“You’re in my room,” Nick said to her after Toby had laid her in the huge bed and covered her with a sheet.
“I never sleep here,” she said groggily. “Why?”
“When you wake up, we need to talk to you, Brianna. But for now, just sleep.”
She felt kisses on her forehead and shoulders as she drifted off into a blissful sleep.
* * * *
Brianna opened her eyes to sunlight coming through the curtains and stretched. She was naked, and, she realized with a start, she was not in her room. The night before came back to her, and she smiled. She had been with her men many times, but she had never felt such a powerful orgasm. It had been earth-shattering. And here she was in Nick’s bed. Without Nick, of course. But nevertheless, she was still in his bed, and that was something that had never happened before.
She sat up and crawled out of the huge bed and went into his private bathroom. It was huge like most of the other bathrooms in the house. However, his musky scent wrapped itself around her as she breathed it in. When she was done, she walked naked back to her own room and wondered if she should get dressed or just walk downstairs naked. She liked the idea, but what if they weren’t alone? She couldn’t chance it.
After slipping into a pair of jeans and a jersey top, she walked downstairs to find out where Nick, Toby, and Teddy had gone to. She didn’t smell breakfast. Maybe they were waiting for her to wake up first. They could each cook, but they had told her that no one made pancakes from scratch as good as she did.
When she walked into the kitchen, to her surprise there was no one there. She looked around to see if they had left her a note. She found nothing. Making herself a cup of coffee, she tried to remember if they had said anything about working Saturday. She couldn’t remember them saying they were, so she had to assume that they had just gone out. She was sure they would be back soon.
She pulled out a chair and sat down at the table. Her mind wandered back to the night before and how wonderful they had made her feel. She knew they had felt the same kind of pleasure she had. When they were together like that, it was as if they were one person. She couldn’t imagine being with anyone but them. She suddenly felt sad. Someday they wouldn’t want her anymore, and then what? She needed to be prepared, but could any woman possibly prepare for the loss of the men she loved?
“Brianna!”
She heard her name being called. “I’m in the kitchen.”
Nick, Toby, and Teddy came into the room carrying coffee, donuts, and pastries.
“I know none of this stuff is good for us,” Nick said, “but for some reason, I had to have it.”
“Wonderful,” she squealed. “That’s exactly what I want. After last night, I’m craving carbs.”
Nick laughed. “That’s good to hear. What else are you craving?”
She didn’t miss the leering grin he gave her.
“I think you know the answer to that.” She let her voice drop. “It’s what I crave morning, noon, and night.”
“Strip,” Teddy said, his voice thick with lust.
She stood and removed her clothes while they watched. She loved the look of pure lust and desire she saw in their eyes.
“It’s crazy how much I want you,” Teddy said walking to where she stood.
Her eyes widened as he pulled his cock out from his pants, not even taking them off before he lifted her onto the table, forced her backward, and took her pussy with one thrust. She cried out as he pounded her with his cock until they both came.
“Oh my God,” was all she could manage as she sat up.
Toby got a wet paper towel and washed her with it gently. “Now let’s have our coffee and sugar before you get fucked again.”
“Yes, Master,” she said, fully immersed in her submissive role. The fact was, she was never far from the woman inside her that wanted nothing more than to kneel before these men and give them pleasure. It was as if she was only taking breaks from it, breaks that had her rushing back to the men she loved.
She sat quietly as they all drank their coffee and devoured the sweets, which included her favorite, jelly with powdered sugar. The coffee from the convenience store not far from them was delicious, and this cup was no exception. She sat back and watched as Nick, Toby, and Teddy laughed together about something. She hadn’t really been listening, but their laughter and the way they bantered back and forth with each other made her incredibly happy. And yet, she felt sadness for the day they would no longer be in her life. She wished she could just enjoy their time without thinking about the future.
“What’s wrong?” Nick asked breaking into her thoughts.
“Sorry?” she asked.
“You look like you just lost your best friend,” Teddy said.
“It’s nothing.”
“It didn’t look like nothing,” Nick said. “Are you happy with us, Brianna?”
Startled by his question, she put down her coffee and just looked at him. “You’re kidding, right?”
“No. I would never kid about that,” he said, his eyes looking intently into hers.
Toby and Teddy stared at her, the same serious look on their handsome faces.
“Of course I’m happy with all of you. You’re everything to me. Why would you think that?”
“Every now and then you get this look that makes me think you’re not being completely truthful with us. It’s like you check out, and wherever you are, it’s not a good place. Have we done something? Pushed you too far too soon? We need to know, Brianna. How else can we fix it?”
There was desperation in his voice that she hadn’t expected to hear. It took her aback for a moment. Were they actually afraid that she was going to leave them? She couldn’t bear for them to think she would ever leave them. It was the other way around.
“I won’t leave you, ever,” she said softly. “I can’t. Nor do I want to.”
All three men seemed to breathe a sigh of relief together.
“But why the sad looks?” Toby asked.
“It’s just that I’m so happy with you, with us. I love being your submissive, and yet I know that someday you’ll tire of me,” she admitted, her voice cracking. “The thought of that day makes me sad. But I know it’s inevitable, and I have to prepare for it.”
All three men stared at her, their jaws dropping.
“You think we’re going to get tired of you?” Nick asked, looking at her like she had three heads.
“Oh, Brianna,” Teddy said, reaching across the table to take her hand, “I promise you that will never happen.”
“Don’t say that,” she said harshly. “You don’t have to lie to me to protect me. I’m not going back on the pills no matter what happens. You can be honest with me. I know you never meant for this to be more than a fling.”
“Brianna,” Nick’s voice thundered. “Lie to you? Are you actually accusing us of lying to you?”
Chapter Sixteen
“No,” she said, knowing she had just insulted all three men with her insecurities. “I just meant that…” She didn’t know what to say as she burst into tears.
“Brianna,” Toby said as he knelt beside to take her into his arms, “don’t cry. Please.”
She couldn’t stop herself. Her tears became sobs as she realized she had pushed the envelope, and now they would have to tell her they weren’t interested in anything long-term. Why couldn’t she have just let everything stay the way it was?
Because I love them, and it’s killing me knowing they don’t feel the same way.
She could feel Toby and Nick surround her, their hands massaging her shoulders gently.
“What can we do?” Nick asked, his voice strained, from above her. “Tell us and we’ll do it. Just don’t cry.”
She pulled away from Toby’s arms and grabbed the tissue that Teddy handed her. “You can’t do anything,” she choked out. “I wish…I just wish…”
“What do you wish?” Toby asked with urgency in voice.
Her therapist, Annie,
had told her that honesty was her best tool for the future. She knew she was right, but the thought of not being with them was so painful it took her breath away. She loved them desperately. The way she felt this very minute told her how deep her love ran for them. She had to tell them. It was the only way, regardless of the outcome.
Taking a breath, she made herself do what she feared the most. “I wish…” Before she continued, she looked at each one of them, almost memorizing the way they looked at this moment, and then said quickly, “…that you loved me the way I love you. I knew from the beginning you were only looking for something that had a shelf life. I knew it, and still I fell in love with you, all three of you.”
She looked downward. She couldn’t look into their eyes and see the sympathy she knew was there.
“It’s okay,” she whispered. “I’ll be fine. You don’t have to worry. I’ll never go back on drugs. Never.”
“Oh, my sweet Brianna.” Nick’s voice was now thick with emotion. “What we thought we wanted from you, from this relationship, has changed. We should have told you how we feel, but we were afraid to put too much pressure on you. Can you forgive us?”
Forgive them? Her mind was reeling. Was Nick saying they loved her too? She felt a sudden surge of hope. She looked back up at them to see they were smiling.
“I love you,” Toby told her, lifting her from her seat and into a crushing bear hug that she welcomed.
Teddy was next. He took her from his brother and wrapped her in his own arms, his lips brushing hers. “How could you think that we didn’t love you? I thought everything we did and said spoke of our love loud and clear? You are loved, Brianna, more than you could ever know.”
She melted against him and kissed him with all the love she had in her heart. She was overwhelmed with emotion. However, when Teddy let her go and Nick drew her to him, her tears of joy could no longer be contained. He held her tightly against his chest until she calmed.
Looking up into his eyes, she could now see what had been there all along. His love warmed her and gave her the courage to say what she wanted them to hear.
“I love you so much. You three are everything to me. I want to be your submissive now and forever. I’ll be whatever you need. I promise.”
Nick smiled. “You are already everything we need. We love your submission, but we also love the woman you are, and we don’t want to do anything to change that. We want you as our submissive and as our equal.”
Joy filled her. They loved her exactly the way she was. They didn’t want her to change. But would that really be enough for them? She had seen the way they were at Master Jamison’s home.
“But Megan and Carrie submit twenty-four-seven to Master Jamison. I thought you would want that.”
“If that were who you were, that would be one thing, but it’s not. You wouldn’t be happy in that role. You need your freedom, and we want that for you. It’s enough that you submit to us as you do already. That’s all we want. We thought that’s what you would want too?”
“Relationships are on ongoing negotiation, Brianna,” Teddy said. “As long as we are honest and communicate with one another, we’ll work it out.”
“It’s exactly what I want,” she said and then smiled. “You are exactly what I want. I’ve never been happier. I just wish I had told you sooner.”
“I guess we were all a bit scared of the answers if they weren’t what we wanted to hear,” Nick said, still holding her close. “I know you trust us as your Dominants, but now you need to trust us as the men that love you.”
“Do you think you might like to move in with us?” Toby asked. “We’ve been thinking about this a lot in hopes that you want to, and we thought you should have your own room as you do now, but we can bring you to our beds. You’ll never sleep alone unless you want to.”
“Yes. I want to move in. Will you stay here now? I mean, you could sell and build the house of your dreams. That was what you wanted to do when you first came here.”
“It was,” Toby said as the four of them walked into the living room, “but now everything has changed because of you. You’ve changed us. I don’t think we will ever be able to leave this house now. It has too many memories of you.”
“Thank you,” she said as Toby pulled her down into his lap. Nick and Teddy were sitting beside them. “I love this house like I love the carriage house. It’s my home. It’s where I feel safe. Your aunt took me in and gave me a home when I needed it. I’ll always be grateful to her for that and that I met the three of you. She gave me so much more than she knew.”
Nick shook his head and began to laugh.
“Why are you laughing?” Brianna looked at him quizzically.
“I was just thinking about Aunt Amanda. I always suspected that she knew more about our lifestyle than she ever let on. In fact, I think she knew a lot more about a lot of things than she ever let on. I don’t know this for a fact, but somehow I have to wonder if she hadn’t planned for this to happen.”
“You mean us?” Brianna asked in wonder.
“Exactly.”
Both Toby and Teddy began to laugh too.
“You know, I wouldn’t have put it past her,” Toby said shaking his head. “Making sure we couldn’t sell as long as Brianna wanted to live here, it could have been a setup.”
“And if it was,” Teddy said, “I guess we all owe Aunt Amanda a lot more than we could ever repay. She saved us all once and then did it again.”
“This house is going to be in all four of our names,” Nick said emphatically. “And when I marry you, your name will be on everything. I want you to be legally bound to us, as well as emotionally and in every other way.”
“Marriage? You want to marry me?”
“We all want to marry you, but until that law passes,” Teddy said with a sigh, “we’ll do it the best way we can. You are ours as we are yours. Will you marry us, Brianna?”
Brianna thought she truly had died and gone to heaven. Nothing could ever be better than this moment in life.
“Yes. I’ll marry you, and I’ll be yours forever. I love you so much,” she cried as she kissed each of the men that were bringing her more happiness than she could have ever hoped to have in life.
“And we love you,” they echoed.
Brianna closed her eyes and felt the power of her own choices. She had been lost, and now she knew she would never be lost again.
THE END
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Kalissa Alexander loves to write stories about love. She is a woman of diversified interests, from singing karaoke, to knitting, to creating her own crafts at the holidays. However, nothing brings her more pleasure than to write about desirable, loving women that regardless of life’s obstacles always find true love with the men that can make their dreams come true. She believes that happy endings are what women not only want but need to believe in. On any given day or into the night, she can be found bringing her characters to life with an anxious smile as she finds the words to express their feelings in a story that makes them perfect for each other in an imperfect world. Life is full of possibilities; she enjoys bringing all of them to her readers.
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