Chapter 12
John Leaving
John came home from work, very early one day. He walked in to our bedroom, with his face white as a ghost. I could tell something was terribly wrong. As the good wife I was trying so hard to be, I ran to comfort him, wrapping my arms around his waist. Pulling away, I tried to read him, but he just hung his head in silence. Whatever it was, it was something awfully wrong, because he couldn't even bear to look at me. Sitting him down on the edge of the bed, I asked him once more, what happened? John finally broke down and told me that he was fired from his job. Shock made my heart sink. I demanded to know why. He was a teacher and worked at a summer camp with young boys. I started to feel really ill. His addiction was back. John proceeded to tell me and my worst fears were confirmed, when he stated he was fired for looking at porn at work. I couldn't bear to look at him, he disgusted me so much. This man had ruined our lives, and this was my husband. He actually didn’t fight with me or lose his temper, as he normally does in these situations. John instinctively knew he burned his bridge with me. And, once again, I found myself burned and alone. My boys came home a week later. I was very happy to have them back, to distract me from John ruining my life. I stayed busy with the boys, doing football, going fishing and just catching up, making more good memories. They made me realize, that even after everything that happened in my life, from birth till now, I was a loving, caring, and giving person. And I still had a lot of love to give. After John left I had to look over my shoulder quite a bit because he was watching us, following us, sending gifts, he even showed up at the boy’s football practice causing a scene. It got so bad after the night he was coming to get his things I had to call the police to help me and they did. The police man showed up around 8 pm and watched the house a little before we got home. He wrote up a report so there was record of it and I felt like it helped protect us. John continued to try and confess his love but it was more of obsession. He sent gifts for Christmas, anniversary, and the boy’s birthday. Gifts don’t buy love, trust, or anything in my book. John didn’t want to leave me alone. When John left everything was in his name- the house, bills, the businesses. So I had no help, no money, and soon no house. I told John I had interested buyers for the house and we could each make about 50,000 so we could start over, he choose to just file bankruptcy and now I had no house and no money. After some months have passed, I decided to get out and meet some new people. Of course, I also let loose, had some fun and eventually started dating again. I dated the vice mayor, a horse transporter/trainer, a pilot, even a cop. And the cop is who I lost my heart to. I would have never thought that I would have fell in love with a cop. Jeremy was attractive with a wonderful, caring personality. Most of all, he loved me for me and made me laugh. I don’t doubt for one second that God put Jeremy in my life for the time I needed him most. I am thankful he was a part of my life and my boy’s life, they loved him too. They always say, laughter is the best medicine for heart ache.
Chapter 13
Toilet Boy
Toilet Boy was another client of mine. He was so young. I wasn't even sure if I should provide him services, but in the end, his sweet nature, his burning need for our sessions and his eagerness to please me, won me over. I also gave him a nickname to ensure his identity is safe and of course keep him from being exposed, partially because of what services I provided to him and his age. But I can say he was of legal age because I asked to see his drivers license.
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Thursday, May 31, 2012 11:23 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
$200 donation per session last at least a hour. I host only in my dungeon outside of town. Here is your homework- I need a picture of you and this form filled out. I can do morning or early afternoon on Wednesday?
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Sunday, June 3, 2012 12:06 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
Mistress I am working cma fest this week and do not know my hours yet but if not this week i will definitely be needing your humiliation and punishment next week. I still plan to be there this Wednesday but that might change. Please let me know if what I ask in this email is acceptable.
Especially the toilet humiliation
6/06/12 Morning, 1 hour
Toilet Boy
Secret
19
Short, Athletic
Single
Medical Concerns - None, Physical Limitations- None Phobias - None, Abuse Issues - None
Can you be marked? No If so, for how long?
How often do you wish to visit with Mistress Marilyn: Monthly
In regard to My demeanor during the session, (I the submissive, would prefer:) (please choose all that apply and delete the rest) Sadistic, Aggressive, Imperious, Condescending, Critical
What best describes your reason for visiting Me? I wish to be dominated and especially humiliated by a beautiful mistress Suffering to please your Mistress and amuse Her (with disregard to my desires) with how pathetic I am and for her to have fun dominating me That it is the biggest honor that I am even allowed to be dominated by you.
If you are seeking roleplay, what would best describe the scenario you are seeking? (please choose all that interest you and delete the rest) Schoolteacher, naughty boy Female pimp, man-whore Humiliatrix, small penis man Mommy, Little boy
How long have you been involved in BDSM activities? This will be my first session
Do you have any other skills outside slavery that you can offer Me?
How will you please your Mistress other than Her required tribute? I will do whatever you ask of me.
ACTIVITIES I AM INTERESTED IN: (please choose all that apply and delete the rest)
3.Genital Torture: Kicking, Trampling, manual squeezing, slapping 4. Foot Worship: Stocking, Pantyhose, Shoe, Boot, Heel, Bare FeetMethod: Bootlicker, Toe Kisser, Footstool, Rug
5.Humiliation Method: Toilet humiliation. Not as much using me as a toilet (although i would be happy with whatever you give me) but sticking my head in a toilet. Maybe one you have already used. Forcing me to be your toilet paper. Licking your ass and licking your toilet while you laugh and spit on me. This is my biggest fantasy. I need to be your toilet slave mistress.
6.Smoking Fetish (Mistress smokes. Yes or No): Human Ashtray Service
7.Puppy Training (yes or no): leash training, verbal command training
On Sun, Jun 3, 2012 6:18 PM PDT Mistress Marilyn wrote: Sounds fun CMA fest. I would love some tickets and I can add more time ;) I can make your fantasies come true. I wont use you as a toilet but I can do the rest.
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Monday, June 4, 2012 8:47 AM Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
Will you still stick my head in the toilet? Because that is my fantasy for a beautiful mistress like you to make me lick their toilet
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Monday, June 4, 2012 10:27 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
YES I will. Are you ready to lick the toilet?
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Monday, June 4, 2012 11:17 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
YES YES mistress please make me lick your toilet!! I need to i am so ready! and with you laughing and spitting on me would be my biggest fantasy come true! I need your humiliation!
On Tue, Jun 5, 2012 11:17 AM PDT Mistress Marilyn wrote:
So am I going to stick your head in the toilet tomorrow or next week?
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Tuesday, June 5, 2012 4:42 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
Next week unfortunatly. I work untill saturday. Please im sorry mistress.. Could you give me a humiliation assignment to help me make it through the week
? I want you to laugh at pathetic me
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Tuesday, June 5, 2012 10:04 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
I can see you Sunday at 4pm? Since I can't make you lick the toilet in person I want to see a picture of you licking your own toilet. I already know I will laugh at your pathetic butt as you lick your own toilet.
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Tuesday, June 5, 2012 11:02 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
i forgot to sent this one. please forgive me. and laugh at my pathetic fetish
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Wednesday, June 6, 2012 11:37 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
Mistress I am obsessed with your humiliation. I check my email regularly just to see if you said something mean to me! I want to make visiting you a regular occasion. Please insult me in every email! Im your permanent slave
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Wed, Jun 6, 2012 12:37:17 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
Don't you worry!
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Wednesday, June 6, 2012 12:15 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
You really looked so stupid in your pictures. I really enjoy laughing at you. I can't wait to do it in person. I might have to show these to one of my mistress friends in Indiana lol
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Wednesday, June 6, 2012 6:21 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
please more assignments mistress! im dying! i cant wait until next week! what would make you laugh the most!
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Thursday, June 7, 2012 11:15 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
What would make me laugh the most. If you dressed up like a girl...lol. Send me a picture of that!
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Sunday, June 10, 2012 1:08 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
here you are mistress. sorry for the wait, ill do anything for you! i hope this is good enough for you. just think of the nastiest funniest thing you want to see and ill do it for you. i would love to see a picture of you laughing at me or just tell me how pathetic you and your wonderful mistress friends think i am for doing anything you say
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Mon, Jun 11, 2012 7:29:45 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
You look so pathetic and I sent your pictures to my mistress friends and we have been talking about how stupid you look and are! We think you are a ugly girl you need makeup bad! You need to come to my dungeon on Tuesday or Saturday this week? Your next assignment will be in person. Ha Ha Ha
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Tuesday, June 12, 2012 9:34 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
Mistress the only thing holding me back right now is money. I haven't been paid in a while and don't have enough for the donation yet.. I'm happy you and your friends get pleasure in my humiliation. All I want is you to laugh and laugh at me
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Wed, Jun 13, 2012 2:55:13 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
You know where to find me when you get paid. I can't wait to spit on you!
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Saturday, July 21, 2012 5:47 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
i have your money mistress
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Sun, Jul 22, 2012 4:57:15 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
Good Boy! I can see you this week.
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Monday, July 23, 2012 2:26 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
Anything for you mistress. What day is best for you. I need to e punished. I will never be good enough to satisfy you
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Mon, Jul 23, 2012 7:57:39 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
I can see you Wednesday at 10 am! Yes you need to be punished. You are right about that- but we will have lots of fun trying!
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Monday, July 23, 2012 3:18 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
How long is the session with a 200 dollar donation?
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Mon, Jul 23, 2012 9:36:19 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
At least a hour of fun.
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Tuesday, July 24, 2012 11:00 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
Can you make me cum on my face?
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Tuesday, July 24, 2012 2:42 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
Sure
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Monday, August 6, 2012 2:20 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
how soon this week can we meet
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Tue, Aug 7, 2012 4:36:56 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
I can see you Wednesday morning?
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Tuesday, August 7, 2012 1:10 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
What time and address. Early is fine
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Tue, Aug 7, 2012 1:03:32 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
I can see you at 9am on Wednesday. My dungeon is located at 000 The Secret Rd.- park by the barn and we will walk together to the dungeon.
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Tuesday, August 7, 2012 2:19 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
And can I do 100 for a half hour?
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Wed, Aug 8, 2012 12:40:06 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
No...so your not coming then?
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Tuesday, August 7, 2012 10:39 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
I have 160
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Wednesday, August 8, 2012 12:43 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
I am ready mistress if you give me the go tonight I'll have the money by the morning
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Wed, Aug 8, 2012 5:06:29 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
So you just wanted the address. REALLY? You said you were ready- guess not.
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Wednesday, August 8, 2012 12:43 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
I am ready mistress if you give me the go tonight I'll have the money by the morning
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Thursday, August 23, 2012 11:26 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
So whats up? Are you finally ready?
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Tu
e, Nov 6, 2012 2:46:00 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
i am ready whenever youy are available
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Wednesday, November 7, 2012 5:56 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
Are you for sure this time? Are you ready?
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Thu, Nov 8, 2012 1:27:54 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
mistress i have your cash i have to meet with you tomorrow please mistress. its my only free day
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Friday, November 9, 2012 1:58 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
I didn't have time. I can do wed, thur, or fri during the day? I can't wait!
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Sat, Nov 10, 2012 2:34:25 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
thursday is best. what time mistress?
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Mon, Nov 12, 2012 4:10:30 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
I can do thurs at 12? You better be serious. I am a busy lady that is important.
From: Toilet Boy
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Mon, Nov 12, 2012 7:03:25 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
Okay well what's the address. I'll be there
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Toilet Boy
Sent: Wed, Nov 14, 2012 3:58:47 AM
Subject: Re: Hello Slave Boy
000 The Secret Rd. I am going to have lots of fun with you! Are you ready for me to stick your head in the toilet?
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