Birk’s words sounded determined, yet she heard the hurt and loneliness. He loved family and wished he had more of one. She knew that much from talking to him before she flew up here.
“I’m sorry your relationship isn’t better. Maybe someday you’ll find a wife, and she’ll birth you lots of babies.”
All three of them fell silent at such a ridiculous dream coming from her. She felt like an idiot. Kotori’s question surprised her.
“Would you like to have children someday?”
“Of course. I’m just like most other women.” Despite the family she had been born into, she longed for someone to love her unconditionally and the chance to have his children. “I always dreamed of having four. My mother used to tell me to wait until I felt the pain of just one to be sure of that number. As a little girl, I thought she was just teasing me because I was her fourth, and she used to tell me often I was one of four perfect gifts.”
Kotori’s arms encircled her, but she didn’t need comforting. The tears she’d cried nonstop for her mother were all dried up, and while it had hurt beyond belief, the past could not be changed.
“Shiya,” Birk said, and she looked up at him. The pain in his eyes startled her. He hurt for her mother’s loss on her behalf. Her heart constricted, and she leaned down to kiss his lips. He caught her when she tried to pull away. “Tell me everything.”
“I . . .”
He waited. She looked from him to Kotori and turned away. They didn’t push, but she felt the support from both of them. They wanted to know, and she desired to tell them what happened, even if it hurt. After all, Kotori had shared his painful past.
“We . . . they—my parents—were on an assignment. I always admired the way my father allowed my mother to take the same type of jobs my sisters take. I was the only oddball who stayed behind the computer.”
Kotori made a sound of surprise, and she looked up to see it in his eyes.
“This was your first time trying to seduce a shifter?”
She winced. “I guess that’s kind of a compliment since you couldn’t tell.” She glared at Birk, feeling afresh the sting at his previous words about her and her sisters whoring with their kind. “I’ve never been out of my home office, except to sit in the back when there was an interview. That was the closest I’d come to a shifter.”
“An interview?” Birk said.
She ignored his question. “Contrary to what you think, not one of us has slept with a shifter. I was the first.”
“Don’t be so proud of it,” Birk snarked, annoyed.
She flicked her gaze over him. “What, you think you’re all that?”
His hand snaked out to her breast and covered it. In an instant, her nipple hardened, and he poised a thumb above it as if he would strum the tiny peak. She forced her gaze away from him, trying for an appearance of being unaffected. The low chuckle told her she fooled herself and no one else.
“Stop teasing her, Birk, and let her finish her story.” Kotori didn’t fool anyone either, because she felt his cock twitch and stiffen behind her ass.
“The job was supposed to be routine. My mom would enter the bar and sit near the jaguar shifter. She would make contact and get him to talking. All she had to do in this case was to draw him out, but something went wrong. Another man outed her as a Keith in the bar. I don’t know how he knew or what connection he had. My dad and my brother dealt with it, but they refused to share the details. The next thing any of us knew was we found my mother dead in a motel room. She’d been tortured and then left to die. That was five years ago, and we have been reminded every day how cruel shifters are, how vicious.”
Birk sat up and touched her cheek. She turned her face away, but he made her look at him. “What did I tell you, Shiya?”
She glared at him.
“I said there’s a reason for everything we do. Everything.”
Kotori added his thoughts. “Yes, we are part animal, but we are part human too. We have reasoning where our counterparts do not. That can be challenging going up against instinct. As we’ve pointed out earlier, the greatest reason for a man to forget his human side is when someone touches his mate or his family. You don’t want to hurt a man’s mate and leave him alive.”
The way Kotori said it sent a dead chill over her being. She thought about it. Her father and brother kept a lot of things from the women, even though they said they were all in this together. The interviews almost never included the women, and the only reason she’d sat in on one for a short period of time was because her dad hadn’t noticed. When he did, she was shown the door.
Now she’d heard straight from her brother that they wanted to kill Kotori’s entire family. Birk’s sister might be safe since even he had no idea where she lived, but what about Kotori’s grandmother? The old woman hated her, but she didn’t deserve to die, and neither did his parents or siblings. She gasped at the way she was thinking. When she stepped off the plane, she’d thought she was firm in her beliefs about the rightness of what her family was doing, but really, she’d already begun to doubt. That started when she began chatting online with Birk.
Shiya climbed off the bed and walked over to the window. She pulled the curtain back and stared out at the snow with the beautiful mountains in the distance. If she could, she would never leave this cabin. She’d keep Birk and Kotori close, but who would protect the others? What if her family found out about the rest?
“Kotori.” She spun around to face him. “Is your grandmother safe? I mean, she can’t be used to . . .”
He rose and came to her, tugging her into his arms. His big hand cupped her neck, and she tilted her head back to receive his hungry kiss.
Oh no, I want to be with him and Birk forever, but they’re not offering that, and how can I? They can’t trust me. I’m a Keith.
Kotori raised his head, and the gentleness in his eyes robbed her of the ability to speak. She had expected lust or any number of emotions close to the surface in his readiness to take her. What looked like love scared the hell out of her. She closed her eyes, deciding it was wishful thinking.
Besides, she’d just shared with them about her mother’s death. If anything, she should feel hate, shouldn’t she? Rage? That’s what Kasen wanted her to experience when he showed her the picture. Yet, she knew she could never hate these two men. Something about Birk and Kotori had gotten deep inside of her, and she didn’t know whether they were unique or just like every other shifter out there in the world. What she did believe was that they were not vicious or evil.
“My people are fine,” Kotori assured her. “I made arrangements for them before Birk and I brought you here.”
Her eyes widened, and she dug her nails into his arms without meaning to. “Do you plan to kill me?”
Birk strode over and stood behind her. He stroked her hips and pressed in tight to her ass. She went up to her bare toes and stuck her ass out to him. Birk moaned. He raised his hands to her breasts and gave them a firm squeeze. “We couldn’t kill you without cutting out something vital to our existence.”
Totally unsexy declaration of love, but she would take it. Shiya dipped her head and hid a grin. There was no telling how a relationship between the three of them could work out long term, but right now was not the time to figure it out.
“I need to work off my breakfast.”
Kotori growled low in his throat. “Is that right?”
“Yes.” She looked up at him and tilted her head a little in challenge. “You know how I can do that?”
“Definitely!”
Chapter Ten
Birk reached from behind her and unbuttoned her pants. He had them around her ankles in seconds. Even as he yanked her panties down with one hand, his other one cupped her pussy. Her jaw went slack, and she covered Birk’s hand with hers.
“Yes, that feels so good, Birk. I want to come so bad.”
“Easy, baby. You will. You want to please Kotori?”
“Mm,” she murmured.
Birk raised her legs and pulled them apart. He took her full weight on his forearms and held her in readiness for Kotori. Her second lover undid his pants and shoved them low over his hips. Kotori’s hunger was such that he didn’t wait to get fully undressed. He stepped forward, grasped her hips, and thrust hard into her pussy. Shiya cried out in both pain and ecstasy. She took all of Kotori’s fat cock and arched her hips to drive him deeper. They pounded together, withdrew, and ground in again. Birk stood like a brick wall. No matter how hard Kotori pushed, he provided a staying power to keep her in place while his partner slaked his lust.
“Mine now,” Birk said in a clipped tone, and he tossed Shiya into Kotori’s arms.
Kotori pulled out of her wetness only long enough for Birk to moisten his fingers in her dripping come. Birk dampened her ass, thrusting first one finger in and then another. He worked them in and out until she whimpered, dropping her forehead to Kotori’s shoulder.
When her anus muscles loosened, Kotori raised her a bit higher so Birk could guide his cock into her pussy. She cried out his name, but he didn’t stay there long. He wet his cock with her juices, and then switched to her rear entrance. He took it slow, easing in one inch at a time. Shiya shuddered with the powerful sensations. She collapsed against Kotori’s chest, unable to do anything, but he held her up until Birk seated his cock to the hilt. Then Kotori thrust his dick into her once again.
For the first time, two men filled her. The squeeze overwhelmed her mental faculties. She didn’t move or make a sound other than to moan just a little.
Birk’s cheek touched hers. “Okay, baby? It’s not too much?”
“No.” Her voice came out a whisper.
She hung between the two men as they began moving in and out of her body. As one, they took her, their thrusts going from gentle to rough. Kotori was the wilder of the two. Because her pussy had taken his sexual beating, and his best friend’s, many rounds before, he didn’t hesitate to pound into her, driving his hips forward. Because he wasn’t as long as Birk, he didn’t have to worry about how deep he could go. He let loose, raising her thighs higher and grinding until she thought she’d lose her mind.
In the same way, Birk broke in her ass. She had the feeling by the time he was done, there would never be a need for a dildo. His stiff shaft would always be at the ready. His fingers bit into her hips as he thrust into her hole.
She whimpered when he matched Kotori’s movements. They ground into her from the front and back like a well-oiled machine, each knowing his part.
As if they’d rehearsed the move, Kotori stopped pumping and pulled out of her while Birk took her weight. Kotori dropped to his knees and sucked her clit into his mouth.
She screamed and squirmed. Her hand shot out to push him. “Wait, Kotori, too much, too much!”
He refused to back off. He laved her little bud with wild abandon and stuck his tongue into her pussy. While he licked at her juices, his thumb worked her clit. Birk continued to pump into her ass. She pleaded, but the men refused to listen. When her orgasm slammed into her body, it seemed to take over her entire being. The zings of pleasure shot from her core, down to her toes, and even made her light-headed. Not once did either man stop. Kotori kept eating her pussy as if he would never stop.
“Oh, baby, you feel so good,” Birk murmured behind her. “There’s no way we can stop. I’m never going to stop! This pretty ass is mine, and I will have it as long as I want.”
Shiya gasped at the possessiveness in Birk’s words. She didn’t think he could fuck her any faster or harder, but she was wrong. His intensity increased until she almost bounced off his erection. At the same time, Kotori didn’t let up from the front. She felt the beginnings of another climax and could do nothing but allow them to do what they wanted. Somehow she felt the same.
She belonged to them, and satisfying what they wanted was, at that moment, her entire purpose for existence.
Birk found her lips and covered her mouth. He stuck out his tongue, and she sucked it, her eyes shut and tears on her cheeks. She knew when he came because he jerked behind her. He grabbed one of her inner thighs and squeezed. The other arm was slung across her midsection, fingers curving around her waist to drive her tighter to him. An orgasm pierced her core.
Kotori, knowing her body, shifted from her clit to her opening in time to eat the cream with deep, guttural moans. Birk emptied his load inside of her, and then Kotori had her, carrying her across the room to the bed.
He deposited her on the mattress. “On your knees, honey.”
She did as he commanded, facing away from him. She knew this was it.
Kotori would stretch her beyond reason with his big cock. She bit her lip, but Birk moved around the bed to capture her face in gentle hands.
“It will be fine. Your incredible body is made for him. Let your mate inside you, Shiya.”
My mate . . . two of them.
To be sure she took him with no unnecessary friction, Kotori used lubricant on her entrance and on his cock. She thought she might freak out if she looked, so she kept her gaze on Birk’s face as he sat in front of her. The easy confidence in his expression went a long way to settling the wild tattoo of her heart, but when Kotori pressed the tip of his cock into her ass, she fell into Birk’s arms.
“Hold on, Kotori. Let her get used to it.” Birk scooted closer and held her against his chest, while she arched her back and Kotori lowered his hips so they wouldn’t lose the right angle. She panted, trying to calm down. Her dark lover stroked her thighs, raising goose bumps on her skin. He flattened his length along her back, fueling her desire. Even holding still, the fullness stole her energy, but it felt good too, bringing her close to a faint.
“I’ll stop if you want me to,” he whispered, but she heard his desperate hunger. Kotori had been waiting for this, to lay claim to her ass in the way that he’d pounded into her pussy. Just the thought of it excited her.
Almost sitting on Kotori’s lap with her legs spread, she guided his hand to her pussy, and he pinched her clit. She sank back slowly onto his cock. A cry was torn from her throat. She licked her lips and lost control of the speed with which she sank. Birk caught her around the waist. His gaze locked with hers, and then he lowered her down. Inch by inch of Kotori’s cock sank into her ass. The painful stretch didn’t overwhelm her, but it existed all the same.
Kotori held still and allowed Birk to take the lead in helping her adjust to his thickness.
Shiya dropped her head back and closed her eyes. “It hurts.”
“It won’t for long, baby.” Birk kissed her lips. “I promise.”
She reached full penetration, and Kotori growled his pleasure. His nails were suddenly claws, and he ripped the sheets apart. She knew he did it in an effort to keep from slamming in and out of her ass. Birk pushed her back until she rested on Kotori’s chest.
“Hold your cock, Kotori,” Birk told him.
Kotori did so, and Birk raised her hips until his cock slid all the way out of her, and then he pushed her back down onto it. She whimpered. Birk repeated the movements, raising her off Kotori’s shaft and then lowering her onto it again. Over and over, he steered their coming together until her body expanded and allowed her lover full access without fighting. At some point, pain turned to intense pleasure, and Birk gave over control to Kotori.
Kotori’s arms locked around her. He pushed his hips up, grinding his cock into her sore hole. His hot breath warmed her ear as he pressed his mouth to the sensitive spot behind her ear. “Do you know how long I’ve waited to take you like this?”
She heard the roughness in his tone, almost angry. His embrace tightened, and he caught her nipple between his thumb and forefinger. Shiya’s jaw went slack. She gasped for breath with each thrust.
“You belong to me now, and I’m not going to give you up—to anyone.”
“K-Kotori.”
He sank deep inside her and held there. Birk cupped her pussy and pushed two fingers between her folds. The heel of
his palm rubbed her swollen bud.
They were going to force her to come again. She didn’t think she could stand it, and yet, each man seemed beyond letting her decide how far he went. Not that she blamed them. The stimulation drove her to the edge of sanity, but she’d never experienced such pleasure.
“Do you like my dick in your ass?” Kotori demanded.
“Y-Yes, oh yes.”
“And do you want me to come in you?”
“Yes!”
“How badly? Tell me how bad you want it.”
She licked her lips again, not sure of the words. Kotori gave her one pump and stopped moving. She felt a shudder pass through him. He was on the edge, and even if she said nothing, he would lose it soon. She wanted to do whatever he asked.
“I want it, Kotori. I want it so bad. I can’t get enough of you. I love your big cock. Please, give me all of it.”
“Good girl,” Birk said and turned her chin so he could kiss her.
While he devoured her mouth, Kotori began moving again. He thumped his broad erection up her ass at lightning speed. Her breasts bounced, and he rolled her nipple between his fingers. She shouted into Birk’s mouth, and then Kotori went still. Warmth stole over her insides, and Birk dropped a hand between her legs. He rubbed her clit in a circular motion until she shook. Her climax came on the heels of Kotori’s release, and she gave over to the bliss of it until it faded away.
Birk drew her into his arms and carried her to the bathroom. He waited until Kotori filled the tub with warm sudsy water, and she wondered, not for the first time, how they had running water out here. Maybe something they’d rigged themselves or had contractors out to do.
Kotori tested the temperature and then stepped inside to sit down. He held his arms up for Shiya, and Birk handed her over. Soon she lay back against Kotori’s chest, watching with slitted eyes as Birk washed his amazing body.
She followed with her gaze his hand as it soaped and trailed down over his belly to his cock. Inches away, on his feet, he tempted her as he bathed his shaft. Already, it stood at attention. He placed the soap in her hands, and she lathered them to wash him. She started at his cock’s head and moved to his balls, being careful not to hurt the sensitive sac. Hungry to touch every part of him, she moved to his muscular thighs and down to his calves. She reached around to his ass and washed there. Her arms weren’t long enough to reach beyond his abs, but Birk took the soap and set it aside. When he knelt down in the water, Kotori elevated her legs and parted them. Birk wasted no time pushing his cock into her pussy. With his rough entrance, water sloshed over the side of the tub. No one cared. Birk kissed her lips as he thrust into her.
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