I lock the door and drop heavily to my knees in front of her. My hands cup her face while my thumbs try to wipe her tears away.
Her surprise is evident in the way she stills and watches me. As though she doesn’t believe I’m really here, or she’s waiting on more bad news.
“Madison,” I whisper, bringing her closer until our foreheads touch. “I’m sorry.”
She flinches and tries to pull away. I hold her steady, bringing her astride me on the floor.
“I’m sorry for keeping you at a distance.” I brush a kiss across her lips. “I am not sorry for spending last night loving you. Never Madison.”
Her fingers slide into the hair at the nape of my neck, causing my skin to prickle in goose bumps.
I release her face and cup her bottom, pressing her against me. “When I said that I could only offer one night, I was trying to convince myself, more so than you, but that’s gone down the drain now.” My mouth hovers a mere breath away from her waiting lips. “I can’t let you go. I just can’t.”
Her eyes search mine. “Are you sure? Because I can’t handle you changing your mind.”
“I won’t. I’ve been fighting what I feel for you from the very first moment we’d met. I no longer want to act indifferent towards you, or this, not when I’m in love with you.” I smile and rub my nose against hers. “I love you, Madison.”
Her tears begin to flow again, and my lips brush hers, over and over again.
“It isn’t going to be easy.” I wince. “I know Tanner won’t accept us to begin with, but seeing him with Charlotte just now, I know he will eventually. He has a beautiful wife to help him understand how I can no longer be away from you… Your parents—”
She covers my mouth her hers briefly. “My parents will love you because you make me happy.”
Madison wiggles in my lap and I harden quickly, becoming uncomfortable behind my zipper. She laughs and slides from my lap, pushing me flat to the floor.
She quickly rises and strips off her clothing, ending up straddling my hips, completely naked.
I lick my lips, reaching out to stroke her ankles. She smiles and slowly kneels over me, her hands teasing on my zipper.
My hands shake as she slowly opens my jeans, tugging them past my hips along with my briefs.
“You love me, which makes you mine, huh?” She raises a brow and I grin.
“That’s right.” I put my hands behind my head and pray I don’t ruin this moment by exploding all over myself.
“Hmm, that means I’m free to put my hands all over you.” She lightly touches my cock, which jerks, leaking precum. “My tongue on you.” Her head dips, and her pink tongue peeks between her lips.
My hips arch upward and I feel her licking around the flared head sending shards of pleasure to my balls, hardening me further.
She lifts her gaze and smirks. “My mouth on you.”
I lose all thought as she sucks me inside the heat of her mouth. Every nerve ending sizzles at the feel of the suction around my flesh. The sight is unbelievably erotic.
I’m fully clothed apart from my hips while Madison is a naked nymph between my legs as her mouth does wicked things to me.
Her hands slowly slide up inside of my shirt, followed by her mouth as I pop free. Her breasts sway; capturing my dick between them and the sight has my eyes snapping closed.
She giggles, placing a quick kiss to my lips while trapping my cock between us. I open my eyes and hold her gaze as she becomes serious. “I love you, Derek. Being without you wouldn’t have hurt too much otherwise.” Her lips close my eyes as she places soft kisses over the lids. “I love you.”
Her hand wraps around me and then she takes me into her body.
“Take your shirt off. I want you to sit up and let me feel you against my breasts. I love the feeling of you rubbing against my nipples while you’re rock hard inside of me.”
I don’t need telling twice, and sitting up, I rearrange us so I’m resting with my back against the bed.
I’m buried so deeply inside of her and I’m sure I’m not going to last. Everything I want is currently surrounding me.
My hands grab her ass and squeezing, I rock her slowly, my eyes rolling when she tightens around me.
I hold her gaze. “I love you, Madison.”
She shudders, her eyes darkening the harder that we rock together. “I love you too, so much.” She gasps arching, exploding on me in a powerful release.
Her pussy ripples and convulses around my cock and that is all it takes for me to hold her close and release hotly inside of my woman.
11
Madison
Quickly dressing, Derek kisses the life out of me, which heats my blood once more. The man knows exactly what he does to me as he grins, pulling away.
Smacking me on the ass, he says, “Breakfast is waiting.”
Moaning, I tease, “I’d rather have it in bed.”
I watch as Derek’s gaze darkens before he pulls himself together. “Later.” He takes my hand and pulls me out of the bedroom. It’s only when we hear voices from below that he curses, holding me back.
“Dee is here,” he mutters. “I forgot.” He runs a tired hand heavily over his face, so I step forward and kiss him briefly on his lips.
“We’ll go downstairs together, but not together, if you know what I mean, which will give you time to tell Dee to stop coming around without embarrassing her, or you.” I kiss him again. “You’re a good man Derek Jackson, so please remember that when the woman yells at you, which I’m sure she will.”
“She has a right to.” He sighs.
“No, she doesn’t. I know you, and I realize that there is no way you’ve so much as kissed the woman the way you kiss me, let alone slept with her.”
“Hell no!” He shudders, followed by a wince. “I’ve never been attracted to her. It’s always been you…until now, it was always just a way to keep you at arm’s length, but that doesn’t apply anymore because you’re mine and I’m not letting you go anywhere.”
“I like that idea.” I brush my lips across Derek’s once more. “Now go and get rid of her please.” I grin, tapping him on the bottom.
He follows me with his eyes as I make my way downstairs and into the kitchen where Charlotte, Tanner, and Dee are sat talking.
“Morning!” I sing, as I move across the room and head straight for the coffee pot.
“Um, you sound happy this morning,” Charlotte comments.
Turning, I find all eyes on me, including Derek’s. The sexy man is currently lounging in the doorway, looking so damn handsome that it takes everything in me to not jump into his arms. “I am happy,” I say directly to him before facing the others.
Charlotte gives me a knowing grin while her husband narrows his gaze at his father after looking at me. Dee has no clue as to what is going on, she gets to her feet and pushes up against Derek who frowns at the woman while simultaneously attempting to put distance between them.
I narrow my eyes, ready to rip her away from him.
Tanner coughs, drawing my attention and when I meet his gaze, his isn’t as friendly as it usually is. He makes me nervous and I cast a quick glance to Charlotte. She frowns at her husband and silently sighs. She knows what is going on and is well aware of how her husband will initially respond to my relationship with his Dad.
“Why is everyone so quiet?” Dee asks.
I turn my attention to her and Derek, and with a pause, Derek says, “Let me walk you to the car and I’ll explain.”
She opens her mouth in what would be start of a protest, but Derek takes her arm and shows her the door.
Tanner mumbles something to Charlotte before leaving the room without a word to me. However, I do catch a glimpse of his angry face.
I sag into the chair opposite Charlotte, feeling a tremble in my hands. “That went well.” My gaze on my cousin becomes blurry as tears hover on my lashes. “What do I do now?”
Charlotte smiles and reaches across the tab
le, taking my hands. “You continue to follow your heart. That’s what you do. It’s been obvious to me just how much Derek likes you from the first time you met each other. Tanner loves his father, and he will come around and accept his relationship with you.” She bites her lip, which makes me think she isn’t as convinced as she’s trying to make out.
“I love him Charlotte, and his age doesn’t bother me. It has never been an issue for me. I know it has for him.” I move to look out of the kitchen windows, relieved as I watch Dee drive away. It’s short lived though as Tanner now approaches his dad.
They move toward the stables and finally disappear after a few words to Geary.
“I want a relationship with him, and it would make all the difference to Derek if Tanner supported him.” I drop my shoulders and face her. “Derek said he’s in this with me regardless.”
“Look, my husband is level headed and he just needs time.” Charlotte moves closer. “I want you both to be happy.” Hugging me close, she says, “I’m going to the stables. Join me?”
“I’d love to.” Grabbing a cinnamon and raisin bagel, and after placing my coffee into a thermal cup, I step outside.
The air smells fresh and there’s a cool crisp breeze, but soon it will be much warmer as the sun rises higher in the sky.
“It’s beautiful here,” Charlotte comments.
My eyes find Derek riding out of the stables on his black beast of a horse, and I softly smile and reply, “It most certainly is.”
Chuckling, Charlotte steps down from the porch and heads toward her husband. They’re so cute together. Tanner holds the reins and leans down as far as he can to accept Charlotte’s kiss. He wraps an arm around her waist and hauls her up, seating her in front of him.
“Should I be insulted that you’re watching them and not me?” Derek smiles from under the brim of his hat.
Grinning, I move down the steps. “Oh, don’t worry, I can assure you, my eyes are most certainly on you.”
He pauses and holds his hand out. “Join me up here.”
I eye the beast and hear Derek chuckle. “Don’t worry, Knight won’t bite you…can’t say the same for the rider.”
Smirking, I take his hand and with some swift maneuvering, find myself on the horse. Derek wraps an arm around my waist, his palm flat against my stomach.
His lips graze my lobe, and with a gentle tug, he gets the horse moving while my temperature rises. “You’re enjoying this.”
“Mmm, I have your hands on me, and your body pressed against mine. Why wouldn’t I be enjoying this?”
With a gentle tug, my bottom is snug against the hardness at Derek’s groin. “I’m enjoying this too, in case you were wondering.”
“I don’t need to wonder, I can feel.” I turn my face up to his and tease. “I remember how it felt to have you sliding inside of me.” His eyes darken as we move further from the house and stables, so I continue, “All hard and pulsing into my warm swollen and wet body.” I caress his jaw, his eyes now blazing with arousal. “I was ready for you. I always am.”
Derek growls and captures my lips in a heated kiss. Our mouths move together, our tongues slipping and sliding like another part of his body does so well.
Panting, Derek rests his forehead against mine. “You’re going to be the death of me.”
“Not a chance.” I brush my lips softly over his, my body wanting him in a way I’d never experienced before.
His eyes gleam seconds before the snap of my jeans opens and the zipper goes down.
I catch my breath and rest my head back against his shoulder; my arm reaching up and I curve my hand behind his neck.
He whispers, “I’m going to give you a memory, so that every time you see me astride Knight, you’ll remember what I did to you.”
Before I have time to respond, a large rough hand slips inside my T-shirt, grabbing a handful of breast. He shoves the cup of my bra out of his way and then he’s pinching and rolling my nipple. Pleasure shoots straight between my legs causing a heavy gasp to leave my lips. His fingers dip into the opening of my jeans, and splay over my mound beneath my panties. The tip of his finger presses between my swollen lips.
“So good,” I moan. “I’ve wanted you to touch me for months.”
“I’ve been just as in need as you.” He kisses my cheek softly.
“Enjoy!” he hisses in my ear when a thick digit presses at my entrance. “So wet.”
“All for you.”
His hand trembles and the moment he enters me, my orgasm rushes forward. My muscles pulsate and clamp hard around his finger as I turn and search for his mouth.
The strength of Derek’s kiss heats my blood and sends me into another climax. He’s everywhere. His body completely surrounding me while his hand works magic.
“No more.” I struggle for breath.
Breathing heavily against my back, Derek, slowly withdraws his fingers, his hand wet. He puts my breast away and brings his hand from under my shirt, keeping it on my hip.
The hand that was in my jeans, he brings up to his face. My blush rapidly rises as he inhales my arousal.
His hooded eyes hold mine and I watch as he licks and sucks until his hand is clean. “Best scent and taste in the world.”
My breathing quickens, and I swiftly look away. “The things you do to me. I can’t think straight.” I push into him and remember just how hard he is.
“Are you not hurting?” I slip my hand between us and rub against his thick erection.
Derek hisses, quickly removing my hand. “I’m too close,” he admits. “I’ll come in my jeans.”
I snicker. “I just did…twice.”
“Mmm, so good, too.” He bites my earlobe. “I’d make more of a mess.”
“Then as soon as we get back your penis has a date with my mouth.” I smile to myself feeling ten feet tall when he lets out a stream of curse words under his breath.
I also notice when he moves his hips slightly away from my bottom. Sighing happily, I relax into him and enjoy the rest of the ride.
12
Derek
Unfortunately, stripping in the stables isn’t an option when we get back, not with Geary being in there, brushing the horses down before they get sent back outside
I chuckle when I notice the same disappointment on Madison’s face. I’d known exactly what she had planned the moment the words had left her mouth. Her blunt and explicit teasing was a surprise to me. Certainly, a refreshing surprise, considering she’s always come across shy.
Geary insists on taking Knight for a rub down, so I hold my hand out to Madison and get a beaming smile in return. Her fingers intertwine with mine and I hold on tight.
“I’ll make us some lunch, we can eat in the shade on the back porch, and talk.”
“Should I be worried?” her eyes searching for any clues.
I search her gaze, and smiling, move her so my arm is around her shoulders. “No.” I kiss the top of her head. “I want to hear about your family and your life up to now, nothing bad.”
“Like a first date.” She giggles.
“Exactly.”
Her arm slips around my back and the other over my stomach, resting on my side. She becomes solemn. “So, what happened with Tanner and Dee?”
“I’ll tell you over lunch.”
Fifteen minutes later we’re outside, eating our sandwiches and drinking the homemade lemonade.
“Tanner will come around.” I tell her, looking out to the horizon before holding her gaze. “He hasn’t seen me with anyone before, and now that I’ve found someone I really do want to spend my time with, he finds it difficult to grasp because of your age.
“You’re Charlotte’s family and he doesn’t want you to get hurt, but I’m sure he’ll eventually get used to the idea of us.” I smile and take her slim hand, kissing the palm before I close her fingers over it. “At the end of the day, he wants me to be happy, and when he sees I’m content with you, he’ll be able to accept us.”
&nbs
p; “Tanner is a good man, I mean, Charlotte did fall for him after all.” She grins. “I think I might talk to him and tell him how I feel about you. It might help, him hearing it from me.”
“Every little bit helps.”
“And Dee?” she questions.
I can’t help the wince at the mention of the other woman.
“That bad, huh?” Madison can’t help but let out a little snigger, covering her mouth in an attempt to hide it.
“Yes and no.” I cringe.
She raises a brow.
“Dee told me that she would stay away for now, ‘let me have my fun’, and then she’ll be back.” Those hadn’t been her exact words, which I’m sure Madison can figure out.
“She thinks you’re playing with me?”
“You know that’s not true, right?”
“Of course, I know that, but Dee obviously doesn’t.”
“Dee won’t be outshined by someone young enough to be my daughter.” I sigh. “I don’t want her.” I tug Madison from the chair into my lap and wrap my arms around her. “I only want you, and that’s all I’ve wanted since we met.”
“I know.” She brushes a kiss across my lips. “I guess we’ll be seeing her again, huh?”
“More than likely.” I do feel as though I led her on, even though I was straight with her from the beginning. Dee knew I wanted a friendship only, even if to begin with, I’d led Madison to believe otherwise. I should have known better with a woman like Dee.
Madison senses the end of that topic, steering the conversation away from Dee, she sighs. “I think this is my favorite place.” She rests her head on my shoulder looking out to the horizon. “I love the peace and quiet, and the view is something else entirely.”
“It means more to me now that I have you to share it with,” I admit, and laugh. “Corny, huh?”
Her eyes fill with excitement. “No. I feel the same way.”
“It doesn’t have to be temporary,” I whisper.
Madison lifts her eyes to mine and holding my gaze, she nervously licks her lips. “What do you mean?”
If Only: McKenzie Cousins Book 5 Page 5