by Jackson, Meg
Silas shook his head, looking around for a rag to wipe his shears on. The body count was rising. He hated cleaning up after killings. He briefly considered getting rid of the chick now, before she could cause any trouble. Mostly just because it’s easier to dispose of two bodies at once than one body twice.
But he figured it would be more helpful to have her alive in case of emergency. If none of his other little gifts to Reign would compel him to come save his damsel, her voice just might. He didn’t worry about the other half of the money Jeremy owed him. He’d search the wallet, take what he found. He’d make out like a bandit regardless. This was better, anyhow. He never fully trusted the cop to keep his trap shut to his buddies on the force.
Gabriella stared at her husband’s lifeless body, unable to breathe or swallow or do anything. He had been her last hope. Now she was locked up with this maniac who wanted to cut off her toes. And kill me, too, she thought, her mind growing hazy the more she looked at Jeremy, his hands, once so full of violent energy, now limp and shapeless, blood pooling around and between his fingers.
My husband is dead, she thought from somewhere far off. I’m finally safe.
Silas didn’t see it, but as Gabriella fell away into her own mind, passing from consciousness to unconsciousness like a ghost passing through a wall, she was laughing.
~ 30 ~
Reign saw a dark shape emerging before him on the highway. It looked like a car, parked sideways across the road. As he got closer, he saw that that’s just what it was. And as he got closer, his heart began to speed up even as his bike slowed down. It was a red car. A convertible. Tires shredded. Marks on the pavement, illuminated as his headlights got in range. He knew that car.
His hands trembled as the bike rolled to a stop and he placed his feet on the ground, reaching up to remove his helmet. What happened, he wondered, mind racing with awful possibilities. Whatever this was, it wasn’t a natural hazard of the road. Those tires were more than popped; they were destroyed. All of them. And who would leave the car right in the road?
Someone who didn’t have time to call a tow truck.
Or didn’t care.
It was Gabriella’s car. And she wasn’t in it.
They were shitty tires, her phone didn’t have service, she walked to get help…
But why wouldn’t she walk back to town, in that case? There wasn’t another place for miles, and he hadn’t passed her on the fifteen miles between town and here. Reign pulled out his own phone, the same carrier and style that he’d given Gabriella. He had plenty of bars.
This was bad. This was very bad. Reign trembled, and thought, surprisingly, of his sister.
Not another, he thought, the idea bringing a kink into his jaw as he grit his teeth. I won’t lose another woman I love.
He didn’t protect his sister.
He wasn’t going to make the same mistake twice.
Something awful had happened to Gabriella, and he wasn’t just going to leave her to her shithead ex-husband’s devices. Not like Miranda.
Kicking his bike back to life, Reign hooked around and sped back down the road; if ever there was a time he needed his club’s help, it was now. He’d have every man scouring the town and everything in a hundred-mile radius, and by sunrise she’d be safe. It had to be so. He couldn’t imagine the alternative…it wouldn’t be right. He wasn’t a good man, but he couldn’t be so bad as to deserve this again.
The bar came into view, and he peeled off the road, parking his bike randomly off to the side. His stride as he walked across the porch and into the bar was the stride of a leader, a man with a mission, someone who would accept no argument or denial. He carried this same aura with him, and everyone knew when he entered. Heads turned; half-drunk, the gathered members of the Black Smoke Motorcycle Club rose to greet him, all feeling his determination.
Honey put down the glass of beer she’d been filling from the tap, the head foaming up as she stared at Reign, anxiety rising like bubbles in her throat. I should have told him, she thought suddenly, knowing from the look on Reign’s face that there could only be one explanation.
Something had happened to the girl, and Reign had found out. Somehow, that little bike ride he’d taken had brought him straight to the conclusion that something was dreadfully wrong with Gabriella. And Honey was the only one, besides Endo, who might have a clue about the particulars.
“Boys, get ready to ride,” Reign said, his voice ricocheting through the bar. There was no hesitation as the men gathered around their soon-to-be-leader, ready to do whatever he asked. Reign looked over the sea of faces, all looking back at him with respect and loyalty.
“We’ve got a damsel in distress, boys,” he continued, still shouting although someone had already thought to turn the jukebox down. “That girl, y’all know the one?”
The crowd nodded en masse.
“She’s in some kinda trouble now. I ain’t sure what, but her car’s fifteen miles outside town with no wheels. Taco, Rifle, you two go get that shithead dealer’s tow truck and have him help y’all get it off the road and somewhere safe. Don’t need no law getting involved now and mucking everything up. Everyone else, spread out, and start combing every inch of this earth for her. I ain’t pussyfooting around here, boys, if she ends up dead, or hurt, that’ll be on us. We’re gonna find her, and we’re gonna make sure whoever’s out to get ‘er gets his due. You got it?”
Another general nod.
“I want most of y’all headed out to Colorado. Damn ex-husband might have her. He’s got a badge, so be careful if you gotta lay him out. Everyone else, head towards Salt Lake. I don’t have no clue what kinda time they got on us, but you best believe you’ll be speedin’ tonight,” Reign said, finishing his orders with a bark. He looked out at the crowd, a General sizing up a troop. These men would find her, he was sure of it. They had no reason to give a shit about Gabriella, but they’d do anything for Reign.
“You boys do me proud, now,” he said, and the men responded with a unified holler, raising their fists in the air and shouting the club’s name into the rafters. Reign held his stance, arms crossed across his chest, as the crowd broke around him, streaming out into the night. The sound of motorcycles revving soon filled the air, and in the deafening roar Reign felt his unease, which had settled while he was taking charge, threatening to overwhelm him.
Honey watched from behind the bar. Endo had slipped out with the rest of the men, apparently unwilling to bear witness to what was surely about to happen when Honey told Reign what she knew. Which she had to. If Gabriella had disappeared without a trace, if someone had cleared the road before Reign got there…
But if “if’s” and “but’s” were candy and nuts we’d all have a merry Christmas, Honey thought, remembering one of her late mother’s favorite sayings. She couldn’t keep this from Reign anymore. She couldn’t live with herself, couldn’t live with the club, knowing that she could have helped him but kept her mouth shut out of fear.
Reign’s downcast eyes eventually made their way to Honey’s. He walked towards her, slow and seeming defeated, especially compared to the way he’d entered, the way he’d spoken to the men as though he were Zeus.
“Honey…” he began, but Honey hushed him with her admission, blurted out like a seventh-grader’s crush at a slumber party.
“I think I know what happened to her,” she said, and watched as his eyes grew wide. He waited for her continue, but the words seemed stuck in her throat. He rapped his knuckles against the bar, impatient. “I saw someone…I saw someone last night…watching you two and…and when you went for the ride, he went to her room. That’s it, Reign, that’s all I know but…”
“And you didn’t think to tell me? You didn’t think I might be interested in knowing that sort of thing? What the fuck, Honey? You’ve got one fucking job at this fucking club, and it’s to tell me when shit like that happens. Holy fucking shit, you watched her leave! You watched me say goodbye to her, and let her drive off…”
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br /> “I’m sorry! I didn’t have time to…”
“Don’t fucking give yourself excuses, Honey,” Reign’s voice grew low, his eyes dark and narrow, hate pulsing through them. Honey shrank under his gaze.
“You could have called, texted. You didn’t say anything because you wanted her gone. Because you’re a selfish fucking bitch, and you didn’t want some other girl in here getting attention.
You wouldn’t even smile at her, Honey, you’d barely talk to her. You, of all fucking people, treated her like dirt. You came here totally fucked, and this club took care of you, and now you’re all high and mighty and can’t fucking return the favor?
I tell you what, you old bitch; if anything happens to Gabriella, it’s on you. Her blood will be on your fucking hands. And I’d like to see how much you get to whore around when everyone knows you could have done something to save her, and you didn’t.”
Reign had never spoken to her like that. Hell, no one had spoken to Honey like that since she left her husband. Tears filled her eyes, his words clattering in her head painfully.
“Reign, it’s not like that, I was worried about you…”
“My ass, Honey. You were worried about yourself, and losing your special little position in the club. I swear, Honey, if a single hair on her head…”
“Please, you have to…”
“Shut up. Just shut up. I don’t want to hear another word out of your lying mouth. You better just fucking go home, Honey. There won’t be anyone to serve tonight, ‘cause we’re all going out to find the girl that you let leave. You let her put herself in danger.
And it coulda been you, ya know. All those years ago, someone coulda done the same to you. The difference is,” Reign said, and now his eyes glinted, like he knew he was about to say something that he couldn’t take back. “The difference is that no one would cry if you’d died, Honey. No one gave a shit about you. They just pitied you. They still pity you. Old, washed-up bitch. I love Gabriella. No one’s ever loved you, and no one ever will.”
With that, he turned on his heel and stormed out of the bar, leaving her alone, Patsy Cline singing softly on the jukebox, the bar quiet and lonely and dim. She picked up a dishrag idly, needing something to do with her hands, and began to wipe at the bar. Her bar. It was her bar, after all, right? After everything Reign had said, wasn’t it still Honey’s bar? Or did it belong to the club, like everything else? Was there anything on this earth that Honey could truly call her own? No man, no woman, nothing…
She felt the phantom pain in her womb throb, as it did at certain times, as though reminding her that the only thing she’d ever actually had for herself was gone. Outside, one final motorcycle kicked to life and took off. And then Honey was alone. Really, truly alone. For the first time in a long time, she felt that the earth was a cold and lonesome place, and that she’d always be alone on it. No one’s ever loved you, and no one ever will…
~ 31 ~
I could still feel it. It was gone, but I could still feel it when I wiggled my toes. It didn’t help to look down, to get the visual feedback that told me I didn’t have a pinky toe on my left foot anymore. I’d read about phantom limb syndrome before, but it was interesting to experience it for myself. I say “interesting” instead of “terrifying” or “awful” because everything else was so terrifying and awful that losing a toe was relegated to the diminutive role of “interesting”.
The pain wasn’t even so bad compared to my thirst and hunger and the constant constriction of the binds that tied my feet and wrists together. The man who’d taken me – the tall, dark stranger – had taken care to dress the wound properly, while I was unconscious from the pain.
I guessed that was mostly a way to occupy time. I got the distinct feeling that he didn’t plan on keeping me alive forever, so saving me from sepsis was not much of a priority. It probably also saved the floor from needing another washing.
I’d watched, numb and dumb, as the man had mopped up Jeremy’s blood and dragged his body outside. I don’t know what he did with it, only that he wasn’t gone for very long before he returned.
Speaking of things I didn’t know, here’s a nice list: how long I’d been there, when the last time I’d had water was, how the man had known about the money in the duffel bag, or what had happened to my Mustang, or any of the things in it, like the passport and the ID and the cell phone with Reign’s number.
I was slowly starting to not know other things, too. My own name. The words to my favorite songs, which I’d been singing in my head to pass the few hours I was awake each day. The man, nameless and essentially faceless, seemed rather patient. He’d sit in silence, back to me, for hours at a time, only rising and facing me to give me another injection of the drug that knocked me out. I guess I sort of came to see him as a kind of savior as much as anything else: he bestowed onto me the only solace in the world I could have, which was sleep.
Those few hours I was awake each day were blurry at best, shot through with a constant anxiety and ever-increasing claustrophobia from the way he’d confined me. He never changed the rag that he’d shoved into my throat, and my tongue was raw and scratched from rubbing against the rough material. My nostrils worked double time to make up for the air my mouth couldn’t suck in. The rag was soaked through at first with my own spit, but as I grew more and more dehydrated it dried out as well.
I’d lost track of anything that wasn’t right in front of my eyes. My time with Reign seemed like a distant memory. My life with Jeremy, even more distant.
There was just the darkness of sleep, the pain of waking, the fear, the silent and solitary man with his back to me, sitting patiently, endlessly patiently, waiting to kill me or set me free.
And the longer I was there, the more I felt sure the latter would never happen.
This is how I die, I remember thinking. This is how Gabriella dies. At least it’s exciting. At least it’s worth a story in the paper.
And when I wasn’t thinking about my own mortality, I was putting my brain to even less use. If I’d never let Reign talk me into staying that extra day, if I’d decided to stay even longer, if I hadn’t pulled off in Ditcher’s Valley, if I hadn’t taken the money and run, if I hadn’t gotten the job at the hotel, if I hadn’t married Jeremy…
~ 32 ~
Reign stared at the desk, the items arranged in a neat row on the wood surface. His arms, laying on the table, created a perfect frame.
A photo.
A lock of hair.
And a toe.
Three days, three gifts.
Poised in the center above the collected evidence of Gabriella’s kidnapping was the note, almost humorously cliché with its cut-from-magazine letters and words.
Come alone.
Amidst the directions for the drop-off and the demands, those were the words that stood out the most to Reign. Because, of course, he couldn’t go alone. He wouldn’t risk his neck like that, he wasn’t stupid.
Except, maybe, he was stupid, because he wanted to go alone. The sane, safe, logical thing to do was bring some of his brothers, have them wait at a distance for the all-safe and storm the stronghold, kill the bastard who’d taken her, and ride off triumphantly into the sunset.
But what if that didn’t happen? What if, instead of coming away the victor, he’d come away with Gabriella’s blood on his hands because he couldn’t follow simple damn directions?
It had been three days since he’d sent the club out to scour the countryside for Gabriella, but they’d all returned empty-handed. The following day, the picture had shown up in an unmarked envelope slipped under Reign’s door.
The picture…Reign winced as his eyes fell on the poorly-lit Polaroid. Gabriella’s beautiful face was bruised and beaten, bleeding from wounds that clearly needed treatment, her mouth forced open by a gag that seemed to cut into the sides of her lips.
Her eyes were half-open, but nothing in them said that she was alive in her mind. She looked dead behind those eyes. Her black hai
r stuck to the sides of her face. When Reign first saw the picture, it took everything he had not to tear it into a million pieces and running screaming onto the road. It had hurt him as though it was his face that had been brutalized.
And then the lock of her dark black hair. Plaiting a dark red love-knot into her long black hair: the lines from the poem had rung in his mind once more as he’d fingered each strand, tied together with a light blue ribbon. He’d even held it to his nose and smelled it, hoping to inhale the slightest scent of her. But all he’d smelled was pain and violence and fear.