“It will be our first full day of relaxation since we got here,” Dusa said. He and Esak had planned to stop by to play me some lemanthev recordings. I was already trying to come up with polite comments to say about how unique and interesting I found it.
Nayun’s brow creased. “I hadn’t realized you hadn’t had full days off yet. I hate to give you an assignment, but Shalia is being released tomorrow. She and her mother will need assistance moving to their new quarters.” He shook his head and waved his hand at them. “Don’t worry about it. I’m sure we can spare some orderlies—”
“We’ll be glad to help Shalia and Matara Eve relocate.” Dusa and Esak exchanged pleased looks.
“That would be most helpful.” Nayun seemed relieved. “We had several injured Earthers brought in this evening, and we’re a shorthanded right now.”
Esak frowned. “I heard there was a major incident. Two Earther groups were battling each other for supplies, if my information is correct.”
Nayun nodded. “And none of those that are conscious are happy to be here.”
Call me self-centered, but I was more interested in the news I was being sprung than hearing about stupid gangs trying to kill each other. “I’m all better?”
Nayun smiled. “You still need to take it easy for a few more days, but yes, you are well on the road to recovery. I need your bed, so I’m kicking you out.”
I grinned. “You can’t kick me if I’m running. Those walls are closing in on me.”
“I know. As soon as you’re up tomorrow, I’ll tell you where your quarters are located. Your mother should still keep to the schedule we’ve established for her, however.”
I have no problem with that. Mom seems pretty happy doing her thing.
Meanwhile, I’ve slept too late and dawdled over my breakfast far too long as I record all this. I need to dress and call my boys to help move our few belongings. I don’t feel too bad about Dusa and Esak spending their day off helping me out either. After all, most of our stuff consists of dozens of balls of yarn. That’s my young Dramok friend’s fault, so he can take care of it.
September 12 (later)
Another interesting day with new developments. I’d better start from the beginning.
First of all came the move. Mom was doing her usual routine at invalid daycare, which kept her out of my hair. I was ready to dash out of Medical with its antiseptic smells and my claustrophobic room. But when Dr. Nayun stopped in to say goodbye, I suddenly turned weepy and stupid. I’m going to miss seeing the big guy every day, even if he is a bit too much of a nanny. It was like losing a dad again.
“Shalia,” he said quietly, his big hand rubbing my back as he comforted me. “I’ll be checking on you each day for the next week to make sure you’re all right. You can always stop in for a visit too.”
“I know,” I blubbered. “But you saved my life. I’ll never be able to thank you enough for that.”
He smiled and pressed his warm palm to my cheek. “Seeing you healthy again is all the thanks I could wish for. Now don’t forget to rest as much as possible. Today, let Dusa and Esak do all the lifting and setting up. Make sure you stay hydrated...”
Etcetera, etcetera. I hope he has another patient or two to baby as he has me. The poor man is probably lost without some poor soul to hover over.
Nayun left too soon, incredibly busy again now that they have those two gangs to mend. There are a bunch of Nobeks in the medical building to keep the would-be troublemakers under guard. I’ve asked what will happen to the gang members, but there doesn’t seem to be an answer to that. Apparently, they’re too violent to be sent to the colonies, but nobody wants to put them in a Kalquorian prison either. The matter is being turned over to the Galactic Council, which is ultimately in charge of the survivors of Earth.
Dusa and Esak showed up to take me and my meager belongings to the new quarters Mom and I will share. One of the Academy’s scattered dorms is where we’ll be making our temporary home. There are only a dozen other people in the building I’ll be living in, other Earthers friendly to Kalquorians.
“We keep friendly Earthers separate from the rest of the population. That allows us to visit without you ostracized from the greater number,” Dusa told me in the small shuttle that took me from Medical to the dorm. It’s too far for me to walk in my condition. I was relieved to hear a shuttle would pick Mom up every morning and drop her off each evening. That makes things easy.
“It’s too bad so few recognize the good you’re trying to do,” I said.
“It does make things difficult. Earthers are more prone to run from us than accept help.”
“That sounds like somebody I know.” I grinned at Dusa.
He laughed. “I would never wish illness on any of you to convince you to come in, though it does make things easier.”
The dorm isn’t bad. It’s similar to a mid-price motel room. It consists of two double beds, a desk and chair, a small table with chairs that we could eat meals at if we didn’t go to the dining hall, a closet, and a bathroom. It’s enough for me, Mom, and her yarn.
“The shuttle service that will take you to the dining hall and Medical is on this schedule,” Esak told me, bringing up a list of amenities on the new handheld I’d been provided. “Emergency contact can be accessed by pressing this button. As long as you have the handheld on you, you can be tracked by our monitoring system.”
“That’s kind of creepy,” I said. Electronic stalking. I felt like a dog on a leash.
“Your whereabouts are only accessed to keep you safe,” Dusa said. “You’re not a prisoner, Shalia.”
“Yeah, I get it.” It was still freaky. That brought a thought to the forefront. “I could walk out of here at any point? Leave the Academy grounds?”
Esak gave me a probing stare. “There are patrols around the perimeter and vid surveillance. You can leave, but you’ll have to check out for our records and your own welfare.”
“Where would you go?” Dusa asked. “There’s nothing but starvation, sickness, and danger out there. Ultimately, you cannot stay on this planet and live.”
I shrugged. “I have nowhere to go. It’s just good knowing I could leave if I wanted to. Otherwise, this would be a prison.”
Dusa scowled, but Esak nodded with an understanding expression. “I can imagine the strain of your position, Matara. I too would be suspicious, given the circumstances.”
“Many Earthers are suspicious. They are badly frightened, and we have no idea how to alleviate that.”
Startled by the unfamiliar voice, I gasped and turned to the door that led outside, left open because of the rules that stated no Earth woman could be left alone with a single Kalquorian or his clanmates. A big man...a huge Kalquorian...stood there.
Dusa and Esak bowed. My young Dramok said, “Greetings, Commander Nang.”
“Good day, Dramok Dusa, Nobek Esak. May I come in, Matara Shalia?”
I blinked. I had no idea who this guy was, but apparently my friends did. I said, “Sure.” I wondered how he knew my name.
He entered the little room, having to duck a bit to make it through the doorway. Given that the standard height of a doorway is over six-and-a-half feet, that meant the guy was around seven feet tall. I’d never seen anybody so big, except Nayun.
Dusa took care of the introductions. “Matara Shalia, this is the site commander, Dramok Nang. He’s in charge of the rescue operations in this area.”
I almost stuck my hand out to shake from sheer habit, but instinctual fear kept me from doing so. It’s not that Nang appeared mean or anything; it was just that he was so damned large. He wasn’t glowing with gentleness like Nayun, though he didn’t seem hateful. He overwhelmed me.
He looked to be in his early forties. His face was lined though his body had that muscular build of the typical Kalquorian. His was a handsome face, with years of experience etched into it. A slight scar went from one corner of his mouth to the bottom of his chin. His aura was a far cry from the op
en innocence of Dusa. Even the ever-guarded Esak appeared to be a teenager next to this guy. Nang looked like he could be a real hardass if he wanted to.
I didn’t offer a handshake. I settled for, “A pleasure to meet you, Commander Nang.”
He bowed deeply to me. “I am happy to make your acquaintance. May I?” He motioned to a chair at the dining table.
“Yeah, fine.” If he was having a seat, that meant he planned to stay for at least a few minutes. I sat down too, but on the opposite side of the table. No way I was going to sit right next to him. His size and authoritative demeanor intimidated me.
Nang smiled pleasantly, and I relaxed a bit. He had a nice smile. He wasn’t as frightening with that expression on his face.
“I’ve been searching for an Earther who can help me with the problems of distrust between your people and mine,” he started. “I had sent out instructions for those on my staff who met such an Earther to bring him or her to my attention. This morning, Dusa indicated he thought you might have the knowledge and skills for such an assignment.”
I glanced over my shoulder at Dusa, who brightly smiled at me as if he’d done something I should praise him for. It was all I could do to not scowl.
I turned back to Nang. “I’m not sure I follow you, Commander. I’m not an ambassador or of particular note to my people. I make films. Made films,” I corrected myself.
He leaned towards me, folding his arms on the table between us. “Exactly. You made propaganda vids that helped move your people to follow their government and to accept your leaders’ dictates, no matter how unpalatable. You know your people’s psychology. You know how they think. That is exactly what I need.”
“To do what?” I could have cared less about how well the aliens had treated me. I had no intentions of producing vids for this man, citing what good guys the Kalquorians were or how we should all flock to Kalquor to bear their children. Some other Earther would find a blaster and kill me in an instant for treason. If I was lucky.
“I need you to talk to my men. They have no idea how to approach Earthers without frightening them. There have been instances during which interactions between our races here on the grounds have resulted in the women feeling they are being approached...inappropriately.” Nang reddened.
“You mean, they think they’re being pressured to have sex,” I said. A mean part of me enjoyed seeing such a big man squirm. Maybe Nang wasn’t so tough after all.
“Exactly. When I go over the incidents with the accuser and accused, the stories match up. Yet what we Kalquorians see as attempts to care for Earther women’s needs, they view as improper.”
“What do you want me to do?” I asked, trying to get a firm grip on his request. “Make a vid? Go around talking to your subordinates?”
Nang smiled wider, his expression hedging into real hope since I wasn’t refusing outright. “I was thinking a live presentation to as many of my men as possible. The presentation would allow Kalquorians to ask you questions on the spot if they are confused about a particular issue. We could also vid record it to make sure personnel assigned here sees it at some point.”
I could understand what he was saying. “Obviously, not all your men would be able to go to the live presentation.”
“We’ll also be bringing in more personnel as the weeks pass. I want something of this nature to be standard orientation.”
I mused. “So you want me to tell Kalquorian men how Earther women think and feel? What our mindset is when we speak to men, and specifically to our supposed enemies? How to approach us in such a way that will cause least offense?”
“Or no offense at all, if possible.”
I arched an eyebrow at him. “Don’t bet on it, Commander. We women were taught any and all approaches from men were suspect. Our religion brainwashed most of us into taking apart every instance of interaction with males, whether Earther or alien. Men often used our fear of being accused of inappropriate behavior to blackmail us into their beds.”
One of the men behind me...Dusa probably...gasped. Nang’s mouth hung open in shock.
I wasn’t finished. “Add in that most Earthers believe Kalquor blew up our cities and destroyed our world on purpose because you are hellbent on making all the women your sex slaves. Each woman thinks she is now destined to become the breeding bitch to a clan, which consists of three men. It’s an idea abhorrent to everything we were ever taught. Are you getting the picture, Commander?”
Nang leaned back. He closed his mouth, and his jaw tensed as he ground his teeth together. His forehead furrowed in half a dozen deep lines as he digested what I’d said.
Now that he knew what he was up against, I told him, “I’ll do it.”
His eyes widened. “But you said—”
“I know what I said. I wanted you to be aware that no matter how nicely your men approach Earther women, many will be frightened and ready to take offense.”
“Then why bother?” His grumbly voice was gentle. He gave me a look that said he wanted to figure me out.
I smiled. “Because every tiny touch of consideration goes a long way, even if we women won’t admit to it. Kalquorians approaching Earthers in a manner we feel is appropriate might make things easier not just on your men, but on the women you’re trying to help.” I studied my hands, clasped tightly on top of the table in a single fist, the knuckles whitened. “If you understand our pain and how to handle it, some of us might begin to heal.”
Nang said, “I had heard stories of how Earther females were treated. The tales were so shocking, I thought they had to be rumors. We revere our lifebringers on Kalquor. It is unfathomable that women would be handled so terribly.”
I wasn’t so sure how much truth was in that statement, but I let it go for now. “Our religion made women second-class citizens. It described us as helpmates to men, but we were little more than servants.” I chuckled without the least bit of humor. “I made so many vids on the evils of Kalquorians, detailing how you wanted us only for breeding. I always found it ironic that that was our main function in our own society.”
“I would be in great debt to you if you will help. What do you need from me?”
I thought about it. “Can I see the reports of improper behavior being leveled at your men? If I had specific examples, it would help me form a better presentation.”
Nang considered. “They are supposed to be confidential to protect all parties. I can remove the names however.”
I nodded. “That will work. When did you want to do this?”
“As soon as possible, but take whatever time you need. I place it in your hands.”
I had another thought. As little as Kalquorians know about how our minds work, I had to admit my own ignorance in reverse. “I’ll put together a first draft. Then you can go over it and tell me how to best present it to your men. I don’t want them to not understand or be offended in any way.”
Nang seemed pleased. “Thank you, Matara Shalia. I would be very glad to work on this project with you.”
I asked a few more questions, we exchanged some pleasantries, and Nang left. I also put in to have Dusa and Esak approved for private meetings with me. It’s too darned hot to keep my dorm door open when they visit. All hail the luxury of air conditioning. Maybe I’m borrowing trouble by allowing the privacy, but I think the boys are pretty much harmless. I feel safe with them...as long as I don’t start kissing Dusa again, that is.
We three had a nice day, walking around the Academy grounds (at a distance from where my fellow Earthers tend to congregate) and talking. I listened to some of their favorite music. It wasn’t as bad as I’d feared, though it was loud. It sounded kind of tribal. Dusa and Esak are thinking about making their own instruments and getting a valit (literal translation: howler)...the person who does all the screaming...to join them. They talk about how they’d even want to play for others. I hope they do so in a closed venue. If other Earthers hear it, they might think the Kalquorians are going to do blood sacrifices in some
pagan ritual.
We ended the day by going to the semi-private dining room where we’d had our date. This time we took Mom along. She seemed quite happy she could order Kalquorian food without being chastised for it. Esak tried some broiled chicken and gave me a taste. It was moist and delicious, and Dusa confirmed he’d told the cooks my tip on how to not char it to death. Look at me, I’m doing good. Dusa ate something called grul. It appeared similar to bright red rocks, and the boys told me under no circumstance was I to eat it. After my experience with bywes, I was more than happy to agree with them.
They have to work tomorrow, so I’ll start on my presentation. I’m looking forward to some constructive activities.
September 13
Wow, it’s past noon already. I’ve been working on Nang’s presentation all morning and half the afternoon, it turns out. It took my stomach growling like an enraged bear to draw me out to the dining room. There was only half a dozen of us in there eating at that time of the day, the midday meal rush having come and gone. There was no P.T. to endure, though I missed eating with Mom. She was having outdoor activity period when I checked on her. The Kalquorian minders have their wards doing rubbings in the memorial garden, of all things. You take a piece of paper, lay it on some textured surface, and color over it with a crayon or coal and get an impression. It actually looked fun, and Mom showed me at least a half a ream of her work. She’d done names of the dead from the marble, flowers, and lots of leaves. She was having a blast, as most of them were.
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