed each of her eyebrows, remembering when he’d used those words on her.
“You’re right. Let me make it up to you.” Stefan caressed the top swells of her hips and then slid her panties down and off. He helped her into the tub and reset the jets. They fired up but all he could see was the hour glass of a woman he was following after. He held her hand so she didn’t slip and then scooted her down to sit between his legs. On her own, she scooted until her back melted into his chest. This felt so right. He wanted to try.
“Dani,” he kissed the top and sides of her hair, she had so much of it and it smelled like coconut heaven. “The reason I couldn’t answer you earlier, about being on tour.”
“Yes?” Her hand floated over the water and found his. She caught it and laced their fingers together. “Why Stefan? What was going on there?”
“I haven’t had a monogamous relationship since I was sixteen years old.”
“Oh. Wow.”
Their passion was still thick but he found talking to her while he touched her a major turn on. Even with the heaviness. He played with her hair both on top of her head and hidden between her legs.
“Yeah, and thanks by the way. Disturbing, right?”
“Sorry. No. It’s just a long time to go without someone steady. Someone you can count on.” Dani ran her fingers up and down his arms. “So what happened that scared you off relationships so badly? And lest I remind you my ass just got dumped via email so…”
“Message received, wise ass.” But he loved her for it. “You’ve heard me talk about Amanda. She was fourteen, I was sixteen. We’d known each other since kindergarten. Small town stuff, you know how that goes.” Dani shook her head that she did and crooked her head to look at him. Her gentle smile encouraged him to go on.
This was friendship. This was what he craved with her. This was what Will was talking about.
“How long did you and Amanda date?”
“She asked me to the Sadie Hawkins dance in seventh grade. Well, she was in seventh grade. I was already a freshman but I went because she was cute and her parents were friends with mine. We had a good time. I kissed her. She slapped me. But then about a year later I asked her out again.”
“I bet she said yes. I bet she couldn’t resist you.”
“She did say yes. She also slept with me that first night.”
“Well that’s no surprise. Were you guys each other’s firsts?”
“It was her first time but I’d already been with someone.”
Stefan needed inside Dani. He wanted her riding him while the water sloshed wherever the hell it felt like it. He washed her skin with his hands, wetting where she was dry and watching the water run its way back down her body.
“Let me guess. Babysitter? Librarian?”
He maneuvered so that he lay back against the tub’s edge and pulled her to him. “Babysitter. Come here. Sit on my stomach.” She did and he realized he didn’t like being in the bath water because he wanted to feel her wetness rubbing against his abs with no mistake of whether it was her or the water.
“Oh Hon, you know I’m only teasing, right?”
“I do and I like it. I have a friend, her name is Tris. She’d love that you call me that.”
Dani smiled and he must have embarrassed her because her cheeks looked like the roses he’d spent all day drowning in. He could drown in her right now. “So what all happened with Amanda then? I’ve been curious but didn’t want to pry.” she asked him, skipping over what he’d shared about Tris and rubbing her hairs against his. He pressed down on her ass cheeks, guiding her and keeping her off his hard on for now. He realized Tris, Jaxon, Benny, they were his family and he wanted them all to know Dani. Yeah, he guessed he could see where that would make even his little firecracker a little nervous.
“We went steady that year. Like any other horny sixteen year old, I found ways for us to be together. I had heard from my buddy that as long as I always pulled out before I came that I wouldn’t get her pregnant. It worked for a whole year but one night my stupidity caught up with me. I did get her pregnant. When she told me, I was scared shitless but I promised to help her anyway I could. I loved her as much as any sixteen year old dumb ass could.”
“Did you have a job or anything? Did you guys tell your parents?” Her back arched when he toyed with her nipples and she continued to ride his stomach. Fuck, he needed to get them out of this tub.
“I got a job fast. My high school music teacher ran the Moonlight Emporium so he hired me to work on the weekends and during the summer, cleaning up and helping stock the instruments that came in for repair from the schools. It wasn’t much but it was something.”
“It sounds like you had a plan. A good one for such a young kid. So what happened?”
“I thought I was running things. I had a part-time job which I was willing to make full-time when I quit school, a girlfriend and a baby on the way. I felt like a man. Then one day Amanda came crying to me that she couldn’t see me anymore. Said she hated me. Unfortunately, she yelled this during dinner with my parents at our house. Thinking back, I’
m sure her parents found out she was pregnant and gave her crap about being with me. Shit, I might as well tell you now that my dad had been seeing someone else behind Mom’s back and the whole town knew about it.”
Dani’s hot ass riding of his abs went still and she brought her knees up. “No way. Really?”
“Yeah. People didn’t talk much because they liked my mom but I know they knew. They looked at me and dad like we were scum. Amanda’s parents had to have hated that their baby girl got mixed up with a Calderon. Well, long story short, about a week later my parents had their answer to why Amanda had freaked out on me at dinner that night. Her mom called to tell my mom about the pregnancy, the miscarriage and that she should be ashamed of having me as her son.”
“But I don’t get it. You had a job. You stayed with Amanda.”
That was it. He loved talking like this with her but he was done with the bath. “Come here, sweetheart. I’ll tell you more but first you’re going to have to come with me.”
Stefan wrapped her in a jumbo towel and grabbed one for himself. The way her eyes watched him so intently kept his cock stiff. Rather than wrapping himself in the towel, he just dried himself off then left his on the floor. He led her to the studio butt naked and felt her eyes on him the whole way. His cock shot out in front of him, hard and ready to finally make its way inside her.
“Here we are.”
“Your room with the padded walls,” she said with a shy smile.
“None of that coy crap. I know you better than that.”
“There’s no bed.”
“We don’t need one.”
He led her to the thick white rug next to a rack made for his basses. He laid down first on his back. “I want you to ride me again. That was so fucking hot. You had my cock so hard in the tub.”
“Had?”
She took him in her hand which made her towel fall around them.
Then she lowered her head to take the head of his cock into her mouth. “I don’t think so,” he told her, pulling her up to his face. “You’re not tricking me like that again. The only place my cock is hanging out tonight is inside you.”
“Inside me where, Hon?”
“You know where.” For some reason, he didn’t want to say the P word. Never in his life had he not wanted to say the fucking P word. “In here.” He inserted a couple of fingers inside her and watched her jaw fall unhitched.
Dani pulled him by the wrist until his fingers were outside of her. “You’re not getting in there until you finish telling me about what we were talking about.”
He chuckled. Had she forgotten where they’d left off too?
“That’s gonna have to wait. You still haven’t made good on one of your promises to me.”
Her eyebrows pulled together and he loved watching her think so hard.
“Let me help you out.”
Carefully, he wrapped his arm behind her neck and maneuvered them until she was the one on her back with open legs and spilling breasts. He kissed her nose and then licked his way down her sides with his tongue and lips, always with his eyes open and on her face, until he was there. The place he’d been desperate to taste since that first day.
“This.”
He wanted his eyes locked on hers but at this angle, couldn’t see her face for her baby bump. Stefan watched her hands instead as they fished the white shaggy rug. That was just as telling. He ran his tongue up the seam of her lips. Her grip loosened and then tightened again when he licked her with his full tongue. Her flesh stuck to him as he tongued her harder and deeper, adding his teeth. He kept his glance sideways on her hands and smiled when her fingers stretched so wide the tendons and bones of her hand showed.
“I want to suck you in and drink you,” he said then blew over the moist pink skin of her pussy. There, he had his favorite word back.
So quick he couldn’t follow, only chuckle, her hands left the rug and clapped both sides of his head. “Ouch,” he said.
Immediately her fingers combed through his hair and she soothed and rubbed his head. “Sorry but you deserved that,” she said and let out a sexy sigh.
“No I didn’t.” He smiled, knowing she couldn’t see him doing it but confident she knew he was playing. He took a second and left her wetness to lay a kiss on the inside of her thigh that kept bumping the side of his head whenever he nibbled her. “But I liked it.” He sucked the skin of her thigh in hard and kept at it until he knew he’d left a little mark on her. She squirmed some more and her hands fisted in his hair but the pain was the good kind and also reminded him how fucking hard he was for her.
Stefan nuzzled his way back to her sweet pussy. “Did I ever tell you about this girl who said I couldn’t make her come?”
He heard her laugh. “I heard she—”
But when he thrust his shoulders up against the backs of her thighs, giving her legs no choice but to cradle his head and pushed his face so hard up against her pussy and growled, she went silent. Except for one little nearly orgasmic mewl. He then reached his arms around her hips and held her immobile at her sides while he engorged himself on her, sucking and kissing so hard and furiously like he’d been starving.
“Stefan—I”
There would be no answer for her now because he wasn’t relenting. His tongue felt too good swirling inside her the deeper he went, the harder he pushed his face and the more he worked his mouth on her. Every time he swallowed, he knew he was taking bits of her inside him. After he was done, her pussy would smell like him and he would smell like her. Don’t you ever let anyone else in this spot, Dani, my spot. He’d never cared about that with anyone else.
He could have gone on all night but after only a few more thrusts of his tongue, she began to climax. He let her hips buck wildly up into his face as he continued to hold her by the hips.
“I was wrong, so wrong,” she cried out and fisted his hair so tight in her small hands.
He still couldn’t talk because he knew it was coming and would not miss it. And finally he had it, not the virginal popping of a cherry but the heady womanly gushing when all her body knew to do in that split second was bundle up and explode. Different from the taste of the moisture that coated her outer folds, this little drop of pure sex burst onto his tongue. He relaxed and held still, letting it absorb into his taste buds. It wasn’t sweet. He had no taste for that. This was Dani. That was the only way to describe it. People didn’t try to describe salt any other way than to call it salty. It was the same with a woman’s pleasure burst. He let his forehead fall against her soft mesh of short dark hairs and hugged her legs against the sides of his head while he came back down to planet earth.
“Ahem, so what were we talking about, sweetheart?” he whispered and kissed the mark he’d left on her inner thigh, branding her as his.
“Um, Amanda’s parents…” Her neck stretched again. He continued caressing her with his fingers, aware she liked his rough touch, even though he was being gentle now. He was about to have his own orgasm just watching her enjoy his touch freely for the first time. He realized now how much she’d been holding back in at the truck stop.
“For the record, I’ve never talked this much during sex. You’re amazing, sweetheart.” Stefan was in no way done with her but didn’t mind the breaks for sharing with her. It was stuff she needed to know. He kissed his way up her body. She searched for his hand until he squeezed hers in his. “But yeah, what parent in their right mind is going to trust a kid with their baby girl? I wouldn’t have either. Amanda lost the baby. The last time I talked to her was about a month later. She told me things probably wouldn’t have worked out. Shit, she was probably right but I never got the chance to prove her wrong.”
“I’m so sorry,” Dani said in that voice of hers that soothed him. The climax had relaxed her features and left her his favorite shade of flushed.
Talking about this shit, he knew he was getting a lot off his chest. He couldn’t believe she was letting him go on and on about his past while he began to f
inger her again. He couldn’t help it.
“Yeah well we were young,” he said and maneuvered his ring finger in search of her asshole while continuing to rub circles at her very wet clit. She was so wet and his chest fired off knowing he’d gotten her that way.
Fuck, was she for real? He toyed with pushing his finger inside her ass and felt her wet lips still spasm and squeeze against his fingers. He was so close to orgasm but he couldn’t let himself shoot off until he was buried deep inside her.
“Young. I guess. And your dad? Can you talk about that?” There was no guessing, she’d just panted that question out.
Stefan stopped. He had to finish off this conversation and then make real, explicit love to her. She looked at him and frowned when he pulled his fingers away from her openings. So slick and ready for more from him.
“Almost, sweetheart. Let me just finish this up and then no more talking. What else can I really say? Dad fell in love with someone who wasn’t Mom.” He petted her hair back from her face and gazed, yeah he gazed like the whipped little dick he was but he didn’t care. “He actually told me he was leaving about a year before it happened. That he loved my mom but not that way anymore.” Dani petted his face and his hair and the way she looked at him. Fuck. She cared about him. “But he told me straight up that he wasn’t going to leave until Mom finished her college degree. That way she’d always have her education and would always be able to support me in case he fell off the face of the earth, I guess. It was so fucking strange to know that. I fucking had this countdown going. Like when kids used to make countdowns to Christmas.”
“You were only seventeen and your dad made you deal with that crap? Unbelievable.”
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