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by neetha Napew


  Liu Han did not like the look of all those pointed teeth. The scaly devil who spoke Chinese said, "You watch you go screw."

  That made no sense to Liu Han. She turned to Yi Min. "What is the little devil trying to say? Try and find out, since you speak his language."

  Yi Min made hissing and bubbling noises. Liu Han listened, bemused. Getting him to do what she wanted had been easy— all she needed to do was tell him in a firm way. In this weird place, his man's arrogance had dried up and blown away: he was no master here,

  and he knew it.

  "The devil says we're going to watch ourselves couple," Yi Min reported after a couple of minutes' back-and-forth. "It's the same in his speech as it is in Chinese. He seems very sure. He—"

  The apothecary shut up. One of the other little scaly devils, impatient with all the chatter, had stuck a clawed finger into a recess near the top of the pedestal. An image sprang into being above it— an image of the two people making love on the shiny mat in the other chamber.

  Liu Han stared and stared. She had spent, coppers to see moving pictures two or three times, but this was no ordinary moving picture. For one thing, it was not in shades of gray, but perfectly reproduced the tans and golds and pinks of flesh. For another, the image looked solid, not flat, and, as she

  discovered when she took a step, her view of it shifted whenever she moved. She walked all the way around the pedestal and saw herself and Yi Min from every side.

  The devils watched her, not the image. Their mouths fell open again. All at once, she was sure they were laughing at her. And no wonder — there she lay in miniature, doing publicly what she'd thought private. Watching herself made a third difference from seeing an ordinary moving picture, and made her hate the little devils for tricking her so.

  "You people, you screw any time, no season?" the Chinese-speaking devil demanded. "This true for all peoples?"

  "Of course it is," Liu Han snapped. Yi Min didn't say anything. He was watching his rather beefy buttocks move up and down, twisting his head to get the best possible view of things. As far as he was concerned, being

  in a moving picture was just fine.

  The devil said, "Any man screw any woman any time?"

  "Yes, yes, yes." Liu Han felt like screaming at the nasty little creature. Had it no decency? But then, who could say what was decent for a devil?

  The devils talked back and forth among themselves. Every so often, one or another of them would point at the two people, which made Liu Han nervous. The devils' voices rose. Yi Min said, "They're arguing. Some of them don't believe it."

  "What could it matter to them, anyhow?" Liu Han said.

  The apothecary shook his head; he had no idea, either. But the Chinese-speaking scaly devil answered the question a little later:

  "Maybe this screw so what do you Big Uglies so different than Race. Maybe screw any man, woman all time make you so—" He needed a brief colloquy with Yi Min before he found the word he wanted: "So progressive. Yes. Progressive."

  The words, the sentences, made sense to Liu Han, but she did not really take hold of the concepts behind them. Progressive, to her, was a word from Communist propaganda that meant "our way." As far as she could see, people and the little scaly devils had no way in common. In fact, they seemed to use progressive to mean "The opposite of our way."

  She could not ask them to explain, either, for they were arguing among themselves again. Then the one who spoke Chinese said, "We find out if you speak true. We make test. Make —" He went word hunting with Yi Min again. "Make experiment Bring for man many

  womans here, for woman many mans. See if screw all time like you say."

  When he heard that, when he understood it through bad grammar and twisted syntax, Yi Min smiled beatifically. Liu Han stared in disbelieving horror at the little devil, who seemed pleased at his own cleverness, she'd wondered what could be worse than coming to this strange, unpleasant place. Now she knew.

  Bobby Fiore picked up a rock, chucked it at a crumpled piece of paper forty or fifty feet away. He didn't miss by more than a couple of inches. His chuckle was sour. Chucking rocks was as close as he'd come to taking infield since the Lizards grabbed him. He didn't even dare do that near the perimeter of the camp. The last time anybody'd thrown a stone at a Lizard, five people were shot immediately

  afterward. That stopped that.

  One of the Lizards' whirligig planes racketed in from the northwest. It landed at their encampment, right outside the fence that cut off the peninsula on which sat Cairo, Illinois. Fiore found another rock, chucked it too, let out a new chuckle more sour than the old. He'd never expected to come back to— to come down to— Cairo again. He'd played there in the Class D Kitty League in— was it 1931 or 1932? He didn't remember any more. He did remember it had been a funny kind of town. It still was.

  A levee surrounded the place to protect it from floods on the Mississippi and the Ohio, at whose confluence Cairo sat. Over the top of the eastern barrier, Fiore could see magnolias and gingkos. They gave the town a Southern atmosphere that seemed out of place for Illinois. Also Southern was the feel of good times now long gone. Cairo had thought

  it would end up as the steamboat capital of the Mississippi. That didn't happen. Now it was just a Lizard prison camp.

  He supposed it made a good one. Because it had water on three sides, the Lizards had just wrecked the Mississippi highway bridge and run up their fast fences across the neck of Cairo Point. They didn't have gunboats in the river, but they did have soldiers, with machine guns and rockets on the levee and on the far shores. A couple of boats were supposed to have snuck across at night, but a lot more than a couple got sunk.

  Fiore mooched along till he came to the Lizards' fence. It wasn't exactly barbed wire; it was more like long strips of narrow, double-edged razor blade. It did the same job as barbed wire, though, and did it just as well.

  On the far side— on the free side— of the fence, the Lizards had run up guard towers.

  They looked the same way, say, Nazi prison-camp guard towers would have looked. A soldier in the nearest one swung the muzzle of his machine gun toward Fiore.

  "Go, go, go!" he said. It might have been the only word of English he knew. As long as he had that machine gun, it was certainly the only one he needed.

  Bobby went, went, went. You didn't disobey a prison guard, not more than once. Fiore's shoulders sagged as he walked slowly down Highway 51, back toward town. The United States had been going to kick Japan's and Germany's asses. Everybody knew it. Everybody felt good about it. And then, suddenly, without the least warning in the world or out of it, a prison camp— probably a lot of prison camps— right in the middle of the U.S.A.

  It wasn't so much that it didn't seem right. It

  was more as if it didn't seem possible. From the top of the world to sitting in a prison camp like a Pole or an Italian or a Russian or a poor damned Filipino. Americans weren't supposed to have to go through this kind of nonsense. His parents had left the, old country to make sure they never went through this kind of nonsense. And here it came to them.

  He tramped down the middle of the highway, wondering how, his parents were; he hadn't heard word one about Pittsburgh since the Lizards came. When he got into Cairo, Highway 51 changed its name to Sycamore Street Fiore kept walking on the white, dashes of the center line. No cars were running, though a couple of burned-out shells remained of ones that had tried. Only a handful of men in their nineties remembered the last time war visited the United States at home. It was here again, all uninvited.

  A colored man came up Sycamore toward Fiore. The fellow was pushing a cart that looked as if it had started life as a baby buggy. An old cowbell held on with a bent coat hanger clanked to announce his presence. As if that wasn't enough, he sang out every few steps: "Tamales! Git yo' hot tamales!"

  "What are you charging today?" Fiore asked as the hot-tamale man drew near.

  The Negro pursed his lips. "Reckon a dollar apiece'll do
."

  "Jesus. You're a goddamn thief, you know that?" Fiore said. The hot-tamale man gave him a look that in other times he never would have taken from a Negro. His voice was cool and distant as he answered, "You don't want none, friend, there's plenty what does."

  "Shit." Fiore unbuttoned the flap on his hip pocket, dug out his wallet. "Give me two."

  "Okay, boss," the colored man said, but not until the dollar bills were in his hand. He flipped open the cart's steel lid, used a pair of tongs to dig out the greasy tamales. He blew on them to cool them off before he gave them to Fiore, something for which, in other times, the Board of Health would have come down on him like a ton of bricks.

  Bobby didn't much care for a Negro's breath on his hot tamales, either, but kept his mouth shut. He was glad enough to have the money to buy them. When the Lizards pushed him off their whirligig flying machine, he'd had $2.27 in his pockets, and that was counting his lucky quarter. But it was enough to get him into a poker game, and endless hours on endless train and bus rides from one minor league town to the next had honed his skills sharper than those of the local boys he sat down with. More than two bills rubbed against each other in his wallet now.

  He bit through corn husks into spicy tomato sauce, onions, and meat. He chewed slowly, trying to identify it a little closer than that. It wasn't beef and it wasn't chicken; the last tamales he'd bought, a couple of days before, had had chicken in them. These tasted different, stronger somehow, almost like kidney but not that either.

  Something his father used to say, a phrase he hadn't thought of in years, floated through his mind: times so tough, we had to eat roof rabbit. In an instant, suspicion hardened to certainty: "You son of a bitch!" he shouted, half choking because he couldn't decide whether to swallow or spit. "That's cat meat in there!"

  The hot-tamale man didn't waste time denying it. "What if it is?" he said. "It's the onliest meat I got. Case you didn't notice, mister, ain't nobody bringin' no food into Cairo these days."

  "I oughta beat the crap outta you, givin' a white man cat meat," Fiore snarled, if he hadn't still held a tamale in each hand, he might have done it.

  The threat alone should have made the Negro cringe. Cairo not only looked like a Southern town, it acted like one. Jim Crow was alive and well here. Colored children went to their own school. Their mothers were domestics, their fathers mostly longshoremen or factory hands or sharecroppers. They knew better than to disturb the powers that be.

  But the hot-tamale man just stared steadily back at Bobby Fiore. "Mister, I can't sell you what I don' got. An' if you beat on me, maybe I won't hit back, though you ain't such a real big man as that. What I do, mister, I tell the Lizards. Y'all may be white, but them Lizards, they treats all kinds o' folks like they was niggers. White, black, don't make no never mind to them. We ain't free no more, but we

  is equal."

  Fiore gaped at him. He looked back, steady still. Then he nodded, as peaceably as if they'd been talking about the weather, and started pushing his cart up Sycamore Street. The cowbell clanked. "Hot tamales! Git yo' hot tamales!"

  Fiore looked down at the two he'd bought. His father had known hard times. He thought he had, too, but till now he'd been wrong. Hard times were when, you ate cat and were happy you had it to eat. He ate both tamales, then deliberately licked his fingers clean.

  He walked farther into town. Then he heard behind him the click of Lizards' nails on asphalt. He turned around to look. That was a mistake. The Lizards all pointed their guns at him. One made an unmistakable gesture— come here. Gulping, he came. The Lizards surrounded him. None of them came up past

  his shoulder, but with their weapons, that didn't matter.

  They marched him back toward their razor-blade fence. When he passed the slow-moving tamale man, the fellow just grinned. "I'll get you if it's the last thing I do!" Fiore shouted. The hot-tamale man laughed out loud.

  6

  Warsaw knew naked war again, the crack of rifles, the harsh, abrupt roar of howitzers, the screech and whine of incoming shells, the crash when they struck and the slow rumbling crumple of collapsing masonry afterward. Almost, Moishe Russie longed for the days of the sealed-off ghetto, when dying came slow rather than of a sudden. Almost.

  Ironic that Jews could come and go in the whole city now, just when the whole city became a battlefield. As the Poles had fought to the last in Warsaw against vastly superior Nazi forces, so now the Germans, embattled in turn, were making Warsaw a fortress against the overwhelming might of the Lizards.

  A Lizard plane screamed overhead, almost low enough to touch but too fast for antiaircraft guns to hit. Bombs fell, one after another. The explosions that followed were

  bigger than those the usual run of Lizard bombs produced unaided (like everyone else in Warsaw— German, Pole, or Jew— Russie had become a connoisseur of explosions); the Lizards must have set off some German ammunition.

  "What shall we do, Reb Moishe?" wailed a man in the shelter (actually, it was only a room in the ground floor of a reasonably stout building, but calling it safety might make it so— names, as any kabbalist knew, had power).

  "Pray," Russie answered. He'd begun to grow used to the title with which the Jews of Warsaw insisted on adorning him.

  More explosions. Through them, the man cried, "Pray for whom? For the Germans who would kill us in particular or for the Lizards who would kill everyone who stands in their way, which is to say, all of mankind?"

  "Such a question, Yitzkhak," another man chided. "How is the reb to answer a question like that?"

  With the Jewish love of disputation even in the face of death, Yitzkhak retorted, "What is a reb for, but to answer questions like that?"

  It was indeed the question of the moment. Russie knew that, only too well. Finding an answer that satisfied was hard, hard. Through the different-toned roars and crashes of aircraft, shells, bullets, and bombs, the people huddled against one another and passed the terrifying time by arguing. "Why should we do anything for the ferkakte Nazis? They murder us for no better reason than that we're Jews."

  "This makes them better than the Lizards, who would murder us for no better reason than that we're people? Remember Berlin. In an instant, as much suffering as the Germans

  took three years to give us."

  "They deserve it. God made the Germans as a scourge for us, and God made the Lizards as a scourge for the Germans." A near miss from a bomb sent chunks of plaster raining down from the ceiling onto the heads and shoulders of the people in the shelter. If the Lizards were God's scourge on the Germans, they also chastised the Jews, Russie thought. But then, scourges were not brooms, and did not sweep clean.

  Someone twisted the argument in a new direction: "God made the Lizards? I can't believe that."

  "If God didn't, Who did?" someone else countered.

  Russie knew the answer the Poles outside the ghetto's shattered walls gave to that. But no matter what the goyim thought, Jews put no

  great stock in the Devil. God was God; how could He have a rival?

  But fitting the Lizards into God's scheme of things wasn't easy, either, even as scourges. The Germans bad plastered Warsaw with posters of a Wehrmacht soldier superimposed over a photograph of naked burnt corpses in the ruins of Berlin. In German, Polish, and even Yiddish, the legend below read, HE STANDS BETWEEN YOU— AND THIS.

  It was a good, effective poster. Russie would have reckoned it more effective still had .he not seen so many naked Jewish corpses in Warsaw, corpses dead on account of the Germans. Still, he said, "I will pray for the Germans, as I would pray for any men who sin greatly."

  Hisses and jeers met his words. Someone— he thought it was Yitzkhak— shouted, "I'll pray

  for the Germans, too— to catch the cholera." Cries of agreement rang loud and often profane— no way to speak of prayer. Russie thought disapprovingly.

  "Let me finish," he said, and won a measure, if not of quiet, then of lowered voices: the advantage of being thought a reb, so
meone whose words were reckoned worth hearing. He went on, "I will pray for the Germans, but I shall not aid them. They want to wipe us from the face of the earth. However badly these Lizards treat all mankind, they will treat us no worse than any other part of it. Thus I see in them God's judgment, which may be harsh but is never unjust."

  The Jews in the shelter listened to Russie, but not all followed his way of thinking. Punctuated by blasts outside, the dispute went on. Someone tapped Russie on the arm: a clean-shaven young man (Russie was almost sure the fellow had fewer years than

  his own twenty-six, though his beardless cheeks also accented his youth) in a cloth cap and shabby tweed jacket. He said, "Will you do more than simply stand aside while Lizards and Germans fight, Reb Moishe?" From under the stained brim of the cap, his eyes bored into Russie while he awaited his reply.

 

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