by Zane Grey
“‘You spoiled weaklin’!’ thundered dad. ‘How ’n hell can I believe you?’
“‘Because I know it,’ declared Jack, standing right up to his father, white and unflinching.
“Then dad broke out in such a rage that I sat there scared so stiff I could not move. My heart beat thick and heavy. Dad got livid of face, his hair stood up, his eyes rolled. He called Jack every name I ever heard any one call him, and then a thousand more. Then he cursed him. Such dreadful curses! Oh, how sad and terrible to hear dad!
“‘Right you are!’ cried Jack, bitter and hard and ringing of voice. ‘Right, by God! But am I all to blame? Did I bring myself here on this earth!… There’s something wrong in me that’s not all my fault.… You can’t shame me or scare me or hurt me. I could fling in your face those damned three years of hell you sent me to! But what’s the use for you to roar at me or for me to reproach you? I’m ruined unless you give me Collie—make her love me. That will save me. And I want it for your sake and hers—not for my own. Even if I do love her madly I’m not wanting her for that. I’m no good. I’m not fit to touch her.… I’ve just come to tell you the truth. I feel for Collie—I’d do for Collie—as you did for my mother! Can’t you understand? I’m your son. I’ve some of you in me. And I’ve found out what it is. Do you and Collie want to take me at my word?’
“I think it took dad longer to read something strange and convincing in Jack than it took me. Anyway, dad got the stunning consciousness that Jack knew by some divine or intuitive power that his reformation was inevitable, if I loved him. Never have I had such a distressing and terrible moment as that revelation brought to me! I felt the truth. I could save Jack Belllounds. No woman is ever fooled at such critical moments of life. Ben Wade once said that I could have reformed Jack were it possible to love him. Now the truth of that came home to me, and somehow it was overwhelming.
“Dad received this truth—and it was beyond me to realize what it meant to him. He must have seen all his earlier hopes fulfilled, his pride vindicated, his shame forgotten, his love rewarded. Yet he must have seen all that, as would a man leaning with one foot over a bottomless abyss. He looked transfigured, yet conscious of terrible peril. His great heart seemed to leap to meet this last opportunity, with all forgiveness, with all gratitude; but his will yielded with a final and irrevocable resolve. A resolve dark and sinister!
“He raised his huge fists higher and higher, and all his body lifted and strained, towering and trembling, while his face was that of a righteous and angry god.
“‘My son, I take your word!’ he rolled out, his voice filling the room and reverberating through the house. ‘I give you Collie!… She will be yours!… But, by the love I bore your mother—I swear—if you ever steal again—I’ll kill you!’
“I can’t say any more—
“COLUMBINE.”
CHAPTER 14
Spring came early that year at White Slides Ranch. The snow melted off the valleys, and the wild flowers peeped from the greening grass while yet the mountain domes were white. The long stone slides were glistening wet, and the brooks ran full-banked, noisy and turbulent and roily.
Soft and fresh of color the gray old sage slopes came out from under their winter mantle; the bleached tufts of grass waved in the wind and showed tiny blades of green at the roots; the aspens and oaks, and the vines on fences and cliffs, and the round-clumped, brook-bordering willows took on a hue of spring.
The mustangs and colts in the pastures snorted and ran and kicked and cavorted; and on the hillsides the cows began to climb higher, searching for the tender greens, bawling for the new-born calves. Eagles shrieked the release of the snowbound peaks, and the elks bugled their piercing calls. The grouse-cocks spread their gorgeous brown plumage in parade before their twittering mates, and the jays screeched in the woods, and the sage-hens sailed along the bosom of the gray slopes.
Black bears, and browns, and grizzlies came out of their winter’s sleep, and left huge, muddy tracks on the trails; the timber wolves at dusk mourned their hungry calls for life, for meat, for the wildness that was passing; the coyotes yelped at sunset, joyous and sharp and impudent.
But winter yielded reluctantly its hold on the mountains. The black, scudding clouds, and the squalls of rain and sleet and snow, whitening and melting and vanishing, and the cold, clear nights, with crackling frost, all retarded the work of the warming sun. The day came, however, when the greens held their own with the grays; and this was the assurance of nature that spring could not be denied, and that summer would follow.
* * *
Bent Wade was hiding in the willows along the trail that followed one of the brooks. Of late, on several mornings, he had skulked like an Indian under cover, watching for some one. On this morning, when Columbine Belllounds came riding along, he stepped out into the trail in front of her.
“Oh, Ben! You startled me!” she exclaimed, as she held hard on the frightened horse.
“Good mornin’, Collie,” replied Wade. “I’m sorry to scare you, but I’m particular anxious to see you. An’ considerin’ how you avoid me these days, I had to waylay you in regular road-agent style.”
Wade gazed up searchingly at her. It had been some time since he had been given the privilege and pleasure of seeing her close at hand. He needed only one look at her to confirm his fears. The pale, sweet, resolute face told him much.
“Well, now you’ve waylaid me, what do you want?” she queried, deliberately.
“I’m goin’ to take you to see Wils Moore,” replied Wade, watching her closely.
“No!” she cried, with the red staining her temples.
“Collie, see here. Did I ever oppose anythin’ you wanted to do?”
“Not—yet,” she said.
“I reckon you expect me to?”
She did not answer that. Her eyes drooped, and she nervously twisted the bridle reins.
“Do you doubt my—my good intentions toward you—my love for you?” he asked, in gentle and husky voice.
“Oh, Ben! No! No! It’s that I’m afraid of your love for me! I can’t bear—what I have to bear—if I see you, if I listen to you.”
“Then you’ve weakened? You’re no proud, high-strung, thoroughbred girl any more? You’re showin’ yellow?”
“Ben Wade, I deny that,” she answered, spiritedly, with an uplift of her head. “It’s not weakness, but strength I’ve found.”
“Ahuh! Well, I reckon I understand. Collie, listen. Wils let me read your last letter to him.”
“I expected that. I think I told him to. Anyway, I wanted you to know—what—what ailed me.”
“Lass, it was a fine, brave letter—written by a girl facin’ an upheaval of conscience an’ soul. But in your own trouble you forget the effect that letter might have on Wils Moore.”
“Ben!… I—I’ve lain awake at night—Oh, was he hurt?”
“Collie, I reckon if you don’t see Wils he’ll kill himself or kill Buster Jack,” replied Wade, gravely.
“I’ll see—him!” she faltered. “But oh, Ben—you don’t mean that Wilson would be so base—so cowardly?”
“Collie, you’re a child. You don’t realize the depths to which a man can sink. Wils has had a long, hard pull this winter. My nursin’ an’ your letters have saved his life. He’s well, now, but that long, dark spell of mind left its shadow on him. He’s morbid.”
“What does he—want to see me—for?” asked Columbine, tremulously. There were tears in her eyes. “It’ll only cause more pain—make matters worse.”
“Reckon I don’t agree with you. Wils just wants an’ needs to see you. Why, he appreciated your position. I’ve heard him cry like a woman over it an’ our helplessness. What ails him is lovesickness, the awful feelin’ which comes to a man who believes he has lost his sweetheart’s love.”
“Poor boy! So he imagines I don’t love him any more? Good Heavens! How stupid men are!… I’ll see him, Ben. Take me to him.”
For answer,
Wade grasped the bridle of her horse and, turning him, took a course leading away behind the hill that lay between them and the ranch-house. The trail was narrow and brushy, making it necessary for him to walk ahead of the horse. So the hunter did not speak to her or look at her for some time. He plodded on with his eyes downcast. Something tugged at Wade’s mind, an old, familiar, beckoning thing, vague and mysterious and black, a presage of catastrophe. But it was only an opening wedge into his mind. It had not entered. Gravity and unhappiness occupied him. His senses, nevertheless, were alert. He heard the low roar of the flooded brook, the whir of rising grouse ahead, the hoofs of deer on stones, the song of spring birds. He had an eye also for the wan wild flowers in the shaded corners. Presently he led the horse out of the willows into the open and up a low-swelling, long slope of fragrant sage. Here he dropped back to Columbine’s side and put his hand upon the pommel of her saddle. It was not long until her own hand softly fell upon his and clasped it. Wade thrilled under the warm touch. How well he knew her heart! When she ceased to love any one to whom she had given her love then she would have ceased to breathe.
“Lass, this isn’t the first mornin’ I’ve waited for you,” he said, presently. “An’ when I had to go back to Wils without you—well, it was hard.”
“Then he wants to see me—so badly?” she asked.
“Reckon you’ve not thought much about him or me lately,” said Wade.
“No. I’ve tried to put you out of my mind. I’ve had so much to think of—why, even the sleepless nights have flown!”
“Are you goin’ to confide in me—as you used to?”
“Ben, there’s nothing to confide. I’m just where I left off in that letter to Wilson. And the more I think the more muddled I get.”
Wade greeted this reply with a long silence. It was enough to feel her hand upon his and to have the glad comfort and charm of her presence once more. He seemed to have grown older lately. The fragrant breath of the sage slopes came to him as something precious he must feel and love more. A haunting transience mocked him from these rolling gray hills. Old White Slides loomed gray and dark up into the blue, grim and stern reminder of age and of fleeting time. There was a cloud on Wade’s horizon.
“Wils is waitin’ down there,” said Wade, pointing to a grove of aspens below. “Reckon it’s pretty close to the house, an’ a trail runs along there. But Wils can’t ride very well yet, an’ this appeared to be the best place.”
“Ben, I don’t care if dad or Jack know I’ve met Wilson. I’ll tell them,” said Columbine.
“Ahuh! Well, if I were you I wouldn’t,” he replied.
They went down the slope and entered the grove. It was an open, pretty spot, with grass and wild flowers, and old, bleached logs, half sunny and half shady under the new-born, fluttering aspen leaves. Wade saw Moore sitting on his horse. And it struck the hunter significantly that the cowboy should be mounted when an hour back he had left him sitting disconsolately on a log. Moore wanted Columbine to see him first, after all these months of fear and dread, mounted upon his horse. Wade heard Columbine’s glad little cry, but he did not turn to look at her then. But when they reached the spot where Moore stood Wade could not resist the desire to see the meeting between the lovers.
Columbine, being a woman, and therefore capable of hiding agitation, except in moments of stress, met that trying situation with more apparent composure than the cowboy. Moore’s long, piercing gaze took the rose out of Columbine’s cheeks.
“Oh, Wilson! I’m so happy to see you on your horse again!” she exclaimed. “It’s too good to be true. I’ve prayed for that more than anything else. Can you get up into your saddle like you used to? Can you ride well again?… Let me see your foot.”
Moore held out a bulky foot. He wore a shoe, and it was slashed.
“I can’t wear a boot,” he explained.
“Oh, I see!” exclaimed Columbine, slowly, with her glad smile fading. “You can’t put that—that foot in a stirrup, can you?”
“No.”
“But—it—it will—you’ll be able to wear a boot soon,” she implored.
“Never again, Collie,” he said, sadly.
And then Wade perceived that, like a flash, the old spirit leaped up in Columbine. It was all he wanted to see.
“Now, folks,” he said, “I reckon two’s company an’ three’s a crowd. I’ll go off a little ways an’ keep watch.”
“Ben, you stay here,” replied Columbine, hurriedly.
“Why, Collie? Are you afraid—or ashamed to be with me alone?” asked Moore, bitterly.
Columbine’s eyes flashed. It was seldom they lost their sweet tranquillity. But now they had depth and fire.
“No, Wilson, I’m neither afraid nor ashamed to be with you alone,” she declared. “But I can be as natural—as much myself with Ben here as I could be alone. Why can’t you be? If dad and Jack heard of our meeting the fact of Ben’s presence might make it look different to them. And why should I heap trouble upon my shoulders?”
“I beg pardon, Collie,” said the cowboy. “I’ve just been afraid of—of things.”
“My horse is restless,” returned Columbine. “Let’s get off and talk.”
So they dismounted. It warmed Wade’s gloomy heart to see the woman-look in Columbine’s eyes as she watched the cowboy get off and walk. For a crippled man he did very well. But that moment was fraught with meaning for Wade. These unfortunate lovers, brave and fine in their suffering, did not realize the peril they invited by proximity. But Wade knew. He pitied them, he thrilled for them, he lived their torture with them.
“Tell me—everything,” said Columbine, impulsively.
Moore, with dragging step, approached an aspen log that lay off the ground, propped by the stump, and here he leaned for support. Columbine laid her gloves on the log.
“There’s nothing to tell that you don’t know,” replied Moore. “I wrote you all there was to write, except”—here he dropped his head—“except that the last three weeks have been hell.”
“They’ve not been exactly heaven for me,” replied Columbine, with a little laugh that gave Wade a twinge.
Then the lovers began to talk about spring coming, about horses and cattle, and feed, about commonplace ranch matters not interesting to them, but which seemed to make conversation and hide their true thoughts. Wade listened, and it seemed to him that he could read their hearts.
“Lass, an’ you, Wils—you’re wastin’ time an’ gettin’ nowhere,” interposed Wade. “Now let me go, so’s you’ll be alone.”
“You stay right there,” ordered Moore.
“Why, Ben, I’m ashamed to say that I actually forgot you were here,” said Columbine.
“Then I’ll remind you,” rejoined the hunter. “Collie, tell us about Old Bill an’ Jack.”
“Tell you? What?”
“Well, I’ve seen changes in both. So has Wils, though Wils hasn’t seen as much as he’s heard from Lem an’ Montana an’ the Andrews boys.”
“Oh!…” Columbine choked a little over her exclamation of understanding. “Dad has gotten a new lease on life, I guess. He’s happy, like a boy sometimes, an’ good as gold.… It’s all because of the change in Jack. That is remarkable. I’ve not been able to believe my own eyes. Since that night Jack came home and had the—the understanding with dad he has been another person. He has left me alone. He treats me with deference, but not a familiar word or look. He’s kind. He offers the little civilities that occur, you know. But he never intrudes upon me. Not one word of the past! It is as if he would earn my respect, and have that or nothing.… Then he works as he never worked before—on dad’s books, in the shop, out on the range. He seems obsessed with some thought all the time. He talks little. All the old petulance, obstinacy, selfishness, and especially his sudden, queer impulses, and bull-headed tenacity—all gone! He has suffered physical distress, because he never was used to hard work. And more, he’s suffered terribly for the want of liquor. I’ve heard
him say to dad: ‘It’s hell—this burning thirst. I never knew I had it. I’ll stand it, if it kills me.… But wouldn’t it be easier on me to take a drink now and then, at these bad times?’… And dad said: ‘No, son. Break off fer keeps! This taperin’ off is no good way to stop drinkin’. Stand the burnin’. An’ when it’s gone you’ll be all the gladder an’ I’ll be all the prouder.’… I have not forgotten all Jack’s former failings, but I am forgetting them, little by little. For dad’s sake I’m overjoyed. For Jack’s I am glad. I’m convinced now that he’s had his lesson—that he’s sowed his wild oats—that he has become a man.”
Moore listened eagerly, and when she had concluded he thoughtfully bent his head and began to cut little chips out of the log with his knife.
“Collie, I’ve heard a good deal of the change in Jack,” he said, earnestly. “Honest Injun, I’m glad—glad for his father’s sake, for his own, and for yours. The boys think Jack’s locoed. But his reformation is not strange to me. If I were no good—just like he was—well, I could change as greatly for—for you.”
Columbine hastily averted her face. Wade’s keen eyes, apparently hidden under his old hat, saw how wet her lashes were, how her lips trembled.
“Wilson, you think then—you believe Jack will last—will stick to his new ways?” she queried, hurriedly.
“Yes, I do,” he replied, nodding.
“How good of you! Oh! Wilson, it’s like you to be noble—splendid. When you might have—when it’d have been so natural for you to doubt—to scorn him!”
“Collie, I’m honest about that. And now you be just as honest. Do you think Jack will stand to his colors? Never drink—never gamble—never fly off the handle again?”
“Yes, I honestly believe that—providing he gets—providing I—”
Her voice trailed off faintly.