“Kane,” I said, handing him the piece of paper. I was beginning to enter panic mode. “You have to go to her. You have to protect her.”
I looked at Kane. He didn’t look like he was in any state to drive. There was blood on his fist and he was slightly limping from where Matt had whacked his legs with the iron bar.
He rushed past me, back inside, and I ran after him. He went right through the bar, past Paul and Jason.
“Where’s he going?” Paul said.
“Kane,” I called. “Wait.”
He stopped at the door. “I’ve waited long enough, Sandra. I’ve wasted too much time already. It took me two years to get to this point, and I’m not about to stall now. Meadow needs me, and I’m going to be there for her when she does.”
CHAPTER 53
MEADOW
I lay on my back with my hand on my belly, my mind racing. There was no more denying it. I’d suspected it for some time, but now I knew for certain.
I couldn’t remember when I’d last had my period. I’d never been the most regular, so it was very easy for me not to notice when it was late. But then there was the morning sickness.
After my bath I went to the drug store and got a pregnancy test. In fact, I bought five of them.
One after the other, I took the tests, and one after the other, they told me what I already knew. I was pregnant! I was having a baby!
And not just that, but it was Kane’s baby. Now, more than ever, I needed him to come back. I needed him to come back for me. I was going to be the mother of his child after all.
I let out a long sigh and looked up at the ceiling. The screen door on my back porch was blowing in the wind again and I thought I should get up and go close it properly. I didn’t want it to get damaged.
It banged again in the wind and I got up.
I was in nothing but my nightdress and a cool, refreshing breeze was flowing through the house. It felt good against my skin. Even without Kane, I was in a good place. I lived in a nice town. I had good friends and a great apartment. I had a job I enjoyed, and plans to start an interior decorating business.
Even without Kane, I’d be okay. The baby would be okay.
It was just … I didn’t want to be without Kane.
When would he come back?
I rounded the corner into the hall and instantly, nothing was right. There was someone there, right in front of me, and I let out a shrill scream
“What the hell?” I cried.
It was dark and I couldn’t tell who was standing there, a few feet away from me. Was it Paul? Was it Jason?
Was it an intruder?
“You little whore,” a familiar voice said to me in the darkness.
It was Matt! How was he there? We’d signed our divorce papers. He’d taken back his vehicle and his money. He should have been out of my life.
“What are you doing here?” I gasped.
The lights came on and I saw him there in front of me. I backed away, shielding my stomach instinctively.
“Matt, you can’t be here. I’ll call the police.”
“You won’t call anyone bitch. You’re going to pay for what you’ve done. I’m going to teach you some manners.”
I backed away from him, all the way into my bedroom, and stood in front of the bed.
“I’m glad to see you’re in your slutty night dress. Now, all you have to do is get down on your knees and show me what a sorry girl you are.”
“What? I’m not sorry. Get the hell out of here or you’ll be sorry.”
“I hardly think you’re the one to be handing out threats,” he said with a sneer, opening the fly of his pants.
I looked at him more closely and saw that he was beat up. There was dry blood on his face and his clothes were covered in dirt and stains. He wasn’t himself.
“What are you doing? Stop opening your pants.”
“Why should I? You’re going to take what I give you, and then you’re going to come home with me like a good wife.”
“I’m not your wife anymore, Matt.”
“Yes you are, and you always will be.”
“You lost me the moment you cheated on me, Matt. You never had me. A marriage is based on faithfulness and love. You never understood that, and that’s why you’re alone.”
“Alone? I’ll show you alone. When I get you back home, I’m going to lock you in the basement and make sure you can never leave me again.”
He came closer, opening his belt and taking his erect cock out of his pants. My stomach turned when I saw it. It was a sight I’d expected never to have to see again. Not only did I hate Matt’s guts, in my heart I knew I already belonged to another man. I belonged to Kane. Even if he didn’t know it, I was his and I was carrying his child. Matt had no right to lay a finger on me, never mind what he thought he was going to do to me.
He pulled his shirt off over his head and I backed further away from him on the bed.
“You better get over here and start sucking, bitch. If you don’t swallow every drop, I’m going to kill you.”
His words terrified me. From the crazy look on his face I could tell he was unhinged and could be capable of anything. With a baby inside me, I knew I had to protect my body at all costs. I looked at him and then looked around the room for any chance at escape. He was between me and the door, and the window was behind him. There was no way out other than through him, and I was definitely not strong enough to get past.
Plus, I couldn’t risk the chance he’d hit me in the stomach.
“Please, Matt,” I said, trying to calm the situation.
“Don’t beg, bitch. Either you start sucking my cock right now or I’ll strangle you where you lie.”
I looked up into his face. I didn’t know what to do. I had no choice.
CHAPTER 54
KANE
My mind was running at a million miles a minute. How could I have been so stupid? I should have kept on top of Matt while I had the chance. Instead, I let him walk free.
If anything happened to Meadow, I’d never forgive myself. I’d gone away to recover from the trauma of losing Carolyn and Tamara. It had been overdue, but I hadn’t been able to face dealing with that loss until now.
That was because of Meadow. I owed her everything. Her coming into my life woke up the feelings I’d thought were gone forever. It was because of her that I’d finally been able to let go of the loss I’d experienced.
But what if it happened again? What if I lost Meadow too? Because of my own stupidity.
I jumped into my Jeep and drove like a maniac to the address on the piece of paper. I knew exactly where it was, overlooking my favorite beach, right at the place where I’d taken her to the lifeguard tower.
As I drove, screeching around corners and running stop signs, I wondered if it was because of that night that she’d chosen this place to live.
When I reached her house I slammed on the breaks and leapt from the Jeep. My heart skipped a beat when I thought how close I was to seeing Meadow again.
Meadow’s car wasn’t in the driveway but another car was. I knew it was Matt’s.
I leapt up the steps to her front door and pushed it open.
“Meadow,” I called. “Meadow!”
The light in the hallway was on and I rushed toward it. There was a sound coming from one of the rooms and I ran to it. When I saw what was happening, my mind went completely blank with rage.
Meadow was lying on the bed, in her nightdress, struggling. Matt was on top of her, his pants around his knees and his shirt off. And he was trying to strangle her!
I grabbed him and flung him against the wall.
“Get the hell away from her,” I yelled.
Without even thinking, I drove my fist into his face. That was followed with another blow, and another. He collapsed on the ground, his face covered in blood, and still I couldn’t stop. I just kept punching him and punching him.
It wasn’t until Meadow grabbed me that I finally stopped.
“Kane, you’re going to kill him.”
“I want to kill him.”
“No, you have to stop. I’m calling the police.”
“If he thinks he can put a hand on you like that, he deserves to die.”
I looked up at her and took deep breaths, trying to calm my rage.
As my vision came back to normal, I realized who I was looking at. I was looking right at the most beautiful person I’d ever seen in my life. If there had been any doubt in my heart, I knew the truth for certain now. I was in love with this woman. I was madly in love with her.
I would die for her.
And this guy had been trying to strangle her! I wanted to hit him again but Meadow’s arm on mine told me not to move.
“Meadow,” I gasped.
“Kane.”
“I’m back,” I said, pulling her into me.
Instantly, she burst into tears. I realized then just how desperately she’d been waiting for me to return. I hadn’t known for sure if she was waiting for me or if she’d forgotten all about me. Now I knew. She was my girl, and as I crushed my lips down on hers for the first time in so long, I knew that what we had was real. It would last forever.
She sobbed as she kissed me, completely overtaken with emotion.
“I’m back,” I said again. “I’m back and I’m never going away again. I promise.”
A movement at our feet broke the passion. I reached down and pulled Matt up onto the bed. He was in no state to resist, his face bruised and bloody and his nose possibly broken.
I held Meadow in my arms and we both watched him on the bed until the police finally arrived. Meadow was trembling and I whispered soothing words in her ear the whole time.
“I’m back, Meadow. I’m back.”
She kept sobbing every time I told her that.
“I can’t believe you’re back,” she said.
I squeezed her and nodded.
Then she hit me on the chest, not hard but it was about as hard as she could manage after everything that had just happened.
“And I can’t believe you disappeared like that!”
“I’m sorry,” I said.
“You better be!” she said, and I saw the fire of her personality return to her eyes.
I smiled and she smiled back, forgiving me for disappearing with that single look.
The police arrived and filled out a report, noting the marks on Meadow’s neck. They took Matt away in handcuffs and I knew we wouldn’t have to worry about him ever again. He was done.
Sandra, Paul and Jason were standing by, waiting for the police to leave.
“Good riddance,” Sandra said as the police passed her with Matt.
I led Meadow by the hand down to where they were all waiting.
“I see you two are reacquainted,” Sandra said to me and Meadow, a mischievous look in her eye.
“Let’s go back to the brewery for burgers,” I said. “We’ve all got so much catching up to do.”
Paul and Jason looked like they were in agreement. Sandra shrugged. I turned to Meadow but she was shaking her head.
“That was a lot for me to process for one night,” she said. “I think I’m going to turn in.”
“What?” I said. “I thought we’d …”.
“You thought we’d what?” she said, looking at me sternly. “You disappear for all that time, and then you think you can just waltz back like nothing happened?”
I shook my head. I knew I’d been hard on her by disappearing without a word. Despite our kiss, I’d have to earn my way back into her life.
“Do you want me to stay here with you for the night,” Sandra said to Meadow. “You’ve just been attacked.”
“No,” Meadow said immediately.
I was surprised at how sure of herself she sounded.
“Matt’s in police custody. I’m shaken up but I want to be alone. I need to process all this,” she said, looking right at me.
“You sure?” Sandra said.
Meadow nodded. She thanked me for showing when I did, but didn’t kiss me again. Then she said goodnight to all of us and went back inside.
Sandra, Paul and Jason got into Paul’s car.
“You meeting us back at the brewery?” they said, pulling out of the driveway.
I was still standing on the lawn.
“I think I’ll call it a night too,” I said.
They drove off and I stood there. I contemplated going up to Meadow’s door and knocking. I knew what I wanted. My cock was throbbing just knowing she was in there, but something told me I needed to give her space.
I sighed and went back to my Jeep, heading for home.
CHAPTER 55
MEADOW
Before I opened my eyes, I straightened my legs and lifted my arms up over my head and stretched all the way through to my fingertips and toes. I let out a huge sigh and rolled over on my side.
What a night!
What a life!
What on earth was I going to do?
Where did I even start?
I was pregnant. Pregnant! I was having a baby! Kane’s baby! I hadn’t even told him yet. Of course I hadn’t told him. How could I? He’d disappeared until last night. Was I even ready for motherhood? I’d only just started my new life. I’d gotten a new job, new friends, a new apartment. Having a little baby to take care of certainly hadn’t been part of the plan.
But then, there was a yearning in my heart for that baby. There was a feeling of love and tenderness I couldn’t deny. Every part of me wanted a little baby to take care of. I just needed to get my life in order first.
And what about Kane! First he disappears. Without a single word to anyone he walks right out. Goes who knows where? Doing who knows what?
Where was he? What was he doing? And why couldn’t he answer his phone calls, even just out of courtesy. I mean, I get it that sometimes you need your own space. Obviously he’d been through a lot and processing the loss he’d been through was probably a pretty solitary thing for a guy like him. But come on! People worry. Let us know you’re alive, idiot!
And we’d kissed. God, that kiss! What was I supposed to make of that? Did that mean he wanted me back? Did he want to go for a relationship with me? Of course I wanted that more than anything, but how could I just drop everything and fall back into bed with him?
We’d had exactly one hot night together. That wasn’t exactly the foundation of a life long relationship of trust and support. Sure, it was a good start. A great start, I thought, remembering the way he’d sucked my pussy and fucked me with his cock, pouring himself deep inside me. It was a perfect start!
But it was only a start. It wasn’t a relationship. Not yet.
My head was spinning. My world was moving at a million miles an hour. I needed to take a deep breath and get my thoughts together.
I squinted my eyes and looked at the clock on my bedside table. It was five thirty. Wow. I was up early. Despite all the drama last night, I felt amazingly refreshed. I felt my neck for any soreness from Matt’s attack. I was fine. Kane had come at just the right time to rescue me.
I noticed there was a message on my phone and clicked to listen to it. It was from the Pismo Beach police department. They were calling to notify me that Matt was being charged with aggravated assault and would be held in custody back in Palo Alto until a judge could hear his case next week. In all likelihood, given what he’d done, I wouldn’t have to worry about him for a long time. They took domestic violence very seriously and would do their utmost to ensure Matt saw real jail time. If he did end up getting released, they would send a uniformed police officer to my home to keep me updated, and they would make sure I felt safe.
Well, that was a load off. My ex-husband had turned out to be quite the psycho, but at least the Pismo Beach police took it seriously enough to look after women in my position. It seemed I was in the right place for a messy breakup.
I stayed in bed a while longer and daydreamed about what I should do with my day. Usually
I planned what I’d make for dinner in the morning but I still had lots of leftover food from my party so that wouldn’t be an issue. I wondered would Kane call soon? Would he come over?
Was he still interested in me or was that kiss all I could expect out of him?
I flicked through my texts. There were a bunch from Sandra, sent from the brewery last night.
Sandra: I can’t believe all this. Matt’s arrested. Kane’s back!
Ten minutes later.
Sandra: Are you with Kane right now? I’m with Paul and we’re drinking up a storm.
Ten minutes later.
Sandra: Text me back, girl. Are you with Kane?
Twenty minutes later.
Sandra: I’m getting so drunk.
One hour later.
Sandra: So, Paul and I just made out. What the hell am I doing? He’s my best friend. Apart from you obviously.
That one got my attention. Sandra and Paul making out. I punched the air in triumph. God, how I’d wanted her and Paul to hook up! I’d been waiting for news like this for weeks. I couldn’t believe they never saw it. They were perfect for each other. Pretty much every time I left the two of them together, I expected Sandra to tell me the next time I saw her that they had hooked up. But it never happened! Until now, that is!
Another text twenty more minutes later.
Sandra: Paul and I are getting hot and heavy. I’m going back to his place.
And exactly seventeen minutes after that one.
Sandra: Paul just fucked my brains out. Holy hell. Good night, babe.
That last one had been sent just a few hours ago. It was so early I knew Sandra would be fast asleep, hopefully with Paul’s amazing body wrapped around her, keeping her warm. I wanted to talk to her desperately but I’d let the poor girl sleep in and enjoy her morning. I’d see her at work in a few hours and there’d be plenty of time then for us to catch up.
And boy was there a lot to catch up on. It would be such a fun day. She could tell me all about Paul’s love-making skills, and I’d ask her what I should do about the Kane situation.
Would I tell her I was pregnant? Was it too soon to start telling people about that? What was the rule with this? I mean, did I have to wait to speak to a doctor first? Did I have to tell Kane first?
Wow. It was too early in the morning for this much to be happening. I needed coffee, fast!
Her Baby Donor Page 44