From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Wednesday, September 26, 2012 9:17 AM
Subject: Re:
I can see you on sat at 230.
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Wednesday, September26, 2012 7:13 PM
Subject: Re:
My son got his last game of fall baseball i have to see what time it is tell thur night if thats ok
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Fri, Sep 28, 2012 2:43:45 AM
Hi mistress i can do sat hes got to the play off and game are 10 and 2 sorry i just can wait to see you so when you get time again just get back to me thanks
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Friday, September 28, 2012 9:16 AM
Subject: Re:
I can see you on Monday morning or Monday afternoon?
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Friday, September 28, 2012 8:22 PM
I going to KY mon to pick up a new truck i got off the internet what i be back around 6
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Tue, Oct 2, 2012 1:45:20 AM
Hi i hope thing are ok you had some bad weather there tonight talk to you later if you need sometime get back to me
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Wednesday, October 3, 2012 1:59 PM
Subject: Re:
They are fine. So you contacted me weeks ago wanting to see me again. Can't make anytime for fun. I don't get you!!!
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Wednesday, October 3, 2012 7:21 PM
Subject: Re:
I have 165,000 in jobs and most of my free time is after 8or 9 at night i think about meeting we you but you dont have time as much as you had before and you meeting at your place i no we cant make it work if you want i love the time we had sorry just get back to me if you want thanks Tree Trimmer
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Sun, Oct 7, 2012 11:38:26 PM
Hi mistress do you have anytime this week for me
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Monday, October 8, 2012 6:51 AM
Subject: Re:
I can see you tomorrow at 8 am or pm?
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Tue, Oct 9, 2012 2:49:40 AM
Subject: Re:
8 AM IS OUT SO YOU HAVE 8PM OR Let's do 930 pm tues
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Wed, Oct 10, 2012 1:08:28 AM
Subject: Re:
hey i just got your email and i dont have your text #
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Friday, October 12, 2012 6:44 AM
Subject:
I can see you today before 3 pm? I don't have a number.
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Saturday, October 13, 2012 10:42 AM
Subject:
I have anytime on Sunday open till 4. Tell me you can work with that?
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Sun, Oct 14, 2012 12:34:39 AM
Subject: Re:
Hi if it rains i have time i just got your emails its best to text me because i so busy i dont ck my mail
Oct 14 11:58 AM
Mistress Marilyn:I hope you can visit me today!!! I really need to see you. It has been way too long!
Oct 14 12:00 PM
Tree Trimmer:What the lates i can see you
Oct 14 12:00 PM
Mistress Marilyn:4pm
Oct 14 12:03 PM
Mistress Marilyn:I do need to know.
Oct 14 12:09 PM
Mistress Marilyn:are you there?
Oct 14 12:21 PM
Tree Trimmer:I just i one of my guys get hit in the head with a log i get back to you
Oct 14 12:23 PM
Mistress Marilyn:Ok I hope he is ok.
Sun, Oct 14, 2012 at 12:53 PM
I am at the hospital it cut him bad i try you later sorry
IM Oct 15 1:49 PM
Tree Trimmer:I am sorry.he had 6 staples in his head so get back to me when ever you time thank
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Sunday, October 21, 2012 9:27 PM
Subject: Re:
I have some time this week?
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Tue, Oct 23, 2012 1:39:46 AM
Subject: Re:
When it has to be after 6pm i am so far behind on my work and down two guys
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Tuesday, October 23, 2012 12:54 AM
Subject: Re:
How does Sunday or Monday night at 8 ? You need to come visit soon!!!
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Subject: Re:
Sent: Fri, Oct 26, 2012 2:43:07 AM
I will see i mite be free sun i dont know about mon and yes i need to see you
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Monday, October 29, 2012 2:32 PM
Subject:
I was free tonight but the wife got call to work and i need someone to watch my kids i am trying to fine someone if i do i get back to you by 6 or you can text me
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Sunday, November 18, 2012 4:41 PM
So what's up?
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marylin
Sent: Sunday, November 18, 2012 5:33 PM
Just working my ass off how is work i take 4 days off this week
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Mon, Nov 19, 2012 11:12:49 PM
Subject: Re:
Your such a hard worker. Take a break. Work is great. I need to see you very soon!
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Subject: Re:
Sent: Mon, Nov 19, 2012 11:29:20 PM
When are you thinking
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Monday, November 19, 2012 5:59 PM
Subject: Re:
I have time on fri or sat?
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Subject: Re:
Sent: Tue, Nov 20, 2012 12:58:31 AM
what time fri do you have
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Tuesday, November 20, 2012 7:37 AM
Subject: Re:
I have 11 or 3 on fri
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Subject: Re:
Sent: Wed, Nov 21, 2012 12:20:39 AM
it would have to be after 6 fri i have family
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Wednesday, November 21, 2012 6:22 AM
6:30 At the cabin in the woods- my first spot.
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Fri, Nov 23, 2012 1:24:08 PM
Hi mistress are family is stay here tell sat night so i not going get away i have time after 4pm next week
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Saturday, November 24, 2012 3:35 PM
Subject: Re:
I can see you on mon or tues at 5? I am so ready!!!
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Tue, Nov 27, 2012 12:10:29 AM
Subject: Re:
I cant do that time is has to be later
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Monday, November 26, 2012 10:57 PM
Subject: Re:
I can do 6 for tomorrow.
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Tuesday, November 27, 2012 8:32 PM
Subject: Re:
So I can see you thurs at 8?
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Wed, Nov 28, 2012 12:59:32 AM
Subject: Re:
I get off 6to7 so its got to be after then i cant take time off from jobs
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Thu, Nov 29, 2012 8:03:32 PM
Subject: Re:
Hey text me after 6 and i see if i can get free
From: Mistress Marilyn
To: Tree Trimmer
Sent: Tuesday, February 5, 2013 6:49 PM
Subject: Re:
I am moving in a week. Bye
From: Tree Trimmer
To: Mistress Marilyn
Sent: Tuesday, February 5, 2013 10:45 PM
Subject: Re:
Sorry to hear that where too.I had a great time sorry we didnt meet more my business just too off no time.I hope thing are good for you take care
He had a mistress before and I knew he had been in the lifestyle for a long time. I was nervous because he was experienced. He showed up for the first time with a brown paper bag with my gift in it. He was around six foot something in his mid-40’s and he was in great shape with a full head of hair. I greeted him and gave him a hug and we bull shitted as we walked to the dungeon.
Tree Trimmer was married with children, so part of me felt bad, knowing he had a wife that he went home to. I also wished that my clients could share the part that they bare to me, with the person they love. Anyways he was on all fours like a dog. I grabbed my favorite whip, with all the long leather strips, running it all over his body. Every now and then, he would let out a deep moan, signaling he was pleased. Pleasure turned into pain, as I started to use the whip a little harder, on the meatier part of his ass. “Is this what you wanted?” I asked. “Yes, Mistress”, he replied. I spanked him 10 times, stopping occasionally to scratch his back, spanking him 10 more times then I pulled the back of his hair. He begged for me to stop. I reminded him, he was a bad boy, that he came to me, so he will be punished as I pleased, not how he wanted. Reaching for his balls, I grabbed them tightly. Laughing, I went and grabbed the brown bag that held my gift. I took the 8” tan skin colored dildo out of the bag, lubed it up, also paying attention to lube his hairy, firm ass as well and slowly put it in his ass. First, just the tip. You could tell it was giving him some discomfort. Pushing it in further, he started to moan deeply as he was enjoying the sensation of having this thick cock shoved up his ass. I decided to take it one step further, since he was lubed up pretty good to start with harder, deeper strokes. He grunted, as it was causing him pain. I knew his safe word would soon follow. “RED!” he screamed, not being able to bear the discomfort that I was giving him. I stopped right then. He asked if I was disappointed, and I reassured him that I wasn't. I pushed him further than what I ever had in our previous sessions. Tree Trimmer came back to visit me several more times and he did cut down two large trees, also trimming several very old large trees that were close to my house. I had a lot of fun with Tree Trimmer. He was the only one that I broke my no sexual contact rule with. We were in the heat of the moment, with him lying on his back. John had been out of my life for a while, and I was lonely and horny. In a moment of weakness on my part, I sat on his face and told him to lick it. And, boy did he! His tongue dove into my tight wet pussy, deep, like he was fucking me with a small dildo. Tongue swirling over my clit, which caused my legs to twitch. I reached down, to put my hands in his hair. Riding his face, felt so good! His arms were laced into my thighs, as he pulled my juicy, wet cunt into his face. Pussy juice was running down his face, as he licked and swirled over my clit like a mad man. I leaned forward to give him better access, which also gave him some wiggle room to slip two fingers into my hot cunt. Him finger fucking me, brought me over the edge. I let out a scream, pounding the floor in release. My legs were like jello and I couldn’t hold myself up. I was a little light headed, he was very talented with his tongue and mouth. I couldn’t believe I actually did it, but it felt so good. I guess, I need release every now and then as well. Just like my clients. I had a weak moment for the first and only one time, I did anything sexual with any of my slaves. He was the lucky one as was I, because he did know how to please me very well orally. Thank you, Tree Trimmer, you know who you are!
Chapter 15
Ending
I want to emphasize the importance of self-love. You must get to know yourself, and learn to love yourself. In order to love who you are you must develop self-awareness and also self-acceptance that’s self-love. From experimenting with our own sexuality we can become empowered and enlightened. We can meet and embrace our higher self. We are all sexual beings first and knowing that is freedom. Come out of the closet and embrace who you are. There must always be a dominate and a submissive in the bedroom. Some people are a switch, which is someone who can be both. People often misuse their power. This book is about people becoming empowered by their own bodies, knowing their own sexual being. Being able to explore one’s sexual self is very important. We can choose to live life, have an open mind and choose to dance or choose not to dance and live in a little square box with a closed mind. But if you choose to live in that little square box, your partner probably doesn’t, and is afraid to communicate with you about their fantasies. Most every one of my clients, were in a relationship or married. I wish all people could enjoy and experience all things with their partner. Who wants to have to have a hidden life, from their partner? Just be honest about your desires, wants, and needs with each other. Power should never be misused because karma is a bitch and it’s alive and well. The most powerful thing is love, that’s what we were born to do. I was empowered by my experience, but I also empowered other people. I sought my own power without John or any man, found it and embraced it. So having a secret life isn’t easy, but I am happy to experience and enjoy occasional play time in my personal life. Who doesn’t enjoy a little spice in their life? I don’t want, or need to play all the time. It’s very important to moderate all aspects of yourself, never over indulge, keep it all in balance. I am in touch with my sexuality. Sex swings, dressing up and role playing are fun. Having sex outdoors, in the car or anywhere you can get away with it is worth it! Who wants to just have sex in the same four walls, in the same bed all the time? I still have boundaries. There is a time and place for everything. I went from one extreme to the other, From Henry to John. Is there not an in between? It’s crazy how opposite my exes are from each other. A lot was learned from John and my relationship with him. I always want to please my partner in every way, which we all should, but without compromising your own judgments and morals. There are things you can live with, and things you can’t live with. Trust is the most important thing to me in any relationship of any kind. Trust is one of the biggest things, I learned from John and what I walked away with. If you don't have trust, you don't have anything. Why live life unhappy? Life is too short, to fight or be unhappy. Always open up to your partner and be honest. Radical honestly brings to light all issues and then solutions can be made, wounds can be healed. If those relationships don’t honor you after you have opened up you need to let them go with love, respect other peoples boundaries. We all see things from a different perspective but you should always honor others. We are all far from perfect. Exploring the hidden desires itself, can bring sacredness. This is not a sin, your sexuality should not be hidden. America is so sexually oppressed usually because of religion. We were not kicked out of the garden and we are not born with sin, we are manifest beauty. Through love we can create
heaven on earth for ourselves and others. I understand that we can't be happy one hundred percent, all the time. We all have problems of different sorts. Some of us have family, drugs, alcohol, kids, financial, sex, religion, career, or relationship problems. I am here to tell you, as long as you can have a positive attitude and truly love life and yourself, this is a recipe for a happier life. With that said, I wanted to share that I practiced as a professional dominatrix, for over a year and a half not purely for pleasure, but for survival too. Since the writing of this book, I have retired. It was important to me to write this book to enlighten, help open minds, educate, but most importantly heal myself and others. Join me, in coming out of the closet together. Whether it is finally opening up to your love, in sharing what you need or want, or if you a secret freak like myself. It has been an amazing journey for me. I hope your experience in coming out of the closet, goes just as well as mine! And remember, the only reason it is taboo, is because you think it is!
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