by Fay Weldon
But she couldn’t.
She turned towards the glass slowly. A startled creature stared back. Could this face be her own? Her skin was darker by a shade, and her spiky hair made her look boyish. Her face was narrower and her eyes seemed larger. Her dress looked too big. She leaned closer. The skin beneath her eyes looked bruised. She turned away. She had seen enough.
When Michael saw her, clean and in her own clothes, he looked surprised. Presumably she now looked more like a woman. She didn’t feel it.
‘I’ve asked for a meal,’ he said. ‘You could use some meat by the look of you. They’ve only emu and kangaroo, though. Closest thing you’ll get to pheasant or rabbit.’
‘Emu is a bird?’
‘Aye, a big one.’
Rhia didn’t care what she ate, she didn’t care about anything except that she could sit on the steps looking out at gum trees without feeling like their alabaster trunks were the bars of her prison. The sky had turned indigo. The land was alive. She didn’t belong here. The spirits of this place wished only to be left alone.
The innkeeper served some kind of home-made ale and they drank a toast to freedom and to Ireland. Michael wanted to know some things, so she told him everything she could think of; what had happened in London, what had happened on the transport.
‘I visited your Mr Reeve in Sydney,’ he said when she paused and took a sip from her cup. The home-brew was strong and sharp and you could taste the sun and the eucalypt and the red dirt in it. ‘He’s a liar,’ Michael added, then proceeded to tell her why. Rhia’s head started to spin. The very idea that Mr Reeve was part of it seemed a remote possibility. She couldn’t understand it. Michael wanted to know everything she could think of about the botanist, the things they’d spoken of, his behaviour towards her, his reaction to Laurence’s death. When he told her what had happened to the portrait, her heart sank.
‘How will Eliza Green be able to tell us if one of the men is a murderer if the portrait is destroyed?’
‘I thought there was a template somewhere?’ Michael said. ‘Isn’t it like a stereograph, this uncanny portraiture?’
Rhia shook her head. ‘The negative is made of paper and it was lost.’
Michael looked thoughtful. ‘I say we pay this Eliza a visit. The sheep station where she works is this side of Sydney.’ He looked at her plate, pleased to see that she had made short work of her meat. ‘It’s almost time to go,’ he said.
The passenger barge to Sydney was more comfortable and less crowded than the one that was used for ferrying prisoners upriver. Rhia had room to stretch out on an upholstered bench, though she didn’t believe she would sleep a wink on a night such as this. She had never seen so many stars, and the lantern of the Queen of the Night was full and luminous.
Lace
A river had borne her away at sunrise, and now a new sunrise and another river would carry her back home. It could only be Dillon who was responsible for her pardon. She didn’t expect that he would ever forgive her. If she hadn’t been on the Rajah, Laurence would be alive.
Rhia sat up and looked around for Michael. He was sitting where he’d been last night, at the aft of the barge where he could keep an eye on things. He had acquired a wary edge that she didn’t remember in the old Michael Kelly. He was changed, like her. He saw her stir and came to join her.
‘I’ve had a word with the captain,’ he said, ‘and he’s agreed to let us off at the Rose Hill jetty, a few miles upriver of Sydney. He’ll deliver your trunk to the Port Authority. It will be safe there.’
Rhia nodded. ‘I wonder what Eliza will think of her daughter’s ideas.’
‘What do you think of them?’
What did she think? Juliette belonged to another life. ‘I think she’s less than sensible and more than a little odd. But I suppose there’s always a chance that she’s right.’
‘Ah yes, the men in the portrait.’ Michael was squinting at the tree line as though trying to piece something together. ‘There’s Ryan and the Quaker Josiah Blake, and what about the three who are still alive?’
‘Mr Montgomery is the Regent Street mercer I worked for, then there’s his associate Mr Beckwith, and another Quaker trader, Isaac Fisher. Isaac is a friend of the Blakes.’
Michael nodded as he sat filling his pipe and looking out over the green water. Some slim silvery fish were leaping into the air a short distance from the boat. ‘Do you know anything about the nature of their common business? Michael asked, lighting a cigarette.
‘They own two ships. The Blakes and Isaac buy American cotton and have it spun in English mills and then woven, dyed and printed in India. Mr Montgomery buys silk from China and France, and Ryan, as you know, was an importer and exporter, not only of Mahoney Linen, but many other cloths. He supplied several London mercers, including the Montgomery Emporium.’
Rhia watched Michael register all of this, but she couldn’t tell what he was thinking. ‘I heard about Josiah Blake’s death,’ he said, ‘and I heard that he knew something he shouldn’t have and that he was killed for it.’
Rhia remembered the conversation she had heard between Sid and Dillon at the Red Lion. ‘Could he have been shipping opium?’
Michael shrugged. ‘He could have been.’
Rhia remembered something else. ‘My uncle received a letter from Josiah Blake, sent from Bombay before he died. The letter could not be found, but Mr Dillon seems to think it important.’
‘Who is Mr Dillon?’
‘A journalist. A friend of Laurence’s. He thinks Ryan was involved in the China trade.’
‘Ryan? Opium?’ Michael looked doubtful.
Rhia nodded, relieved that he didn’t believe it either. ‘But how did you know about Josiah Blake?’
‘The shipping news isn’t always printed. Plenty of sailors who work in Calcutta and Bombay come through Sydney. Bad news travels farthest and fastest.’
The barge was slowing and heading for a jetty almost hidden by mangroves. The tangle of submerged trees was home to an entire flock of crimson and blue parakeets, of jewel colour.
Michael stood up. ‘I reckon this is our stop.’
He held out his hand to help Rhia onto the jetty, but she leapt from the shallow hull without needing to take it. The rocking of a craft on the water no longer destabilised her, and neither did the unknown depths beneath it. She now knew depths more worthy of fear.
They walked cautiously along the sagging timbers of the jetty. There was a clearing, and behind it towered the trees, the colour of clean silver. Michael sat down on a fallen trunk as though he was waiting for somebody. Rhia sat beside him. The wild land rang with sound; a concerto of birdsong and trilling cicadas and rustling, scuttling creatures. There was a familiar thumping close by and, as usual, Rhia jumped. She might have acquired sea legs but she couldn’t get used to kangaroos. In amongst the misty green of the eucalypts were clusters of brick red and golden yellow. She registered the colours and patterns and stored them away. Something had begun to stir in her. Perhaps Cerridwen was feeling more generous.
‘What are we waiting for?’ she asked Michael
‘A friend,’ he said. Rhia thought he was joking. It was hard to tell. Michael had always been dry, but now he was dry as dust. She asked him the names of the red and yellow trees. ‘Waratah and wattle,’ he said.
Colour was returning.
When a man materialised from the trees, Rhia recognised him. This time, though, he was dressed in breeches and braces and a too-small shirt, without boots or stockings. His calves were long and thin, though ridged with muscle, and his bare feet looked like dusty shoe leather.
‘Morning, boss.’ The shining black face grinned from ear to ear as though he was enjoying a private joke.
‘Morning, Jarrah. You’ll have met Rhia Mahoney.’ Jarrah nodded at her, still grinning.
‘So,’ said Michael, ‘how far is this place?’
‘Not far, boss. Follow me.’
Jarrah walked through the dry underbru
sh, as though he was following an invisible path. He seemed to flow through the land soundlessly, almost without touching it; the low hanging branches and spiky shrubs barely moved as he passed.
Rhia picked up her skirts and did her best to keep up. Her cumbersome clothing seemed a little ridiculous in these conditions. She didn’t especially mind the prickle of heat though, nor the insects that swarmed around her face. She could have walked all day, now she was free to.
Michael stopped abruptly in front of her and she almost collided with him. In front of him, Jarrah stood unmoving, his hand held up to signal that they should be still. At first Rhia wondered why he didn’t just step over the branch lying on the ground in front of him, but then the branch curled and slid sideways. It was a brown snake. Jarrah moved so quickly that she couldn’t say how he suddenly came to be holding the tail of a four-foot snake, and cracking its head to the ground as though it were a whip. In another moment he had it draped around his neck. ‘That fella nearly got me,’ he chuckled over his shoulder as he started walking again. ‘Now he’s breakfast.’
They came to the edge of the forest and a vast acreage of cleared land. At the end of a winding drive was a long, low, stone bungalow surrounded by an elegant verandah with pretty iron railings. Lace curtains stirred between open doors. The cleared land was fenced for miles around and hundreds of sheep were grazing in the fields beyond. No wonder the graziers of Australia could produce such fine merino – the conditions here were perfect and the land just went on and on. Rhia had heard that this continent was the size of Europe and, looking at the endless sky, she believed it could be true.
They stepped from the cover of the trees, but Jarrah stayed, collecting bark and twigs to make a fire so that he could cook his snake. He said he’d keep some for them in the ashes, and Rhia said that she wasn’t very hungry.
They didn’t get far along the drive before two mongrel dogs came hurtling towards them as though they were escaped sheep. A moment later a thin, anxious-looking woman appeared on the verandah, wiping her hands on her apron. She had to be Juliette’s mother, the resemblance was unmistakeable.
‘Good morning to you!’ Michael called. ‘We’re looking for Eliza Green.’
‘That’s my name,’ the woman replied, looking even more apprehensive.
‘You’ve no need to worry, Mrs Green. We’ve word of your daughter.’
‘Juliette!’ Eliza clutched the railing as though her legs might not hold her. ‘You’d better come in,’ she managed finally. ‘They’ve gone into the town, so I can make you a cup of tea. Have you had your breakfast? The young lady looks hungry.’
She bustled them into a large, airy room and then fussed away again.
‘A grazier is a wealthy man in New South Wales,’ Michael observed in his driest tone as they perched on the edge of upholstered chairs. He ran his hand along the smooth, polished wood. ‘That’s cedar. Governor’s wood.’
Rhia supposed this was a drawing room. It was furnished in the gleaming red wood, with Oriental rugs covering wide, glossy floorboards. A pretty pianoforte stood in a corner and oil paintings of the English countryside covered the walls.
Eliza returned with a pot of tea, a flat loaf and some fresh butter. It looked a more appetising breakfast than Jarrah’s snake. Eliza picked up the teapot but her hand was unsteady, so Rhia took it from her and poured them each a cup, glancing at Michael. ‘I think we should tell Mrs Green why we’re here.’
He nodded.
Rhia explained, as best she could, what a photogenic drawing was and what had brought them to Rose Hill. Even to her ears it sounded like blarney. Eliza picked imaginary flecks from her apron and then destroyed a piece of bread with her fingers. When it was reduced to a pile of crumbs, she clasped her hands together.
Rhia waited until Eliza looked ready before she spoke again. ‘Do you know why Juliette might have thought one of the men was a murderer, Mrs Green?’
Eliza looked a little dazed. It was a lot to take in. ‘I know only one man who’s been murdered, and that was my husband,’ she said finally.
Rhia and Michael let this settle on a respectful silence.
‘And what happened to him?’ Michael asked quietly.
She told them how she had been widowed, violently, and had become so impoverished that hunger drove her to steal food. As if that were not enough, she’d been caught, tried and sent away from her child.
Michael was shaking his head. ‘Can you think of any reason why Juliette might think one of the men in the portrait killed her father?’
‘Only if she’d recognised him. But she was only wee.’
‘But she must have a strong suspicion, to want you to see it,’ Michael pressed.
‘Oh, I’d know John Hannam all right. I went looking for him myself. But men like that are cunning, there’s no end to what they’ll do. He’s trampled on my heart and left his filthy mark.’
Michael was nodding, but looking through the doors and out across the fields of sheep. ‘Mrs Green,’ he said finally, ‘what would you say if I told you there’s a clipper leaving Sydney for London in two weeks and you could have a ticket home?’
‘I’d say you have no idea what a maidservant earns, Mr Kelly.’
‘What I’m saying, Mrs Green, is that I’ve a job as ship’s carpenter on that clipper so I’ve no need to pay my own way. I’ve reason to believe you’ll be needed as a witness and I’m willing to pay your passage to London. You see, I was thinking I’d be needing to buy this young lady’s fare, but she tells me she has money of her own.’
Eliza more or less hurtled across the floor and threw her arms around Michael. She was laughing and then she was weeping and then she seemed to be doing both at once.
Michael winked at Rhia. ‘I’d say she’s agreed.’
‘Yes,’ said Rhia, ‘I’d say so.’
20 October 1841
We walked all day, from Rose Hill to George Street, and tonight I will sleep in a real bed. It is narrow and hard and this room is plain, but it smells of sunshine and feels like a palace. This is the home of a draper and his wife. They’re friends of Michael Kelly and they’re kind people.
Michael is quieter than I remember, but being a prisoner makes you quiet. His Aboriginal friend, though, is the lord of silence. He doesn’t even make a sound when he treads on the dry underbrush of the eucalypt forest. I don’t expect he knew what to make of me any more than I did of him. He heard me asking Michael about the names of flowers and plants, and would occasionally point to something and tell me what it was called, though I’m not sure if it was in his language or not. The laughing bird is a kookaburra, the huge white parakeet with a yellow crest is a cockatoo and the lizard the size of a crocodile is a goanna. Michael says there are crocodiles too, but they’re further north. I hope he’s right about that.
I feel like an interloper in the world of the free, just as I once did in the world of the convicted. I don’t think I quite believe it yet, and I don’t seem to be the person I once was. I cannot even remember who or what I was. Perhaps this is just what you intended. I don’t think it was entirely necessary that I sail halfway around the earth on a stinking ship to be changed, but I take your point. I am not exactly heroic when even the sound of a passing cart makes me edgy. I have lost my armour against the world. I will find it again, though I expect it will take a little time.
Tonight we dined on mutton and potatoes, and we talked about wool. I can afford to invest in a small amount of merino, just as Ryan said I should. I put it to Michael immediately, so at least I am still impulsive! He looked surprised and then doubtful and then, thankfully, thoughtful. He said he’d been thinking of sending some wool to Dublin himself but he hadn’t expected to find a business partner. I could tell he was thinking that he hadn’t expected to find one who was a woman, either. I hadn’t expected it myself, but it suddenly seems perfectly sensible. This is what I have come here to do. It must have been Antonia who put the money in my purse. I will repay her when our ship com
es in. And now I will go to bed. In a bed.
Straw
Who would have thought he’d feel such pride in showing someone from home around Sydney? Michael was pleased as punch when Rhia exclaimed over the elegantly carved stone edifices of Government House, and the fine turret of St Philip’s church. Gone was the bitterness of the early years when he’d seen how labouring men were expendable. The pain and fury of it had led to his pamphlet, and countless angry essays about the false gods of commerce that the colonists had hewn from the sandstone cliffs. He’d paid his dues to the real cost of nationhood, to the butchery and the heartbreak of the forgotten.
He pointed out loan and investment companies, the library, the offices of the Australian Gas Light Company and the Australian Sugar Company, the literary and scientific societies, the School of Arts and the new museum. Rhia was shaking her head by the time they were back on George Street.
‘I’d no idea that an architect could earn a living in Australia,’ she said.
Michael laughed. ‘The principle architect was transported for forgery. The change in his circumstances turned out well for him. He’d never have designed so many important public buildings if he’d stayed in Bristol.’
Rhia had her eye on the shop windows as they passed saddlers, tea dealers and druggists and, closer to the quay, ship chandlers and sail makers. She stopped at a milliner to look at the bonnets behind the panelled window. She turned with a raised eyebrow and a look that Michael recognised. She was, after all, a woman.
There had always been something about Rhia Mahoney, Michael reflected as she disappeared through the milliner’s doorway. She had the old woman’s eyes, the grandmother – as dark as pitch and somehow a little unnatural, as if they could see beyond the visible. Michael took out his tobacco tin and watched the street. A cart and dray swung past, piled high with bales of merino. There had been a lot of talk of wool, and Rhia was right, it was time to start shipping. The loss of liberty did strange things to you. It made you hungry for life.