Table of Contents
HERO HAIR
Copyright
Dedication
Prologue
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Epilogue
The list of things Rachel loves
Other Titles by
HERO
HAIR
RACHEL ROBINSON
Copyright © 2016 Rachel Robinson
All rights reserved.
Cover design by Allison Martin at MakeReady Designs
Cover Image by Sara Eirew Photography
Edited by Emily A. Lawrence at Lawrence Editing
Formatted by CP Smith
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Dedication
For my hero and his $40 haircut.
Prologue
Tap. Tap. Tap. “Is this thing on?”
“Carina is going to be frustrated if we mess this up.”
“Greenleigh. You’re trying to blow her cover. Amateur move, Teala.”
“Oh, stop. Can you be quiet for a few seconds so I can figure this out?”
“That red light means it’s on. It’s rolling. Happy to help.”
“How do we delete? I don’t want her to hear us arguing.”
“Honey, she’s writing our story. She’s going to hear things a lot worse than us arguing. Remember?”
“Oh, God. Why did I agree to this again?”
“Because it’s a good story. And Smith was in a fucking movie. I want to be in a movie too!”
“Macs. Our love story is not Nicolas Sparks caliber.”
“Twilight?”
“Oh my gosh! Give me a few more seconds, please. I can’t think clearly with your questions. She wanted me to start talking about something specific.” Papers rustle.
“So, is that a no to Twilight? Because I’d really love to bite your neck right now.”
“I’m not responding to that.”
“Lick. Fine. I want to lick your neck right now.”
“You’re embarrassing me.”
“Romance novel, remember? Sex. We’re going to fuck all over these pages—leak come like overused commas on this shit.”
“No. Just no.”
“Don’t turn me down. I’m a goddamn Navy SEAL.”
Sigh. “I wish she could hear my eye roll right now. No one would believe you’re a SEAL. It’s the whole point to this.”
“Why? Because I manscape?”
“Partially.”
“Because my hair products cost more than your makeup?”
“That factors in.”
“My Gucci wallet?”
“And your collection of Armani T-shirts. Yes, Macs. Yes to all of the above.”
“Hey, I was single when I spent money on those things.”
“Ahhh. When you were single. That’s where we’re supposed to start.”
“Shit.”
Giggles. “On a shingle.”
“I can’t help the things I did before you.”
“Neither can I. That’s where we’re starting, though.”
“It’s not really the beginning. Most stories start at the beginning.”
“You’re right. It’s sort of the middle. When everything went to hell.”
“Including me.”
Scoff. “Oh, and the rest of the world? You’re so self-referential sometimes.”
“A world I’m trying to save!”
“You say potato, I say potat-o.”
“I’m not even going to start that conversation again.”
“Because I’m right. Now get on with it before you put Carina to sleep.”
“Greenleigh.”
“Seriously? Just go, Macs. Talk.”
“Okay. It was a dark and stormy night and I was about to fuck shit up. I had awesome hair and big, throbbing muscles…”
“Oh, Jesus. It’s going to be a long night, isn’t it?”
“Only if you let me lick your neck.”
END RECORDING.
Chapter One
Teala
My father is an asshole—a fact that has taken me twenty-five years to accept. It’s easy to turn a blind eye to bad behavior as a child and even as an indifferent teenager. It’s when the adult vision focuses that the haze you’ve believed as truth is exposed as impostor. Aunt Patti, Aunt Christine, and Aunt Jessica were not fucking aunts. My mother needed him financially and emotionally in some twisted way, so we stayed. I blame her for being weak, for letting me believe their lies for so long. I forgave her easily once I realized how warped her sense of self actually was. I’ll never forgive him. He is not a good person.
I don’t blame my lack of long-term relationships on my father, though. That’s on me. I have a very distinct type of man I like to toy with, experiment with. The bad ones. They are usually good-looking and know it. They’ll have some personality flaw that keeps them from committing, which typically is vanity with a side of boredom. They don’t spend the night, and if they do, they’re gone before the sun rises. In other words, the kind of men who don’t know what the word together means.
When you think about it, together is such a strange, complicated word. Everyone is familiar with what it implies in any language around the world. If you peel back the surface, you find the true meaning. Together is only several degrees away from separation. Things and people wedge themselves between together. They ache to tear apart, steal, covet that which doesn’t belong to them, that which seems better than what they themselves have. Together doesn’t last forever.
Can a human ever truly belong to another human? Can together stay that way long-term? In my experience it’s always temporary, a fleeting feeling of lust and happiness. Kisses start to taste differently once the newness has worn its welcome. There is less desire, more comfortable indifference. I’m not unhappy single. I’m merely indifferent, existing in the spaces in between. That’s where I’m at now. In between experiments, searching for the next man to warm my bed and show me exactly why together doesn’t work.
I blow out a long breath, exhaling things like non-permanence and bad fathers. “Take it down to lotus,” I say, my voice low. “Set your intention for class and for life.” My yoga studio is a ripe one hundred and four degrees Fahrenheit. The participants in my class are fresh. We’re only seven minutes into practice.
Using my best soft voice, something I’m always told doesn’t come natural, I guide them through several poses and end in downward dog for a long str
etch. I know Judd is staring at my ass right now. He always does. It’s partially my fault because I went out on a date with him, but I figured once I told him it wasn’t going to work out he’d take classes with another of my yoga instructors. His persistence is noble, but goes unrewarded. There’s nothing wrong with him. He’s handsome and intelligent, and I know we’d at least have yoga in common. It’s probably the red flag. Having things in common with someone generally leads to more than I want.
I flip from the pose and sit, facing the room lined with colorful mats. Judd looks away quickly. I quirk a brow and speak the next move in a monotone voice, reminding them to focus on their intentions and to let their egos go.
I should take my own advice. Judd should take my advice. I pull a face when he lifts his gaze and then cowers back to his position. My watch vibrates on my wrist. A text from my friend Carina. I got you a date, it reads.
“Take another Vinyasa flow if you feel the desire or stay in down dog.” I stand and approach the stereo system in the back. “Inversions are next. Grab some water. Stay hydrated.”
I try tapping the screen of my watch a couple times with sweaty hands and end up having to towel off. I send her back a quick thumbs-up. Moose is the guy’s name. He’s the best friend of the man Carina is seeing. He’s tall, bulky, has dimples and eyes that would make you want to smack your mama. He’s also a Navy SEAL, which automatically puts him in the bad boy category regardless of his dating tendencies. I bite my bottom lip to halt a smile and return to the front of the room.
Judd moves his mat behind another woman. I hide my disgust with a sigh and lead the class in handstands. My body is lithe and tight from a lifestyle devoted to clean eating and exercise. There isn’t another option when your business and livelihood is a yoga studio. I built it from the ground up, and three years in, my classes always sell out. When I’m not here, I’m working out at boot camp classes or home sleeping. It’s not as if I have much free time to spare when you break my life apart piece by piece.
Thirty minutes later I end the class and leave the studio with the lights low and my class reflecting on their time spent here. I grab my water bottle from under the front desk and towel off, tossing the towel on the seat of the chair before I sit down. My front desk girl is gearing up to go clean the studio before the next class arrives.
I pull my cell phone out of the drawer and call Carina now that I’m free. She answers on the third ring.
“I’m good, right? Call me matchmaker Carina. You want his number or want me to text it to you?” she gushes.
“I can’t believe he agreed. Did you tell him what I look like? Why would he agree to a blind date without knowing I’m not a troll?” Men like Moose have standards. Usually high ones for actual dates—people who will be seen with them in public.
She pauses. “I don’t think he’s like that. He seems like a good guy.”
Oh, fuck. Not one of those. The monkey in the desert. Monkeys don’t belong in deserts. Everyone knows that.
“I told him you were pretty, though.”
She may be one of my best friends, but Carina’s as wild as one of my eyebrow hairs. She’s introverted for the most part, so it makes sense. She’s also an author who writes all day, in the dark, in her pajamas. Granted, her books are popular, but she needs to live a little, in my humble opinion. I think this new guy is good for her.
“Pretty is not how I want to be described, Care. I appreciate the compliment, though.” I laugh.
“What should I have said? That you’re a sex crazed, lust longing lion ready to attack their next victim? Like I said, I’m not sure that’s what he’s after. A fact that should make you happy.”
I grunt. “Give me his number.”
“You’re welcome,” Carina grumbles.
I take down his digits with a pen on a sticky note, and we make plans to work out together with our friend Jasmine. I hang up the phone, a little disheartened. Judd winks at me on his way by. I do my best to nod and smile instead of flipping him the bird.
That wouldn’t be very Zen of me, would it?
****
“Tell me again why you don’t have a girlfriend,” I ask Moose.
He’s sitting next to me on a barstool. It’s early, so the bar isn’t loud and crowded yet. I’m less interested in his reason than I am in watching his lips move. This man is beautiful in the rogue, I want to destroy your vagina kind of way. Except his personality doesn’t quite match up. Carina was, unfortunately, right.
He coughs, smiles, and pushes his lips to one side. “I haven’t found the right woman. I see no sense in entering relationships until I’m sure they’ll work out. It’s a conscious choice, not something that has come about because I have some enormous flaw. That’s why you’re asking, right? I promise you I’m not saddled with too much baggage.”
I smile. “I would never insinuate that a man as good-looking as you has a flaw,” I admit, flirting my ass off. “Isn’t that the whole purpose of dating, though? To figure out who works for you and who doesn’t?”
Moose has dimples—tiny little checkmarks on his cheeks any time he flashes his bright white grin. It’s mesmerizing. I swallow hard.
He takes a swig of his dark beer and drains his second pint tonight. Alcohol problem, perhaps? That would make sense. I start my mental man check list.
“I think I know what I want.” He signals the bartender with a finger and points to the bar in front of him.
Oh, alcohol is definitely going on the list.
His honest reply shocks me.
“You do?”
Moose nods. “Yeah. Impossible standards, really.”
I take a small sip of my gin and tonic. This drink is about one hundred calories. His beer arrives and he drinks half straight away. “Slow down. Or do you think I’m such horrible company that you need to be wasted? You’re going to have to explain those standards a little more thoroughly.” Color me intrigued.
He swivels to face me and takes one of my hands in his. “Listen. I’m not really ready to date. I’m kind of hung up on someone. More than hung up. I agreed to go out on a date with you to…appease my friend. Throw him off.”
I widen my eyes. Someone starts the jukebox in the corner and an awful rap song blares through every speaker in this dive bar.
“Which friend? Certainly not my friend,” I say, bringing my free hand to my chest. “Carina wouldn’t have cared either way. So it must be Smith? Why would you care about appeasing him?”
Smith is Carina’s boyfriend. She told me all about their date and how Moose showed up and agreed to go out on a date with me.
“It’s just semantics. Don’t worry about the details. The fact is you’re a beautiful woman and I’m glad we’re hanging out right now because I’m lonely, but I can’t have a relationship. Not now. Maybe never.”
I shake my hands and my head at the same time. “Carina didn’t tell you the most important fact about me. She’s too soft and nice. I don’t do relationships, Moose. Is that your real name, by the way?”
His brows knit together in confusion. “You’re a frog hog?”
I laugh. “No. No. You’re the first of your kind I’ve ever had the pleasure of drinking with. I just don’t want a relationship. I’m too busy and, frankly, they’re never worth the pain at the end. I want nights. That’s it. Your name?” I ask again. If I distract him from my whore tendencies, I might still have a shot.
“Ryan Perry,” he says, extending his hand, sliding his half finished beer to the edge of the bar. “If you’re saying what I think you are, then I’m finished drinking for the night.” His dimples show. “We share a mind with regard to pain and endings. That’s for sure.”
“Teala Smart,” I reply, letting his large hand engulf my own. “It’s nice to officially meet you, Ryan Perry.” Reaching across him, I grab his half finished beer and down it in five large gulps. “Looks like I’ll be burning some calories tonight after all.”
His eyes twinkle with mirth. “It’s Moose
,” Ryan Perry replies.
I lick my lips. His gaze darts to the lower half of my face.
“Want to get out of here, Moose? My apartment is only a few blocks over.”
He said he was lonely. It’s a foregone conclusion I’m going to have my way with him.
He presses his lips into a firm line, but his eyes are full of excitement. Oh, this is going to be so much fun. I’m practically delirious with desire. It’s been months since I’ve had an orgasm around a real man. I tilt my head back and finish my own drink and stand.
Moose slams cash down on the bar and grabs my hand. “I’ll be gone by morning,” he says, trying to warn me off.
“Fuck no, you won’t,” I reply, looking at my watch. “You’ll be gone by eleven-thirty p.m. Let’s get going.”
Moose shakes his head, but follows me out into the night and the few blocks to my historic apartment in the Gaslamp district of San Diego. We make small talk, but never say anything of consequence to each other. He smiles a lot, and I think it’s because he knows I like to look at his dimples, but Carina was so right. This man is a good man. Nothing like my usual suspect and for a tiny moment I wish I could be the girl that someone like him is hung up on.
He holds my hand, and I can almost envision I am that girl. Especially when we get back to my apartment and he fucks me so hard and with so much blissful intensity that I’ll feel him in between my legs for days on end.
He cradles my head. He kisses me senseless. He closes his eyes and calls me Megan when he pulls off the condom and comes on my rock hard abs.
I’m not mad. I don’t even mention it to him after. I asked for this.
I always ask for this.
Chapter Two
Macs
“You owe me fifty bucks, dude. That chick swiped right!” These guys should know better by now. I’m an expert in a lot of things. Hot chick retrieval and capture is one of those things. Pursing my lips to the side, I flip my iPhone to show them. They always demand proof. “That’s as good as mine.” I shake the phone back and forth in their faces. I’m getting a mental stiffy thinking about it. If I swipe right on a woman’s picture and she swipes right on mine, we make a match—a sex date is as good as promised.
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