Eternal Enemies: Poems

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by Adam Zagajewski

By a mountain stream where butterflies play?

  In a town scented with mignonette?

  Die Toten reiten schnell, S. repeated eagerly (he too

  is gone).

  They ride little horses in the steppe’s quiet, beneath a round yellow

  cloud.

  Maybe they steal coal at a little railroad stop in Asia and melt

  snow in sooty pots

  like those transported in freight cars.

  (Do they have camps and barbed wire?)

  Do they play checkers? Listen to music? Do they see Christ?

  They dictate poems to the living.

  They paint bison on cave walls, begin building

  the cathedral in Beauvais.

  Have they grasped the sense of evil, which eludes us,

  and forgiven those who persecuted them?

  They wade through an arctic glacier, soft from the August heat.

  Do they weep? Regret?

  Talk on telephones for hours? Hold their tongues? Are they here among us?

  Nowhere?

  I read poems, listen to the mighty whisper

  of night and blood.

  IN A STRANGE CITY

  The faint, almost fantastic

  scent of the Mediterranean,

  crowds on streets at midnight,

  a festival begins,

  we don’t know which.

  A scrawny cat slips

  past our knees,

  gypsies eat supper

  as if singing;

  white houses beyond them,

  an unknown tongue.

  Happiness.

  CAMOGLI

  High old houses above the water

  and a drowsy cat waiting for fishermen

  on furled white nets:

  a quiet November in Camogli—

  pensioners sunbathe on lounge chairs,

  the sun rotates sluggishly

  and stones revolve slowly

  on the gravelly shore,

  but it, the sea, keeps turning landward,

  wave after wave, as if wondering

  what happened to summer’s plans

  and our dreams,

  what has our youth become.

  BOGLIASCO: THE CHURCH SQUARE

  A photographer develops film,

  the sexton scrutinizes

  walls and trees,

  boys play ball,

  a dry cleaner purges the conscience

  of this quiet town,

  three elderly ladies discuss the world’s end—

  but evening brings back

  the sea’s tumult

  and its din

  returns the day just past

  into oblivion.

  STAGLIENO

  Don’t linger in the graveyard

  where the nineteenth century, dusty, charmless,

  still repents; you’ll be received

  by doctors in stucco frock coats

  buttoned to the throat, in stone cravats,

  stone barristers with stony, slightly mournful

  smiles (duplicity has outlived itself).

  You’ll be received by patresfamilias, professors

  and children, marble children, plaster dogs,

  always flawlessly obedient.

  You’ll see the past, meet

  your older brothers, glimpse

  Pompeii, submerged

  in time’s gray lava.

  TWO-HEADED BOY

  The fifteen-year-old boy carried a kitten

  inside his dark blue windbreaker.

  Its tiny head turned,

  its large eyes watching

  everything more cautiously

  than human eyes.

  Safe in the warm train,

  I compare the boy’s lazy stare

  to the kitten’s pupils,

  alert and narrow.

  The two-headed boy sitting across from me

  made richer by an animal’s unrest.

  OUR WORLD

  IN MEMORIAM W.G. SEBALD

  I never met him, I only knew

  his books and the odd photos, as if

  purchased in a secondhand shop, and human

  fates discovered secondhand,

  and a voice quietly narrating,

  a gaze that caught so much,

  a gaze turned back,

  avoiding neither fear

  nor rapture;

  nor rapture;

  and our world in his prose,

  our world, so calm—but

  full of crimes perfectly forgotten,

  even in lovely towns

  on the coast of one sea or another,

  our world full of empty churches,

  rutted with railroad tracks, scars

  of ancient trenches, highways,

  cleft by uncertainty, our blind world

  smaller now by you.

  SMALL OBJECTS

  My contemporaries like small objects,

  dried starfish that have forgotten the sea,

  melancholy stopped clocks, postcards

  sent from vanished cities,

  and blackened with illegible script,

  in which they discern words

  like “yearning,” “illness,” or “the end.”

  They marvel at dormant volcanoes.

  They don’t desire light.

  DEFENDING POETRY, ETC.

  Yes, defending poetry, high style, etc.,

  but also summer evenings in a small town,

  where gardens waft and cats sit quietly

  on doorsteps, like Chinese philosophers.

  SUBJECT: BRODSKY

  Please note: born in May,

  in a damp city (hence the motif: water),

  soon to be surrounded by an army

  whose officers kept Hölderlin

  in their backpacks, but, alas, they had

  no time for reading. Too much to do.

  Tone—sardonic, despair—authentic.

  Always en route, from Mexico to Venice,

  lover and crusader, who campaigned

  ceaselessly for his unlikely party

  (name: Poetry versus the Infinite,

  or PVI, if you prefer abbreviations).

  In every city and in every port

  he had his agents; he sometimes sang his poems

  before an avid crowd that didn’t catch

  a word. Afterwards, exhausted, he’d smoke a Gauloise

  on a cement embankment, gulls circling overhead,

  as if above the Baltic, back home.

  Vast intelligence. Favorite topic: time

  versus thought, which chases phantoms,

  revives Mary Stuart, Daedalus, Tiberius.

  Poetry should be like horse racing;

  wild horses, with jockeys made of marble,

  an unseen finish line lies hidden in the clouds.

  Please remember: irony and pain;

  the pain had lived long inside his heart

  and kept on growing—as though

  each elegy he wrote adored him

  obsessively and wanted

  him alone to be its hero—

  but ladies and gentlemen—your patience,

  please, we’re nearly through—I don’t know

  quite how to put it; something like tenderness,

  the almost timid smile,

  the momentary doubt, the hesitation,

  the tiny pause in flawless arguments.

  SELF-PORTRAIT, NOT WITHOUT DOUBTS

  Enthusiasm moves you in the morning,

  by evening you lack the nerve

  even to glance at the blackened page.

  Always too much or too little,

  just like those writers

  who sometimes bother you:

  some so modest, minimal,

  and underread,

  that you want to call out—

  hey, friends, courage,

  life is beautiful,

  the world is rich and full of history.

  Others, proud and seriou
s, are distinguished

  by their erudition

  —gentlemen, you too must die someday,

  you say (in thought).

  The territory of truth

  is plainly small,

  narrow as a path above a cliff.

  Can you stick

  to it?

  Perhaps you’ve strayed already.

  Do you hear laughter

  or apocalyptic trumpets?

  Perhaps both,

  a dissonance, ungodly grating—

  a knife that skates

  along the glass and whistles gladly.

  CONVERSATION

  A chat with friends, sometimes

  about nothing, TV or the movies,

  or more important conversations, earnest talk

  on torture, suffering, and hunger,

  but also on easy amorous adventures,

  “she said this, so he thought that.”

  Perhaps we talk too much,

  like the French tourists I overheard

  on a Greek mountain’s steep slope,

  careless in the Delphic labyrinth

  (caustic comments on the hotel dinner).

  We don’t, we can’t know,

  if we’ll be saved,

  if our microscopic souls,

  which have committed no evil

  and likewise done no good,

  will answer a question posed in an unknown tongue.

  Will poetry’s epiphany suffice,

  delight in the staccato of past music,

  the sight of a river and air entering

  August’s warm towers,

  and longing for the sea, always fresh, new.

  Or moments of celebration and the sense

  they bring, that something has suddenly

  returned and we can’t live without it (but we can),

  do they outweigh the years of emptiness and anger,

  months of forgetfulness, impatience—

  we don’t know, we can’t know,

  if we’ll be saved

  when time ends.

  OLD MARX

  He can’t think.

  London is damp,

  in every room someone coughs.

  He never did like winter.

  He rewrites past manuscripts

  time and again, without passion.

  The yellow paper

  is fragile as consumption.

  Why does life race

  stubbornly toward destruction?

  But spring returns in dreams,

  with snow that doesn’t speak

  in any known tongue.

  And where does love fit

  within his system?

  Where you find blue flowers.

  He despises anarchists,

  idealists bore him.

  He receives reports from Russia,

  far too detailed.

  The French grow rich.

  Poland is common and quiet.

  America never stops growing.

  Blood is everywhere,

  perhaps the wallpaper needs changing.

  He begins to suspect

  that poor humankind

  will always trudge

  across the old earth

  like the local lunatic

  shaking her fists

  at an unseen God.

  TO THE SHADE OF ALEKSANDER WAT

  Newly arrived at infinity—which turned out to resemble an elongated, vastly improved Wolomin Street—he received, upon entering, a gift in the shape of Schumann’s music, bursting with rapture and chaos (the first movement of the first sonata for violin and piano as performed by two insufferable, but, we must concede, very gifted cherubim).

  Later a certain learned rabbi parsed the distinctions between a silken and a stony death, and the famed theologian P. gave a lengthy lecture on “The Old, New, and Even Newer Testaments in Wat’s Postwar Opus.”

  “Pain as a Pivotal Experience” and “An Inborn Gift for Synthesizing Unlike Objects” were the topics of other talks, which were received less attentively since afterward eternity was scheduled to perform and an orchestra of swarthy gypsies in snug tuxes played without pausing, without end.

  NIGHT IS A CISTERN

  Night is a cistern. Owls sing. Refugees tread meadow roads

  with the loud rustling of endless grief.

  Who are you, walking in this worried crowd.

  And who will you become, who will you be

  when day returns, and ordinary greetings circle round.

  Night is a cistern. The last pairs dance at a country ball.

  High waves cry from the sea, the wind rocks pines.

  An unknown hand draws the dawn’s first stroke.

  Lamps fade, a motor chokes.

  Before us, life’s path, and instants of astronomy.

  STORM

  The storm had golden hair flecked with black

  and moaned in a monotone, like a simple woman

  giving birth to a future soldier, or a tyrant.

  Vast clouds, multistoried ships

  surrounded us, and lightning’s scarlet strands

  scattered nervously.

  The highway became the Red Sea.

  We moved through the storm like a sheer valley.

  You drove; I watched you with love.

  EVENING, STARY SACZ

  The sun sets behind the market square, and nettles reflect

  the small town’s imperfections. Teapots whistle in the houses,

  like many trains departing simultaneously.

  Bonfires flame on meadows and their long sighs

  weave above the trees like drifting kites.

  The last pilgrims return from church uncertainly.

  TV sets awaken, and instantly know all,

  like the demons of Alexandria with swindlers’ swarthy faces.

  Knives descend on bread, on sausage, on wood, on offerings.

  The sky grows darker; angels used to hide there,

  but now it’s just a police sergeant on his departed motorcycle.

  Rain falls, the cobbled streets grow black.

  Little abysses open between the stones.

  BLAKE

  I watch William Blake, who spotted angels

  every day in treetops

  and met God on the staircase

  of his little house and found light in grimy alleys—

  Blake, who died

  singing gleefully

  in a London thronged

  with streetwalkers, admirals, and miracles,

  William Blake, engraver, who labored

  and lived in poverty, but not despair,

  who received burning signs

  from the sea and from the starry sky,

  who never lost hope, since hope

  was always born anew like breath,

  I see those who walked like him on graying streets,

  headed toward the dawn’s rosy orchid.

  NOTES FROM A TRIP TO FAMOUS EXCAVATIONS

  You suddenly surface in a city that no longer is.

  You turn up abruptly in a vast city

  that isn’t really there.

  Three scrawny cats meow.

  You notice campaign slogans on the walls

  and know that the elections ended long ago,

  emptiness was victorious and reigns

  alongside a lazy sun.

  Tourists wander nonexistent streets,

  like Church Fathers—afflicted, alas,

  by deepest acedia.

  Bathhouse walls are bone-dry.

  The kitchen holds no herbs,

  the bedroom is sleepless.

  We enter homes, gardens,

  but no one greets us.

  It seems we’re stranded in a desert,

  faced by the dry cruelty of sand

  —just as in other places

  that don’t exist,

  the native city

  you never knew, will never know.

  Even the death camps are lifeless.
r />   Some friends are gone.

  Past days have vanished,

  they’ve hidden under Turkish tents,

  in stasis, in a museum that’s not there.

  But just when everything is gone

  and only lips move timidly

  like a young monk’s mouth,

  a wind stirs, a sea wind,

  bearing the promise of freshness.

  A gate in the wall leans open,

  and you glimpse life stronger than oblivion;

  at first you don’t believe your eyes—

  gardeners kneel, patiently

  tending the dark earth while laughing servants

  cart great piles of fragrant apples.

  The wooden wagons rattle on thick stones,

  water courses through a narrow trough,

  wine returns to the pitchers,

  and love comes back to the homesteads

  where it once dwelled,

  and silently regains its absolute

  kingly power

  over the earth and over me.

  Look, a flame stirs from the ashes.

  Yes, I recognize the face.

  ZURBARÁN

  Zurbarán painted by turns

  Spanish saints

  and still lifes,

  and thus the objects

  lying on heavy tables

  in his still lifes

  are likewise holy.

  NOTO

  TO GEORGIA AND MICHAEL

  Noto, a town that would be flawless

  if only our faith were greater.

  Noto, a baroque town where even

  the stables and arbors are ornate.

  The cathedral’s cupola has collapsed, alas,

  and heavy cranes surround it

  like doctors in a hospital

  tending the dangerously ill.

  Afternoons town teenagers

  gather on the main street

  and bored stiff, whistle

  like captive thrushes.

  The town is too perfect

  for its inhabitants.

  III

  TRAVELING BY TRAIN ALONG THE HUDSON

  TO BOGDANA CARPENTER

  River gleaming in the sun—

  river, how can you endure the sight:

  low crumpled train cars

  made of steel, and in their small windows

  dull faces, lifeless eyes.

  Shining river, rise up.

  How can you bear the orange peels,

  the Coca-Cola cans, patches

  of dirty snow that

 

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